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A/N- A very lazy and boring chapter ahead! So go on reading I guess... I really needed to put a end to the JiChan stuff going on.. so here ya go mate!

Few hours later

"I-It was all my f-fault. I-I shouldn't have.." Chan voice cracked after each word as he cried inconsolably. "Chan please calm down, what happened has happened." Seungmin was trying his best to console him, patting his back. "Here you go, drink some water." Dahyun walked in with a glass of water in one hand and an ice pack in the other. Both of the boys who were fighting few hours ago were now taking care of each other, that's the beauty of friendship I guess.

"I don't want anything. T-Thanks." Chan said, now a little calmer than before. Dahyun sat beside the boys. "Hey dude, calm down. It's okay. Things don't compulsorily go according to you always, do they?" Taeyong said. "Now look up, we got fried chicken! Well, I was wanting to go for something healthier, but Doyoung here thought otherwise." 

"We want to cheer him up Taeyong, not put him on a diet!" Doyoung said. "Hey dude, it isn't the end of the world." Jaehyun said, glaring the two who just couldn't stop fighting. "It feels like, Jae. It does feel like it is the end of the world. My world, at least."

Seungmin glanced at Sooyun who was looking at Chan pitifully. "He'll be fine." he mouthed to her. "I know he will be." She mouthed back. She exited Chan's room and went back to her friends, who were in the living room. "How's Chan doing?" Minhee asked, to which she replied with a shrug. "Are you mad at Jihyo noona?" Mark asks. Sooyun shakes her head. She couldn't hate Jihyo, even if it were her fault. And in this case, it wasn't. It was Chan's. Well, partially, at least.

She brought out a leather-cased diary from within her bag and got up. "Where are you going?" YangYang asked. "Upstairs." She replied. "Okay then." Jungwoo said. He understood Sooyun needed a bit of her me time at the moment.

Sooyun went straight to her own room and locked the door. And soon as she set herself on the mattress of her bed, a gush of thought swam around her head. She got out the pen which was attached to the diary she had brought in. She headed the page as:

Time of Entry: 3.30 PMMy Room, Seoul

She faced a hard time in describing the day, for it had been very eventful. She dwelled deeper into the sea of thoughts. It took her back to all that had happened during recess the very day.

Flashback

Jihyo ran away to the school's garden, one comforting place. No one was there, everyone's at the school's main grounds during lunchtime, maybe a few people, sometimes, but today it was completely bare. The garden was as quiet as ever. She sat herself into a comfortable bench and held her head, frustrated with all the recent drama in her life. God, if only she could get some fresh air, that would be enough to cheer her up. That was why she was here. Just a little alone time, just a little piece of mind, just some personal space, that was all she needed. 

"Park?" 

She looked up to see the familiar of her classmate and friend, Eunwoo.

"Oh hi. Didn't see you there.""Am I allowed to sit over here?""Pretty much, yeah. I don't own it either ways."

Eunwoo shrugs and sits beside her. 

"Sooo.. what is a pretty face like you doing over here?" Eunwoo asked. Jihyo smiled. He always manages to cheer me up somehow. She thought to herself. "Well, 'pretty faces' need their reflection time too right?" She replied. a sigh following the sentence. "Reflection time? What do you need that for?" He asked, scooching over next to Jihyo. "Yeah as if you don't know." She replied, yet another sigh escaped her lips. "Let me guess, the Chan situation?" Jihyo nods. 

Eunwoo paused and then continued on. "You know, Chan seems very tough from outside and somewhere he is too. You wouldn't catch anytime soon that someone is harming his loved ones and he isn't doing anything. But that guy has a really soft heart, or rather I should say, really fragile. It breaks easily. That can become a weakness sometimes I guess, because when he starts listening to his heart he can kinda stop using his head, and vice versa." Eunwoo concluded his advice saying, "Give him some time Park, both of you can figure it out."

There was a glint of sadness in his voice as he said it, for what, Jihyo couldn't really figure it out anymore. "Please know that I am right here, whenever you need me. Keep on smiling." He said, smiling again, this time with a little hint of sorrow. "Damn the Cha Eunwoo goes real deep, eh? Consider becoming a relationship expert?" Jihyo said. "You think of me as a little too much." Eunwoo said turning to her. Their faces were too close. Eunwoo was staring right at her, into her soul. That wasn't the scary part though, the scary thing was that the look he was giving her was what she had saw in Chan's eyes the previous night. 

Their faces came closer still, and last thing you know, they were kissing. 

The kiss broke though when the door opened, Chan standing at the door, tears welling up in his eyes, which had just regained their brightness again, now lost them in a gloomy well of tears, threatening to fall. Before Jihyo had a chance to speak Chan had already left. 

End of Flashback

Heard Jihyo unnie and Eunwoo are dating now.

Chan hasn't talked to anyone ever since we came back home. I haven't heard from Jihyo unnie either. The incidents of today which I have described were what Dahyun unnie told me. Very concerned. I hope things will get better, but that's all I can do at this current moment. 'You can't alter the past nor can you see the future, but what you can do is live in the present.' Minhee said these words while we were talking bout the series of events that took place today. That girl does get on the nerves but sometimes she talks sense too. 

With that spirit I hope Chan will move on too. I trust that all will be fine. 

Sooyun concluded the entry and kept the diary on the bedside table. She didn't write her diary everyday, but sometimes, when she would feel too suffocated with her thoughts, that's when she would open the leather cased notebook and write down her feelings. 

That's when she heard a knock on the door. "Who is it?" 

"It's me." It was Chan.

Sooyun didn't expect him to be here. She unlocked and door and was taken by surprise. She say her brother with a small smile on his face. "Hey. How you doing?" she asked, opening the door so he could enter. "Just fine. Why would you ask?" Chan seemed cool, making Sooyun glare at him. 

"Yeah right. As if you don't already know." 

"Hey Yun, can I talk to you for sometime? You know, just a little about myself?" Chan asked, Sooyun nodded. "Go ahead, I'm listening."

"You know what? I am done with crying over this stupid stuff." He said. His voice while saying it was as if he was literally annoyed with himself. "I'm moving on now. If Jihyo can, so can I. And well, it didn't take her more than a minute to move on.." Chan paused and sighed. Let's be honest, no one expected Jihyo to move on that fast. Then he continued. Let's be honest, no one expected Jihyo to move on that fast. 

"...so why can't I do the same? I feel like I have wasted so much time thinking about someone who will never be mine. I don't want to do it again. I know, I did make a mistake, and that mistake did really changed things up for me, but hey! At least I learnt something. Don't you think? Not only that, My priorities have really been shifting here and there. But I won't do it anymore. Maybe the way Seungmin and Dahyun were meant to be, me and Jihyo weren't."

"I could've did this that way, I could've did that this way, I don't want to do it anymore, I have to stop regretting everything. I don't want to live with regret anymore. I want to let go of it." Sooyun nodded at her brother's words. This was the first time he was actually trying to talk about himself to her. He never talked about himself, sometimes a strength, sometimes a weakness, depending on the situation. "I'm pretty sure I'm boring you?" Chan said, but Sooyun shook her head. 

 "Thanks for being there for me sis." He concluded pulling her into a huge bear hug. "I am always here for you. Just like how you've been there with me." Sooyun smiled. 

"Okay now that we are done with that sentimental drama, can we talk about how that bad boy look suits you so much?" Sooyun said, making Chan chuckle. "The hell-" "No seriously- even Dahyun unnie told me that you were looking hot, well, followed by you know what.." Chan could imagine a jealous Seungmin staring right at him and laughed at the same.

"We need an escape don't we?" Chan asked. "Hell yeah. Either ways, we going to Australia as soon as the summer holidays start. Well deserved break from the drama going on. I don't remember what being clear-headed felt like anymore." Sooyun replied. "I agree." 

"Well.. everyone must be waiting for us downstairs. Especially for you. You have any idea how worried everyone was?" Chan smiled in reply. "I know, and I am grateful for that." "Grateful that we were worried?" 

"For me, yeah. Thanks." Chan replied back sassily.

CHAN- Let's go now?SOOYUN- Yeah. I think we should.

"Ya dumb- oh look at that! Is this the Bang Christopher Chan? Long time no see man." Minhee asked walking in the room. "I guess so." Chan chuckled. "Literally no one asked for you to be here." Sooyun said with the everyday judging tone. "No one wanted you to exist on this earth, do you see us complaining?" Jesus Christ here she goes again. 

"I ain't gonna even put up a fight anymore." Sooyun replies with an eyeroll. "Cuz you know you are the one who'll lose. We know girlie we know." Minhee sassily replies back. God end my suffering. 

"So, what were #siblinggoals talking bout talking bout?" She asked. "Nothing really. Just talking a bit." Chan replied. "Probably something deep and dark and sad." Minhee shrugged. "We try not to go deep but I guess it happens sometimes." Sooyun said. 

"Oh well, we were going to grab some ice cream, you two wanna join?" 

SOOYUN- I am coming, let me get ready first.MINHEE- Which will take 3 hours? Yah we aren't taking you.SOOYUN- YAH! WE REALLY GOING TO FIGHT HERE?!MINHEE- No we ain't taking you. You gonna make us wait.SOOYUN- For the record, Hee, this is quizzillionth time I am telling you to shut the hell up.MINHEE- And for the record, Yun, YOU ARE ALWAYSSSSS LATE. SOOYUN- Jeez give me some time.MINHEE- Fine. If you aren't down in 5 then we'll be gone.SOOYUN- Ughh.. fine.

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