Chapter 7: Every Little Thing

{shit man, that took forever. School is really taking a toll on my mental energy lately.. sorry if the chapters are super spaced out in publishing date or just shitty in quality lmao. im trying}

I wasn't sure what exactly i should do about school. I needed to go, but all my stuff was with Dave. He needed to cool off. Or maybe he was being serious about never seeing me again, and that scared me. I decided to just go, and tell the teacher i'd lost it. All of it...

"Your telling me you lost all your school supplies?" my english teacher raised an eyebrow. I nodded.

"I'm sorry... i had it all done, i just. Its gone" he sighed

"I'll give you the credit... but just because your my favorite" he said softly and pushed my hair behind my ear. I looked down. The bell rang and students flooded in. he started the lesson and i sighed. It was like that for the next two weeks. I was alone again. I felt empty. I wanted badly to run into him at the store, but i couldn't make myself leave the apartment. It had been so long since dave wasn't a part of my life. I wanted him back. Every day i would wait for a while on the front lawn of the school, just in case... but he was never there. He was really gone.

The last bell rang and i shuffled out of the classroom. Jerry was waiting at my locker. I sighed and opened it, putting some things in it. I felt detached from the world in such a way i could be so rude and insensitive i didn't even feel it. I'd never been like that anymore.

"Jackie, are you okay?" he asked, worried "you've been way off lately" he said rubbing the back of his neck. I closed the locker door and stared at him. I thought about it.

"I'm dying" i said and shrugged slightly. He raised an eyebrow

"What do you mean your-" he said but i cut him off

"Stop" i said and walked off. I wasn't going to wait for him today. I was done.

I was halfway home- not really home. Nowhere was home anymore -when he stopped me. Grabbing my hand, he turned me to face him. I melted. He looked like shit. He had sunglasses on, which i would only assume meant he was nursing a pretty bad hangover. He just looked... tired. Hurt. I couldn't bring myself to say anything, so he did for me

"I'm sorry" he croaked "im sorry" he repeated softly. I wasn't sure who was even to blame here. Was it my fault he was mad? Yes but he was the one that kicked me out. So should i be mad? I didn't know. But i wasn't.

"Why are you sorry" i said and turned around, keeping walking. He walked with me.

"I shouldn't have been so harsh" he said "it wasn't my place to judge... just i was mad. I felt betrayed, you know?" i nodded slightly

"I know" i mumbled. Then there was silence. For a long time. I got to the apartment and opened the door.

"Come back" he whispered, before i walked in, his eyes pleading "please i need you. I'm going crazy" I believed him. I knew how he felt. He needed me just as much as I needed him. I nodded and he hugged me tightly

"I missed you so bad" he said, holding me as close to him as possible. He smelled like vodka

"I missed you too" i whispered "hows reaper" i asked and pulled away smiling warmly. He grinned

"He's alright, but he misses his mom" he said and kissed me quickly. I guess i needed to tell James what i was doing

"Wait here" i said. He frowned when he realized where we were. I guess he was so set on getting me back he hadn't realized where we were walking. I crept into james's room and he wasn't there, but kirk was. He seemed to be the only one home. He smiled brightly at me when i walked in

"Hey, jackie" he smiled. I was smiling too. I felt happier "whats up" he was sitting on his bed, playing guitar. I frowned at the thought of telling him. He was so sweet. And even when i was rude he was always comforting and watched movies with me.

"I uh" i said "i have to go. I'm moving in with dave" his expression was hurt

"But i thought you guys weren't together" he protested "stay" he begged "i like it when your here" i sighed and bit my lip

"Kirk" i whined "we can still hang out. I promise. Stop by whenever you want and we can watch movies, or go to the comic shop" he tossed his guitar aside and hugged me

"Okay" he said "i'll see you tomorrow then" i giggled

"That soon?" i asked and pulled away, looking at him. He nodded in satisfaction. He was like a little kid

"Yup" i nodded and told him to tell everyone else. I took the few things i had and made my way out to dave, who was sitting on the sidewalk looking at his hands. I stood behind him and played with his hair. He leaned back his head and smiled at me. I leaned down and kissed him.

"Lets go home" i said and held out my hand so he'd grab it. But instead he pulled me down on his lap. I put my arms around his neck and grinned at him. His hands were on my hips and he put his face close to mine

"I'm never letting you go again" he whispered, his lips just barely touching mine.

"good because I'm staying" I whispered back

"look there he is!" I heard Lars call right before I was about to kiss him. I looked over and there was James, Lars, and Cliff. they must've gone to the store while I was at school.

"go talk to them before I punch one" he growled. I reluctantly got off him. I didn't want to let go. I kissed the top of his head before heading over to the boys. I jammed my fists in my pockets

"Jackie what are you doing" James said quietly. he was the only one that knew what was going on. the others just thought we just broke up and that was the whole story.

"nothing" I muttered "I'm moving back with him" I said. he looked mad. I dragged him out of hearing distance of Dave and he scoffed at me

"he kicked you out because you were pregnant!" he said bitterly "now your just going to go back to him just like that?"

"yeah well who got me there in the first place" I muttered "and he was angry. you kicked him out, and when he finds out I slept with someone who wronged him, he's going to be mad!" I almost yelled

"your being so stupid!" he yelled back "I doubt he even loves you... he just wants you for sex and so you'll clean for him" he spat. I gasped. I couldn't believe he said that

"well your wrong" I yelled and took off the ring he gave me. I shoved it at him "you can take this back... I don't want it anymore" I huffed and stalked off back to Dave. he grinned at me

"that's my girl" he mumbled and stood up, putting an arm around me. we walked off together, his arm around me tightly. I swear I heard James call me a slut as we walked off.

when we got back to the apartment reaper jumped up on me and greeted me with kisses, his tail wagging furiously.

"aww baby I missed you" I whined and kissed the top of his head. Dave chuckled and opened a beer, sitting up on the counter. I sat my stuff in our room, which was a mess.

"Have fun while i was gone?" i asked and giggled. He shook his head. I took the beer and sipped some, then handed it back to him

"Not at all" i nodded

"So you binged then" i said raising an eyebrow. He nodded, ashamed. I rolled my eyes

"It's okay, mustaine" i joked and stood up taller and kissed him softly. I missed that. He pulled away, grinning like crazy

"Can i have the pleasure of giving you your present now?" he wined softly. I shook my head and giggled

"Not noww" i said "i just got home, and plus reaper is here" he rolled his eyes

"Once we do it you'll be begging" he said cockily

"Is that so?" i asked. That was it for me. I smirked. He bit his lip. I looked down, then up back to his eyes. I loved teasing him. He looked eager

"How about i make you the one that begs for more" i said in a soft seductive voice. He nodded. I wouldn't think he'd be the type to let me take any control. I knew he wasn't. Maybe he just was desperate for me to do something, or he felt bad about kicking me out.

"Please" he whispered and smirked. I totally went down on him (yes im not going into toO much detail cuz y'all really don't need to have a nice picture painted of what goes on in my head).

"Je taime ma femme" he moaned under his breath. I wasn't sure what it meant. when I was done he pulled me back up to his eye level, then kissed up and down my neck roughly, but sweetly. I pushed him off me gently, giggling.

"I never knew..." he mumbled, satisfied. I grinned

"that I was that good? well practice makes perfect" I winked, sucked his bottom lip while I moved my hands through his hair, and took his beer from him. I went into our room to sit in bed and do some homework. I was halfway into looking through my notes when i realized dave was laying on his stomach on the bed, staring at me

"Yes?" i asked looking up, grinning at him softly

"Your just going to ignore what just happened?" he mused. I shrugged

"Not like we really did anything" i laughed a little

"Then lets do something" he said smirking, but his tone was in a slight whine. I shook my head and sighed, looking at him.

"Homework" i said and looked back down at my work. Out of the corner of my eye i saw him shove his face in a pillow and sigh deeply. I rolled my eyes and threw my pillow at him and continued doing my work. Dave pulled himself up and was playing with the rips in my jeans. I couldn't concentrate

"Do you think i'm a slut?" i asked bluntly. His fingers stopped moving for a fraction of a second after i'd asked, but he resumed.

"No" he said not looking up from my jeans "why?" i took in a deep breath, and let it out slowly

"Just wondering" i said quietly and stared at his hands. I liked them, in a non odd way. I just liked everything about him. Every little thing...

"I love you" he said and leaned over to kiss me. I looked in his eyes and he stopped before his lips met mine. He frowned "your eyes are sad... i thought you were happy being back" i chuckled weakly

"I am happy" i said, and he raised an eyebrow "i swear" i whined and pushed the hair out of his eyes "im just upset i guess" he nodded and wrapped his arms around me in a big hug

"Im not letting you go until you feel better" he said and i giggled softly. He had his flaws... but he was still a good guy. Thats what other people who don't like him don't understand. He's a good guy underneath the anger. He has emotion other than hate. He was sweet, and driven, and funny among other things. After what felt like hours he let me go and kissed the top of my head.

"No more being sad" he ordered "now finished your school work right now" he said grinning, pretending to be angry and got up, heading out of the room. I saw him put a leash on Reaper and take him outside. I sighed and got to work. Things were back to normal.