HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU

Song recommendation: Stereotype by Stayc.

Hyunjin slam the door open to his and seungmin's dorm room, where they been staying for the past 2 days before the school reopening.

The long haired boy throw his bag to somewhere carelessly as he throw himself to his own bed. The wounds on his face still untreated.

Jeongin and seungmin followed behind. Jeongin sat on seungmin's bed opposite of hyunjin while seungmin sat on the chair of hyunjin's study table. The both younger boys stared at the older who was laying on the bed. Hyunjin noticed as he raised one of his eyebrow and asked.

"What?"

Seungmin sighed.

"Well what the fuck was that fight all about?"

"I have no fucking idea."

Hyunjin replied and soon noticed seungmin glaring at him.

"Why are you glaring at me!? It wasn't me who started it!"

"Yet you could just walk away than going for his ass."

"He slapped me across the face, I still can feel the pain."

"I mean you could had walk away before that could happen."

Hyunjin sat up now looking straight in to seungmin's eyes. Jeongin just sat there watching the two older boys talk.

"Why are you only blaming me?"

Seungmin sighed as he rub his eyes with his fingers.

"I am not, I know it was felix fault aswell."

"It was just his fault."

Hyunjin fired back now crossing his arms and placing it above his own chest, Pouting lightly. Everyone must be surprised of this man's duality but he is like this around his friends, cute, soft and a big crackhead.

"Ahhh This is gonna be so hard!"

Seungmin spoke more like to himself.

"What is?"

Hyunjin asked. Suddenly the younger of all of them spoke, Brushing his blue hair back.

"He is the lee felix we came here for."

"I know that."

"Then why did you do that all for?"

Seungmin asked worried about how they are gonna approach felix now after the incident happened between him and hyunjin.

"That small ass dude was getting on my nerves!"

Hyunjin complained.

"He isn't probably gonna let me get close to him because of me being your friend. He hates you."

"I hate him too. Hyung said that this felix dude was approachable but he is just a asshole who sees me as a punching bag."

"Well you have a punchable face so can't blame him."

Seungmin pointed out jeongin laughed at that. Hyunjin launch a pillow on the puppy like boy as he wines.

"Why are you defending him but not me? I am your bestfriend not him!!"

Jeongin stopped laughing as he finally decided to speak not wanting his hyung's to start fighting.

"Guys it's gonna be fine. He must have been not in a good mood or whatever, I can go talk to him and if he really is like that type of guy hyung mentioned, I am sure it's gonna turn out fine."

The youngest assured, Trying to calm the boys down who was worrying about how everything wasn't going along the plan.

These boys was sent here to get close to felix for a unknown reason and hyunjin was already ruining all the hard work and plan they had behind this.

"Yeah it will be fine but let me tell you I ain't going to be friends with that boy, I will help you guys with anything but don't ask me to go say sorry or something. I hate that guy with burning passion now."

Hyunjin said as he got up from his bed removing his jacket and hanging it behind the chair seungmin was sitting on as he starts to walk away to use the bathroom locking the door behind with a loud voice leaving the door.

Jeongin and seungmin looked at eachother and sighed.

"Imma go back to my dorm room. Don't fight while I am gone."

Seungmin chuckled at the blue haired boy as he respond to the younger.

"We won't mom."

Jeongin just glared at his older friend then standing up and looking for his school bag which he throw it to somewhere. As jeongin was busy looking for the bag seungmin was busy admiring the blue haired boy.

His eyes scan across the boys face. Capturing every single details of the boy. He never get tired of staring at the blue haired boys face, He was so pretty that seungmin felt like just melting away. His heart was beating fast against his chest as he watch the boy.

He been having a crush on the younger boy since the first day he met him. Something about the boy just made him love the younger so much. Every day they would hang out and everytime their skin brush against eachother he feels some kind of tingling sensation inside himself, sometimes they would cuddle and those times seungmin felt like never letting go off the younger.

He wish he could just ask him to be his but he was scared, scared that he will lose the boy if he confess his feelings. What if he reject him and then the friendship they had going downhill. Seungmin couldn't think of it so he just decide to shut his mouth for now.

"Hyung?"

He was bring back to reality when he heard jeongin's voice calling him. He flinched lightly as he hum in response.

"I am going. Good night!"

The latter said and flash a smile at him making the taller to smile aswell.

"Good night innie."

Soon the blue head was walking away closing the door behind as he exit the room. Seungmin stared at the closed door with thoughts fogging up his mind, he let out a soft sigh as he whispered under his breath.

"I wish I could just tell how much I love you..."

With felix and others.

Currently jisung and felix was hanging out in felix room, Doing homework's and talking about random things. Mostly it was just talking.

"What's your beef with hyunjin?"

Jisung asked as he write on his book giving a few glance at the text book. Felix who was currently laying there with the book placed on top of his face respond.

"I don't know I just felt so angry at him."

"What did he do? The morning incident?"

Jisung asked flipping the pages to look how much more he need to write. Felix sighed removing the book from his face placing it on to the bed as he avert his attention to the black haired boy sitting on his study table.

"Actually I wasn't angry because of it."

That made jisung to also remove his attention from the books to his bestfriend.As he looked at him with a confused face.

"I was just feeling the anger because of how sungho hyung agreed to go on a date with that girl and....I guess I t-took out my anger on him."

"Damn bro, you just beat the shit out of a person to take your anger out?"

Felix look down feeling guilt build up inside him yet it was hyunjin's fault aswell. He wasn't being that much of a good person either.

Well who is the good person?

"Ahh I will just apologize to him tomorrow."

Suddenly they were interrupted when minho shout from downstairs.

"Felix and jisung come get your food before before changbin eats it all!!"

"Yah! I am just testing for them to make sure it's not poisoned!!"

"I made the food dumbfuck!"

"Yeah that's why I am testing it."

Then it was just the sound of them running around and then a loud thud of someone or something falling on to the ground, following behind was changbin screaming for his life.

Jisung and felix chuckled at it as they walk downstairs to eat their dinner.

Next day.

Felix and jisung was walking through the  hallway to get to their class, This time not late. They slide open the door to their classroom getting in and walking to their seat.

Felix glance at jaemin who had his forehead pressed against a book on the table, Must be a new way to study. Soon his gaze was on the boy who sat behind him.

The long haired male had a bandage on his cheek and the wound on the side of his lips still visible as he was looking down on some book. Felix also had a bandage on his side forehead as there was a scratch. The smaller boy took a deep breath in before sitting down on his seat.

Sinking his teeth down his red soft lips, He thought of a way to apologize. Is he gonna get mad at me again? Well I beat his ass out yesterday so as a human he would. Thinking for a moment he finally turn his head around to face the boy behind him.

"He--"

Before he could finish a single word the taller quickly stood up frowning as he walk away. Felix mouth was a gap at that as he stare at the boy exiting the classroom.

Well damn.

Felix sighed to himself.

After a while Mr.Kim walked in following behind hyunjin. The taller boy walk back to his seat not sparing a single glance at the silver haired boy. Soon the classes started and Felix was still waiting for the right moment to apologize.

The bell rang and everyone was fast to run off from the classroom in a hurry.

Once again felix was left behind as hyunjin walked away without letting the younger talk.

"What's up? you been glancing at hyunjin time to time today.."

Jaemin asked felix who was shoving his books back in to the bag. Before felix could respond jaemin cut him off with a gasp leaving the pink haired boy's mouth.

"Are you finally moving on from sungho?!"

Jaemin asked. Felix eyes widen and he shook his head fast.

"I still love sungho and I just wanted to tell hyunjin something but I couldn't."

Felix said sighing in the end as he carry the bag on his back moving his brown orbs to  his seat mate's face.

"...but isn't he going on a date with that girl?"

Jaemin asked more softly, It was felix himself who told about it to jaemin. Felix was suddenly hit by the reality as his mind was focused on how to apologize to hyunjin for a while that he forgot about sungho's date.

"Yeah he is.."

"You still like him?"

Felix grip his hand tight in to a fist. He still did liked him..

"Yeah..Feelings isn't something I can force to stop so I guess I will just gradually let it disappear by itself..."

He paused.

"or let it grow...."

The Australian boy whisper the last part as he remembered that they didn't announced them dating officially yet.

Jisung was busy at the toilet as felix wait, standing infront of the glass mirror's and sinks.

"You fucker I am hungry why is it taking so long!?"

Felix yelled to jisung.

"Jeez Felix let me take a shit peacefully, wait a little more!"

Felix shook his head. Thankfully no one was at the rest room at the moment so no one heard jisung. Felix lean against the counter, back of his head pressed against the mirror.

He was acting all alright outside but deep inside he was still thinking about the boy he loved. Was he gonna really let him go like that? Let go of someone he loved that much? Well the answer is yes, cause he can't do anything. If the older wants to love that girl there is nothing he can do about it.

A sigh left Felix mouth as he stood there like that. Suddenly the door opened to the restroom making him flinch as he stood straight only to face the familiar boy he was thinking of. Their eyes met and the older male smiled sweetly at the younger. Felix didn't knew what to do first but soon he smiled back.

The taller of them walk to the counter to wash his hands. Felix just stood there awkardly until he heard the boy speak.

"Not going to eat lunch Felix?"

The Australian was surprised hearing his name coming out of the older's mouth.

"Uh not yet I am waiting for my friend.."

The guy smiled and nod his head closing the tap and grabbing a tissue paper to dry his hands off.

"How do you know my name?"

Felix asked his voice low as he stare off at the floor.

"Ahhh I heard about you and jisung before."

He answered and Felix made a noise of understanding but he was mentally cursing knowing very well he knows him from them doing something stupid.

"Oh I forgot to introduce myself I am sungho."

The burrent haired boy said flashing an other smile at the younger. Felix just smiled back hiding the fact he already know him.

"So I will be getting going now."

Sungho said and Felix just nodded. Soon jisung walk out of the stall and he was met with the scene of Felix and his crush talking. Sungho noticed jisung as he gave the smaller boy a smile before walking away. Felix stood there blushing to death red from neck to forehead.

"Bro you look like you gonna die anytime soon."

Jisung said.

"Maybe it's cause I am."

Felix replied before both of them walking out of the restroom. The Australian boy saw his crush walking to his class starting at him until he disappear out of his sight.

"Ahhh he was so handsome up-close."

Felix stated but deep inside his heart was still hurting thinking it's pretty impossible to date his crush.

"Whipped."

Jisung said getting a slap behind his neck from Felix. The freckle cheeked boy's gaze avert back to where his crush went, he was no where to be seen anymore. soon he was turning his gaze to look at jisung but stopped when his eyes came contact with the familiar boy.

The tall boy was crouching down infront of the dance room, His bag infront of him as he look for something in it. His long hair fell on to his face as he keep on rummaging through his black bag.

Felix felt his heart suddenly start beat faster as his brown orbs run through the older's face. Felix couldn't help but realise that this boy was breath taking, Just so pretty. He don't know why he couldn't move his gaze away from him, The serious expression he held was just making him look more attractive. Suddenly felix almost had a heart attack as the older smiled widely, finally finding what he was searching for, It was hair band. The boy stood back on his feet and tied his black hair in to a small low pony tail the red hair falling on to his face, he neat it as he tuck it behind his ears.

Jisung was confusingly looking at the sight of felix just standing there and staring at the taller guy.

Felix had no idea what was happening to him. He felt like his whole body was paralyzed that he couldn't move a single muscle. Suddenly his eyes found the older's, Eyes locking with eachother.

Felix whisper under his breath, letting the older's name roll off his tongue.

"Hyunjin..."

To be continued~

Just a chapter of seungmin and felix being their gay self. ✨