Chapter 74

Chapter 74: (Eminem's Point Of View!!)

 *Two Weeks Later!*

Two weeks have passed since Madelyn's pass. Things with Helena are not so good. She’s really depressed and she spends most of her time in bed. Her birthday was last week and she didn't even get out of bed. I am still mot good from what happened but Helena is much worse than me. Sometimes she won’t even eat. The only people that can actually get her out of bed sometimes is Hailie and Laney. I have tried to talk to her and tried to make her feel better but I think if I talk to her more about Madelyn she feels even worse. Her family even tried helping but nothing worked. I am really worried about her because I don't want her to get sick.

"Helena. Do you want to go downstairs with me? I will make you something to eat." I told her as I sat on the edge of the bed.

"No... I just want to stay here. I am not hungry." She replied.

What breaks my heart even more is that Helena also spends a lot of time in Madelyn's room. She just sits in the rocking chair. Now she does not cry as much but she does have those moments when she breaks down. Shit I still break down too especially when I think about how it would have been if she was still here. The other day I tried to take apart Madelyn's crib and Helena went crazy. She got so mad at me but I understand her. Hailie and Laney are doing a little better too. I am just trying to keep my family together. I have to start recording and I have to finish Encore by November but I don't want to leave Helena. I hope that I can do this.

(Helena's Point Of View!!)

 These past weeks have been horrible. I feel so depressed. Honestly I feel like no one can do or say anything to make me feel better. Marshall sometimes has his moments where he breaks down but I seriously feel like I don't want to feel better. As if I deserve all this pain. People expect me to feel better and to act like nothing happened but I lost my daughter... Right now all I need to do is mourn and get my head straight.

 "Helena. You need to go out. You just can’t isolate yourself. You need to be around people that love you. Do you want to go to the studio with me? Dre will be there." Marshall told me.

 "No Marshall. I just want to stay here okay." I told him.

 "Okay. I love you." He said.

 I didn't say anything back. He left the room. My favorite place now is Madelyn's room. When Madelyn passed away it was all over the TV and magazines. Julie and Caroline stay with me all day. I don't plan on going back to work anytime soon. I feel as if it’s my fault that Madelyn isn't here. I hate myself for feeling this way but I can’t help it. Maybe if I did things differently she would be here. Marshall really been there for me even though I try and push him away. I pray to God that he gives me the strength to get through this.