Chapter 26

Monica

As we all entered the club the bouncer led us to the roped VIP section, where we would spend majority of the night. I remembered the events that occurred last time I was at a club. Janine had made me feel like total shit and Colson was to my rescue. That was the day that brought us closer and he became a friend instead of another passerby. He looked handsome tonight I didn't know whether it was the fact that he actually seemed like he was himself or just that fact that he never looked bad. Colson was just attractive but I couldn't let him know that and I sure wouldn't want him to get any ideas.

"Would you like something to drink?" Colson asked me.

"Oh, I don't know. I've never consumed alcohol before." I said.

"English?" He said looking like I hit him with text book terminology.

"I don't drink."

"Well I guess that's going to change tonight!"

"I do-"

Before I could manage to get out my sentence Colson was ordering us drinks. I wasn't even sure if I would even like alcohol let alone want it in my system.

"Hey, you don't have to drink if you don't want to." He said acknowledging the discomfort in my face.

"Thanks for understanding! It's just I've lost so much due to it, ya know?" I said.

If the person driving the car that hit my brothers maybe they'd both be here. They would've been fulfilling their careers and making sure Slim and I never needed to ask for anything. For the most part they'd be home and I'd know what a family truly was. Yeah the boys, Ash, and Casie were all I needed but sometimes you wanted people that knew you from birth. From the golden ages of a child to the bad times of an adolescent. I needed my brothers and they would never be able to drop from the sky and talk to me. On another note, I never wanted to end up like Janine. She was an alcoholic and it was the only thing she craved and basically lived for. I didn't want to be apart of that life. That's why I didn't go to clubs and that's why I didn't drink.

"You okay?" Colson asked.

"Um yeah, I just need to go outside for a quick breather." I replied before walking out.

As I walked out I sat on the curb just as I did the day Janine and I had fought at the club. Something was eating me up in the inside and I don't know exactly what it was. Apart of me felt like I should be hanging out with David and another told me that I was where I belonged. When I wasn't battling over what guy I wanted in my life it my mind would be asking what the hell was I doing in a club. I didn't belong here, I didn't even go to parties in high school and a club in my book was no different.

Colson sat down beside me, not speaking just sitting there staring at the ground just like me. His presence was nice, it didn't feel awkward like it did for me to sit in silence with other people. But at the same time nothing ever felt awkward with Colson, it was like I had known him longer than I actually did. He pulled me into his lap and wrapped his arms around me. It was almost like he was cradling me like a mother rocking their baby to sleep. I stared into his eyes not sure on what exactly to say.

"I always find my way back to you." He said almost at a whisper.

"Well including that you saw me walk out here I would say you just used your brain." I said giggling.

Colson looked pissed and I was mad at myself for making such a cruel joke. He was being serious, letting me in on his real thoughts.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean that, I try to joke my way out of serious conversations." I said.

"I can tell, you've done it a couple times." He responded after a sigh.

"But about what you said earlier, on a serious note. You really do always find your way to me and I'm glad you do."

He was right no matter what situation I found myself in he was right by my side. Like a guardian angel who was assigned a person to make sure their life was perfect. Attraction was a drug strong enough to strangle me at the moment but Colson kept me safe. I found it strange that the universe had always kept us apart for so long until a few weeks ago, almost like being with him was meant to be. But I couldn't think that way not until I ended things with David anyway.

"What is it? Don't say nothing this time." Colson said.

"Everything." I replied.

"The drinks?"

"Sorta, my brothers were killed by a drunk driver and Janine is an alcoholic. I just vowed that I'd never put myself or Slim through that."

"I'm extremely sorry, I didn't mean to force it upon you."

"It's not your fault, you didn't know. I apologize if I ruined your partying mood."

"Your not capable of ruining anything."

"Really?"

"Yeah and a girl whose willing to turn down drugs is a girl I need to surround myself with."

Just before I thought we would kiss again a tall slender woman walked outside. I envied her, she was model material and held Colson captivated.

"Are you coming back inside babe?" The women said.

"Yeah I'll be back in a minute." He said as she blushed.

Babe? Colson never mentioned a girlfriend, just a girl he was trying to impress! Who was this hooker that was prettier than me and held Colson's undivided attention. I thought. I was pissed and jealous and he wasn't even my boyfriend.

"Are you going to be okay?" Colson asked as he got up from the curb.

"I'll be fine." I said shortly without eye contact.

I heard the door slam and quickly I had to decide whether I was going to get on the bus and cry about it or walk into that club and have a good time. The decision was really made for me, if I walked on the bus alone and crying David would know something was up. At least I could dance and meet new people in the club.

I opened the door heading for the VIP section where the boys were. There were a couple girls and a few fans dancing around the guys.

"Look who finally showed up!" Dub said.

"Yeah, yeah! Pass the joint." I said.

As the words escaped my mouth Dub's jaw dropped and he looked around, searching for Slim I supposed.

"Goodie goodie gonna smoke?" He finally asked.

"Wouldn't be the first time I've smoked." I said.

Dub passed the joint and I took three hits before handing it back. My eyes got low and I started feeling better, I understood why the boys were always high. I mainly smoked when I was in extreme pain or when I just wanted to escape from reality. Dub passed me the joint one more time and then we hit up the dancefloor. I started dancing with Tezo and didn't notice till halfway that Colson was staring at me. Of course he was still with that girl from earlier but for some reason my head and body was pointing to him. I went over to Colson and started dancing on him as the girl from earlier disappeared.

"Where'd you learn how to dance?" He asked.

"I'm not sure, but I hope your enjoying yourself." I said.

"Trust me, I am!" He whispered in my ear seductively.

I turned around facing him and he leaned in closer to my face. Colson lifted up my chin then tilted my face before he kissed me. Breaking us apart he walked me to the back of the club where there weren't any people around. He positioned my face again before our lips collided, the electricity sent through me and I was fully charged now. I was against the wall and Colson's hands lied on my waist and my hands around his neck. The kiss made me imagine a world with just the two of us and it was amazing. He was the one I wanted to be with, but I didn't know if he felt the same or I was just his hoe of the hour.

"This is all I think about." Colson said under his loud breaths as he once again pulled us apart.

"I'd be lying if I said I didn't think of this." I responded

Crap! I just cheated on David, with Colson? Man, literally what is life? Did I turn to the dark side? Am I considered a hoe now? I thought.

"I'm feeling tired, I'm going to go to the bus." He said.

"I am too." I said in agreement.

Colson grinned at me for a minute before he started walking. He reached for my hand and we walked to the bus laughing at all the drunks that passed us. Before we got on the bus I dropped his hand to spare David's feelings. He sure didn't think of sparing mine though. David was basically having sex with this random chick in his seat. My face fell to the floor as I felt embarrassed, Colson and I walked to the back where the boys usually played 2K.

Damn, guess we were playing each other. At least now I don't look like an evil cheating bitch. I thought.

The high from earlier was making my eyelids heavier by the minute and I fell asleep on Colson shoulder. Tomorrow would be a day of explanations and a side dish of heartbreak.