Chapter 48

Shannon's P.O.V."What about this one?" I peered at the ring being pointed out by Ashley. Its a traditional diamond engagement ring. Its beautiful but it doesn't feel like its the one. We've been shopping for an engagement ring for the past couple of hours while I snuck out from Elizabeth telling her the twins asked a favor but told her some lame excuse about them shopping for furniture which Jarnie asked for them to pick out and needed help since Trent is said to not be available for them today. So if our pictures will be released since I've seen floating cameras earlier, she wouldn't be surprised if I'm with her sisters. Basically, her whole family is into this secret scheme of my proposal to her really and it amazes me how supportive they can really get to be honest.

"Shan, I don't know what you're looking for but we've been doing this for hours. I love you but I'm really hungry."Ashley whined making me sighed. I don't know either but I don't want to buy a ring just so that I have something to propose with. I wanted it to be the one and I haven't felt that with these rings yet even if how gorgeous and expensive they are. It just doesn't seem like it.

"Alright, we have one last stop after this, if a ring doesn't speak to me. I'll give up and we'll go get something to eat okay"

"Alright then." We exit the shop after I thanking the workers for their assistance and walked through the streets of LA. I just found out today that the twins are not a fan of long walks not like Elizabeth. It got me twenty, almost half an hour convincing them to just walk with me through the shops, to have a better view of our options. I get it though, the paparazzi can be really really aggressive with them and maybe a reason to just drop acting and just chose a career behind the camera. Well, I've convinced them but insisted on having Rick and Dave to come with us which is so fine by me.

"What is it you're looking for Shan?" Mary Kate asks.

"Its funny because I don't know either." I chuckled earning a slap on the arm from Ashley who looks a but annoyed right now and somehow I was in the mood of winding people up right now so I laugh.

"You made us walk through, I don't know like ten shops and now you're telling me you don't know what you want?"

"Hey, I know what I want. I want your sister." I chuckled and she rolls her eyes clearly not into my mood right now. I glanced at Mary Kate who just shakes her head and does the same but with an evil smirk on her lips. Alright then, I've got some making up to do. I put my arms around Ashley's shoulder pulling her closer and say,

"I'm sorry, I'll stop. I promise this will be the last shop." I say placing a kiss on top of her head earning a soft slap on the arm again.

"Alright then" We walked in the last shop I know which I've heard does custom engagement rings so I really have a great feeling for this one, and we're right on time for my booked appointment.

A worker, whose name is Damien written on the name plate right on his left chest, greeted us with a proper smile as he approached our way. The store is almost empty. There are a few people looking around and talking to other staff but when you walked in with two fashion icons with you even in an empty room, you would still feel eyes on you and that explains why I needed to book an appointment.

"Hi, Ms. Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen and Ms. Beveridge. May you please follow me so we can have some privacy and so I can assist you well." I return a smile at how nice that sounds. Last thing I want is a tip for the media about my fucking plans but still I'm worried about paparazzi shots leading on since we really won't find any furniture from almost ten jewelry shops we visited today just like the excuse I told my girlfriend.

I let the twins take the lead as I follow close behind them while we are guided to a room. We entered an office where a few expensive looking boxes are laid out on the coffee table.

"This is fancy". Mary Kate turns to me all of a sudden with a smirk on her face which tells me I've been speaking my thoughts out loud again. We sat down on the couch across the coffee table as Damien sat on the single couch across us.

"So hi I'm Damien, I'm the Store Manager here and I must say its a privilege for us to assist you."

"Yea, can I ask one thing though?" I butt in catching their attention. "Can we keep this confidential?"

"Of course, this is definitely confidential and you have nothing to worry about." I gave him a nod trusting what he just said. I don't want anything to blow up at any moment. I just want this to be private as possible.

"Okay, go ahead." Damien sets out four red leather boxes in front of us and opened them one by one revealing four magnificent diamond rings.

He explains features of each ring, which I'm half listening to as the twins gushes with the rings. Well, I mean yes they are amazing and beautiful but I can tell non of these rings speaks to me. I need something that screams Elizabeth's name just by looking at it.

"Shan?" I snapped out of my thoughts turning to Mary Kate who raised her brows at me. "Any thoughts?"

"Uhm" I take a second look but its not doing any help, it doesn't feel like it.

"Okay, do you have something else?" Ashley says saving me again from having to explain why can't I choose from these gorgeous rings. I gave an apologetic look to Damien  and he just smiled and takes out a green velvet box which is promising but I really hate to be disappointed again so I brought it up before he could even open the box.

"You do custom engagement rings right?" I asked and Damien's eyes lit up of hope and decides to retreat the ring green velvet box he just took out.

"Yes, would you prefer that option?" I nod my head and he smiles. He took out a hard leather covered book with the logo engraved on it and open it up and even though there were so many options to choose from, I have exactly what I want imprinted on my mind.

"Well, that was fast. We should've just done that hours ago." Ashley whines making me chuckle and nudged her as soon as we were done and it only took me about twenty minutes to decide and make the perfect ring that screams not just Elizabeth Chase Olsen, but rather her as a whole and that's so special to me.

"We'll get food in you the second we walk out of this shop. I promise you."

"You better"—————————-"Hi sweetheart" I smiled as she climbs in the passenger seat of my car. She sighs and gives me tired smile beforeleaning over to give me a kiss.

"How was it?" I asked starting the engine before we went on. She sighs again taking my hand in hers and resting it on her lap and says.

"Reshoots starts next week and hopefully we'll finish before we could even start filming Love and Death because that would be so fucking hard if we wouldn't make it by mid September and I really don't want to delay the production. That would be horrible."

"I'm sure we'll be right on track my love. Just relax okay?" She hums in response and turns to me so I glanced at her with a smile on my face.

"So, how was your furniture hunting with the twins?" Okay here it goes, I need to sound authentic for her to believe me. I'm not going to tell her about what we actually did but rather the experience of it maybe then it would be easier and its not actually lying. Is it? Fuck.

"It was good, we didn't find anything though but I learned something today."

"What is it?" She smiles as her eyes sparkle interested on what I was about to say.

"You're sisters aren't a fan of long walks." She burst out in giggles making my heart skips a beat with her laughter filling my ears. Its really my favorite sound of all time.

"Nope, but did you?" I nod my head and she laughs again so I joined her. I can't help it, its contagious. "Oh God honey, I love you." She giggles touching my face and shower me with kisses all over my cheeks while still giggling.

"I might have gotten some side eyes and some slaps but that's fine. I think I might've made it up after having some food in her." She pulls away but still kept my hand in hers.

"Its still weird though, they usually get furniture in the internet and its odd they wanted to do actual shopping right now." Okay, she's a bit supish. I tried my best to play it cool and just shrug it off. "Anyway, I miss our long walks honey."

"Its really a bit late for a long walk sweetheart." She hums in response before silence surrounds us and I can tell she has something on her mind but I try not to think about it way too much because maybe then I'm just imagining stuff but then she says,

"Shan I've been thinking" She starts and my heart starts to race with the tone.

"Yea?"

"A lot actually"

"About what?" She doesn't say a word for quite sometime so I glanced at her and saw her staring at our hands and its actually making me nervous.

"Maybe its too soon for you or maybe if you'd like or just—" She pauses and sighs so I squeezed her hand to let her know its alright. "Do you consider probably, you don't have to decide today but I'm still hoping that maybe you'd agree to—"

"Baby just spill it out." I chuckled slightly at her rambling. "It can't be that bad." She sighs and eventually says.

"Will you consider, moving in with me?" She breathes. Okay, that's not surprising at all. Well, I've asked her to marry me and moving in together comes with that. But I really need to burst the news to Zoë I haven't told her yet and it would be so unfair on her if I just move out all of a sudden. Maybe I should talk to her later, I just hope she's home right now.

"Shan" I snapped out of my thoughts and glanced at her. She has this look of defeat already but still has a glint of hope in her eyes and its very hard to say no to that.

"So when are you planning to clear out some space for my clothes?" I asked answering her question with that and the next thing I knew arms flung around my neck causing me to slightly turn the wheel and suddenly.

Bright light, Angry horn, Break! Stop!

Screeching sound filled my ears as I hit the breaks. My heart's pounding in my ears, I feel Elizabeth's freezing hands on my cheek forcing me to look at her. She's speaking but I couldn't hear her. I see blood, glass shattered everywhere flashing right in front of me.

People are coming to us, we're catching attention. I need to run for it. Its not good for Elizabeth but I can't seem to fucking move. I look away as an officer approach us letting Elizabeth's hands fall from my cheeks. He knocks on the window so I subconsciously rolled it down, my hearing slightly going back but still I couldn't bring myself to speak.

"Oh!" He seems surprised. "I'm sorry but can you pull over for a second." He says gently as horns and angry yells starts going on behind us and its ringing my ears. I sigh and touched the wheel with a shaky hand as Elizabeth sits back on her seat before I pulled over to the side of the road allowing the cars behind me to pass by.

She's in the car with me.

"Baby, I'm so sorry. I'll talk to them." She says with a shaky tone. She's in the car with me, we might've got hurt if I didn't get to hit the breaks on time. She might've got hurt.

"Is everything alright?" I snapped out of my thoughts looking to my side to see the officer from earlier. Gonzalez, its said on his right chest.

"Yes, we're very sorry officer. My earring fell off the car so we were looking for it. We got carried away, I guess. We really are sorry." She spoke in the most gentle way and it amazes me how good of an actor she is, because if I didn't know better, I might've believed her already.

Officer Gonzalez turns to me and I know I had to go with it, so I manage to nod my head and release a small smile before saying a sincere " Yea, we apologize for that." 

He stares at me intensely, maybe figuring out if I had quite a drink or something before saying, "Are you alright? You don't look so good."

I glanced at my side mirror and see that I look white as a sheet. If you had a flashback of the time you had a traumatic accident, that led you to losing your fucking memory, while you are driving a car with your girlfriend in it and had to relive it again, it would absolutely drain the blood out of you.

"Yea, I'm fine. Just a bit shaken up."

"Maybe I should drive." I hear Elizabeth says as her hands slides across my shoulders until it settles down to the back of my neck making me look at her seeing a small smile not quite reaching those terrified eyes.

"Maybe you should" Officer Gonzalez follows. I sigh in defeat and find myself nodding. She was about to get out of the car when I held her arm stopping her. There's a bunch of people outside that still has their attention to us and even then I can also spot few floating cameras flashing from a distance, I can't let her walk out of my car.

"Can you just slide in, I'll go around." She nods and so I let go of her and held on to the door. Broken glass flashes right in front of my eyes so I paused blinking desperate to fade it out.

"Shan?" I ignored her and immediately open the door as Officer Gonzalez steps back allowing me out but then as soon as I step out of the vehicle, I felt a slight pain on my right leg causing me to wince.

"Ms. Beveridge, are you sure you're okay? I can call an ambu-"

"I'm fine Officer, like I said I'm just a bit shaken up. This would go away later on." I say in a reassuring tone and he seems to slowly believe me. "We better go ahead. Thank you for your service sir." He smiles and nods before stepping aside allowing me to try and not make it obvious that my right leg is in pain right now and go around my car getting in the passenger seat taking in mind to put my seatbelt on.

"Thank you Officer." I hear Elizabeth says before hitting the horn and finally starts driving. The car is filled with silence and I didn't realize it as my thoughts runs back replaying the pictures flashing in front of my eyes earlier.

Blood stained glass scattered all over me, bright lights flashing, yelling, a sound of screeching metal. Shattered windows.

She's in the car with me.

A sharp pain shoot to my head making flinch my hand flying to the side of my head.

"Shan?" A shaky tone on Elizabeth's voice and I know she's trying to keep it together. "You alright?" She whispers as she puts her hand on my leg and I can feel her trembling.

"Pull over for a bit." I whispered. Without a word, she pulls over on the side of the road and turns off the car before turning her attention to me. I sighed as I felt a heavy weight on my chest, so heavy its weighing me down.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"No honey" She sniffs and hearing that just makes everything worse. I know what's coming. "I should be the one who should say sorry. I shouldn't have come to you like that. How stupid am I? Fuck."

"Stop Elizabeth—"

"No, this is my fault Shannon. Don't you dare tell me otherwise."

"Stop—"

"Jesus, I'm so fucking stupid—"

"You're in the car with me." I whispered almost to myself trying to voice out my thoughts hoping then it will go away.

Silence.

"You could've been hurt. I'm sorry. I—" I breathe out a heavy sigh as I rub my temples together my headache getting worse. I can feel myself getting worked up, feeling hot tears ready to spill from my eyes at the thought of her getting hurt with this.

"Baby" She sighs and that's when I broke down, releasing every emotion I've been bottling up for I don't know how long. No one told me this would be so fucking hard, one moment we're over the moon just laughing and the next second flashes almost getting us into a fatal accident and that's the scariest I've been maybe because she is in the car with me.

Suddenly, I hear movement and the next thing I knew is Elizabeth squeezing herself beside me and taking me in her arms as she places kisses on top of my head stroking my back.

"Its alright honey. We're okay." She whispers over and over again and I wonder how many times will we have to deal with this. How long will I completely recover, no flashbacks, or delusions and hallucinations, just plain memories. New memories. I thought I wanted to know who I was before all of this happened, Is it too late to change my mind.

Are we really going to be okay?