Chapter 15

What just happened? I've been sitting here on the middle of the bed for I don't know how long, trying to figure out what did I do that made her run off like that. Was it too much, when I pull her close to me. This is the reason why I suck at doing the first move people, its really not that easy.

Ring

I slightly jump with the sound of my phone ringing on the bedside table. So I take it seeing Scarlett wants to FaceTime and even though I probably look like shit right now, I answered.

"Hi I-Are you okay? You look troubled." Scarlett's face appears on the screen and it looks like she's outside by the pool. Well, I could really use a dip in the ocean just to take a break from all of this really.

"I just woke up and have the worst hangover. What's up?" I asked.

"Nothing, Rose misses and you and has been bothering me for two days straight to call you." I smile at the thought, I really miss Rose though. Maybe I'll get her something for when I get back home.

"Where is she?"

"She's in the pool with Colin. I'll give you to her later on but for now, tell me an update with your memory and what's going on with you and Lizzie. You two are owning headlines again you know." She chuckles. I really don't know if I should tell her but I feel like I should because you know she's my friend and I love her kid so maybe I should.

"Okay so, I have flashbacks coming in yesterday too much I literally had a headache again."

"Well, that's good. Not the headache but your flashbacks. What are these flashbacks that you had?"

"Let's see uhm, the CFDAs, New York Pride and the clip from Love Loud. I also watched our interview with Jimmy and that I found out that the place I was telling you about is in LA. Maybe when I get back next week, I can go and visit. That's it, I guess. Oh I found out Robbie cheated on Elizabeth that's why she called off the engagement." I say. I think that's all that I've processed this week. That is quite a progress isn't it in just two days. I watch as Scarlett takes it in before looking at me again.

"Alright then, how about you and Lizzie? How are you two?" She asks.I was quite confuse on the change of subject with her eyes not looking up to me as she said so, but I shrugged it off thinking nothing of it and sighed remembering what just happened a few moments ago. I'm starting to think I just blew it.

"Well, everything was going great. We're getting along pretty well until." I paused and watch as she sits up on her seat clearly very intrigued of what comes next after that.

"Until what?"

"Okay" I sighed. "I was drunk last night and I think I might've forced her to sleep with me." Her eyes grew wide and her jaw dropped and I realized what I just said might be a little misleading to what she's thinking right now so I say,

"Its not what you think it is-"

"You two slept together, so that means you're back together? What the hell-"

"What? No. Nothing happened last night, we have our clothes on when I woke up. Let me fucking finish will you." She chuckles and rolls her eyes at me. "So when she woke up, I don't know she just stared at me and I pulled her in my arms and it was the best thing I have ever felt my entire life. But I think that just made it awkward between us because she pulls away saying it was a bad idea. I think I just blew my chance." I sighed feeling so fucking terrible not only because of this thing between me and Elizabeth but my head is literally killing me right now like elephants stomping on my head all at the same time.

"Just give her time to process, she'll come around trust me. Maybe she just panicked."

"Panicked from what exactly?"

"I don't know" She shrugs and its my turn to roll my eyes at her earning a teasing chuckle from her. "Shan, you need to fucking relax. Its Lizzie, she'll come around okay." She smirks. I shut my eyes as my hand flew to my temple rubbing it hoping it'll ease the pain, but who the fuck am I kidding, its not even going away.

"I need a fucking pill. I'll call you later on so I can talk to Rose. I just need to remove my brains out and put some medicine on it alright." I say as I got out of bed just to send me falling down to sit on the side of it because damn the room is starting to spin.

"You owe me some fucking stories. When you get home you need to stay for the night. I'll tell Colin about this." I let out snigger and nod. Well, Its not like I have a choice don't I.

"I would go there and see my princess and I'll snatch her put her in my Chase and then we'll get some ice cream."

"Not with you driving her." She spats and I smiled.

"Right, I knew that."She smiles. Even though I can reassure Scarlett that I won't fucking crash Chase into something with her kid on it, I'd rather let her be a third wheel every time me and Rose will have a date. Its better that way.

"Alright then, go ahead and take care of your hangover you dumbass, how many did you drink last night."

"Don't ask me that. I need to go. Love you. I'll call you later. Bye." And with that I hung up the phone not giving her a chance to answer back before standing up again clutching my head and made my way out of the room.

Just when I had open the door Elizabeth comes out of her room from across mine and I stood there frozen in my spot. I can't seem to move and my heart starts beating fast in my chest matching the rhythm of my throbbing head. She turns around and stopped as our eyes connect. Everything stops, she looks so troubled and I can't help but to think if its because of me or what I did earlier and the thought is killing me. I don't want this awkwardness to grow anymore, I need to apologize.

"Uhm, Elizabeth. I just want to-uh apologi-"

"No, I should be the one saying sorry for leaving just like that." She whispers her voice weak and defeated. She's sad I know but she just won't admit it and one thing is it feels heavy in my chest whenever she's like this.

"Hey, no. I totally understand. I shouldn't have done that, I guess. I'm sorry." I let out a soft chuckle cautiously moving closer to her. She looks at me in the eyes and stared as if like she was looking for something. Its strange but I can't seem to look away, instead I was getting lost in her jade ones as well.

"That's okay" She smiles but didn't quite meet her eyes and for some reason, I want to reassure her. That I'm here and she can tell me anything but my headache is not allowing me to do that as pain shoots through my head making me flinch and clutch it. Suddenly, I felt her soft, gentle hands on face cupping my cheeks as I struggle to open my eyes.

"Hey, you okay?" Her tone is so gentle like a lullaby and it makes me smile in spite of the pain in my head.

"I have a bad hangover." I softly chuckle and she smiles and rolls her eyes.

"Well, that's what you get for drinking seven glasses of martinis in one sitting." She scolds taking her hands off my cheeks and giving me a playful slap on the arm. I smile, the awkwardness is gone. Just like that, and I'm happy about it. I really am. "Come on, I'll make you some green juice."

We made our way to the kitchen and saw Jarnie washing up so I walk towards her giving her a good morning hug and a kiss on the cheek even though its almost noon and time for lunch.

"Mom, where are the twins?" Elizabeth asks as I stood behind her while she greets her mom.

"Oh they left an hour ago, they have a photoshoot later this afternoon at the headquarters so they have to leave. Trent met up with his friends too. Are you both hungry?"  And as if on cue, Elizabeth's phone rings in her hand. She raises it and looked.

"Its Ash." She mumbles before answering. I walked over to Jarnie's side and starts drying up the plates helping her up. She looks up to me and smiles before continuing with the washing of the dishes. We stayed silent as Elizabeth starts walking around from the fridge getting some vegetables and fruits out with her other hand holding her phone to her ear. I'm not one to eavesdrop at conversations but with her responses, I think the twins are in some kind of crisis.

'I'm not so sure about that..Alright alright, Jesus!' I look at her as she walks around the island and goes to stand beside me quite annoyed and it made me confuse and intrigued.

"Ash wants to talk to you" I places the plate on the dry rack before taking the phone from her, still puzzled on why her sister wants to talk to me.

"Hello?"

"Yea, Shan do you have like plans today?" I glanced at Elizabeth who just walked away and starts prepping up some spinach.

"I don't know, that depends on your sister." I say and this made her glance at me with a raised brow. "Why is everything  alright?"

"We need your help, Lucho, our photographer, well he called in sick and we can't postpone this shoot because we are already falling behind with the scheduled timeline so, can you fill up for him please?"

"Well, if you ask me I'll do it in a heartbeat but I feel the need to ask Elizabeth." I glanced at Elizabeth again and she gives me a nod which I guess an approval of what we were talking about. "Oh right she said yes, what time is the shoot, I have to run up to my sister's apartment to get my camera."

"Its in two hours so you'll have plenty of time to prepare. Thank you so much Shan, you really are a life saver." I smile at the compliment, well it feels good to lend a help really.

"Don't mention it." I hear a giggle on the other line before Ashley says,

"Alright then, can you pass the phone to Lizzie. We also need her here for some reviews."

"Okay" I walked over to Elizabeth and hands her the phone. She takes it from me and I made my way back to Jarnie's side finishing up the plates.

"What was that dear?" She whispers.

"Oh their photographer is sick so they asked me to take over. Good thing I always bring my camera with me." I say and she nods her head before taking off the rubber gloves after getting the sink all sparkly clean now.

"Well, you really take good pictures. You used to take pictures for the twins and I've seen them they're great." Hmm, that's new information. Elizabeth never told me this before.

"So I've done photoshoots with the twins before?"

"Yes, mostly on short notice but even though they really turned out beautiful." She squeezed my cheek again before walking past me leaving me thinking and try to remember something that would support that statement of hers but I got nothing, and now, I'm curious about the pictures she was talking about.

"I'm going to have a shower and leave you two alone okay." Jarnie announced before leaving the kitchen. I placed the the cloth back to the rack and go to sit down on the stool by the kitchen island watching as Elizabeth pours the green liquid from the blender into a tall glass.

'We'll see you, Bye.' She hangs up the phone and slides the glass to me. She really does that doesn't she? I smiled at the idea, its cute kind of her thing.

"So, I guess we're on photoshoot duties today." She sighs placing back her phone on top of the island before taking out some bowls and ingredients that I think what pancakes consists of and line them up on the kitchen counter. I take a sip of the green juice and damn, this is the best green juice I have ever tasted. I can drink this all day with or without a fucking hangover. "Oh right-" She starts but stopped and giggles making me look at her licking the liquid residue on top of my lips because I really can't let anything go to waste. This is too good.

"Good?"

"The best." She gives me a victorious smile before raising her brows and returns to what she was doing.

"So where was I? Oh, Kathryn's in the city and she has a photoshoot today-"

"Kathryn who?" I asked clueless on who is she talking about.

"Kathryn Hahn Shan."She glances at me as I remembered she worked with her on WandaVision so I gave her a nod telling her I remember her. "So she wants to meet us for lunch tomorrow. Is that okay with you?"

"Both of us?" I asked still not used to meeting other celebrities and having fucking lunch with them like its a normal thing for me to do so. I'm still quite amazed and overwhelmed with the thought of me being friends with Scarlett Johansson and having Elizabeth Olsen as my 'ex' girlfriend not to mention Mary Kate and Ashley that goes with her. That doesn't usually happen to a rookie like me.

"Yea, why?" She asks taking a quick glanced at me. I gave her a shrug.

"You told her about me?" She stops mixing the ingredients she's been putting into the bowl for a second but then continues again without turning to look at me as she says,

"Well, yea. w-we're still friends right?" Friends? Just friends. Right, I blew my chance earlier.

"Yea" I say almost in a whisper. This made me feel sad, I don't want to be just friends. What if I want more than that? But then, what if she doesn't? and that maybe I've caused her too much pain for her to take me back and all of this is just really for old time sake. Maybe.

"So you're up for it?" This time she glanced at me so I nod and drank some of the contents of my glass trying to distract myself from that thought. Silence surrounds us and there is definitely a tension in the room, at least on my side. So I try and think of a subject to talk about and before I knew it, I blurt out the first thing that came into my mind.

"Elizabeth, are you and Scar like talk to each other?" I don't know why I asked that question. Maybe it must be my subconscious being so curious on why Scarlett asked me for an update earlier, she should have know it by now if they are still talking. Elizabeth glances at me with a quirked eyebrow at how random my question was so I go on and explain. Not that I need to.

"Well, she called earlier and ask for a memory update and I thought she should have a clue about my progress since you're friends with her and all so."

"Last time, I talked to Scarlett was when she told me about you and your accident. But I texted her the day we first met again but after that I haven't got the chance to update her again. Maybe I'll text her later on if I have time." She smiles and I nod. The smell of delicious breakfast at 11:30 in the morning is making my stomach grumble. This should be good.

As I stare at Elizabeth making breakfast with her back on me, I felt a sudden feeling, a familiar feeling like this has happened before. The smell, very familiar and the scene in front of me and suddenly it hits me.

"Oh hi honey" She says turning around in my arms giving me a kiss.

"Did you had a shower already?" I asked realizing her damp hair. She scrunched her nose and nods.

"You were taking so long and we're going to be late for work if I will still wait on you so I used the bathroom in the spare room instead so we can save time." She smiles before returning to what she was doing.

"Are you hungry?" She asks as she pulls away.

"What's cooking?"

"Pancakes" She smiles. That sounds good. "Why don't you go and set up the table, I'm almost done here baby." I gave her a nod and placed a kiss on her cheek before doing what she told me to do.

"Shan, can you set up the table please, I'm almost done here." I snapped out of it. That was so strange. I stood up from my stool and starts to set up the table taking plates on the dry rack like my body have a mind of its own because clearly, I'm still stuck on that short flashback I just had a while ago. I should tell her about it, I know but maybe I should just keep that to myself, I don't want to make it more awkward between us than it already is. Its a precious memory and I want to hold on to it. We were so happy back then, and so in love and I really love it when she calls me honey. Its so adorable and its making my heart skip a beat.

"Earth to Shannon!" I snap out of my daze hearing a giggle from Elizabeth who is looking at me with a weird look on her face. Then my eyes travel to the dining table which is set up already. Woah, I don't remember putting the glasses and the silverware here. That is so weird.

"I've been calling you for the past ten minutes and you've been smiling to yourself like a crazy person. Are you okay?" She laughs and I feel my face heating up with that. She just caught me smiling like a fool with a flashback I just had. That is just embarrassing.

"I was out, I'm sorry. What was it that you need?" I say with a nervous chuckle as I walked to her touching the hair on the back of my neck. She smiles at me biting her bottom lip as soon as I was in front of her and it was doing something to me. I fight the urge to just take her in my arms and squeeze her as she hands me a plate of blueberry pancakes. God, this smells so heavenly.

"Go on, I'm starving." She says so I walked towards the table setting it down on the middle, then I take my green juice from the kitchen island and put it on the table while Elizabeth puts her protein shake on it as well. I go to pull out her chair for her earning a gentle 'Thanks' from her before I sit down on the seat beside her as well.

"So what were you smiling about?" She teases as she puts two pieces of pancakes onto my plate. "Did you have a flashback?" She asks giggling in her seat.

"No, I just had a thought" I say grabbing some honey and drizzling it around my food clearly avoiding eye contact.

"You know Shan, you're still not good at lying so might as well spill it out." Fuck! This is so unfair she knows me too much. Great, so I would have to make things awkward again between us.

"Alright, I had a flashback."

"So what is it all about?" She asks and I sighed before taking a bite of my food. Oh my God, this is heaven. What? this is the best pancake I've ever tasted, better than my mom's, Casey's, Scarlett's and her mom's even at restaurants. I can fucking eat this all day.

"This is so heavenly. The best pancakes in the world." I groan ignoring the question she just asked. She giggles as she watches me but gives me a nudge on the arm still waiting for me to answer.

"Shan, what's it all about?"

"How did you make these. This are so goo-"

"Shannon Nicole!" Woah, that made me stop. Way to use my second name. On second thought does Elizabeth have a second name?

"Its about you making breakfast and making me set up the table, just like what happened earlier but in a different setting. I think it was the house you and mom are talking about." I was expecting this wind of awkwardness coming back like a hurricane but then I was a bit surprised when she smiles and nods at me. It was a genuine smile, like a smile that says 'one memory unlocked' again and It was really a relief to be honest.

"You called me by my full name." I whispered trying to point it out that she did call me that. She looks up to me with raised brows as she takes a bite of her food as well nodding her head. "Well what's your full name?" I asked and she smirks before shrugging her shoulders. Damn, she's not telling me.

"Its for me to know and you to find out." She says and that made me roll my eyes. So who do I ask? Wait, Google, Ha! I immediately took my phone and went straight to Google ignoring notifications and messages, I'm guessing from Casey or Scarlett or mom, and typed in Elizabeth Olsen's full name on the search bar.

"What are you doing?"I hear her ask

"Looking it up" She giggles shaking her head and taking quick glances at me as I wait impatiently for the results and when it showed up to my screen, my jaw dropped.

Elizabeth Chase Olsen.

Chase is her second name. What the actual fuck? and Scarlett hid this from me? Oh that fucker. I knew it, I knew there was something about that smile of hers when I told her the name of my car.

"You're Chase, my Chase-I mean my car, her name is Chase. Woah." I glanced at her and she was looking at me with the tip of her fork resting in between her lips cautiously chewing on her food. Is it coincidental that I named my car after her unaware of our history together. Now I'm trying to figure out what was I thinking when I named her that and I got nothing. All I know is, that was the first name that popped into my head.

The touch of her fingertip under my chin, raising it up to close my mouth, brought me out of my own thoughts. Alright this is freaky.

"Are you okay?" She whispers placing a hand on my shoulders and to the side of my neck and I feel electricity running through my veins at the contact and a familiar feeling that I have never felt before. I looked at her

"Why didn't you tell me your second name is Chase?" She smiles, this time it was a smile that is calming, a smile that tells me 'its okay'. She takes off her hand from my neck and sighs.

"It really didn't matter and besides-" She takes another bite of her food and shrugs. "Its kind of cute how you, unconsciously, named your car after me. How strange is that?" She chuckles trying to make the situation less awkward than it already is. But I'm still in a state of shock trying to take it all in. There are like billions even more names in the world that I could've named my car,but then it all comes back to hers. Is that coincidental or fate is just playing with us all over again.

"Shan, hey. Snap out of it, its not that big of a deal. Its just a name." She says giggling in her seat. I stared at her in disbelief.

"Its kind of a big deal to me Elizabeth." I whispered sincerely and she stops staring into my eyes and I smile, a heartfelt one. "Its your name." I paused and her eyes travels down to my lips then to my eyes and there is that urge again but this time, it was the urge to kiss her, with our eyes connecting with each other, the fluttering sensation in my stomach and my heart running at a 140 beats per minute.

She breaks eye contact and clears her throat before drinking half of the contents of her protein shake. Well, that was intense.

"Uh- we need to get moving or we'll be late." She says in a hurry finishing off her food as I drank all of the contents of my green juice before finishing of my food as well. The plan of fading the awkwardness between us is clearly not going to the way I wanted and somehow I think I'm just making it worse. God, this is so hard.