MISSING HIM

Song recommendation: Space song by Beach house.

"Felix come downstairs for dinner!"

Felix heard chan's loud voice echoing from downstairs. The silver head gave a last glance at the neck chain before putting the ornament back in to the drawer then pushing it close.

The male got of his bed walking downstairs.

"You Dorito face get your own plate!"

Jisung yelled at changbin as he keep on pulling on to the white plate which the older also pull on to from the other side.

"All the other dishes are dirty and I was holding this first, fucker!!!"

"Correction he don't fuck he get fucked."

Minho said as he started serving himself the food. Chan sitting down with a heavy sigh leaving the male's plumb lips as he watch the usual chaos.

"Did you just call me a bottom!?"

Jisung asked finally pulling the plate out of Changbin's hands.

"Jisung I will slice your dick off in your sleep if you don't give it back!!"

Changbin shout.

Once again minho spoke but now turning around giving jisung a flirty look with a playful smirk.

"No don't, we need it."

"We!?"

The blue head asked, His eyes widen, His cheeks flushed red in colour making minho to just smirk more widely before turning around and continue eating his food.

Felix walk downstairs catching everyone attention on him. The boy kept his gaze lowered, His silver hair all messed up, Still in his pj's from yesterday night. His hyungs barely got a glimpse of him today as the freckled male was locked up inside his own room the whole day.

Chan glance at jisung and changbin who stood there watching felix take his seat. The room fell in to a pin drop silence at seeing the state of the boy, They hated seeing their friend losing his brightness and looking all drained out.

"Changbin take my plate, I will go get myself and Felix another one."

Chan said as he stood up from his seat but changbin stop the older.

"No it's fine hyung..I will go get it."

With that the small male walk to clean the dishes. If someone had already did this earlier they wouldn't had to struggle with this now.

Jisung sat beside minho, Facing felix who stared down at the table in silence. His eyes were dark and tired as it transfixed on to the table.

"Hey Lix how are you feeling?"

The younger avert his gaze to the dark blue head.

"Like shit.."

He said with his dry and deep voice. Changbin came back putting a clean plate infront of the freckled male and then sitting at the chair beside the younger Australian.

They started serving them selves, soon digging in their food. Every other dinner would be so loud with them but today it was so silent..Very unusual.

"You didn't respond to sungho hyung? He said you weren't responding to his texts so he got worried and called me to ask if you were fine, He even tried to call you.."

Jisung said making felix stop his motion. The chop stick gripping tightly over the food placed on the table as he heaved a heavy sigh.

"I don't feel like talking to him...And i even promised to give my response to his confession but now I don't know what I am gonna do.. I don't feel anything towards him anymore."

The last words that left felix mouth led everyone to wear a surprised expression.

"You don't feel anything towards him??"

Chan asked his eyes fixed on the silver head, who never lift his eyes up from the plate. The freckled male shook his head.

"Ha! I told you sungho's dick wasn't it! I can smell good dicks!"

Minho deadpanned.

"Shut the fuck up hyung."

Changbin said from across the table shutting the light brown head up.

"It's all messed up. All these chaos of those monsters, The way I have no idea how to respond to sungho hyung, And how hyunjin is refusing to talk to me. Everything is driving me crazy!"

Felix yell out as everyone went silent once again.

Tears brim up inside the freckled male's eyes as the boy closed it. He wished everything could just come to an end.

Chan loose his grip around the chop sticks, The wooden sticks falling on the plate loosely. The male stood up walking closer to the silver hear, Before hugging from behind. Sharing his warmness to the silver head's cold figure. The older male placed his chin on top of the younger's shoulder.

"I wish I could help you with any of those problems lix..But I can't doing anything. But maybe I could tell you this...Do what you heart wants to do, if you don't love sungho anymore tell him the truth, Whatever is your choice or whatever you going to do I- no actually we will always be there for you."

Tears slip of the silver head's eyes sliding down his freckled cheeks painting it with tear stains. Jisung smiled with teary eyes soon getting up to hug felix.

Soon the hug was becoming a group hug. Covering felix up with their arms. Felix felt something warm build up inside his chest, He felt so happy that he had them.

"Yes you chicken legged bitch we will always be there for you and everything will be fine soon. I promise!!"

The squirrel like boy said, Squeezing the younger under his hug.

"Yeah now stop crying you look uglier than changbin's socks."

Minho deadpanned once again.

"Yah! what's wrong with my socks, They are beautiful!!"

A small chuckle left felix mouth making his friends to also crack a small smile.

Felix was like their own little brother and seeing him cry or being upset broke their heart and seeing him smile and be happy made them also happy. Despite the fact they fight with eachother constantly they loved and cared for eachother a lot.

Felix closed the door to the bathroom. Walking closer to his bed. He raise the blanket up slowly sliding under it as the thick comforter laid on top of his body, Keeping him warm under it.

Felix warm brown orbs fell over his phone that was placed on top of the table. He stared at it for a moment before raising his hands up to grab the phone.

Switching the device on his eyes waited for a familiar name to pop up in his notification with a good night text. It was hyunjin, The older boy never failed to sent him a good night message but the last time he sent one was the day before the anniversary.

He never though he will miss the most small gesture the male did for him. Hyunjin was really important to him and now was the time when he realised it.

The phone's light fell over his freckled male as he stare of at his and hyunjin's chat room.

The sound of his thumps tapping against the screen could be heard as Felix press sent.

He knew he wouldn't get a respond or hyunjin will see it, Hyunjin would had probably mute him but he just felt like messaging him.

Hyunjin heard the notification sound, grabbing his attention from the book which he was reading.

The small crack noises from the bed could be heard as hyunjin stretch his arm out for his phone.

Hyunjin's sharp and long eyes fell over the notification, Reading the message from their rather than going to the chat room, The same way he read all the messages felix sent him earlier. He sent him a good night text, A text which he was the one who always used to sent lix.

He stare at the screen as seungmin walk out of the washroom. His eyes meeting with the sight of his older friend staring off at his phone.

"Felix?"

Seungmin asked and the long haired male nod his head, then switching the phone off and putting it away rather than replying.

He lean against the wall sitting on top of the bed, His eyes rolling up as he stare at the ceiling.

"What did he say?"

The brunette head asked as he made his bed. The sound of him hitting the bed with the bedsheet echoing through the silent room.

"Good night."

Hyunjin said. Seungmin turn around facing hyunjin who kept his gaze away.

"You still don't wanna reply?"

Hyunjin stayed silent. He was in the worst head space at the moment and he didn't felt like talking to anyone. Even if he do, he may end up blurting out something stupid and something which may hurt them. He barely even talk to seungmin nor jeongin today. Didn't even went outside the room. Everything was the same situation as Felix.

"I need some more time before talking to him again.."

Seungmin shrugged his shoulder.

"Take your time.."

He trailed off as he walk away to do something. Hyunjin gulp a limp down his eyes averting down to his hands which he fidget around with.

The lights were turned off as the long haired male lay on his side, Staring of at the phone in his hand. His hands swiping across the screen as he go through the photos in his gallery or more like going through pictures of him and felix.

He came across a video his thumb hovering over the play button before slowly clicking on it.

It was a video Jeongin took of them when they were hanging out around the park at a Sunday. Felix was dared to pick hyunjin up Bridal style.

"I think you shouldn't do this if you don't want your bones to fall apart."

Hyunjin said while laughing earning a glare from the silver head.

"I won't break my bones by picking up a chicken."

'Yah--"

Hyunjin yell was cut of to a high pitched scream which made everyone roll on the ground. Felix end up carrying the male without a warning, Now hyunjin lifted up to his arms.

"Why are they looking they got married or sum?"

Seungmin asked while laughing.

"Cause we are!"

Hyunjin shout pouting his lips for a kiss and Felix being his confident gay self pout back.

"Guys there is a no homo board outsid--"

The video came to an end leaving a small smile on hyunjin's lip. He wonder if he could still have this type of moments with Felix? He wonder if the male would be comfortable around him after knowing how he liked him..

Not a day in and he was missing felix already..

The notification of felix message was still on the notification board of Hyunjin's phone and while taking a deep breath in he tap on it, deciding to text back. Atleast to sent a good nigh back.

Mop head.

Good night Jinnie.

Sent 11:15.

You.

Good night lix.

Sent now.

With that message he decided to turn off the phone, putting the phone away. A small smile was on his face at the nick name which felix still called him.

The older male thought there was no way felix would see that text before sleeping as it was already too late but he was wrong, The freckled male was unable to sleep and that was when he heard the notification bell.

A bright smile formed on his face at seeing the male finally responding to him well at least to one of his message.

Even the small things the boys did made each other happy but hyunjin didn't knew he made felix feel like that nor did Felix.

Their heart hoped one day they will finally realise that they were meant to be together, To be by each other's sides.

Next morning.

The sound of birds chriping could be heard as the silver head woke up. The boy sat up with his hair messy, His eyes still half closed. Throwing the comforter to the side he hop off the bed, This time suprisingly waking up by the alarm rather than jisung or someone else.

He ruffled his hair, Straightening his grey locks as he make his way inside the bathroom. The male yawn standing right infront of the mirror. The sound of water running down the wash base filled his ears as lean his head down, Cupping his hands under the running water, he filled it with the cold water soon splashing it over his face which sent shivers down his spine at how cold it felt against his skin.

The male made his way back inside the room only to meet with jisung who opened the door to his room already yelling.

"GET UP- oh."

He stop midway noticing the freckled male already standing there, Fully awake.

"You finally woke up by yourself."

Jisung said in somewhat shock making Felix to chuckle lightly. The blue head walk away as Felix started packing his bag for school. The male held on to the handle of his closet opening it to find his outfit for the day. Grabbing a random hoodie and sweat pants he made his way to strip of his PJ's to the outfit.

The sound of news going on the T.V downstairs could be heard as the Australian boy rushed downstairs. His eyebrows knitted at the sight of his friends standing there and staring off at the T.V. Everyone all ready to go to school and college.

"What's going on?"

Felix asked as he walked closer to them.

"There is a Quarantine going on for a week because of the incident happened at the school, So there won't be no schools or collage and no one is allowed to go outside unless the cop or guard allows you to."

Chan explained and Felix didn't knew what to feel or speak after hearing that news.

He was going to be stuck inside this house for a week now...

First day went by like that. Everyone together inside the house, It didn't seem bad at first as felix watch movies and played games with his hyungs and then cooking together and many things which they couldn't do because of being too busy.

But then next day came and the other day... Everything pretty normal. They had a small video call with seungmin and jeongin but hyunjin was still refusing to talk.

Felix day was starting to feel incomplete without hyunjin's presence and not even being able to see him made it more worse, he started longing for him. He wish he could atleast hear his voice.

Why was he missing him so much?

Felix laid on the couch starting at the T.V where a series was going on but his focus wasn't on it, His mind was somewhere else.

Chan walked to living room noticing the spacing out freckled boy. He sat down at the small space left on the couch, Looking down at the silver head.

"Hey lix."

Hearing the familiar voice erupting from somewhere he turn his gaze to the older male who gave him a soft smile. Felix sat up, right beside Chan.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Just some stuffs.."

The boy said with a low voice.

"Hyunjin isn't still talking to you?"

Chan asked in english this time and Felix nod his head. The older male let out a sigh as he tried to calm down the boy.

"It's going to be fine felix, He told you he just need some time.."

"I understand that but I think I am already missing him like he been a big part of my life all these time and now it feels like he is disappearing from it.."

They keep on talking in English cause that was the laungage they always felt comfortable in talking to eachother.

"He isn't disappearing from your life Felix, He is just leaving for a moment and soon he will be back. I am sure he can't leave you completely like that lix."

Chan kept going on with his comforting words, Taking the younger's small hand in to his. Felix closed his eyes, taking a sharp breath in to ease his insides.

Silence filled the atmosphere between them until felix spoke, Shattering the quietness.

"I think I may have feelings for hyunjin.."

Chan's eyes widen at it as the male whip his head to the younger who avoid chan's gaze.

"I am not sure though..But from the day before the anniversary I was slowly starting to realise something.."

Felix said gulping his own saliva down his dry throat. A small smile appeared on chan's lips at hearing the news, Maybe there was a chance of curing both hyunjin's and Felix state soon.

2 days went by now it was Saturday. Felix sat on the floor beside his bed, A hoodie pull over his head as he doodle something on to the small sketch book.

Eye bags was starting to form under his tired eyes, He was sleep deprived not getting proper sleep for a whole week. He never expected he would start missing hyunjin this much. It was true when they said you won't know someone's value until they leave.

The freckled boy was now starting to fear if hyunjin was going to ignore him like this forever.

Felix wince feeling a sudden shot of pain inside his head, hurting him so bad. Tears started welling up in his eyes, It felt like his head was getting crushed by something. It must be the lack of sleep which made him feel like this.

Felix sat there crouching down with his hands over his head, Waiting for the moment when the pain ease down.

After some moments the pain started decreasing making the male to try standing up so he could get some medicine and sleep(if he can). The boy walk downstairs to the kitchen to grab a glass of water to swallow the pill down.

When he reach his destination he saw a figure sitting on the kitchen stool, His back facing him. Felix stop on his track staring at the unknown man for some moments before the said male turn his head around to face Felix.

The freckled boy's eyes widen. The dark and tired doe eyes filling with stars once again at the sight of the familiar male.

"H-hyunjin.."

The long haired male stared at him with a wide smile, The smile which bring joy to Felix. The small head ache was long gone as he stare at the male in amusement feeling happier than ever.

He took step forward as hyunjin stood up now the male looking down at the freckled boy. Silence filled the atmosphere as they stare in to each others galaxy eyes, Filled with many stars.

Felix felt a small smile appearing as he watch the older's eye smile when hyunjin smiled so brightly at him. The long haired male open his arms for a hug making felix heart to start beating rapidly, Just beating that fast for hyunjin.

The male rushed to meet hyunjin's warm embrace but all he met was with the cold air. The freckled male blink his eyes few time, Looking around at the empty kitchen. He looked forward no hyunjin in his sight anymore.

He was hallucinating...

A blush form up on felix cheeks, Feeling embarrassed at what just happened but his eyes was filling with tears.

"I am so sleep deprived.."

At hyunjin's dorm.

Hyunjin stood there alone at the washroom. Staring down at his phone.

He couldn't ignore the smaller male anymore...He wanted to talk, Talk everything out.

Hyunjin's thumb ghost over the call button thinking for the last time before calling but before any more movement there was a knock on the door along with a unfamiliar voice in the back ground.

Who was it?

To be continued~

Lix be acting like he is sleep deprived when he is actually hyunjin deprived.

I don't know this was dramatic part 2