Pill

The past year I've been building my empire and healing myself, but I ruined it all in less than a week.

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I got up from my bed wiping the tears from my cheeks before walking out to the kitchen. I sniffled as I reached for a cup from the top cupboard. I knocked the glass and it smashed onto the floor. I looked down my eyes immediately filling up with tears at the shattered glass. I tried to hold my tears in, but it was no use. I cried as I bent down to pick it up. I made a pile of the glass before picking up a handful as blood dripped onto the marble floors. I threw it into the trash before bending down to pick up another handful when I heard footsteps.

"Hey what's wrong?" I heard Tom say as he stood over me. I sniffled before standing up.

"Nothing" I smiled before turning away. He grabbed my upper arm, and I turned around.

I felt my eyes tear up again before I couldn't help but fall into his arms. His warm presence consumed me as I sobbed. I didn't know exactly why I was crying. I had many reasons, but I think it was because I had ruined everything I had been fighting for. 

"Ash?" he said soft before pulling me off of him.

"Nothing" I said giving him a smile.

Tom clenched his jaw before looking away then back to me. I looked up at his face memories and thoughts flowing through my mind. I snapped out of daze when I heard a door open. I turned my head and watched as Bill and Bree walked inside looking confused. I wiped my cheeks once again before looking at my hand. I had smeared blood over my face. I looked away before bending down once again and wiping my face with my shirt and gathering the last bits of glass. I stood up slowly and threw the pieces in the trash before walking closer to Bree. I turned to Tom as he looked at me confused I turned back giving a Bree a smile.

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Bill grabbed my arm and dragged me away from the table we were all sat at. I gave him a look before we stopped and he sighed.

"What?" I huffed.

"We're going out tonight" Bill said softly.

"Where?" I asked.

"It's a surprise because you're coming" he smiled.

"I'm not coming if I don't know where I'm going" I laughed.

"A nightclub" he grinned.

"Okay" I shrugged. "I'll go get ready" I added.

"Okay were leaving in an hour" he said as I walked away.

I walked into the bathroom with a sigh. I really didn't have the energy to go out but at least it would distract me from my life that was spiralling rapidly. I picked up my straightener and softly curled my new hair. I put the straightener down before playing with my hair. I tried to force a smile before grabbing my makeup. I did my base before picking up my eyeshadow pallet wondering what to do. I decided I would do a dark smokey eye look which I use to love to do.

I finished my makeup before walking closer to my suitcase. I had nothing packed for going to a nightclub. I sighed before walking out of my room and knocking on Bree and Bills room. Bree opened the door smiling.

"I have nothing to wear" I sighed before she grabbed my wrist and pulled me through the doorway.

"Sit there" she said directing me to the bed.

I sat down looking around in a daze before Lauren came out of the bathroom and held a bottle of vodka Infront of me. I smiled before grabbing it and mouthing 'thank you'.  I began to drink it as I waited for Bree.

"Try that on" Bree said as she through a dress onto my lap.

"Okay" I smiled before standing up.

I stepped into it before wriggling it up. I pulled on the straps and looked down. I knocked on the bathroom door before walking in so I could see in the mirror. I looked in the mirror smiling it was really tight around my chest, but it looked amazing. It was black and had small mesh cut outs around the waist. I turned from left to right admiring the dress.

"Oh my god you look so hot" Lauren moaned.

"Real" Bree squealed grabbing my hand a twirling me around.

"Shut up you both look fine as hell" I laughed looking at them up and down.

Bree had a short blue dress on that had small lace details around the top and bottom of the dress and Lauren had a red corset on and a mini skirt which was black. I smiled before walking out of the bathroom and grabbing the bottle of alcohol and drinking the rest of the bottle.

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"Hurry up Bill" Bree moaned as we sat around the bench finishing our drinks. "He always takes longer than me to get ready" Bree rolled her eyes as me and Lauren laughed.

"Coming" Bill said rushing out of his room. "We're leaving" Bill shouted before the boys came out of their rooms.

"Finally," Bree laughed before walking over to him.

Tom's POV

I shut the door behind me as I walked down the hallway and closer to the kitchen. I scanned the room before my eyes fell on Ashley. I felt my heart jump a beat as I stared at her. I watched as she stood up and walked over to the door. I wanted to know what happened before and why she was crying. I know I shouldn't care, but I did. I snapped out of my trance when Zara grabbed onto my arm. I shook her off with a groan.

"Tom" she winced stomping her feet. "It was a mistake" she added.

"Fuck off Zara your lucky you're not dead" I said harsh as I took a few steps towards her.

She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms and began to stomp closer to the door. I clenched my jaw before following her out. I unlocked my car and got into the driver's seat before Zara tried to open the door. I shook my head and she pouted at me. I couldn't help but laugh before driving away.

I parked next to Bill car as we all got out and walked into the club. I followed behind them as we walked up to the bar. I scanned the place not noticing anything suspicious which meant it would be an easy night. We stood around the bar having a few drink before we all separated.

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Ashley's POV

My vison was blurry as I danced in the middle of the dance floor. I smiled and raised my arms as I sung to the music. My body was being tossed around as everyone jumped and shoved eachother. I was pushed hard into a man before he caught me with a smile. I looked up smiling at his dark blue eyes. I lifted my hand and played with his brown hair that fell Infront of his face before leaning in. I kissed him and pulled away with a grin. He held out his hand and lying in his palm was a small white pill. Without thinking I picked it up I through it into my mouth.

The man wrapped his arms around my waist as we danced. I had no trace of thought as I stared up into the bright flashing lights shining out the crowd from the roof. I continued dancing as I felt my body become a weak. My movements were becoming slower and slower as I tried to continue dancing. I turned around to the guy and smiled.

"Do you want a drink?" I slurred out loosing balance.

"No let's keep dancing" he grinned as his grip getting tighter around my waist.

"Let's get a drink" I barely got out.

"No let's stay" he said aggressive.

"Please" I pouted.

"Okay you lead the way" he said grabbing my hand.

"Okay" I groaned under my breath.

I fell into the bench and looked at the bartender.

"Two shots of Malibu please" I smiled as I raised two fingers.

The bartender placed two shot glasses on the table, and I grabbed mine raising it to my lips. I put the glass on the table as I looked to the man. He nodded to the drink before I smiled and shot back his. I looked around trying to find Bree, Lauren or anyone for the matter but nobody was in sight.

"I need to find-" I started before he violently pulled my arm. "Hey!" I groaned as he pulled me closer to the corner.

"Be quiet" he whispered as he pulled me up. "I'm getting you help".

"From what?" I asked confused before looking behind me trying to get someone's attention.

I turned back around as he pushed open a door and dragged me inside as I tried to catch my balance. I tried to stand up before he started to drag me again. He stopped and pushed me forward into a room. I fell down and felt the room spin around me. I raised my head and tried to look around.

The man bent down next to me and picked me up. I looked at his face now that my vision wasn't blurred by the flashing lights. His face was hard, and his eyes were dark which gave me a horrible feeling in my stomach. I began to get irritated at his touch and tried to pry him off but I was too weak to do so. 

"Stop" I moaned.

"Shut the fuck up" he demanded as his grip grew tighter.

"Where are we?" I slurred out before he shoved me down.

I looked around noticing I was on a couch. I looked up before feeling even weaker. I tried to fight the weakness in my body. I tried to stand up. What was that pill?

The man looked down at me and laughed before taking a seat next to me. I tried to back away out of fear.

The man placed his hand on my thigh and his other hand around my cheek. He pulled my head closer to his and smashed his lips onto mine. I felt my tears start to well up as his hand squeezed my upper thigh.

"Stop" I said softly against his lips.

He traced his pointer finger up closer and under my skirt. Tears began to roll down my eyes as I tried to kick my weak legs. He grabbed my waist and layed me down on the couch. I looked around before noticing a tall figure in the corner of the room.

"Please" I cried to the man.

I furrowed my eyebrows as the man stayed still and watched as he lifted up my dress. His hands searched my body as before he traced over the underwear.

"Stop" I sobbed trying to kick my body around before he slapped my cheek hard.

He placed his hand under my underwear as he began to play with my folds as I cried out. I felt my legs and arms become parlayed. I couldn't move. He started becoming rougher before he stopped and took his hand away. I opened my eyes and looked down in relief before I saw him pulling his pants down. I continued to sob as he pulled down my underwear. I slammed my eyes shut and tried to forget everything that was happening. His groans rung in my ears as I stared up at the celling at the bright lights shining down. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have taken that pill. I shouldn't have been so stupid. I should have stayed with the girls or Tom or anyone.

He had finally stopped, and I sighed before crying out again. I looked around as the man got up and pulled his pants up before giving me a grin. I felt sickness in my stomach as turned my head slightly and through up all over the floor. I tried to build up everything within me to stand up to even move a limp but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't. I layed exposed as I stared back up at the roof before I heard footsteps. I looked towards the door in hope before the man from the corner came over and got on the couch.

I looked at him as he stared down and my exposed body. I couldn't help but let out a hard cry before slamming eyes eye shut hoping I could just blackout.