Chapter 36 - Blue

A/N Warning: This chapter contains mature themes & themes of intimacy.

Sadé's POV:

— Thursday, October 13th, Milan

I woke up this morning feeling like crap. I felt so bad for not hearing Marshall out and understanding where he was coming from. I texted him last night, apologizing, and he only sent two texts before going ghost. How's he going to get mad at me for ignoring him then go and do the same exact thing? Isn't that like hypocritical? Whatever. I told him that I was still going to be there for his birthday and that we'd talk when I land in Detroit. So I'll see him when I see him, and talk to him when I talk to him.

I'm not going to stress about it right now because I have work to do. Still, I had two more days left of fashion week, but today would be the last day of me attending as a model, and tomorrow would be the last red carpet, where I would attended to watch the show with the audience.

I was in my dressing room, hyping myself up in the mirror. They had finished my hair and makeup earlier than expected so I was giving myself words of encouragement as today would be my last catwalk. I was so pumped. Once I finished changing into my outfit for the day, I invited some of the girls I had started to become friends with over the last few days into my dressing room, we blasted some songs from my playlist, feeling ourselves, having a good time. Just to name a few, we listened to:

Area Codes | KaliRed Ruby Da Sleeze | Nicki Minaj222 | Maiya The DonLong Way Home | 5 Seconds Of SummerPrivate Landing | Don Toliver, Justin Bieber, Future Lose Yourself | EminemFramed | EminemIn Ha Mood | Ice SpiceAlien Superstar | Beyonce

We received a knock at the door from the director of the show, telling us we had to line up in order backstage as we wait for our turn. I walked to the corridor, waiting until it was show time. Today I would be wearing this pretty blue jumpsuit that was made of silk with black heels that has blue & brown fluff on the tops. I wore a matching blue silk hat, a blue purse, and jewelry to compliment. My hair was straight, and makeup was a natural glam with darker cheeks to give my face that hollow effect. The outfit were all pieces from Fendi. Once again, the model that had previously finished walking came to the back, meaning I was up next so I went out there and did my thing.

Marshall's POV:

— Earlier That Same Day

I hopped off the jet with my security and got into the passenger seat as one of them drove to The Armani Hotel. I felt like I couldn't get here fast enough. I didn't have a plan when I took off yesterday, but sitting on a damn plane for 16 hours straight definitely gave me plenty of time to think. I decided that as soon as I landed I would go to the hotel room Paul booked me, take a nice shower, change my clothes, then head to the fashion show. Now, I wasn't tryna be seen by the public for obvious reasons so I had Paul contact some people who ran it and would go in through the back. It was already 5 in the afternoon here, and I had no clue if she had already gone on or was about to. If she had gone on, I had no idea what time she's be back at the hotel or would be willing to even talk to me if I didn't just pop up on her. So that's what I was gonna do.

As soon as I pulled up to the hotel, I got my room key, rushed up to the room, and sat my luggage down. I told the security to just wait for me outside since I wouldn't be long. I stripped myself of my clothes, freshened up, and took a quick shower, changing into a pair of black jeans, and a black shirt. It was chilly outside so I pulled over a black YSL Saint Laurent hoodie along with my typical black kangol hat. I then threw on a pair of Jordans and got back into the car, making my way to the venue.

I didn't bother putting on any jewelry because I just wanted to make it there in time. Even though Sadé and I weren't exactly on the best of terms right now, I was still going to support her. Even though she wasn't telling me anything about how her week was going, I was able to find out through social media since she's been trending and posting like crazy recently, and also because Hailie would show me occasionally. So I did try to get to the fashion show as fast as possible to be able to see her walk because I wouldn't want to miss that. This is big deal for her despite her doing it multiple times in the previous years.

As soon as I arrived, security pulled up to the back of the building that was practically vacant. I was escorted inside by some people who ran the event and directed to Sadé's dressing room. Apparently, she had literally started walking a few seconds ago so I had made it just in time to be able to watch from the tv placed in her room as they recorded the show. She looked very alluring. She was wearing my favorite color, light blue, which made me appeal to her even more. I watched as her hips swayed as she walked, her little serious face, sending beautiful daggers to the crowd as they watched. Seeing her in work mode was attractive as hell, clearly. She reached the end of the runway, standing there momentarily to show off the outfit, before walking back to the very beginning.

Once she slipped behind the panels, I knew there was only about a minute or two before she'd enter her dressing room and see me standing here. And just like that, I was back to being pissed off at her for ignoring me, but I knew she was just being stubborn. I ain't wanna get too mad at her and knock her head off because I would never. I'd only treat her with the utmost respect always, and wouldn't want to trigger her or bring back memories of how her shitty ass ex-boyfriend made her feel because she deserves better than that and is a real lady. Plus, she'd probably do something if I ever even tried it with her. She may seem all nice and sweet, but I know she has a temper under there lurking. I've seen how she handled Skylar and how she's called me out on my shit before. I don't want any parts. However, I did want to assert my dominance and get some shit straight with her. Because her thinking I don't have feelings her wasn't cutting it for me. And we all know how I get once I start catching feelings for someone so I wasn't just about to let this shit go, yo. We needed to talk about this, asap. I wasn't about to have her out here thinking I don't want to be with her then end up with another dude. Any man would be lucky to have her and would want to snatch her up with the quickness. That's why I was so adamant about not wanting to wait until she got back to the states.

I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard the door open. There she was, as beautiful as ever. She hasn't noticed me yet as I starred her up and down. I'd probably look intimidating as hell to her.

She was talking to some other model for a little bit before she closed the door behind her. As soon as she saw me standing there in the flesh she gasped loudly, flinching from being scared shitless.

"MARSHALL? What are you doing here?!" She shrieked.

"Hey to you too. First off, you looked great, and I'm proud of you. Second, we need to talk. Now." I started off friendly then ended my sentence in a stern tone.

"Thanks... But I thought I told you we would talk about it when I got back?" She asked with confusion written all over her face.

She was obviously still trying to process the fact that I was still here.

"Yea you did. But since we're on the topic of not following directions, didn't I tell you not to make me fly out here, Sae?" I stated inquisitively.

I wasn't really a question. More of a statement. She was silent for a moment before she spoke.

"What do you want to talk about?" She rolled her eyes, still standing where she was at.

"You know what. About what happened and about how we both really feel." I sighed.

"How we both really feel? Love, I have feelings for you and you don't. That's it. If you still want to talk about whatever is going on between us, I'd rather not do it here around a bunch of women who probably thirst over you."

This girl really doesn't get it does she? Her stubbornness is driving me through the roof. I want to scream at her that I do have feelings for her, but I know that's not the right way to go about things. Especially with her. And was that jealousy I just heard? Was she jealous? I have never seen her be that way before honestly. I pinched the bridge of my nose, shutting my eyes to compose myself. The way she looked in that damn blue jumpsuit, her chest almost exposed to me right now, and her little attitude that she got going on was making me feel things. It was not the time and definitely not the place for anything to go down between us. I needed to focus on the matter at hand and not about all the things I wanna do to her to make her realize that she's the only one I want.

"Ight, bet. Let's go back to the hotel then." I say dominantly as I watch her start grabbing her things.

Once she's done, I grab her hand, walking us both out the room to the car that was waiting on us out back that I had texted for while she was getting ready to leave. Her security were following us to the car, but I dismissed them for the rest of the day since I had mines with me, which would service the both of us. I opened the door for her, waiting for her to climb in the backseat before slipping in next to her. The car ride was silent the entire way there. She brought us back to her hotel room instead of mines. As soon as we entered and got comfortable on the couch, she started talking.

"I'm mad you didn't wait until I flew to Detroit to talk, but it's probably better to do it before so that it wouldn't be weird, I guess. I do appreciate your efforts and flying all the way out here just for me, by the way."

"Right. I flew all the way out here just for you. So stop thinking I don't have feelings for you, because I do. But right now, we need to talk about some other shit, like how you ignored me." 

"Seriously? I was just upset and needed space." She sighed looking down at the floor.

"I get that, but you could've told me how I made you feel, Sae. We promised on that. That if I ever made you feel less than or you felt disrespected in any way, shape, or form you would communicate that with me. And if this is going to work, imma need you to keep your end of the promise. Ignoring the situation isn't going to fix anything. And since we're on the topic, I know I made you feel like I was dismissing your feelings, but I wasn't in actuality. I would never. Look at me when I say this, Sae." She shifted her gaze from the ground to my face, meeting my gaze, "I would never treat you the way he did. Ever. I just wanted you to be able to express your feelings to me to its fullest extent where you completely understand the words that are being said and feelings that are being felt. Okay?"

"Okay. And I'm sorry for getting mad at you for that. I didn't have a right to- "

"Aht Aht. No. You did have a right to your feelings. All of your feelings are valid no matter what. Your emotions are your emotions, and yours only. Now weather or not you were right or wrong in the situation is a whole 'nother thing." I interrup her not wanting her to blame herself or feel like her emotions were invalid.

Her ex did a whole lot of that shit to her - the gaslighting and manipulating her into thinking that her feelings were wrong or that she couldn't say shit - and I wasn't about to allow her to tear herself apart like that right in front me. Nah.

"Well I'm sorry for not understanding your point of view. I do know now that you were only trying to have a real conversation about it like adults, and I'm sorry. I'm also sorry for the fact that I didn't understand that you had my best interest in mind at the time because I was drunk and using that to cope with the hate I'd been receiving. It's not healthy and I shouldn't do it so I'm not going to anymore." She apologized.

"Thank you for your apology. And I'm glad to hear that you aren't abusing your freedom to substances and partying anymore. I was trying to look out for you when I said those things because I don't want you going down the wrong path like I did. I've been there. It's really easy to get there. One day you'll say it's just one time to ease the stress, then you keep using that as an excuse, then it becomes a habit. And once it's a habit it can become a serious problem or addiction. I don't want that for you. I know you've been going through it lately, but there are healthier ways to deal. You enjoy cooking, baking, fashion, reading, self care, and creating content. Do those things instead. Hell, I'll even give you my credit card for some retail therapy if you really want me to. Just don't find yourself falling to that pattern. You done worked your ass off too damn hard to get to where you're at just for it all to go down the drain. Ight, pretty girl?" I rubbed her blue covered thigh comfortingly as I spoke to her soft yet firmly, really wanting her to take in my words fully.

"Alright." She said timidly.

"Now that that's out the way, let's address the elephant in the room, yo. Word on the street, you don't think I have real feelings for you." I deadpanned.

I don't know why I was so upset about that. It just wasn't sitting right with me. Not right in my spirits as these youngsters like to say these days. Because I'm reality, I wanted to make her mines. I just didn't want to rush her or make her feel uncomfortable; I was being patient.

"Becauseeee!" She huffed out.

"Because what?" I raised my eyebrows, waiting for her to continue.

"Because I don't know. I'm just scared to know I guess. Like what if you don't feel the same? That'd be so embarrassing. What if I was the only one that caught feelings this whole time? We agreed that we would take things slow with no labels and that this would just be for a good time. We said it would be nothing more because we both weren't ready for relationshi-" she rambled on.

I listened to her ramble before eventually just shutting her up and shutting all that shit down myself. I roughly snatched her up by her jaw, pressing a kiss firmly onto her lips. She hesitated at first then kissed me back. I slipped my tongue into her mouth, deepening the kiss. It was so passionate I could practically feel the sparks. And I knew that she felt it too because I felt her smile slightly into it. I grabbed her by the waist, sitting her on top of me. I wrapped both my arms around her, crossing them as I rested them on her hips basically locking her into me. I kissed her a little bit more, before I broke it up. We needed to finish talking about this first before it gets too intense.

"You can't tell me I don't got feelings for you after that. Now tell me your feelings then I'll tell you mines." I gave her a quick peck on the lips.

She started smiling, showing her cute dimples as she cheesed. I love how she's so shy. I think it's adorable. She took a deep breathe before she started expressing herself.

"Well, I have genuine feelings for you. I really do like you, Marshall. I know I wasn't ready for a relationship at first, but then something happened. Like it just clicked and all fell into place for me. We kept talking and seeing each other, and it was bound to happen I suppose, which I'm not particularly mad at. Not at all. Umm, I tried to get rid of them and ignore it and just push them away, but I couldn't. Like you make me feel something different. Something I didn't think was possible anymore. It's fun, and refreshing, and healthy and real. You don't judge me for who I am or treat me badly. You're sweet, kind, funny, and charming. It's not just physical for me, although your voice, those eyes...mhmm those tattoos & beard, and your fine self. It's not just attraction for me though, it's the way you think, how your brain works, your intellect, bravery, all of it. It's all of you for me, and I just don't want it to end. I feel like I can never get enough of you and I want to be with you." She said admitted.

Damn. I ain't even know she felt this deeply about me, forreal. My heart rate sped up, knowing that this is where she wants to be: With me.

"I want to be with you too, Sae. I have been for some time now. You make me happy. Happier than I've ever been in a while. You make me laugh and smile and god knows I don't do that shit often, but when I'm with you, Sae, I can't help myself. You're a good woman. You respect yourself, carry yourself with grace & dignity, and have so much love for those around you. I like that about you, and I don't want to give you up to no other man. I'd be a fool to do that. You're smart, and funny, and caring, gorgeous as fuck, and are so full of positive energy. And I won't lie, you be doing some things to me, girl, and I'm not just talking about that freaky shit. I mean heartfelt shit. You be pulling on my heart strings, girl. You have me wrapped around your finger and I'd do anything for you. I'm ready to take things to the next level whenever you are. So if that's what you're telling me right now, then that's what it'll be. Just give me some time to ask you properly like the real lady you are. Think you can handle that, baby?" I asked, looking into her brown eyes.

She nodded her head smiling. I'm so glad we had that talk. I kissed her lips once again, passionately. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else right now than here with her. Not too much longer, and it gotten heated. She wrapped her arms around my neck as I began kissing down her jawline. She grounded her hips into my crotch, causing my breath to hitch. I could feel my hard on practically poking her despite the fabric being in our way.

I've been trying to tame myself all day since I saw her step foot on that stage. Seeing her in my favorite color did something to me, man. And it complimented her pretty chocolate skin well too? And now she's literally sat here on top of me, her boobs practically exposed to me fully in my face because of how the outfit was styled, and she was grinding her hips and pussy against my dick? It took everything in me not to stick my dick so far up her despite me wanting to so badly.

I unzipped the jumpsuit the rest of the way, slipping it off her top half. I caressed both of her boobs, as I took the nipple of one in my mouth, causing her gasp in pleasure. I swirled my tongue and sucked throughly before doing the same to the other. She was moaning as she moved her hips against mines, begging for more.

Once I was done with my attack on her chest, I lifted her slightly to pull the bottom half of her jumpsuit off completely, leaving her in only her panties since she had taken her heels, hat and other accessories off at the door. She unbuckled my belt, pulling my pants and boxers down to my knees as I was admiring her body. My dick sprang free immediately. She sat back down, literally sitting on my dick, her panties the only thing not allowing it to make skin to skin contact. We'd never gone this far before. Our bottom halves had never rubbed against each other unless it was how she was just sitting on top of me earlier fully clothed. I looked her in the eyes, seeing if there was any indication of her being uncomfortable, which there was not. I could feel her wetness pooling around in her underwear. That was enough for me to get to business.

I stood up, walking us to the bedroom as she directed me where to go. I placed her on the bed, taking all my clothes off before reaching over to pull her panties to the ground. I laid down on the bed then grabbed her with one arm by her waist pulling her close to me. I grabbed her face kissing her roughly as she took me in her hands pumping me slowly. I pulled back, letting the lust take over me fully. I grabbed her jaw, forcing her to look at me. I wanted to reach her a small lesson.

"I know we talked everything all out, baby, but I still want to teach you a little lesson. Since you wanted to give me attitude these past few days, 69." I huskily told her, "You cool with that?"

"Yes." She nodded her head.

"Good. Now here's how it's going to work. I'm going to eat you out while you suck my dick. Every time you stop sucking to moan, whine out, or for any reason, I stop too. And you're not coming until I say so. Got it, baby?"

"Mhmm. I got it, baby."

I didn't respond. Instead, I positioned her on top of me for 69; Her legs spread wide on either side of my chest, giving me the perfect view of her phat ass and pretty pussy. She got comfortable before she began to go down on me. As soon as she wrapped her lips around my manhood, I threw my head back, closing my eyes momentarily to compose myself. I didn't let it get to me for too long though because I needed to deliver her pleasure as well. She began bobbing her head up and down, pumping what could fit in her mouth. I put her ankles over my shoulder as I gripped her hips. I spit on her pussy before going straight in. I ain't have no time for games or foreplay right now and neither did she.

I swirled my tongue around mixing her juices with my saliva. Almost like clock work, she began moaning around my dick, sending me vibrations. But she stopped. So unfortunately for her, I stopped too.

"Come on, baby girl. We just started." I cooed, squeezing her right as cheek tightly, "Keep going. I'll give you another chance."

She took me back into her mouth, sucking and swirling her tongue as saliva dribbled out. I continued to lick up and down her folds, humming as I did so. I flicked my tongue on her clit at a slow but steady pace. I keep up what I was doing for a while until I felt her legs start to shake. I knew she was close.

Her giving me head right now felt incredible. The last time we actually were intimate was a while ago due to our busy schedules. I began groaning into her wet pussy as I was being filled with pleasure. The feeling caused her to let out a loud moan, which meant she stopped again. She gasped, realizing the mistake she had made.

"That's your second time, Sae. Third strike and you're out." I said sternly.

"Sorry." She said submissively like the good girl she is.

I patted her ass gently, signaling for her to start again. I went back down on her, putting in work as did she. Not even a 30 seconds later she stopped again.

"Wasn't the rule to not stop, baby? What's going on?" I teased as I rubbed up on her.

"I'm sorry! I can't help it. It just feels so good." She cried out.

"That's not an excuse. You don't stop. Now you can't finish." I told her, my voice hoarse.

"No, please. It won't happen again. I swear." She begged.

She was saying all of this while still pumping me, her nails grazing my skin.

"I'll tell you what. How about you keep sucking me off, and I'll think about it? Ight, baby?"

"Alright." She complied, taking me back into her mouth.

I moved my hands from her ass and tangled them in her hair, pushing her head down further on my manhood. She started gagging, as she began to deep throat me.

"Shit, baby." I grunted loudly, "Just like that for me." I encouraged her as he quickly bobbled her head up and down.

I bucked my hips, meeting her mouth. I wasn't about to last much longer, but needed her to finish first or at least at the same time as me. So I placed my mouth back to her sweet pussy, sucking harshly, purposefully making sure my beard hairs grazed the skin of her thighs, knowing this drives her fucking crazy. And as I knew would happen, her legs started to shake, practically begging to go weak.

"Come for me when you're ready, Sae, baby." I told her sweetly.

I felt my own high approaching so I picked up the pace of my tongue, bringing her ass down fully on my face, pushing my tongue inside her deeper. She began moaning uncontrollably as she guzzled me down. Then she let go. All her sweet juices mixed with my saliva dribbling down my face, causing me to bust into her mouth. I lapped up all her cum, not missing a single drop. She helped me ride out my high as she swallowed my seed, sucking gently on my balls. My eyes rolled to the back of my head in pure bliss.

After we caught our breath, she got off from on top of me, climbing next to me on the bed. Her eyes were hooded, and she had a satisfied expression plastered in her face. I kissed her lips a lot more softly than I had earlier.

"You tired?"

"Mhmm." She said resting her eyes.

"Go to sleep. I know you got a long day ahead of you tomorrow. I'll see you tomorrow okay?" I said.

I got up to put my clothes back on since I had a different hotel room where all my belongings were. Her eyes opened back up, and she pouted at me.

"You're leaving?" She asked so quietly I almost didn't catch it.

"Do you want me to stay with you tonight?"

"Can you stay with me the whole rest of the trip?" She looked up at me through her lashes.

I couldn't tell her no whenever she looked at me like that. She had me bent, and didn't even know it.

"Okay. Let me just grab my stuff real quick, and I'll be back." I gave her a warm smile before I finished putting my clothes back on and left out the room.

I left her suite, going back to mines to get my luggage that I had dropped off here earlier during the day. I texted my security to let them know that I would no long be staying in that room, but with Sae in hers instead. I then went to reception, returned the key card, and made my way back to Sadé. I entered the suite, leaving my things at the door for the time being. When I went back into the bedroom, I noticed she was fast asleep snuggled up in the blankets still fully naked.

I internally smiled to myself, knowing that tomorrow, I'd plan a date for us and officially make her my girlfriend. I took my clothes off, keeping my boxers on and slipped under the covers with her. I laid on my side, draping my arm over her body. She snuggled her face into the crook of my neck, looking as peaceful as ever. I closed my eyes falling asleep with her.