Chapter 15

Lynnette's P.O.V

Ross hands me a stack of papers as we walk to the car. "What're these?" I ask quietly as he starts the car.

"Just some stuff I need to sign for Austin and Ally work hours. But I have other things to worry about." He sighs and clenches his jaw, holding the steering wheel tightly.

I nod and set them on my lap. "Are you okay?" I ask, growing sacred.

He glances over at me before reaching for my hand. "Yeah, I'm sorry if I'm scaring you. It's just Calum told me that you're upset about Lyddie and-"

"How'd he know about Lyddie?" I cut him off.

He pulls in the driveway. "He's the only person i told, babe. I swear. No one else knows." He says, shrugging off the car.

I pull my hand away from his. "Can we just spend the day together? Not do anything, 'cause I know that we're both in a lot of pain right now." I ask as tears stream down my face.

He nods and we get out. When we get inside, we put our phones on the chargers and go upstairs. He gets some towels and starts the jacuzzi. He sits down, in the bubbles and I sit between his legs, cuddling into his chest. I close my eyes, feeling something in my leg sting. "It's a cut." Ross says quietly, noticing my pain. "Babe, you're okay." he states as I start sobbing. "You wanna get out?" I nod.

He drains the bathtub and gets out, drying off and sliding on boxers. I get out and slide on undergarments. we lay on the bed. I cuddle into his chest, but he hovers over me. He slowly leans down and sleepily kisses me. Our lips move in-sync slowly. He bites my bottom lip, begging for entrance. I open my mouth, granting his permission. I feel myself get dizzy so I pull back.

He strokes my cheek lightly. "Are you okay, babe? You look pale." he says worriedly.

"Ross, I'm dizzy and cold." I whine.

He gets off of me and wraps his arm around my waist, followed by the blankets. "Go to sleep, babe. You'll feel better when you wake up." He promises. I close my eyes, hoping sleep would take over. But it didn't, I lay there, awake for about an hour. "I got you, baby girl. You can go to sleep." He whispers.

I turn around and cuddle closer to him. "I can't. My head is pounding." I whimper.

He kisses my head and holds me in his warm arms. "Speak," he demands.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm a fuck up. Or I'm not pretty enough. I'm sorry I'm so stupid and I can't do anything. I'm sorry I can't satisfy you. I'M SORRY I CAN'T FUCKING HAVE A KID, A HEALTHY KID!" I yell and get off the bed.

Ross sits up and looks at me with wide eyes. "Okay, Lynn it's okay, baby. Just slowly lay back down and we'll talk." He says sweetly.

I shake my head. "No, Ross! It's not okay and I'm not going to lay back down! I've had enough, of not being enough. I just want.." I trail off and fall to the floor.

He slides off the bed and next to me. "What do you want, baby? Anything you want, I'll get you." He whispers and pulls me into his arms.

I feel my eyes start to get heavy. "I want-" but I got cut off by my body shutting down.

I can see but I can't hear or feel anything. I can't move and Ross starts to panic. He lifts me onto the bed and holds me. I close my eyes.

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a/n

😭😭 poor Lynnette