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jimin woke up the next morning in his bed. he blinked his eyes open and looked around. somehow he had gotten to his room, but he didn't remember how. he felt that his lower region was a bit more breezy than usual. lifting up the covers, he realized that he was completely naked.

gasping, he pushed the covers back over him, and thought about what had happened,

"i did it with him again."

he hopped out of his bed and walked into his bathroom. he glanced over his body in the mirror and saw all the red marks that covered him.

he sighed, walking back into his room and throwing on his robe, tying it around his waist. it hung loose, showing off some of the marks on his collarbone. with his hair still messy, he headed out of his room to find joon.

when he walked out, he saw namjoon sitting on the couch watching tv, hye-jin sitting next to him. jimin cringed at the sight, jealousy shooting through him.

namjoon looked over and saw jimin.

"well, look who's up," namjoon said, smirking.

"hey, sleepyhead," hye-jin said, smiling at him.

"w-what's going on?" jimin asked, walking into the room, rubbing his eyes.

"we're just chilling. there's some scrambled eggs and toast in the kitchen, if you want."

jimin just nodded, rolling his eyes a bit when joon looked away.

"i'm gonna run to the bathroom. i'll be right back," hye-jin said, kissing joon on the cheek and standing up.

as soon as she was gone, namjoon stood up.

he was standing right in front of jimin, smirking at him.

"are all these from last night?" joon asked, running his fingers over jimin's collarbone, laughing a bit.

jimin groaned, shoving joon away.

jimin started walking to the kitchen, but namjoon grabbed his arm.

"hey, hey. don't be like that. what's wrong?"

"y-you," jimin said, weakly.

"me? what about me?"

jimin just ignored him, walking into the kitchen. joon followed behind, eventually running in front of him and blocking his path.

"jimin, you don't need to be like that," namjoon said, running his hands soothingly over jimin's waist, "it doesn't have to be a big deal, you know. we're just messing around. hye-jin wouldn't care."

jimin couldn't believe how incredibly stupid namjoon was. at this point, jimin didn't care about how hye-jin felt. he just wanted namjoon for himself.

namjoon reached his hand up and brushed his fingers over jimin's cheek.

"trust me, you don't need to be upset with me. hye-jin and i have it all worked out-"

"joonie?"

namjoon heard hye-jin calling him and pulled his hands away from jimin.

"eat that food, okay?" namjoon said, pointing at the plate he saved for jimin and walking out.

jimin sighed, grabbing the plate and heading back into the room. he quickly got out his phone and started frantically texting his friends on their group chat. jimin asked them if they could all meet at hobi's to talk. jin was apparently already there, so jimin hurried up and got ready.

-

jimin knocked on hobi's door, only to be met with two hands grabbing him and pulling him inside.

"woah, what's going on?" jimin asked.

"you! what happened?" jin asked, excitedly.

hobi was standing off to the side, looking a bit annoyed, but still intrigued.

"w-wait, did you-"

"yeah, he knows. he's really happy for you. right, hobi?" jin asked, giving him the death glare.

"you let him kiss you? you let him take your virginity?" hobi asked, seeming upset.

"hoseok! i already told you what happened so stop pestering him."

"it's just... i didn't realize jimin was so easy, that's all."

"hoseok, shut the hell up! i told you he already feels weird about it and you're not making it any better."

"easy? you think i'm... easy?" jimin asked, sounding a bit worried.

"no, he doesn't. he's just mad. just ignore him."

"ignore him? really, jin? you're at my fucking house," hoseok said, working himself up a bit more.

"fine, then we'll leave. come on, jimin, let's go."

"fine. leave then. i don't need you guys here anyways."

"you know, you acting like a dick isn't gonna change the fact that jimin doesn't like you," jin said, coldly.

"i don't give a shit about jimin. you can both go have a fucking threesome with joon for all i care."

"fine. maybe we will," jin said, grabbing his jacket and pushing jimin out the door.

-

jin didn't have his car, because hoseok drove him, so jin was driving both of them back to his house in jimin's car.

jimin was just sitting in the passengers seat, worrying about everything.

"d-do you think i'm easy, jin?"

"no, jimin. you've literally had sex once. hobi's just going through one of his little bitch fits, that's all."

"...well... it wasn't just once."

jin glanced away from the road and looked at him.

"again?" he asked, shocked.

"i-it was last night. he was being such a jerk when i came back from your house. he kept on telling me that what we did was just for fun and there didn't have to be strings attached. and when i asked about his girlfriend, he just told me that they have some sort of agreement and she didn't care. then later that night... there was just a lot of tension and it ended up happening again. like... it wasn't the same thing as what we did before, but it was still... really good. but the worst part of everything is... i really don't regret it."

"that shit head. what are you gonna do? just let him use you like that?"

"well... i don't know. i know it's crazy, but i'd rather have him just sometimes then never have him at all. i... i really need him."

"wait, so your just gonna be like... his fuck buddy?"

"i-i don't know anymore. is that like... super awful?"

"no. not if that's what you want."

"ughhh, i don't know what to do."

"let's just not think about it right now, okay? just do whatever feels right."

"o-okay."

jimin kept on thinking, beginning to feel guilty about hobi.

"maybe i should just forget about joon and go out with hoseok. at least he'd treat me right."

"but you don't have the feelings for hoseok that you have for namjoon, huh?"

"i know. i just feel awful. did you see the way he looked at me? he's never looked at me like that. like... ever."

"i tried to tell him nicely, chim, i'm sorry. he's probably just gonna be pissed for awhile. he really, really likes you and i guess he has a right to be upset, but it's not your fault."

"yeah. i just wish he'd see how much i love him, even though it's not the way he wants."

"i'm sure he does jimin."

"i-i don't know."

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