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Felix's POV

Why can't I sleep?

I did everything I can. I watched movies, listened to songs and even read books to fall asleep. But why the hell am I still awake? Why?!

I took my phone and sent a message..

To: Chaerin

I suggest you to stop running. Aren't you tired?

From: Chaerin

I am not running.

To: Chaerin

Oh, really? You are running on my mind.

From: Chaerin

HA HA. What do you want?

To: Chaerin

I can't sleep :((

From: Chaerin

And why is that?

To: Chaerin

I don't know really..

She didn't reply after my last message. I wonder if she fell asleep already or doing something? I hope she is sleeping well.

Someone knocked on my door. I quickly stood and opened it. I saw Chaerin standing in front of my door "Chaerin? Why are you here? I thought you are sleeping-"

Chaerin hugged me "I hope you can sleep now"

A smile curved on my lips as I hugged her back "I am energized even more. How can I sleep now?"

"Ya. I hugged you to make sure you will sleep" Chaerin said between our hug

I kissed her forehead "Hmm... I will sleep after"

She let go of the hug "Good night. You better sleep now" she said and hurriedly ran downstairs

I smiled as I missed how she hugged me tight, although she just left. I just find it cute, how she made an effort to go upstairs to hug me and make sure I will sleep. I feel much better but I am not sleepy. I closed the door and lied down on my bed.

Why is she so sweet? She would always show me that she is annoyed of me everytime I try to kiss her or what. But I realized that she likes hugs more than kisses. I have never seen this side of her when she would hug me just to make sure I will feel better. Now I have seen this side of her, I feel like I will need it forever.

I wore my hoodie and got out of my room. I left the palace and walked around. I still can't sleep. I feel like I need more hugs as much as possible. It would be perfect.

To: Chaerin

Are you sleeping? Can you go out here? I am taking some fresh air.

I can't afford to lose her anymore. I mean I am in that part where I already felt lucky and blessed to have her. She changed my life so much and I am grateful for that. She did so much for me and I will always be thankful. I will do everything for her to be happy. No matter what that is.

"Why are you still awake? And why do you want to see me?" Chaerin asked as she got out of the palace

"I just want to tell you about my dream"

"What's your dream?" Chaerin

I held her hand tight and smiled "To witness everything with you"

"My dream is to sleep" Chaerin

She is crazy hahaha..

I hugged her tight "You are the best gift I have ever had"

She didn't say anything and hugged me back as tight as she can... I needed this..

We both went and sat on the bench near the fountain and garden. We watched how tge water flows naturally and smoothly.

"To be specific, my dream is to have a normal life with you. No media and problems about the country to solve. Just a normal and happy life with the reason why I am happy. You know already that I grew up facing cameras and doesn't even have much privacy. I can't even do things like what my friends does. I am always walking somewhere in private where there's no people at all. Actually, my dream is to have a normal life only but ever since you came to my life. I dreamed of having a normal life with you now"

"Then, that means you don't want to be a King anymore?" she asked

"I never wanted to be a King, not even once. I experienced the struggles when I am a Prince, how can I handle new struggles when I am a King. I already experienced it why would I dream of experiencing it, again?"

"I was just asking, crazy hahaha. Anyway, your Father is not going to be mad, right? I mean your Father wants you to be a King but you don't want the position" Chaerin

"He can give it to Donghyun or someone who deserves it. Someone who can sacrifice their whole life for the country. A King is required to serve the country as much as he can"

She nodded "No wonder your Father is such a busy person. I am not against your decision and I also wanted to have a normal life. But I hope your Father will let you"

"I will talk to him about it. I just hope he will really let me"

Chaerin held my hand tight "Your Father loves you so much and he is willing to do everything to make you happy. He said you deserve everything in life"

I chuckled "He probably told you that in a serious way. He would never told me such since we both hate cringe conversation. We are always straight forward and not saying cheesy lines"

Just sitting here with Chaerin makes me want to live a normal life with her even more. I am always thankful fo her and I will do everything to make her happy.

I will sacrifice everything for her happiness.