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When I wake Xaden is gone.

Though that didn't surprise me, Maybe he does regret it and will shut me out for maybe...at the least.. the next 2 years.

I roll laying, looking at the ceiling sighing. His scent lingers on my sheets and I find myself taking in deep breaths imagining he was there. I also got the scent of something..floral.

I shift again, seeing a few stalks of wildflowers laying on the pillow next to me and a glass of water, with a small note.

Liam had 2 cracked ribs, and a good slice on his right side. He'll live, they gave him some type of pain killer that made him talk nonstop. You and Hetta were the discussion, it was annoying as hell by the way.

Now you can't say I didn't give you an update Fury.

I reread the note a few times finding myself smiling, having that warm fuzzy feeling I know I shouldn't have.. about either of them... Malek I hate myself...

It was later morning, I could still make it to combat if I hurry. I got up feeling a little sore though I push through it throwing on clothes and combing roughly through my hair seeing Xaden got it beyond tangled opting for a messier bun just giving up on it.

After classes I'll visit Liam. I miss him.

There was a curt knock, Hetta should be in classes, not Liam... My heart flutters thinking it was Xaden until I look at the door, my heart infact dropping when Carr stands arms crossed looking at me. " Your not in classes Freya?"

I keep an emotionless facade, " Woke up late."

I sweat you could hear my heart beat, if he's here I don't think it's good. Or he's going to kill me. He seems to examine me carefully, " Follow me."

" Can I ask why?" 

" Training." He says bluntly. " Now we're wasting daylight."

I ignore him for just a few moments going to grab my daggers quickly stuffign them in all the sheathes accessible. I see him peeking in my door watching me, " I'm not going to kill you Ms. Sorrengail."

" Well, seeing there's that small threat on my head, I don't trust you."

I swore I saw him almost smile for just a moment before he sighs, " We're going to meet our dragons and take a little trip."

I cross my arms looking at him. " Rhys."

" He tells the truth, if he tries anything he and his dragon will drop dead before they even have a second thought."

I nod following slightly behind him as we walk, " I assume you didn't eat." He states giving me a small satchel he had, I only eye the food not eating it. He notices that looking a little petrbed. " You didn't give me a reason to kill you Ms. Sorrengail. Please eat. I want to see you wield, to have controlled wielding you need to be focused. That means fed."

I examined everything before I slowly ate, soon arriving at the flight field where is orange dagger tail and Rhys were waiting. Again, no Andarna. It feels like I haven't seen her in ages.. I miss her.

" Get on, it's a long flight." He instructs, mounting and going ariborne without another looks or word.

" I don't like this." I mutter.

"  I did inform his dragon if this was a pathetic attempt at ending your life, I'd turn them into ash. Even if I have the slightest suspicion. Ash."

" And how did he take that?"

" He agreed gingerly. As I suspected."

His ego sometimes cracks me up feeling alot better as we go airborne and quickly catch up to Carr. The ride was a good hour, we landed on a huge flat in the middle of no where, cold winds and fog... no.. low risen clouds surround us.

Technically Rhys and I would have the advantage with his color, maybe this was meant to calm us a bit.

" You both don't trust me." Carr states. 

I look at him, " No. I don't."

" Why is that Ms.Sorrengail, I already told you."

" Words just fall out of a person's mouth, theres a thousand meaning to even a single word, and false truth."

He nods slightly at this, " I could understand that reasoning."

He looks me over, circling me one time, my eyes watching him intently as he steps infront of me again. " Nature normally as a way of equaling out power from person. But you..." He shakes his head. " You do well in everything, fighting specifically. And with that sometimes one would get a more.. common.. but still useful signet."

" Mira's was rare was well."

" She was good in fighting, not school. Brennan aced all his tests but could still get bested often times in spars. Personality, the core of one's being also has a part. Mira was always a team player, and Brenna loved helping people. What is the core of your being Ms. Sorrengail that you would get such a thing?"

Is he seriously asking me this? 

I lift my chin, " I don't know."

" You don't know or you just don't want to tell me?" He counters taking a slow step forward looking at Rhys instead of me for just a few seconds before his eyes focus back in.

" No. I just don't know."

" And why do you think you don't know?"

I feel my anger rise, the tremble I can feel brew before I say or do anything stupid. Was this what he wanted? To prove I can't control this? To prove I'm a liability?

" Because.... Most of the time I feel I have no idea who I really am. Where I come from, why I'm different, why I look the way I do."

" Like you don't have control?" He questions.

" Like my life is chaotic." I answer.

He smiles widely, " Ahhh.."

I harden my stare at him, he comes closer " And not having that control you lash out?"

" How is this helping with my signet?" I counter.

" Am I making you upset?" He asks.

I clench my jaw, " ..No."

" You sure?"

I hear the low growl from Rhys as I see him crouch, snorting at Carr, the warm steam blowing over us. Carr swallows taking a step back " I don't want to kill you, like I said. You'll be if not the greatest asset to the war effort for years to come, you intrigue me Freya. But with great power comes with great responsibility and control."

He narrows his gaze even more, " And with that power, and your... recorded tendencies... and bonded company... You'd also make a great enemy."

I narrow my own gaze, " Xaden pledged his loyalty. Did he not?" I snap.

" He did. I'm just telling you what was discussed with the Commanding higher ups. For your benefit."

" I bet."

" But most of all.. We haven't had Chaos in... almost 200 years. We're interested in learning more about you. You seem to attract... rare things." He looks at Rhys, I know he also means Andarna, maybe even how I look.

All rare. All unseen. All was normal before I crossed the parapet.

" At the war games, how did you summon?"

" I was mad. And I felt this engery on my back where my mark is from my dragons."

He nods, pulling out a notebook and pencil. " Uh-huh... So feelings?"

" Essentially."

" And what were you feeling then?"

" Anger."

His eyes look up, " Anger?"

" Jack Barlowe went after my friends, it's a normal reaction."

" Liam Mairi correct?"

I nod. " Yes."

" Last night there was quite the commotion outside, was that you? Were you angry Ms.Sorrengail."

" Oh Xaden! Harder!" Rhys cackles in my head making me snap my gaze to him.

" Shut the hell up!"

" Freya?" Carr asks, " Did you hear me?"

I nod, " Yes.. Um... Not anger but.. strong emotions...yea."

He raises a brow, " And that feeling was?"

Wouldn't he like to know....

" Fraustration." I answer, " Homework.. and being a Sorrengail.. the... Immense amount of pressure."

Rhys snorts behind me making me just want to stab him as I try to keep my composure. He hums writing, fraustration and... pressure. Kill me. 

" Well, I'd recommend just... trying here. Not directly by us, but try doing... anything."

" Yea, just imagine Xaden..kissing you-"

" Shut up."

" Biting you."

" Rhys-"

" Throwing you around."

" I'm getting really sick of this.."

" Crawling on top-"

" Rhys! I'm trying to focus!"

" When you felt like you were seeing stars when he-"

I was already over this, the annoyance I felt from last night and Rhys simmering as I snap my hand to one of the mountains close to us, the crackling sounding as it hits making it crumble.

" Next it'll be you if you don't shut up." I state looking back at my dragon.

He cocks his head blinking at me like Andarna does. Little... innocent... Andarna. He's almost as much as a jerk as Xaden is.

" Alright...Maybe something other then lightning... What else do you have hidden?" Carr asks.