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jimin had been staying at jin's for almost four days and still hadn't heard a word from namjoon. it made him sad, because he really thought namjoon would care to know that he was safe.

"jinnie, do you think you could drive me to my house? i need to grab some more clothes to wear to work tomorrow."

"yeah, of course. but, are you sure namjoon's not there?"

"yeah, he never comes home this early."

"it's ten o'clock."

"i know."

jin could tell jimin was a little stressed out and he figured it was about the whole namjoon thing.

"has he still not texted you?" jin asked, feeling a little bad for the boy.

jimin looked down, feeling embarrassed.

"n-no."

jin could hear the sadness in his voice. he wanted so badly to fix jimin's problems for him, but he really didn't know what to do.

"well... maybe his phone is broken."

"n-no. he posted on his social media. he's been out at clubs and stuff."

"oh," jin tried to think of another excuse, but under the circumstances, it was getting a lot harder.

"he's probably just confused. he'll come around."

"i-i don't know."

-

jimin and seokjin arrived at his house. jimin hopped out of the car and ran up to the front door, pulling out his keys and unlocking it.

he walked in, expecting the house to be vacant, but namjoon was sitting in the living room, folding his laundry.

"jimin?" he said, a little surprised that he was home.

"h-hey."

"where were you?"

"now you care?" jimin asked, still feeling hurt that joon hadn't checked on him.

namjoon was a bit shocked at the remark. he had never heard jimin be even remotely rude to him.

"i...i just... i assumed you were just out with your friends."

"well, i was."

the tension in the room was thick and both of them knew why.

"look... can we talk?"

"jin's waiting for me outside, i-"

"please."

jimin sighed, knowing that the time would have to come eventually and he might as well just get it over with.

"o-okay."

joon headed for his room and jimin followed, sheepishly. his head hung low, like he was a young boy about to be scolded by his parents.

namjoon sat down on the bed and jimin sat down next to him.

"so..," joon said, sighing, "i think you know what i wanna talk about, right?"

a pang of fear shot through jimin as he quickly darted his eyes away from joon and down to his feet. he pulled his sleeves over his hands, fiddling with them, nervously.

he weakly nodded, too scared to look namjoon in the eyes.

"well... do you wanna tell me about it?"

"n-no. n-not really," jimin said, still not looking up at him.

"jimin..," joon said, grabbing onto his chin and angling it upwards, "look at me."

jimin's head was now up, thanks to namjoon, but he couldn't look at him. he was far too embarrassed.

"tell me what's going on, chim."

"i..," jimin struggled to think of an excuse. he didn't wanna talk about what he was feeling.

joon grabbed onto his chin, once again, and pulled it towards him, this time forcing jimin to look at him.

"tell me."

"i-" jimin blinked his eyes closed as he started breaking down.

his face scrunched up and tears streamed down his cheeks as he reopened his eyes.

"i like you-" jimin said, spitting out what he had wanted to say for so long.

he immediately buried his face down in his hands, continuing to cry. he felt awful, he was so embarrassed and scared. he was also filled with an intense feeling of guilt.

joon was silent. the only sound in the room being jimin's sobs.

it took a few seconds for joon to process, but he eventually spoke up.

"shhh, jimin, it's okay, it's okay," he said, petting his back.

jimin was trying to calm down, taking a few deep breaths. joon didn't seem very mad or upset, which helped him come to his senses a little bit.

"chim, come here," namjoon said pulling him away from his hands and letting him rest his wet face on his chest, arms coming around him in a warm embrace.

"why are you so upset? what's wrong?"

"i-i," jimin continued to sniffle, trying to get his words straight, "i-i'm nervous... a-and i feel guilty," jimin said, whipping his face off with his sleeve.

"guilty? why would you feel guilty?" namjoon asked, running his fingers through jimin's hair in an attempt to calm him down.

"i-i don't know."

"yes, you do. it's okay, you can tell me."

"i- it's just... w-we're both boys," jimin said, nervously admitting his biggest insecurity.

"jimin, that's okay. you can like whoever you want, it doesn't have to be a girl."

"r-really? a-are you sure?" jimin felt a little bit of relief. after beating himself up over it for so long, hearing joon say that it was fine and normal made him feel so much better.

"yes, of course."

jimin's guilt was fading away, but he still had intense anxiety shooting through him, dying to know if joon liked him back.

"j-joonie~"

"yeah?"

jimin looked up at him, taking in all the beauty that was kim namjoon. his perfect brown hair, big doe eyes, adorable dimples, big arms that were embracing his small body. everything about him was perfect.

he was irresistible. jimin just had to have him. he began to lean his face in, figuring he had already been embarrassed enough for one night and it couldn't get much worse.

he could see the hesitation on namjoon's face, figuring he should probably stop.

jimin was hovering in front of joon's lips, but was far too scared to go through with it. he ended up slouching back down and facing the wall in front of him, too nervous to even breath at that point.

"...have you ever kissed anyone before?"

jimin's heart stopped for a moment.

how did he know?

was it that obvious?

jimin paused, but ended up shaking his head, going back to fiddle with his fingers.

"y-you've never kissed anyone?"

joon couldn't believe it.

"is that bad?" jimin asked

"no, no, of course not. it's just... are you sure you wanna do that type of thing with me?"

jimin figured he was trying to talk him out of it, but he knew it would never work.

"y-yeah, i really do."

joon was looking at jimin right in the eyes. his lips were puffed out into a pout and his eyes were still glossy from crying.

jimin was looking at joon as well, which made it easy to see that the look in his eyes changed. he went from sweet and caring, to completely dominant in just a few seconds.

jimin felt himself being pushed onto the bed, not quite processing what was going on.

"are you sure?" namjoon asked, hovering over him. his hands were on either side of jimin's head, gripping onto the bed comforter.

jimin just nodded again, not sure what he was agreeing too.

joon suddenly leaned down and pressed his lips against jimin's. jimin couldn't quite process what was going on. joon started to move his mouth, working his tongue with jimin's.

jimin was completely star stuck. he didn't know what to do, so he just remained frozen. he wasn't moving his mouth or anything, he was too scared to mess it up. that is, until he felt namjoon break away, joon still keeping his warm breath hovering over jimin's lips.

"come on, work with me a little," he said, smiling and reconnecting their lips.

jimin would have protested and said he had no idea what to do, but joon simply didn't give him a chance, so jimin decided to just give it a try. he pushed his lips onto joon's with more force and started doing a light sucking motion. he heard namjoon grunt and jimin felt his tongue slip back into his mouth. this time, jimin was fighting back.

"mmm-" joon let out another pleasured sound and disconnected their lips in a daze.

when they broke away, jimin started giggling, happily, not being able to keep his emotions in. his mouth was wide in the cutest smile, with flushed cheeks. he had finally gotten what he wanted after all that time and he heavily enjoyed it. he had finally been kissed.

"so adorable. such pretty lips," namjoon said, running his thumb over the bottom one, "i wonder what else they could do," he said, in a voice barley above a whisper.

jimin just looked up at him, shocked.

"i...i wouldn't know."

"well, how about we find out, huh?"

"o-okay," jimin said, nervously.

joon sat back down on the bed and started unzipping his pants.

jimin was so confused. he had no idea what was about to happen.

once joon got his pants completely off, he started to take off his underwear as well.

jimin quickly turned his head away, feeling weird about looking at joon's private area.

"jimin, it's okay," namjoon said, laughing a bit, "you can look."

jimin turned his head back and what he saw shocked him.

it was namjoon's length.

and it was far bigger than jimin's. so much bigger, that it was almost embarrassing.

joon noticed jimin staring in shock and tried to pull him out of his daze.

"jimin, come here," he said, motioning between his legs.

jimin quickly did what joon told him to do, kneeling right beside his privates. jimin had his hands in his own lap, nervously glancing between namjoon's face and his lower region. jimin had no idea what was going on and he had never been that close to anyone else's area before. he felt super weird, but despite the nervousness, he had an urge to do something. something that wasn't just kissing. he wanted namjoon to tech him about everything he didn't know and he also desperately wanted to make him feel good.

"are you okay with this?" namjoon asked, digging his hands in jimin's hair and angling  his face upwards, making him look at him.

"w-what's happening, joonie?" jimin asked.

"you're gonna make joonie feel good, if you want to," joon said, reaching his other hand out and brushing his thumb over jimin's cheek.

"hm~?" joon hummed, urging him to speak up.

"o-okay. what do i do?" jimin asked, determined to do a good job.

"suck," joon said, motioning towards his dick.

"wait... you mean...?" jimin was shocked.

"i think you'll like it," joon said, "just try your best. take it easy."

jimin nodded, still not moving. he placed both of his hands on joon's thighs and sat up a bit, getting prepared. jimin just sat there, taking a few deep breaths, thinking over everything that was happening.

joon felt jimin's small hands shaking on his thighs and could sense his nervousness.

"are you okay? you know you don't have too."

jimin quickly jerked his head up at him and started to panic.

"no, no! i want to."

"do you?"

"yes."

"how much?"

"i really, really want to."

"well...," joon said, reaching his hand out and petting jimin's cheek, "you're gonna have to convince me."

"joonie, i really, really wanna do it. please let me," jimin begged, unknowingly giving namjoon exactly what he wanted.

"go ahead."

jimin quickly took namjoon's length in his hands, staring at it. he heard namjoon wince, which increased his confidence a bit more.

jimin had never wanted something so bad. it was long and thick and jimin just wanted to taste it. he glanced up at joon one last time and he just nodded, urging jimin to continue.

"go on, baby."

"i-it's just... i've never done it... so it might not be very good-"

"shhhh, it's fine. just do your best, okay?"

jimin nodded, gradually letting his face sink closer to joon's dick.

eventually he was mouthing at it, wondering exactly how he was supposed to go at it.

"just like a lollipop, cutie, but make sure you watch the teeth."

namjoon watched as jimin's eyes lit up. he looked so excited as he started working his dick. he started with a few licks, but then went straight to sucking. it felt amazing. actually, it was beyond amazing. jimin was going at it so perfectly, like he had done it a hundred times before and knew exactly what he was doing.

"fuck- jimin."

"hmm~" jimin hummed on his length, sending vibrations up through his body.

"s-shit," namjoon said, clenching his fists into jimin's hair, "y-you can try and act all innocent, jiminie, but i know the truth. i heard you in your bedroom fucking yourself, you can't lie to me. so fucking naughty," he felt jimin slow down a bit, probably due to embarrassment, "how did it feel? thinking about me, while doing something so sinful, huh? wishing it was me. how many times have you thought about it? you must be so desperate."

jimin pulled off of joon abruptly and looked down and then back up to namjoon.

"j-joonie... why?"

namjoon looked down and saw the bulge in jimin's pants.

"well what do we have here?" namjoon asked, leaning down and petting his thigh, causing him to shiver, "looks like someone enjoyed being babied a little too much. such a bad boy."

"no, no, i'm sorry. i'm a good boy... i just couldn't help it. it just happens sometimes..," jimin said, innocently.

"well, i suppose you want it taken care of then, hm?"

jimin just shyly nodded, wondering what namjoon would do.

he felt namjoon's strong arms grab his waist and toss him onto the bed.

"well, then i guess it's my turn. you want me to suck you, hm?"

"y-yes. please."

jimin was out of breath and sweaty, his hair getting stuck to his forehead.

"do you feel a little hot, baby?"

namjoon grabbed the hem of jimin's shirt and pulled it over his head, exposing his cute flat stomach.

jimin covered his face with his hands, feeling embarrassed.

"what's wrong, jiminie?"

"i-" jimin stopped himself and sat up a bit, grabbing at the collar of joon's shirt and pulling at it.

"oh, so you want mine off too?" namjoon asked, laughing.

jimin nodded cutely, watching as namjoon pulled the shirt over his head. he looked over all his features; his abs, arm muscles, tan skin. sure, he had seen joon shirtless a few times, they were roommates, after all. but this time was different. this time jimin had the chance to really observe him, without having to try and secretly sneak glances. jimin reached his hand out and brushed over joon's toned, warm skin. he shivered a bit, loving the feeling it gave him.

"you like it?" namjoon asked, watching jimin's focused face as he ran a hand down his chest.

"y-yeah."

jimin felt joon abruptly push him back down onto the bed and get back into position.

"where were we?"

he pulled down jimin's pants, but he could feel jimin's hesitation when he went for his underwear.

"what is it?"

"i-it's just... i'm not... like you down there," jimin said, face turning bright red.

"what? you mean you're not big?" joon asked.

"y-yeah."

namjoon just laughed, shaking his head.

"it's fine, jimin. don't worry."

he continued on, pulling down jimin's briefs. jimin's small dick sprung out. it was red and leaking precum all over the place. his underwear was soaked as well.

jimin watched nervously as namjoon wrapped his palm around it. his hand was almost big enough to cover the whole thing. namjoon wasn't sure why it turned him on so much, how small jimin was. he had never had any urge in his life to suck, or even touch another guys dick, but for whatever reason,

he was dying to taste jimin.

he leaned in closer, engulfing the whole thing in his mouth, easily.

namjoon had never sucked dick either, but enough people had done it to him, for him to know what he was doing.

his hands were rubbing up and down jimin's body and the sounds that were coming out of jimin were enough to have his own dick throbbing.

"u-ugh, joonie- i-"

jimin suddenly felt something weird. it felt like something was gonna come out of him and he wasn't sure what to do. he obviously didn't wanna pee on joon, but it was super embarrassing to admit.

"j-joonie, i... i'm gonna pee."

namjoon laughed on his dick a bit, leaving a few small kisses to the tip.

"no, sweetheart. it's cum."

"cum?"

"it comes out of you when you feel pleasure. see, look. you're already covered in it."

jimin looked down and saw how soaked his underwear was.

"o-oh."

"hold it in, okay? no coming. not till i say."

jimin nodded, watching as namjoon left his crotch and headed to hover over him.

jimin wanted to be bold. he wanted to make the first move, just this once. he grabbed the back of namjoon's neck and pulled their faces together, melting into another kiss. it felt amazing.

"mmm-" namjoon grunted into the kiss, grabbing onto jimin's dick in the process.

jimin started bucking into joon's hand, loving the friction.

"ughh- oh my god," jimin moaned out, separating from the kiss.

"look at you, jimin. such a sweet boy. fucking your cute little cock into my hand all by yourself."

"ugh- joonie~"

namjoon could feel him throbbing in his palm and pulled his hand away slowly.

jimin hissed from sensitivity, wanting nothing more than to just be touched

"are you ready for the real thing?" namjoon asked, reaching for the lube and beginning to cover his dick.

"the real thing?"

"how do you feel about joonie fucking you like you fucked yourself with that toy, hm? it's what you want, isn't it?"

jimin was just about to agree and beg namjoon to continue, but he did have to consider what a big deal it was. this would be his first time having sex and he wanted to be sure he was ready.

"i-" jimin hesitated. his brain shifted it's focus on his own throbbing member and namjoon's hot and sweaty figure.

"y-yes, please."

"please, what?"

"please... f-fuck me."

namjoon's jaw dropped, dramatically.

"did my baby boy just say a bad word? didn't anyone teach you that good boys don't say bad words?"

"b-but, joonie... you say it."

"well, then i guess i'm not a good boy," namjoon said, slamming into him, suddenly.

jimin yelled out, not being able to control it. his ass was tight around namjoon and he felt completely powerless. like he had to just sit there and take joon's huge dick.

"s-shit. you're- fuck- so tight."

"ugh- i-i'm so filled, joonie. it feels so weird~"

"any pain?"

"n-no."

as soon as he answered, jimin felt him pull out, almost all the way, and then forcefully slam back in.

"ahhh- joonie~"

"shhh, look at me."

he continued pushing into him at a fast pace, watching as jimin fell apart.

"i said, look at me," namjoon grabbed jimin's neck, wrapping his fingers around his chin, and yanking him forward, so he would look at him.

jimin opened his eyes and tears streamed down his face, still panting.

joon leaned down and started to suck his jawline, leaving a few hickeys in the process.

he hadn't realized he had slowed down, until he felt jimin fucking back onto him.

"f-faster~"

"shit-" namjoon grabbed onto jimin's hips and started hammering into him, hitting his sensitive spot over and over again.

"ugh- ah, joonie~" jimin moaned out, feeling on edge.

"don't cum," namjoon breathed out, trying to hurry up and finish.

"p-please, j-joonie~ i-i can't-"

"shhh."

namjoon continued, until he finished inside him, almost collapsing onto jimin.

"go." 

the single word made jimin almost go insane as he released all over the place.

they both just sat there in silence for a few minutes. the only sounds in the room being the two of them panting.

once namjoon caught his breath, he sat up and began putting his clothes back on. 

"jin's waiting. you should go," namjoon said, walking out the bedroom door and shutting it behind him.

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omgggg i'm soooo srry this took so long to upload. it was a rlly hard chapter to write, because it was obviously a very pivotal moment in the story lol. hope the smut wasn't to awful, i low key suck at writing it mdkxjdbdb. next chapter should be out soon <3