07:DROWN

07: DROWN

***R O S É

Save him from what?

I was busy staring at my room's ceiling as I ponder on my thoughts about Chanyeol Oppa. I have been his fan eversince the very beginning, he has been my bias.

When I was just the simple, Park Chaeyoung.. I always imagine of meeting him as a fan. I'd ask for his autograph, ask for a picture as well to brag to my friends. I will see him smile and I would be awed by his handsome bright face that always shine on my eyes.

Never once did I thought of him asking me to save him.

Even when I decided to pursue my passion in music and debuted as an idol, I still knew and respect my limit as his fan.

It's like a dream come true that I have the chance to be so close to Chanyeol Oppa like what happened on the music studio with just the two of us alone.. him placing my finger on the right strings of the guitar with his warm big hand on top of mine, it gave such electricity on my nerves that I struggle to stay calm.

"Can you save me Rosé?"

His voice lingered on my head to the point that I even dreamt of him but I don't know if.. I could call it a dream because it is very different than the dreams that I have with Chanyeol Oppa before. What I saw in my dream somehow troubled me..

Chanyeol Oppa is drowning in the middle of a huge ocean and I struggle to hold his hand.. and because I wanted save him so bad, I gave him my life jacket..

and result of me being the one to drown instead.

I gasped for air as I woke up. I thought that was real. The feeling of the cold is etched on my skin. I must have been thinking too much of what Chanyeol Oppa has said to me.. from what should I save him from?

I wanted to know because how could I save him if I don't know how to, right?

***

It is another day to prepare and practice for our upcoming collaboration performance. I smile at the staffs who greeted me as I greeted them back.

"Look who's in a good mood this early in the morning!" Jihyo Unnie caught my attention and linked our arms together.

"Good morning Unnie!" I beamed at her.

And she gave me a teasing look in which I just ignored. What? I know what she's thinking but it's not like that. I am not in a good mood today just because I am looking forward to practicing with Chanyeol Oppa again.. though it can be one of the reason hehe.

"Looks like the giant is already here Chae~" Jihyo Unnie whispered on my ear.

"Unnie!"

I pouted as I followed her to enter the door to the huge music room. Sejun Oppa and Jesung Oppa stood up to greet us, I greeted them back with a smile on my face alongside Jihyo Unnie. We both turn to Chanyeol Oppa and greet him.

"Annyeong Oppa."

My smile loosened when he greeted us back. He didn't even lifted his eyes to look at me but he gave a brief glance to Jihyo Unnie's direction.

And because of that I became hesitant to sit next to him but I don't have any choice because Jihyo Unnie already took the other available chair.

I glance at Chanyeol Oppa, he is busy strumming his guitar. Why does the air around him seems different than yesterday?.. he seems somewhat distant.

Why?

For the past three hours of practicing, I couldn't even focus. I often steal glances on Chanyeol Oppa's direction every now and then but never once did he look at mine.

I heave a deep sigh.

"Rosé-ssi?" Sejun Oppa caught my attention. "Is everything alright?"

I blinked and everyone, even Chanyeol Oppa is now looking at me. My face heated out of embarrassment,  I combed the ends of my hair using my fingers as I tried to laugh off the awkwardness.

"N-Nothing.." I pouted and my eyes met Chanyeol Oppa's, he looked away.

I frowned because he is obviously avoiding me. The practice continues and all I could do is try to focus so I won't be a hindrance to everyone. But most of the time, my mind wonder on why is Chanyeol Oppa suddenly avoiding me?

I thought we are now friends.

He smiled. He laughed. And he teased me yesterday. So why is he being indifferent now?

Lunch break came and I had to talk to him.

I quickly inserted the coin on the vending machine and pressed for my favorite, the chocolate milk and that made Chanyeol Oppa to look at me.

"Rosé-ssi." Not Chipmunk. He is back to being formal?

I looked up at him and saw a casual emotion on his eyes. He is staring at my face as if waiting for me to get the chocolate milk and just leave.

"Chanyeol Oppa.." I called his name.

And silence after that.

As if he is waiting for what I was about to say. I bit my lower lip and lower my gaze on my foot. I don't know what to say.. I just wanted to ask him about his words yesterday and why he is being.. like this today?

"About saving--" I started but he cut me off.

"Forget about what I said yesterday Rosé-ssi." Chanyeol Oppa lightly chuckles, "it's just a slip of the tongue mistake."

I don't think it is though. Because the seriousness on his face while he ask me to save him from something that I cannot comprehend is still vivid on my mind.

Why did he ask me to save him in the first place if he would decide to take it back the next day?

***

"Something is odd." Jihyo Unnie said.

I don't know if she's talking to me or she's talking to herself but I just busied myself stuffing my mouth of my favorite meat! I needed this after a long day of work!

After an exhausting training, Jesung Oppa is treating us to a BBQ place near the YG building that made me happy~ a barbeque is what I need to forget about Chanyeol Oppa's indifference.

"You and Chanyeol Oppa is avoiding each other." Jihyo Unnie said.

"I'm not avoiding him." I answered.

Why would I avoid Chanyeol Oppa? He is the one avoiding me after he made me think of his words all night! He avoided me the next day!

I never knew that there would come a day that I would want to strangle his neck!

So what if he is my bias ever since I become an EXO-L?! Kyungsoo and Baekhyun are my bias wreckers!

..but even if I am mad, I knew for a fact that no one would ever take Chanyeol Oppa's place as my bias. Even my bias wreckers that gradually change every year.

"What's up with the two of you?" Jihyo Unnie raised a brow at me.

"Nothing." I shook my head.

Like a magnet, my eyes trailed of to Chanyeol Oppa's direction on the far end of our table. He is smiling while having a conversation with Jesung Oppa and Sejun Oppa, but the smile doesn't even reach his eyes.

I tilted my head as I continue to stare at him from afar.. why did I just realized it now? It seems like my eyes is glued on Chanyeol Oppa as I can't help but examined his every expression..

He smiled a lot. But those smile are fake.

It doesn't even really reach his eyes.

And his eyes twinkle most of the time.. but it's not of happiness but the other way around.

Chanyeol Oppa.. is a tall, handsome and successful man. He seem to have many friends around. One glance at him and you can say he is living such a great life.

But I guess what I need to do is to stare at him for a long time to know him better, not just glance.

"Yoda.." I whispered.

I know Chanyeol Oppa couldn't possibly hear me calling him but his eyes suddenly went to mine. I straightened my sitting position but I never looked away.

As I look at him now.. all I could see is a child. Lonely and sad.

Is that why he aske me to save him?

To save him from the dark pit of sadness?

Because I know now.. even if drowned, there's no doubt that I will save him without having the need to think twice.

***(A/N: The push and pull emotions of the character is quite hard to write~  (╥﹏╥) please vote if you like this chapter of this story, I would appreciate it if you could comment about your thoughts as well^^ I promise to interact! KOMAWOYOOO~~~~)