56- Love Triangle

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He was sure following through.

So was I.

Though I know in a way I still had eyes on me, Hetta was around more, not that I mind, or Imogen sitting closer to me in classes or at eating times. I knew Xaden still had his grip on me.

And I hated it. I hated that he still shows that he cares or whatever you want to call this but yet he won't admit it or just.... I don't know.

I only broke down once glancing at him when he was talking to Bohdi and Garrick. There he stood all high and mighty... his sleeves rolled just enough to see part of his rebellion relic, his muscles bulging, I saw him flex slightly making me just want to climb him...

I swear if our dragons are going to do it again when I told him these rules I might just jump off the Parapet headfirst... Where's Jack when I actually want to die?

After our final classes I decided to finally go see Liam. 

I walk myself to the infirmary wing, letting them know I was here just to visit. They lead me to the small room he was in, knocking on the door. " Come in." He says pleasantly, I nearly had to control myself from just pushing it open and go flying in.

I walk in slowly, Liam craning his head to see who it was. Once his eyes landed on me his smile grew immensely  " Hey pretty girl." He grins.

" Hi Mairi." I smile still holding myself back from jumping on him as I walked to the bed leanign down just enough to hug him tightly. I take in a deep breath letting my nerves calm " Your alright."

" I'm alright." He answers squeezing me just as tightly. 

I pull back still smiling, " Your lucky you pulled though and didn't die.. otherwise I'd come into the afterlife and rekill you myself."

This makes him chuckle, " You'd think I'd die? Someone needs to annoy the shit out of you."

" Well you'd be happy to know I've been missing your annoying shit."

He raises his brows, " Oh really?"

" Really." I grin, unable to do anything but smile. 

" Knew you were into it." He teases.

I roll my eyes, " Oh yes... You've caught me..." I look him over, seeing a few small scars, nothing major though.

" I'm alright. Barlowe couldn't kill me." He assures reaching and squeezing my hand. " Speaking of that miserable prick... I didn't know you were actually going to take your killing promise to him so seriously.."

He gives me a knowing smile. " Chaos huh?"

I shrug, " Ofcourse It'd need to be something so..."

" Like you? Yea, fits you well."

" How do you know?"

" Xaden, he's been here every day." He answers.

I pang of... anger spreads through me  " Is that so?"

Liam nods, hi expression narrowing just a little. " What's the deal now? I almost die and now you two went back to not standing eachother?" He teases,  " I knew something was up."

You have no idea.....

" Well... according to Xaden.. I knew you were gettign better just not up... or accepting visitors. You seemed basically healed."

" He's been coming for the past week..." He says a little quieter looking just as confused. " I asked why you weren't coming and..." He trailed off shaking his head. " Never mind."

I feel the heat rise in me, why didn't he tell me Liam was doing better...way better then I thought..why-

Right because he's a jealous asshole.

How can I forget he doesn't like Liam and I's realationship...friendship..

I needed to look away, looking at the dull walls. " Malek... sometimes I hate him..." I utter.

" Why are you two fighting now?" He asks a little softer yet, his hand running back and fourth on my wrist.

I glance at his hand then at his face again where his deep blue eyes just...stare into mine so.. innocently? Like a puppy...he has puppy eyes. A different kind of hypnotic gaze compared to Xaden's intense one. Both are just as deadly if I stare long enough...

I shake my head lightly, " Just... What don't we fight about? His caring compared to..yours per say.... He's just an ass.."

He hums. " Well, that's more of a response then what I got out of him all week asking about you."

" I don't understand him." I sigh. " He just has so many layers-"

" Like an onion..Yea. I told him that and he threatened to put his sword through Jacks." Liam answers so nonchalantly it makes me stop and laugh. " Did you actually?"

He nods, " Yea. I never saw him look so thrown off before."

This just makes the both of us laugh harder.  " Your stupid..." I chuckle.

" Yea...but it makes you laugh. It's my new favorite sound so I'll be as stupid, idiotic or dull as I can."

I stop laughing again just..looking.

He does the same, his soft smile makes my stomach...flutter..just like..

" I missed this." I whisper.

Liam nods, " Yea me too.."

" You know... Sometimes I wish our dragons were bonded. We get along alot better."

" I think that's pretty obvious." He states. " I wouldn't mind being life tied to such a pretty lady like yourself. Not spending a day without you, still protecting you, relentless flirting... Maybe you'd finally take me up on my offers and we'd live happily ever after..."

This makes me snort. " You think?"

He nods, " Of Freya Sorrengail I know."

I hum couldn't help smiling at him, " I hate you." 

 " Hate?"

I nod.

He blows out air eyeing me giving a small laugh, " Oh, I'm sure you do. Really. That's why you fought Jack, saving me, Killing him. That's why your here right now, or why you haven't stopped smiling since you've been in here. I do notice those things you know."

He shifts sitting more upright, " Hate is a strong word. Maybe you should say.... like instead."

I sigh, " Fine...  I like you Liam Mairi."

This makes him smile even more. " Now you finally admit it... Because... I really like you too."

The way he says it, the way he's looking at me right now... Only confirms my suspensions, though I think I already knew that.

I close my mouth just looking at him, looking at how...perfect he really is. Not just look wise... His personality. How forgiving he is, how he can like me... A Sorrengail. How he wanted to protect me, get to know me, defended me.

How I know no matter what. No matter what comes my way... He'll be there and he has.

I feel my hear rate increase as I look at him longer now fully immersed in those sea blue orbs making me want to get lost... willing to get lost in them. I see him look me over, glancing at my lips as his tongue skims his..

He's always made me feel..seen, liked, appreciated. And he's never been afraid of showing it, Liam... My relentless, stupid, funny, amazing bodyguard. Friend.

Have I been looking in the wrong place this whole time?

Xaden is...Xaden. I can't even describe what I feel for Xaden, sure I've felt... everything and more looking at Xaden but I've also questioned. When I think I'm getting somewhere it feels like I get pushed 10 steps back.

Sure he cares. But not how Liam cares.

They're day and night.

Without even knowing what I'm doing I lean in....

And normally I know I shouldn't..or you get the feeling that this is wrong but you do it anyways. I felt it with Dain...almost with Xaden...Not with Liam..

Not with Liam... Malek.. this feels so right....

He quickly meets me the rest of the way, his lips soft on mine like I'm going to break though it gets more and more intense my the second. Though he quickly pulls away, leaning his forehead on mine we look at eachother..

He sighs, pulling me back into him with more fever then before making our lips meet again with so much more passion if thats really possible, he cups my cheek his thumb moving back and fourth as he deepens our kiss.

That alone makes a warm feeling shoot through my entire body it was a kind of kiss that filled me with a kind of unquenchable desire wanting this moment to never stop, wanting to drown in this feeling  again and again.

Then I get almost like a flashback.. I see me and Liam... on this bed..kissing... I feel..

I feel...

My eyes shoot open as I jerk away looking at the door. Looking in his amber eyes.

Xaden leans on the door frame just watching. Not a word, I didn't hear the door open... how didn't I hear the door open?

I couldn't even say his name, or explain... There was nothing to explain. I felt as if there was nothing to regret either, but I do.

Not for kissing Liam, but for letting him see it.

" Xaden-" Liam begins but he sends Liam just one simple glance that is so damn terryifying, one I was when he killed Orren and those other cadets in the woods last fall making Liam stop completely.

He was emotionless. His body was tense but not rigid, his jaw wasn't even clenched. He looks like a robot, no emotions. 

Besides his eyes. 

He wasn't looking at Liam anymore. He was looking at me.

His eyes holding mine...his stupid gold flexed eyes screaming at me without a single word, his eyes asking why, it's like I could feel the betrayal radiate.

No.. I could. We're linked.

I remember that day when he ran, he ran to my room when Liam was there... he could feel it. He could feel us.

He could feel what I was just thinking. That I thought Liam was the better option.

That I might've just picked Liam over him.

" No, please go on.. Don't stop on my account." He says almost teasing.

I saw he had thick branches in his hand and a little pocket knife. Also a paper, though he stuffs that in his shirt quicker then I could've blinked.

He slowly walks in setting the knife and branches on the night stand right next to me, only a foo away of where I'm now half straddling Liam. Where I could literally reach out and touch him.

" They said your getting released tomorrow, thought you would use these to pass the time but I see you have other toys to play with. Hetta will bring you your..report." He says neutrally.

His eyes leave Liams and go back to me, I see a small smile appear on his lips before he looks away chuckling shaking his head turning right back around and leaving.

" Shit.." I look at Liam, who looks broken, looking back at me " Go."

I give a quick nod, getting off the bed " Xaden wait-"

He just closed it, I went to open it.... It didn't budge. " Xaden!" I plead, trying to open it again, this time Shadows snake around my wrists pushing me back. One sliding slightly over my heart, slicing, or so I thought...

It touched my heart though I think it's what he felt.

( So.... on a scale of 1-10 how much do you hate me...)