Chapter 2

Melanie's POV

When we got back to Wesley's car I got in first, and I just looked out the window again. I just felt depressed again. No emotion. Just depressed. Wesley continued to drive and I just sighed as he grabbed my hand, and held it as he looked at me and smiled slightly.

"Wesley, can I er.. stay with you for the night? I just need to be with somebody right now so I don't get trapped in my thoughts again." I spoke quietly, not wanting to sound vulnerable.

"Yeah, sure.." He said, and smiled his full smile and I immediately felt warm inside.

"Stop doing that."

"Doing what?" Wesley asked, obviously confused.

"Smiling. It's what makes your personality spark and you know it."

"Well I can't help it. You make me smile." He spoke, and I felt my heart melt. I don't want to feel this way. Not right now. I'm not ready to feel this way with another person like I did with Jace. I can't. At least not for now.

I turned my head before he could see my cheeks turn red. I leaned my head against the window and just closed my eyes.

"Welcome to my place.." Wesley mumbled and I opened my eyes and saw a building of apartments. I grinned and got out of the car, walking behind Wesley as we walked upstairs to his apartment in the building.

As soon as we got in his apartment I looked at my surroundings. It was very cozy, just like him. Wesley grabbed my hand and led me to his room I'm guessing. He walked over to his dresser and got a shirt and some sweat pants.

"These are the only things I have that will fit you and not be too big. You can change in the bathroom right there." He said, handing me his clothes and pointing to the bathroom.

I smiled slightly and headed to the bathroom with his clothes. Once I got in there I shut the door. I began to change quickly. Once I finished, I walked out and set my clothes down, walking over and sitting next to Wesley on the bed.

"I'll sleep on the floor. You can sleep in my bed, I don't mind." He said, looking over at me and I began to shake my head.

"No... I-I want you to stay with me, in your bed.." I mumbled, immediately looking down at my lap as I felt my cheeks start to turn red.

He grinned at me and stood up to take his shirt off, and my jaw almost dropped but I caught myself. He was so fucking fit, can this boy just stop being so damn beautiful? Every new thing I find out about him is just mesmerizing. He takes his pants off as well and puts some sweatpants on. I get on the other side, and get under the covers and he does the same, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me closer to him.

"Wesley?"

"Yes, Melanie?

I look up at him and he pushes a strand of hair behind my ear and I give him a small smile, "Why are you being so nice to me? After all the shit I've said to you and after I've been so mean to you?"

He sighed, and looked off for a second before meeting my eyes again, "Because.. I don't know I just can see that you're gonna get out of this sadness. That you don't hate me, you just don't want me to replace Jace.. I know that if you ever happen to fall in love again, and I happen to be that person, that I will be here for you. I'll be here for you even if it's not me." He says, and I just smile and lean up to kiss his cheek.

"Goodnight Wesley." I say, before cuddling into his chest, and beginning to fall asleep.

"Goodnight, Melanie." He whispers, rubbing my back gently.

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Wesley's POV

As I laid there with my arms wrapped around Melanie, I couldn't believe it. I still don't understand how she all of a sudden decided to.. I don't know I guess.. trust me maybe? Drew kept reminding me over these past five months since the funeral that I need to be careful around her. That she's been fragile ever since Jace died and everyone doesn't know if she will ever get her strength back.

I stayed up thinking for most of the night, drifting in and out of sleep. When it was 7 am, I got up and went to go fix breakfast.

When I was done, I brought it too Melanie in my room, me having a protein shake. Just as I got in my room I saw her waking up, and I smiled.

"I cooked you breakfast." I said, and sat down next to her, handing the plate of food to her.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." I smile again, and take a sip of my drink.

We sat there and I watched her eat, but we just stayed quiet the whole time. It wasn't awkward though. As she finished, she sighed and got up, and went to go put her plate up I'm guessing.

"I should get going.." She said, as she came back into my room, looking down at the floor.

"Alright.." I said, kind of disappointed. I like her keeping me company. It was peaceful.

"I just, um, I need to go and get my college work done at home. I'm not ready to go back to the actual college yet so they're letting me do it at home." She said, and I walked over to her and grabbed her hand, bringing it up to my mouth and kissing it lightly. She jerked her hand back quickly and I felt my heart stop for a second, obviously knowing I did something that I shouldn't have by her reaction.

"Fuck, I'm sorry." I said, rubbing my hands over my face and I start pacing back and forth.

"Can you just please take me home?" She asks, and the tone of her voice almost made me break down right then and there. It was so vulnerable and I couldn't bear it.

"Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't even have taken you here.. I do one fucking thing and I get you upset." I mumble, shaking my head, and I grab my keys, walking past her and she follows, hesitating first. I sigh, and head to my car with her.

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Melanie's POV

I don't get why I freaked out on Wesley back at his apartment like I did. I think it's because Jace would always take my hand and kiss it. That was his thing everytime he would greet me. The memories were just too difficult for me right now.

As Wesley drove me back to my car that was still in the parking lot of the cafe, it was so awkward.. He wouldn't look at me at all and I don't know if he was mad at me or just was frustrated..? I don't know but I just couldn't wait to get out of this car.. but I needed to talk to him first.

As we parked, he looked down at his lap and didn't say a word.

"Look Wesley.. I'm trying. I'm trying so fucking hard to get out of this depression. It's not easy. I know you went through the same thing with your cousin but I'm not as strong as you.. I won't ever be and you should know that..." I say, looking at him but he still wouldn't look at me or say anything.

"I guess I'll go now.." I mumble, rolling my eyes as I reached for the door handle.

Just as I was about to open the door, Wesley grabbed my other hand and pulled me back down.

"Just.. I'm sorry for acting like an asshole but I just can't stand the fact that even I just do the most simple thing like fucking kiss your hand it makes you upset and I just can't fucking stand seeing you upset. Just let me take you on a date next week and we can start over, okay? Just as friends. Please." He literally begs at the end and I look down, not knowing what to say.

"Please, Melanie."

"F-fine. Just as friends." I say, and get out of the car, walking over to mine and getting in it, letting the tears fall down my cheeks immediately. I've been holding them in ever since he kissed my hand.

"Fuck.." I whisper, and I start wiping the tears off of my face quickly. I look over and see Wesley driving out of the parking lot and I start my car as I calm down and I drive out of the parking lot as well.

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"Drew.. Why don't you go hang out with your other friends or something? You don't have to hang out with me every day just because I'm depressed." I say, as we're sitting on the couch, watching t.v. It's the day after Wesley dropped me off by my car and I still can't believe I said yes to this "date" he has planning.

"Because. You're my best friend and I want to spend time with you." He says, ruffling my hair and I stick my tongue out at him and he laughs.

"So... How's thing's going with you and Wesley?" He asks, and I sigh, wishing he didn't ask about Wesley.

"Nothing really.. We hung out the past two days, and I was vulnerable around him. He asked me on a date.."

"What the fuck?! Why? I told him not to.." He begins to raise his voice at me.

"Why not? It's just as friends and why the hell did you tell him that, Drew? I've told you to stay out of my relationships other than me and you!" I begin to raise my voice as well, and I get up, pacing back and forth.

"Because I know how he is with girls and I don't want him to hang out with you. He could break you emotionally with out even realizing it and I don't want to see you go through that again." Drew said, and I sighed.

"It's not like he's ever gonna want to continue to date me. I'm nothing special... I'm gonna go take a nap, I'm tired. You can stay or leave if you want, I don't care." I say, and head towards my room.

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Tonight was the night that I go on my "date" with Wesley. I was so nervous yet kind of excited at the same time. It felt weird, and surprisingly I liked it.

I was just slipping on my shoes when I heard a knock on the door and my heart started racing a little. I went and opened it and there he stood with that huge smile of his that I just adored.

"Hey, you ready to go?"

"Yep." I say, and he grabs my hand but I pull it back. I hear him sigh as I follow him to the car and once we get in we're off to wherever we're going.

After a few minutes we pull up to a restaurant. We get out of the car and head into the place, being sat down at a table almost immediately.

"So.. How had your week been?" Wesley asks after we order our drinks.

"It's been alright. Very slow and boring, but alright. I haven't been out of the house at all..."

"Melanie, that's not good. You're going backwards when you should be going forwards. Am I the only thing that's going to get you out of that house?" He asks, and I roll my eyes.

"Wesley, why do you care honestly? It's really none of your business and I would appreciate it if we didn't talk about it for once."

"Fine.." He mumbles, and looks down at his menu and I do the same.

After we order our food I look around awkwardly and take a sip of my drink trying to make myself look distracted.

"So.. What are you studying in college?" He asks, and I am thankful that he decides to start a conversation.

"I'm studying in the medical field. I would love to be a nurse. I love the feeling of helping people and making sure they feel better, you know? It makes me feel good knowing that I helped someone and that I put a smile on their face." I say, smiling at the thought and he smiles back.

"That's amazing, Melanie. And yeah I know what you mean." He said, and I smiled wider.

"What are you studying?" I ask, and he sighs.

"Nothing really.. I never really was interested in school.. I made passing grades, I just didn't give a fuck about it. I still don't. It's a fucking waste of time." He said, and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Why? Don't you ever want to get a proper job? I don't know.. actually be able to support a family when you're older?" I ask, raising an eyebrow.

"Obviously, yes. I don't know, I might go to college. I just need a little while to get my head wrapped around a few things and maybe I'll get there soon. My mom won't stop nagging me about it."

"Well I don't blame her. If you need help to get back to school, I'll help you, just ask." I say, and laugh slightly at the irony of my words.

"Yeah, I know." He says, and continues to eat his food. I grin and eat mine as well.

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On the way back to my house, Wesley has the radio up and we don't talk pretty much the whole ride to my house. Once he pulls up in my driveway, and look over at him.

"Do you want to stay the night?" I ask, hesitating at first.

He seems surprised at first but quickly recovers, "yeah, if you want me too."

As we're walking into my house, I take off my shoes and I bring him into my room.

"I'll be right back." I smile, and walk into my bathroom, grabbing my pajamas on the way.

As I finish changing, I leave the bathroom and the first thing I see is the shirtless back of Wesley and I stop, and just stare. As he pulls his pants down, leaving him in just his boxers and I swear I'm drooling by now. I check and I'm not, thankfully. I cough, making my presence know and he turns around, biting his lip.

"I can go and get you a pair of my brothers sweatpants that he left here." I say, and go and get it quickly, tossing them to Wesley as I enter my room again, and he puts them on.

Once he's about to get in my bed, I pull him into a hug, and he wraps his arms around me tightly. I love his hugs so much, they make me feel like nothing ever happened, like Jace never died and that he's still here.

"Let's get to sleep," I say, and pull away from the hug and get under the covers. Wesley does the same and wraps his arms around me and I cuddle into his chest, as we both say goodnight to each other and then fall asleep.

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Hello(: Lol this chapter is really long but whatevs lmao. And thank you for 55 reads so far! That's amazing!(to me). lol hope you enjoy this chapter! I'll update again soon((: