Chapter 42

"Baby, wake up." I hear Elizabeth whispers as I came to my senses, her soft hand stroking my face ever so gently and it makes me want to sleep even more. I hummed and take her hand snuggling it closer to me earning a soft giggle from her and hearing that just makes a smile automatically appear on my face.

"Shan, we're here." She says sweetly, her voice tickling my ears. "Come on sleepy head. I know you're awake." I smiled and finally open my eyes just to be met with those gorgeous eyes staring back at me.

"I love your eyes."I whisper and its true, I really do. It reminds me of green grass, fresh air in the meadows and tranquility. I would get lost in them every single time and she doesn't even know it. Her smile grew as her orbs travel down to my lips then back to my eyes again and something in that turns up a switch in me that I couldn't explain.

"I love yours too." She whispers before planting a soft kiss on my forehead. I really love it when she does that. It gives me some kind of comfort and security in a kind of way.

"Well, they're only for you."

"Oh yea." She giggles making my heart skip a beat.

"Absolutely—"

"Absolutely, alright get up so we can go in." She chuckles and her laugh is just contagious, I joined in pushing myself to get up but still I really can't take my eyes off this woman and up until now, I can't believe that she's mine. This is too good to be true, she's too good to be true.

"Thank you for coming to the studio" I say taking her hand in mine and lacing our fingers together. Her hand strangely fits in mine perfectly, like a glove. "Today's really heavy, in my head." I let out a soft chuckle remembering what happened earlier and how stressful that is. Surprisingly, talking to Benedict and Tom at the same day is just exhausting and maybe too much for me. They talk and ask questions a lot and my mind just couldn't keep up with them.

She smiles and touched my cheeks before pulling me in for a kiss. I melt in her soft lips as she kiss me so softly and I feel like I'm floating.

"I love you" She whispers against my lips. "And I 'm sorry for all of this." She kisses me again not giving me a chance to reply but I pulled away and looked onto her eyes. The guilt creeping through them.

"Elizabeth—" She cuts me off giving me another kiss and as soon as she pulls away she says

"Come on, lets get something for your head okay?" I sighed in defeat as her eyes begs me to just let it go. Nodding my head, I sighed and finally grab our things and head out of the car with thoughts of her running in my head.

"I think Zoë's home." She smiles sweetly as soon as the car is locked and that made me look to the garage to see Zoë's car parked and its only now that I realized that she parked Chase in front of the house.

"Yea, she is. I hope she won't fucking freak out when she finds out your spending the night. You're spending the night right?" She giggles scrunching her nose and nods as she wraps her arms around my waist and witnessing that just makes me want to smush her in my arms like a pillow or a teddy bear. She's just that adorable.

"Whatever makes you feel better honey and besides I really don't have a choice do I?"

"Nope"

"That's what I thought." She giggles again. "I just hope Zoë wouldn't mind." I scoffed upon hearing that while we reached the front door.

"Trust me, having a high profile celebrity to sleep over at our house is not a thing that Zoë would mind."

"Stop saying that" She nudged me in the arm making me laugh and curious on what she's on about.

"What? You are a high profile celebrity sweetheart. You can't deny that. People know who you are."

"On the outside that is" She rolls her eyes and smiles. I sigh and place a soft kiss on top of her head. Yup, that's true though. People know her on the outside, but what she feels inside, her thoughts, her fears, how pure her heart is, how funny she is, and everything that comes with it, sometimes it shows on interviews but that's not even half of it really. She's perfect and its a privilege and honor for me to be a witness of that.

"Well, I guess I really am the lucky one." I say and she snorts in laughter giving me a playful slap on the arm. I chuckled before knocking at the door. I don't usually knock on my own front door but there's a possibility that Liz might be in there as well and we might walk in a live make out session in our fucking couch so its better to be safe. We wait for a while but no one answers, so that just confirms what I picture in my mind.

"Baby, don't you have a key?" I turn to look at Elizabeth who looks so confused at the moment and I just gave her a nervous smile before knocking again but this time louder, kind of growing irritated at the moment.

"Alright, alright. Who the fuck are y—" I raised my brows as the door opens revealing Zoë with Liz clinging to her like a fucking koala. They sprang apart as soon as they saw Elizabeth who smiles sweetly linking her arm with mine. Liz's mouth drops while Zoë's eyes are wide as plates looking to me then back to Elizabeth then to me again.

"Can we come in?" I say cutting off the awkward silence we had created. I'm pretty sure they didn't hear it because up until now they're still gawking at my girlfriend. "Guys! Come on!" I said loudly snapping them out of their trance and this made Elizabeth giggle.

"Y-Yea, sure." Zoë opens the door wider this time, stepping aside to let us in. I gave her a smirk at the look on their faces as we walk past them. Yup, they're freaking out. Suddenly a hand grabbed my arm making me turn to see Zoë giving me a look.

"You fucker. You never mentioned you're going to bring her here." She whisper yells and I chuckled.

"I didn't know Liz is here as well so we're even." I say and she rolls her eyes in annoyance.

"That's different and you know it."

"I beg to differ."

"Shan?" The sound of Elizabeth's voice made me smile and turn to her. She raises her brows as to ask if everything's okay, something like that and that's when I remembered she hasn't really met Zoë and Liz personally so I took this chance to introduce them.

"Oh right, these are my best friends. Zoë also known as Zolita, she's a singer." Zoë smiles widely as she glances at Elizabeth who is smiling from ear to ear which makes her eyes seems brighter than the usual. "and this is Liz her girlfriend."

"Oh wow" She says and gives the both of them a hug. I snigger at the look on their faces. I know Zoë probably met a few celebrities since she is in fact in the industry but her reaction to these things never gets old with me and I have my time teasing her about it. "Its nice to finally meet you on the flesh. Its far more better than on the screens" Elizabeth giggles.

"Yea" Zoë giggles nervously before putting a finger up and says. "I'm sorry but can you just give us a minute to set everything up because the living room is a bit of a mess and we we're really not expecting this. Yea, Shannon" She gives me a 'I'm going to kill you look.' before rushing to the living room dragging Liz along with her. Elizabeth then turns to me with weird look on her face that made me feel a needed explanation for whatever was that.

"Her girlfriend's name is Liz" She mutters and I smile at her realization of that. "What a coincidence that we have the same name."

"Baby, yours is better." I say and she smirks before scrunching her nose. "She's just Liz Ashley and yours is Elizabeth Chase and that just tops it off."

"Honey, I already love you too much for you to impress me with those cheesy lines of yours." I let out a chuckle hearing that wrapping an arm around her planting a kiss on top of her head. "You don't have to do that. I love everything about you already."

"Hey, I'm not just saying that." She looks up and flashes me a million dollar smile. "Come on, they're probably done fixing whatever mess they've made in the house." She nods and wrapped her arms tight around me before we made our way to the living room. "And for the record, I love you and always will, remember that." —————-Lizzie's P.O.V."Good night Zoë! Good night Liz!" Shannon half shouts to the hallway before slamming the door shut and locking it. Yep, its 3 fucking am in the morning and she's drunk. Well she had four and a half beer cans earlier having to play a drinking game with Zoë and Liz after dinner. Those two can't get enough of each other, its really cute actually.  I had a drink or two as well so I can't actually say that I'm a hundred percent sober but I can still think straight and not see double like my girlfriend is at the moment.

"Oh hi my one and only baby." She giggles and I joined in, She's just that adorable when she's drunk. She tips to the side as soon as she takes her first step so that made me stand up and got off the bed walking towards a giggling Shannon.

"I almost fell on my face, did you see that?"

"Yep, you're really going to regret this tomorrow honey. I'm pretty sure you are." I say. Its a good thing I've already packed my things for our flight to Italy on Wednesday. We might be going home to my place tomorrow later than we should have.

"No I'm not, if I'm going to wake up and you're still beside me then that only means that this is real and I'm not hallucinating that you really are spending the night in my house in my small bedroom."

"Hey, I love your room honey. Its a little bigger than our room in your house back then actually." I sighed as I finally settled her down on the bed. She immediately slipped under the covers as I walked around to the other side.

"I love to see that house again. Can I see it again? Can I? Please?" Oh God she still has this much energy up until now. I chuckled shaking my head at her cute antics and gave her my phone as I slipped next to her under the covers.

"Baby we got a lot of plants going on in our house." The way she said 'our house' just gives me some kind of good chills in the back of my neck as I peeked over to look at what she's looking. "Like plant, plant, plant and they're thriving. Am I that good at taking care of our babies." I can't help but giggle remembering how she fucking sucks at taking care of plants.

"What?"

"Well, baby you sucked at it actually." Her mouth drops open dramatically and shakes her head making me laugh.

"Wha- I do not suck at it. I can show you my babies right outside the backyard and they're thriving."

"Well, yea, I know they are but you suck at taking care of plants two years ago, I don't know what or how did it happened but that's the truth honey."

"Wait how did you know?" She looks at me thoughtfully and that's when I realized what I just said. Okay, I might be getting caught of stalking her before we even got back together and that is just fucking embarrassing. So what do I say? Nothing. When I didn't reply, she quirks an eyebrow, a devilish smile forming on her lips as she turns my phone off settling it down on her bedside table before completely turning to me.

"How did you know, my plants are thriving Ms. Elizabeth Chase Olsen?" She teasingly asked and I can't help but roll my eyes at her and giggle as I moved closer in her arms snuggling my face further to her neck to fucking avoid the question but she's insisting it nudging me every now and then.

"Lizzieeeeeeee—" She suddenly says loudly making my eyes snap open and my hand flying to her mouth covering it to make her shut the fuck up. God, this woman's going to kill me.

"Shannon! Stop it, they might here us." She giggles and take me completely in her arms before rolling us over which took me by surprised earning a little squeal. Now, she's lying on top of me with a glint of fire in her eyes which is doing something to me as well. Its making me hot and bothered and I think I know where this is going.

"Are you stalking me?" She teases a smirk playing on her lips and before I could even stop myself, I say.

"Yes, Maybe. No, well—" She laughs charmingly as she inches closer. I don't know if its the alcohol but she looks a hundred percent more attractive than before if that's even possible. She leans forward her face centimeters away from mine that I can smell the peppermint with still a hint of alcohol in her hot breath. I swallowed feeling the urge to just kiss her the heat of my body rising up to my head.

"Hey, its alright. its already an honor to be with you."

"Shan-"I whispered. She giggles placing a kiss on my forehead then to my nose and pulls back looking down straight into my eyes giving me a chance to look at hers. Its cool and warm at the same time, darker, pupils dilated only the difference was, I still feel her. She's here, not somewhere else and I feel safe.

"I love your eyes." She whispers as her thumb strokes my cheek gently while my hands travel to the back of her neck playing with her baby hair. "I love you"

"Well, I love you" She captures my lips while I wrapped my arms around her neck pulling her down further on topof me. I let out a gasp as her cold hands find its way under my shirt running her fingers on my sides.

"Babe, they might hear us." I sigh and she just kisses me like she didn't hear a thing. So I try again but then this time her lips travel to my neck earning a soft moan from me and that seems to drive her even more. Her softlips moves up to my own again and I feel myself caving in, falling into some kind of trance her kiss is giving me and now all I want is her. Here and now.——————Our flight is in literally in two hours and I'm feeling so anxious since last night with the thought of us in an airport again. Marla said paparazzi are already in the area and that just makes me so worked up. I haven't been myself since I woke up because my mind is somewhere else. Maybe the paparazzi scarred my life already ever since the first break up. Its just not the same since you know.

I know I'm safe this time around but I'm more worried about Shannon actually, even though she told me a hundredth time already that she's okay and I have nothing to worry about. I can't help it though, because I know a thing like that might trigger something in her head. A memory, a flashback, I don't know but that's what's making me so anxious right now. I don't want her to go back. I just can't lose her anymore.

"We're here" I hear Jake says and my head snapped towards the entrance of the airport, heart suddenly starts racing mad in my chest, I can hear it through my ears. They're by the entrance and there's quite a number of them.

"Jesus, they're by the entrance. Literally." I mutter crossing my arms against my chest. I hear Shannon sighs before placing a soft kiss on my temple and say.

"I'm going to do a quick a huddle with your security okay, where's Marla anyway?"

"They're close."

"Oh okay, are you going to be alright in here for a bit?"

"No, can I come please?" I looked up to her and she smiles nodding her head which eased me up a little bit.

"Whatever makes you feel better sweetheart." The look in her eyes says it all. I'm safe with her, but is she safe with me? No stop, you're overthinking shit again. "Come on then." She taps on the window and Jake opens the door for us. She held my hand tight in her hands lacing our fingers together as we stepped out of the van.

"Gather the team at the back for a huddle." She says and Jake nods closing the door before walking out. Shannon pulls me in her arms as we make our way to the back of the van. I can sense that she's equally tense right now as I am right now and that's not helping me either.

A few seconds later the team came into view allat once right in front of us forming a little circle that made Shannon pull away but kept her hand clasp in mine.

"Alright, that's a number of men at the entrance so please keep your eyes wide open. Same routine as always, we just need to be a little tighter this time.—" She continues to give instructions as to who is going with who in their right places. I kinda zoned out after that just staring at her. I maybe distracting myself from the fact that we're going to walk in there with the yelling and questions coming from the paparazzi but this is how I can possibly control my emotions getting the best of me again.

"Alright, dismissed." I hear her say snapping me out of my daze and soon enough they were gone. "You alright?"I turn to look up to her and pure worry in her eyes.

"A little bit yea, I just hate going through this every time."

"I know sweetheart, but don't worry I'll make sure you'regoing to be safe. Just stay close to me okay?" I nod even though, I'm thinking the other way around. I really hope it won't trigger something. I really hope it won't.

Shannon's P.O.V.Okay, everything is set. Bags, check. Security, check. Positions, check. Its really quite stressful doing these things with the paparazzi making it hard for us to do simple things like just walk into a fucking airport. I should be used to this, since we've been dodging paparazzi, been followed by them in most occasions for two months already, but maybe I would never get used to it, especially when I'm with Elizabeth.

"Stay close sweetheart." I say to her. I'm not sure she heard it because she didn't respond but I can feel her hands shaking in mine and this is what I'm really worried of. So to be able to somehow bring her back to me, I gently stroke the back of her hand with my thumb. We started to  make our way to the entrance and one by one they start to come at us until the yelling gets louder.

How's working with Marvel Shannon?

Elizabeth! You look beautiful

Shannon are you sick? How are you?

That question got into my head like lightning but I try to fade it out. Number one tip from my girlfriend, don't listen to them. Well I find that so hard since its getting louder and louder in my head.

How about the affair?

How's Robbie Arnett?

Stop using Elizabeth for your career!

What the fuck! What am I hearing? I look up and a strike of pain hit my head at the same time flashes starts blinding me. I scrunched my eyes tight and squeezed Elizabeth's hand.

"Honey? what's wrong?" I hear her say over the yelling and right after that she calls the attention of Jake. By the time we got to the terminal where airport security steps in blocking the men from entering the terminal, I was already feeling hazy.

"What's wrong?"

"Am I using you?" I asked so suddenly, like it was stuck in my head. Did I just heard that? Was it real? She looked at me with pure confusion in her eyes. She opens her mouth to say something but Jake arrives with the team asking if I was alright and I nod still my head hurting from what had happened earlier.

"Did you had a flashback?" Elizabeth asks as soon as the team had walked away and leave us alone. Was it a flashback? I don't know, I'm confused myself. Her hand made its way to my head then down to the sides of my face her fingers curling to the back of my neck. She looked straight to my eyes as I hear

You're practically a threat to her career.

"I'm not using you Elizabeth. I'm not" I shake my head in hopes to just shake off the voices.

"Hey, hey. I know that. Baby you got to tell me what's going on. I'm scared." Her eyes are in pure fear. Darker than the usual. Pupils dilated, brows knit together in confusion, hands are icy cold on my neck.

"The yells, I heard someone said I was using you, and asking how Robbie is and something about an affair—"

"What?" She whispers looking so shocked on what I just said.

"Did you hear it too?" She shakes her head then looks away with a thoughtful and at the same time terrified look on her face and I just know what's on her mind again. So I take her in my arms and snap her out of it but she pulls away immediately and opens her bag looking for something.

"Shan, you need to see Joan, no we got to call her. I can't—"

"Babe—"

"No Shan, we need to call her right now." She mutters fumbling with her phone

"Elizabeth!" I say a bit louder and she stops looking at me thunderstorms in her eyes. "I'm fine, We'll call her when we land okay. I'll talk to her, I promise." She breathes heavily, clutching her phone tightly in her hand. God, she's so terrified. I pulled her in my arms again as I stroke her back gently to somehow soothe her and reassure her.

"I'll call, I promise. Its alright." I sighed at the realization.

Was I hallucinating?