Chapter Nineteen: Oh How the Turn Tables

"I told you to be good!" he snapped at me, grabbing my hand and tugging me closer "you know what happens when you disobey" he growled and raised his arm.

I gasped awake before he could hit me. I felt like i couldn't breath. I also didn't know where i was. It was pitch black. Oh god. Not again. I started to cry and got up, touching the bed where i was laying; looking for blood. Someone grabbed both my arms and i screamed.

"He's dead!" i shrieked "you killed him" i I felt like i was back in donny's room for the first time once again. I just knew the baby was going to be a boy... i don't know how- but i knew.

"Shhh" he breathed "you're safe" dave said and stroked my skin softly. He put one of his hands up to my cheek. I crawled back next to him and sobbed. He turned on the lamp and light illuminated the room.

"He can't hurt you, baby" he whispered, holding me close to him "i love you" he said, his hand running through my hair rhythmically. I clawed at his skin- not on purpose... but i couldn't help it. I couldn't get him close enough to me. But he made me feel so safe. Eventually after who knows how long my breathing evened out again and i wasn't scratching his skin. I don't think he really minded, but i still felt bad. When i felt secure enough i lifted my head from his chest. I looked at the scratches on his back. They were bleeding. I covered my mouth with my hand and looked at him. He held my hand

"Dave-" i choked "dave oh my god, honey i'm so sorry" i got up and went to the kitchen, getting a washcloth so i could clean up where i'd hurt him. It hurt me to hurt him. I was sobbing as i put it on his shoulders.

"It's okay" dave chuckled "I've had worse" he was right, the wound wasn't serious at all but i felt so terrible "trust me, just go back to sleep"

"I can't" i whispered and he opened up his arms for me to hug him. I crawled on his lap and he put his arms on my hips holding me here. I wrapped my arms around his neck. It felt so good. I wanted him to hold me there forever until the end of time. i wished i wasn't in this whole mess. Because i'd have to go back to donny sooner or later. He wouldn't just let this go. But dave was so warm. He made me feel safe and happy.

"Did someone die?" he asked softly in my ear. I pressed myself closer to him and bit my lip. I couldn't tell him. It would break his heart even more than me being gone. But thankfully i didn't have to tell him at all... i was already pregnant again. I didn't answer him, though, and he didn't ask again.

He didn't make me go to school the next day- thank god. Around six in the morning dave called junior over to hang out with me so i didn't get scared or bored while dave slept. Because damn he needed it. So me and junior sat on dave and i's bed, playing cards while dave layed next to me; his head in my lap as i gently ran my hands through his hair while he slept quietly.

"So, it was donny?" he asked, clarifying what i'd just told him. I wasn't sure why i was telling it all to him- but i didn't want to hold it in. i nodded and played my cards.

"He was horrible" i said quietly "he had the grossest fantasies... and he always called me his pet" i cringed, and so did junior "he made it seem like i had all this freedom, but really, i didn't. Sometimes if i wasn't good enough he'd lock me in various rooms for days on end. Only coming in if he wanted something... he told me that he wanted me because i was young- and dating dave. He's got some sort of weird obsession with getting me pregnant, and i'm basically his princess" i said, trying my hardest not to cry. He touched my shoulder.

"That must have been scary... im proud of you" he said and gave me the biggest smile. And- well it really helped. He won the game, but only because i let him.

"Tell me more detail about dave hitting james" i asked and david set down his cards. He grinned a little and got more comfortable

"Well- he made me go with him, he told me 'i might kill him if im alone' so i had to go" he said "he was so mad. The next day after you went missing dave got worried so he was searching everywhere for you. Then dave went home and donny was here with reaper? he told dave you hit on him or something, and then dave put two and two together and realized james must have told you that dave cheated and went to their house... then he found james and punched him in the nose- broke it real bad" he grinned "there was blood everywhere- but i dragged him back here before he could break anything else" that suddenly made me think of something. The puppy donny got me... she was still there. I hadn't even named her. I didn't want anything to do with her. Shit, i couldn't leave her there.

"Junior" i hissed quietly, trying not to wake dave "you have to come with me- i need to go back to donny's to get something" he laughed

"Really? You can't be serious... jackie he'll hurt you or something, it can't be that important" he said

"Junior, please" i begged "i'll do anything for you" he smirked

"You've got to hug me like your in love with me- then let me kiss you on 'accident' in front of sam, so she'll leave me" i wasn't totally sure dave would go for that- but i was desperate.

"Fine fine" i groaned "but we need to get gar on board too- he's scary" junior agree and i gently got out from under dave and looked at him. As soon as i wasn't touching him he woke up, but only halfway.

"Jackie?" he asked, totally out of it. I kneeled next to the mattress and stroked his hair again

"shhh" i whispered and kissed the top of his head "just go back to sleep"

"I love you so much" he said. I smiled and he closed his eyes again and we walked out of the apartment. Gar lived down a floor in our building. Convenient, but i didn't like him much. It would take some time for me to warm up to him- i just didn't know him well enough yet.

"Gar!" i yelled and knocked on the door. We always had to yell when we wanted him to actually open the door. He was either sleeping, jacking off, or shooting up. I think that was all he knew how to do.

"Oh, you're back?" he asked. He must have been sleeping or something, i didn't think he was high. I rolled my eyes

"Yeah, yeah" i said "i need you to come with us somewhere and look mean" he grinned at that

"I most certainly can do that, but you'll owe me" i groaned again "you've got to get me some special honey, and a date with junior's girl" he shrugged. I sighed and agreed. We went to donny's house. Being there made me shiver. It was a really nice house, and i felt so out of place there. But i didn't mind not really having money. I was happy just being with dave, i didn't need it. Donny felt like he needed to spoil me for me to love him. He had the wrong idea of love.

"Where are we, exactly?" gar asked. He was pretty cute. He had on black jeans, a black tank top, and leather gloves for when he was drumming.

"Nowhere, i just need to take something i forgot" i said and gar snickered

"It's always the worst when you leave something behind from a hookup" he said, and i glared at him. He smiled. He was such an ass all the time.

I'd thought of ever single way to get out of that house in my duration there- so i knew just how to get back in. it was around two in the afternoon- so donny was definitely at work. I didn't actually know what he did for a living- i never asked. We snuck in through the back door, which i figured would be the easiest to get in and out of if he came back.

When we got in, i found her; or, she found us. She ran to me and i picked her up. I felt something wet on my arm... it was blood. But it was fresh.

"Welcome back, my love" i heard him say "brought some friends, i see?" i froze and looked up. There he was. Sitting in an armchair with a gun pointed straight towards me. "What did i tell you to do, jackie?" he asked, sweetly.

"To wait for you" i whispered and the puppy was squirming around in my arms, whimpering. She had no idea. She was hurt; not too bad, but she needed some help. Donny nodded

"And where have you been?" he asked, his voice on edge. I bit my lip. Would he shoot me?

"With junior" i said "i'm sorry" but donny just laughed. He stood up and walked closer to me, his face inches from mine.

"You're going to be, i assure you" he growled "but what's stopping me from shooting you right now" he put the gun to my head. I looked him in the eyes.

"Because i'm pregnant" he smiled. He wouldn't hurt me now.

"Good" he said "i told you every time would pay off" he said proudly. He had no idea how much pain he'd caused me. "I'm sorry my pet, i've got to kill your friends now"

"No!" i screamed. I handed the puppy to junior and walked into the kitchen- about to make a pretty bold move. I looked around in the cupboards for bleach. I unscrewed the cap and looked at donny "let them go, or

i'll drink it" i threatened. He looked conflicted. He put the gun down. Good.

"If you tell anybody, i'll hurt you so bad you'd wish you were dead. Now get out" he said, trying to be calm. I looked to them and nodded, smiling weakly

"Go" i whispered urgently, and they left without another word, dog in arms. And there i was, back to the beginning. Shit.