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Hyunjin's POV

Just standing being here, watching her pretend to be busy and not sad hurts me. I never planned nor hoped to ruin them both. Actually, I know it'll hurt me but hoping for their happiness makes me happy as well. Felix is my friend whom I would always tell my problems and worries in life. He is such a nice one and would always be there for us. I like Chaerin but that is not enough reason for me to ruin them. Just by liking her in secret is enough for me, I'd rather keep everything to myself and be hurt as I watch them be happy. But... I didn't know everything between them will end so soon.

I am currently here outside the Love Orphanage, inside my car watching Chaerin water the plants while wearing her casual clothes. I know it's hard for the both of them but it's harder for Chaerin. She never wanted to let go but she has to. How can being in love hurts so bad? Can they just be happy without suffering and still end up together? If only I can do something for them. I would gladly do it, even if it means hurting myself.

I got out of my car "Ahn Chaerin"

She looked at me and smiled "Hi!" she greeted as she ran towards me "What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in your school?"

"Dad knew about what happened- I mean about us being engaged to each other. Mom also heard about it and they want to meet you today. They begged me to bring you. So... Can you have a little time for them? They would never stop whining about it. I am sorry-"

"Why would be sorry? I owe you one. I would gladly meet them. Can you wait?" she asked

I nodded "Hmm. I'll wait here"

Chaerin hurriedly went inside.

So, this is her home. I should be glad that after what happened she can still smile. I know it's because of all the people around her. They are probably not letting her be sad and would always talk to her from time to time.  She is such an angel for not making it hard for everyone. She rather be hurt in secret than make everyone worry.

She will go with me because she owe me something will always be a pain to me. I want her to come with me because she wants to, I want her to marry me because she loves to, I want her to be happy with me like how she felt when she was with Felix. But I think that wouod never happen.

I am not Felix. I am not the guy she loves....

And I would never be that guy.

After a few minutes, she came out of the big house wearing some simple clothes but what makes her even more beautiful? It's her, wearing her smile...

We both left the Love Orphanage and got in my car. I drove to my house as fast but as careful as I can. I have her now, I can't lose her. I don't want to lose her. I should take care of her just to make Felix feel at ease to see Chaerin fine. I know I am like taking an advantage but I want to be selfish as well. 

I want to be selfish and I want her to love me like how she loves Felix. I can always start at the bottom and earn everything as much as possible. Just seeing her and Felix before makes me feel like I am supposed to be that guy making you smile. If only I took my chance and made a move. If only I was not confuse with what I feel when I saw her, she is not probably hurt now. I know it's bad to think of such, like not making them end up together. Still, I want to hope even on my mind. Just this one...

As we arrived, I parked the car and we both entered the house.

"This is my home"

She smiled "This is simple and much better than what I was expecting. This feels really nice"

"Hmm... I am glad my house made a good first impression"

Chaerin chuckled "Even the house should make a good first impression?"

"Of course, if you feel nice being here and comfortable. That makes me feel like you can come back here because you feel like it was your own home. You are always welcome here"

"Thanks... I should really come back here-"

"Ahn Chaerin?" Mom called as she got out of the kitchen "Oh my gosh! You look gorgeous! I heard that you are really a nice-"

"Mom"

"Sorry for her. I am Hyunjin's Dad. We already met each other, right?" Dad smiled at her

Chaerin bowed "I am Ahn Chaerin-"

"My fiance"

Mom chuckled "Let's go" she said and dragged Chaerin to the dining room, followed by Dad

Just seeing Mom and Dad getting along with Chaerin makes me feel happy. So, this is what Felix felt when his Mom and Dad met Chaerin? I can feel how happy Felix is. Now, I am also  happy to see them. It was like I am meant to help them and feel this temporary happiness.

Right. Temporary happiness..

I know sooner or later.

I will feel the pain that I kept avoiding as much as I can...

It doesn't matter to me no matter how much am I going to be hurt soon. For now...

I want to be happy.