Chapter 11

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YOONGI'S POV

I opened the door, and stepped out of the room. The word I'm about to say could pierce her heart. "And first sex always comes with a kiss."

I closed the door behind me, leaving her wondered and confused. Her eyes were dropping with tears. I could feel her heart being ripped apart. I held my chest where my heart was in, if only you knew.

But I can't tell you.

I sighed, "She can't know." I said to myself.

- - - *2 weeks later* - - -

YOUR POV

Yoongi and I never talked. For past two weeks we haven't talked. It broke me bit by bit. We pass by each other in the corridors, I looked at him, but he didn't.

But his words,

"And first sex always comes with a kiss."

I was hurt but I didn't know what it meant. Did he mean that even though he was my first, he needs to kiss me? Does that make any sense?

Blood boiled through my veins as a thought of Yoongi banging another girl before me. The girl saying 'faster' as Yoongi was enjoying himself. I suddenly felt bad as I knew I was a noob in sex.

"Ugh! Why is everything so stressful!?" I rolled my eyes.

I heard a knock from the door. "What do you want?" I responded in an irritated tone.

The door opened slightly, revealing a pinch of a mochi. "Y/N? Mind if I come in?"

"Oh no, it's okay. Come in." I changed my toned calmly.

"You sure? You sound like you need therapy." I heard him chuckle after.

I smiled, "No, it's okay. I'm just stressful."

Jimin opened the door for him to go in, and he closed the door behind him. He sat down on the bed since I was sitting in my bed too. "Have you heard Love Yourself Answer?"

"I haven't actually.." I scratched the back of my neck and hid my face from embarrassment. "I was too busy what's going on my mind."

"That's great!" He said cheerfully.

"Why is that?" I wasn't expecting he would say that.

"I want you to listen to 'I'm Fine' I wrote some lyrics while.." He paused as he was stuttering and looking down.

"While?" I asked to finish his sentence.

"While I was thinking about Yeontan." He said immediately.

I raised my brows and smiled, "How sweet of you to think about Yeontan." I smiled but this time showing my teeth.

"No no! I mean- uh-" he paused again. I could even feel the tension around him. He seems nervous.

"I uh...sort of..thought about you while writing some lyrics.." he said quietly while looking down.

Suddenly I felt a heart warm feeling in my chest. I haven't felt this for a long time. "How sweet of you to think about me." I smiled.

"My lyrics are...um..in the chorus. I'll uh..go now so you..can listen to it." He paused in certain times.

As he was about to get up from the bed, I held a grip on his wrist. He looked at me confusedly. I licked my lips, readying for me to speak, "Stay..I want to listen while you're here."

[a/n: you can listen to I'm Fine starting here]

Jimin sat back down on the bed but this time, he sat next to me. My heart was unknowingly racing. I went to grab my earphones in the table, I plugged in the audio jack in my phone. I put on one earphone on my left as I gave the other one to Jimin so he listen too.

As we came to the pre-chorus,

"차가운 내 심장은널 부르는 법을 잊었지만외롭지 않은 걸 괜찮아 괜찮아깜깜한 밤 어둠은잠든 꿈을 흔들어 놓지만두렵지 않은 걸 괜찮아 괜찮아"

The last part when Jungkook's line was saying 'I'm Fine'  2x, I suddenly felt my heat raced more. Thinking of Jimin, writing the lyrics, having a thought about me. It made me form a smile on my face.

I laid my head on Jimin's shoulder. He took it by surprise but for a few seconds, he proceeded and laid his head on my head. I wanted to stay like this forever. It feels like I was at home.

But the moment was ruined until I heard a voice that startled me.

"Jimin! We're going now!" I heard Namjoon shouting in the corridor. I saw Jimin rolling his eyes and got up from the bed. He took out the earpiece and fixed his belt.

He looked at me suddenly and scratched the back of his neck. "Do you want to come with us?"

"Where?" I asked.

"We're going to the mall." He buried his hands in his pockets.

"Jimin, I can't. People might-"

"The mall is closed but open for celebrities. They're coming in the mall for shopping." He looked at me up and down. "Plus..I want to get to know you."

"Um..is it okay for Namjoon?"

"He won't mind, as long as you dress up professionally." I nodded.

Jimin left the room and talked to Namjoon that I'm going too.

"Jimin said to wear professionally." I talked to myself as I looked at the closet.

I found one that caught my eye. A connected shirt-with-blazer that fits me perfectly. I connect it with a pair of blank pants and blank heels.

I went to my dress, and I placed in light makeup. Powder, and lip tint is what I only put. I don't have enough money to buy the whole makeup kit.

I grew up poorly. Yoongi did as well. I made some sacrifices for him by giving him money. But he still spent it on music. Only on music. He didn't used my money to eat. Not even to use it for riding the bus. Sometimes, he would starve himself just to buy a keyboard.

I heard the car honking, signing me to go downstairs.

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"Noona is coming with us?" I heard Jungkook as I was getting into the car.

"She needs to shop too." Jimin said. The van was big that I didn't know where to sit.

Jungkook and Taehyung were sitting next to each other, as well as Namjoon and Jin. Hoseok and Yoongi with a hoodie, and I guess sleeping, were also sitting next to.

Which gave me an opportunity to sit next to Jimin.

"Ooh! I call dibs on taking Noona to Gucci!"

"No! Loui Vuitton is better!" I heard the two maknaes starting a fight.

God...

"Kids! Shut up and be humble!" I laughed at Jin as I could feel the aroma around him. He's so tired of them.

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