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Where is my mind- pixies ————————————————————————It was the day after the whole ordeal with Lilith's depressive episode. She was still stuck in it, but feeling slightly more productive today, sat on the couch in her comfies (pyjamas) with Suze and Lexi on the other couch, and Maddy next to her.

They were all watching a random movie on the tv and eating popcorn, content in themselves and their surroundings.

Lilith looked down at her bowl of popcorn, sighing as she played around with the little fluffy kernels of sweet and salty goodness.

"Whatsup babydoll?" Maddy asked softly from beside her, gently shaking the girls leg a bit to get her attention.

Lilith looked up, mentally scolding herself for what she was about to ask.

"How do you know when you like someone." She asked, pursing herself after and watching as maddy raised her eyebrows, lexi and Suze also now focused on the conversation.

"Does he make you feel warm and fuzzy when you're with him?" Maddy asked. Lilith just nodded her head yes and waited for maddy to continue.

"Do you feel like you can trust him with anything and everything, and like he'll protect you from everything that comes your way?" She said, making lilith nod yes again.

"Does he make your stomach do somersaults and your heartbeat quicken and your palms go sweaty?" Another nod yes. "Does the mere thought of him make you wanna smile and laugh and throw parties and roll around giggling like a giddy schoolgirl?"

Lilith nodded yes again, waiting in anticipation.

"Oh baby, you don't like that kid." Maddy sighed, looking down and picking up a piece of popcorn, eating it before looking up at Lilith's perplexed expression.

"You love him."

———————————After Maddy had told lilith she infact loved ashtray, she'd waited to the end of the movie and instantly ran upstairs, throwing her clothes on, doing her usual makeup and brushing her hair before running downstairs, pulling her shoes on and leaving the house.

She needed a walk, she was still depressed as shit and she needed fresh air. But, she also needed to see her two favourite white boys, so she decided that a walk to the store was the best idea.

She heard her phone ding in her back pocket as she walked along the path, pulling it out and instantly grinning at the notification that lit up her phone.

Ash❤️Yo shawty, how u feelin today beautiful?

Her cheeks heated up and she grinned at the new nickname. Beautiful! He thinks I'm beautiful! She ogled to herself before clearing her throat, still grinning as she typed a response. Shawty📌🫶🏻Hey handsome! I'm doing a better today. Mind if I pop to the store to see u? Gotta get some fresh air n whatever :)

She sighed, pushing her phone back into her pocket while waiting for his response, still walking to the store.

She was so happy to realise that she finally knew what these once foreign feelings are. She'd never felt this way about someone before, it was all new to her but she was starting to get to grips with it all, realising that maybe ash really was more than just a friend to her.

Plus, "just friends" don't have that many moments and almost-kisses right? She was literally best friends with Fez and she never had those moments with him, so why would it be a just friends situation when she did those things with ashtray?

Her phone dinged again, and she instantly pulled her phone out, grinning again at his response.

Ash❤️Of course princess, jus slow ur steps a bit, gotta sort some business shit out first:)

Shawty📌🫶🏻Okay! I'll be there in 20 then<3 Read 5:32pm

She slowed her pace a bit, knowing she was only 10 minutes from the store, pulling her AirPods out her pocket and connecting them before playing one of the songs from her playlist.

"With your feet on the air and your head on the ground." She sang quietly, walking happily down the road as the sun shone hotly down on her.

She continued singing along to the song, admiring her surroundings as it was one of the first times she got to truly look at her new neighbourhood without any distractions.

Well, that was until a car started to roll up beside her, the drivers side window rolling down to reveal a girl with long straight blonde hair, a boy with curly brown hair and bleached ends, and rue in the backseat. She pulled her AirPods out, waiting for someone to talk as she looked at the three in confusion.

"Yo, lil sis I know you prolly going to see ash or some shit right now but u wanna smoke a blunt first?" Rue asked, making Lilith stop and think for a second before nodding, opening a backseat and getting in.

She noticed how the rolling paper was her favourite, strawberry, and how the two unknown people in the front were already off their minds from smoking too much weed.

"Are you sure she's safe to drive?" Lilith asked apprehensively, pointing at the blonde.

"Yeah she's cool, she's a safe driver either way." Rue giggled before lighting the blunt and taking a few long drags, handing it over to Lilith afterwards.

Lilith took a deep drag, her body instantly relaxing against the seat behind her as she smiled and took another drag.

"I'm jules by the way, and this is Elliot." The blonde girl said softly before smiling at the younger girls mellowed out state.

Lilith looked up at the two and smiled, "Lilith, but call me lils or some shit I don't know." She answered, before passing the blunt back to rue.

"You mind taking me to fezco's shop? I need to talk see him and ash." She asked jules, who nodded and hummed in response, starting to drive again.

She looked down at her phone that was now in her lap and noticed that it had already been ten minutes since she last messaged ash, and they still had another five minute drive to the store, especially with jules's slow careful pace.

Music blared out the speakers as they drove down the road, all of them singing along happily while Lilith and rue took long drags from the blunt, passing it between each other after every few tokes.

Once they'd rolled up beside the store, Lilith leaned forward and side hugged both Jules and Elliot, thanking them for the lift before turning to rue and hugging her, thanking her for the weed.

She got out the car and shut the door behind herself, watching the three musketeers drive away before turning and walking into the store.

"Oh, hey kid! Good to see you back on yo feet again." Fez said, walking up to the girl and hugging her softy before pulling away and smiling down at her.

"Thanks fez, yeah it's been a shit few days, but your brother really helped me yesterday you know." She chuckled, before sighing and smiling at him. "Speak of the devil, is he out back?" She asked, making fez raise his eyebrows a bit and clear his throat.

"Uh, yeah but he's dealin wit sum drug shit right now kiddo, u think u can wait a minute for him to be done or whatever?" Fez asked nervously, making Lilith's interest peak as she looked over at the door to the back room.

"Yeah, I guess so." She agreed, walking over to the counter next to the til and sitting on it in front of him.

"So like, I heard about that condition thing u may have kid, and I am really sorry you know, it sounds pretty shit to live with." Fez muttered in his usual slow tone, making Lilith smile a bit.

"Yeah, it's pretty shit I guess." She giggled, scratching the back of her neck nervously before looking up at the door to the back room as it swung open, a slightly taller girl strutting out in booty shorts, tacky heels and a tube top, long heavily straightened extensions swishing behind her with every step she took, a very displeased looking ash following behind her.

Lilith felt her heart drop as the blonde turned to ash and left a sloppy kiss on his cheek, winking at him and giving a small "bye ashy!" with her stupid sickly sweet voice before leaving, ignoring the other twos presences completely.

Ash sighed and rubbed his cheek in disgust, rolling his eyes before muttering, "I fucking hate that girl man." And then turning to see fez and Lilith sat there, their face emotionless.

Lilith knew ash well enough to know that he probably wouldn't do shit with a woman like her. But she also couldn't help that sinking feeling in her gut, as she stared at him with a blank expression on her face, trying to decipher exactly how she felt in that moment.

Because, who knew what was going on in that back room between the two of them?

Authors note: Lilith is such a stupid bitch to not fully trust ash 🙄🙄Anyway what the fuck kinda nickname is "ashy" it's actually gross 😭

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