Chapter 29

YOUR P.O.V.

*a few hours later*

Y/N- *wakes up slowly* *looks up at the ceiling* *sighs* *looks at Diggy beside you*

I loved him. I really did. But what I was doing right now wasn’t good and it wasn’t fair on Khalil. I felt bad but… I needed to do it. Because now I know who I wanted. 

Diggy- *wakes up* Hey you…

Y/N- *looks at him* *smiles* Hi.. you sleep okay?

Diggy- Real good. *traces his finger along your stomach*

Y/N- That tickles Dig.. 

Diggy- *tickles you* 

Y/N- *laughs and giggles* Dig! Stop! *laughs*

Diggy- Alright, alright.. *stops tickling you* *sits up in bed*

These were the things that I loved him for and I forgot about all that. Why I loved him didn’t need explaining, he made me feel good, no matter what it was. I gazed at him as I laid flat on his bed and nestled my head in the white fluffy pillow as he sat up and ran his fingers through his fro. His abs were still on point like they were a few hours ago and they made me want more. I laid there thinking of how happy I felt, I was happier here than with Khalil to be honest.

Diggy- What you doing for the rest of today?

Y/N- Well, I could… stay here wi—

*phone rings on the floor*

Diggy- *looks at it on the floor* It’s Kendall

Y/N- Leave it… actually pass it.

Diggy- *picks it up and throws it to you*

Y/N- *answers it* Hello?

Kendall- *on phone* Where are you? You said dinner here at the restaurant right now and I’m the only one here and Kylie is on her way

Y/N- *puts hands on head* Shit, that slipped my mind…

Diggy- *coughs* *gets up and goes to the bathroom*

Y/N- I’ll be there as soon as I can

Kendall- Hm, alright. *hangs up*

Y/N- *picks up your clothes* *puts them on* Diggy, I have to go…

Diggy- *walks out* You gonna tell em bout us?

Y/N- I don’t know how.

Diggy- What about your man?

Y/N- He’s not my.. *pauses* *thinks* How am I gonna do this?

Diggy- *walks up and holds your shoulders* All I want is the day I can tell everyone you’re my girl and I don’t have to lie about us anymore *kisses you* I know you. You’ll figure it out.

*half an hour later*

Y/N- Sorry I’m late… *pulls up a chair*

Kylie- You should be. It’s so unlike you, but are you okay Y/N?

Y/N- I’m fine now.

Kylie- So you’re gonna marry Khalil?

Y/N- *pauses* No. 

Kendall- What?

Y/N- No, I’m not. 

Kendall- Um, you are. You love him.

Kylie- Why not?

Y/N-  I’ve had second thoughts. He’s a great guy but I don’t want to marry him

Kendall- That’s stupid. Why did you stay with him for four years?

Y/N- I was happy with him. He made me happy and that’s what I wanted. 

Kendall- Yeah but everyone wants to be happy. So you were gonna stick with him for longer because of that?

Y/N- *silent*

Kendall- That’s so selfish. He makes you happy, that should be enough

Kylie- Besides, where did you go today?

Y/N- Nowhere..

Kendall- Didn’t sound like nowhere. Someone was with you and I heard them, so who were you with?

Y/N- *pauses* *looks at them all* Diggy.

Kendalll- What? 

Y/N- We were just talking and catching up. His career is really taking off. He’s doing great

Kendall- But forget him, you’re getting married now and I’m so excited for you

Y/N- Kendall, I can’t marry him

Kendall- Listen to me. He makes you feel on top of the world and I see it in you. You’ve never been so happy and I haven’t seen you otherwise. Admit it, this is what you wanted. Happiness. And you’re marrying into it. I can’t wait to be a bridesmaid…

Kylie- To Y/N… *raises her glass*

Kendall- Cheers!

Y/N- *clinks glasses with them* *fakes a smile* *sighs*

*at the house*

Y/N- *walks in the kitchen* Khalil…

Khalil- *looks at you* Babe, I have so much to tell you…

Y/N- No, I..

Khalil- No please. I wanna tell you. *sighs happily* I found the perfect place to get married. *looks at you*

Y/N- *looks at him* 

Khalil- Aren’t you gonna ask where?

Y/N- No… *voice almost breaks* Because we’re not getting married. 

Khalil- Um, babe, we are. We’re engaged. *shows his wedding ring on his hand*

Y/N- *takes yours off* Not anymore. *puts it in his hand* *closes his fist*

Khalil- I don’t understand babe.

Y/N- Please don’t call me that… not while I’m breaking your heart… *almost cries*

Khalil- *holds your hands desperately* No please don’t Y/N.. don’t do this..

Y/N- I’m not in love with you like that Khalil. *sniffles* I love you but not enough to marry you. I’m not in love with you.

Khalil- You are… baby, you stayed with me for four years, I changed for you, I dropped everyone and everything for you, I did this all for you, to keep you in my life. You can’t do this

Y/N- I know. I know I was there… *cries* *touches his face* You made me so happy and I never overlooked that. You were perfect but you’re not my idea of perfect. I love you but.. *sniffles* I can’t marry you. *walks upstairs*

Khalil- You’re not leaving me…

Y/N- I’m sorry…

Khalil- *pulls you back forcefully* I said, you’re not leaving me.

Y/N- Ow, Khalil, why are yo…

Khalil- *squeezes your wrist tighter*

Y/N- *in pain* Khalil, ow, please.. no that hurts…

Khalil- *threatens you* We are getting married. You’re not gonna come into my life, change it for four years and then leave me and embarrass me. Not like that. Oh no, we’re getting married in a month and everyone already knows and you’re gonna be my wife and have my kids and we’ll live perfectly and happily ever after… You hear me?

Y/N- *whimpers* *shakes head* I can’t marry you..

Khalil- *squeezes you tighter* I said, do you hear me?

Y/N- *cries in pain* Yes..

Khalil- *releases you from his grip* Don’t cry. *pats your cheek* Don’t wanna ruin that pretty face.. *walks upstairs*

Y/N- *backs up against the wall* *holds your wrist in pain* *cries*

*the next day*

Khalil- *comes in the kitchen* Morning baby…

Y/N- *low tone* Morning *avoids eye contact*

Khalil- *looks at you* What’s wrong with my fiancée? Is she upset?

Y/N- No, she just wants to get this interview later on over and done with. *chops fruit*

Khalil- I hope she’ll be happy this evening cause I have a huge surprise for her…

Y/N- *fakes smile* Okay..

Khalil- *kisses you* See you later. *leaves*

Y/N- *calls Diggy* Come on, pick up…

Diggy- *answers* Hey babe

Y/N- Diggy, I need your help. 

Diggy- With what?

Y/N- I told him.. but he’s forcing me to stay.

Diggy- Just leave. 

Y/N- It’s not that simple. We’re getting married in a month he says..

Diggy- A month?!

Y/N- *cries* Yeah… he’s violent Dig. I’m scared he’s gonna hit me..

Diggy- I know Khalil, he wouldn’t do that…

Y/N- You don’t know. I don’t know and I don’t wanna be around to find out.

Diggy- Baby, don’t be scared. I’m coming to help. I’ve got plenty of room here, I’m coming over. *hangs up*

*later that day* 

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Diggy- *puts a suitcase down* That should be the last of your stuff…

Y/N- Thank you so much.. *hugs him*

Diggy- *kisses your cheek and hugs you*

Y/N- I wanna get out of here..

Diggy- Let’s get this stuff out then.. *picks up suitcase*

*door rattles and almost unlocks*

Y/N- Shit..

Diggy- Don’t be scared.

Y/N- Go and hide… I can take care of it.

Diggy- *runs in closet* *hides*

Khalil- *walks in house* *looks at you* Whose car is that outside?

Y/N- I er.. I rented it.

Khalil- *looks at the suitcases* And what’s all this?

Diggy- *peeks out from closet* *sees you both*

Y/N- I… I’m leaving..

Khalil- *chuckles to himself* And like I said yesterday, no you ain’t… *walks up to you* *grabs your wrist*

Y/N- *squeals in pain* Please no..!

Khalil- I told you. You ain’t running out on me…*holds both her wrists*

Y/N- *cries out* Don’t hurt me…

Khalil- *pulls your hair* It won’t hurt if you say you like it…

Y/N- *struggles and fights him off* I don’t like Khalil, get off me! *shakes him off* *runs to the door*

Khalil- *grabs you and pulls you back* *forces you on the sofa*

Y/N- No please.. don’t…

Khalil- Just keep quiet.. besides, no one can hear you… *unbuckles his pants*

Y/N- *cries and panics*

It was horrible seeing it all. Now I know why she was so afraid of him and why she wanted to leave. I couldn’t do anything… I couldn’t interfere in their relationship. I wish I stopped what happened, I wish I did. Y/N cried the whole time while Khalil raped her, how could he do that? I couldn’t even listen to it, it was painful to hear but Y/N was feeling the most pain now.

I sat on the floor of the closet, my knees up and my hands clenched over my knees and my head bowed and I prayed for Y/N to be protected. I prayed for Khalil to have justice served to him and I prayed for forgiveness that I wasn’t stopping him.

When he’d finished, she was crying so much and sniffling and he just told her to shut up and make him something to eat while he went upstairs to their bedroom.

Once he was far and out of sight and we heard the tv on upstairs, she walked over to the closet and opened it and the light from the corridor shone on me and I looked up at her from my prayers. Her tears were gone and she looked so upset, distraught and emotionless.

Diggy- *stands up* I’m so sorr…

Y/N- Don’t be.. It’s not your fault.

Diggy- It is.. I coulda stopped it. I should have done something about it

Y/N- You couldn’t do anything. Please just go…

Diggy- *kisses your cheek* *leaves*

*the next day*

YOUR P.O.V. 

Khalil- *walks downstairs* That car ain’t outside no more, what happened to it?

Y/N- I had them come and collect it. I returned it

Khalil- Good. I hope you learned your lesson from last night..

Y/N- And what was that?

Khalil- Not to try and run away from me every again.

Y/N- *silent*

Khalil- Whatever. Oh and by the way, you ain’t to tell anybody what happened, right?

Y/N- Right. 

Khalil- The only people you speaking to is me, your mom and Kendall.

Y/N- Wait, no what about Kumiko? She’s my bestfriend.

Khalil- No. Cause you’ll be here in LA for the wedding and while we’re married. You won’t need to see her. None of your New York friends. Not her, not Spin and definitely not Diggy. You ain’t seeing him ever again. 

Y/N- *looks down*

Khalil- And if I catch you with him.. cause I know what you guys got history… you’ll be learning even more lessons and this time, they’ll hurt… but I love you. I gotta go… *leaves*

*two weeks later*

Michelle- My baby’s getting married in two weeks!! I can’t believe we’re shopping for your dress… *searches through all the dresses* Ooh this one’s pretty…

Y/N- *plainly* Yeah.

Michelle- *looks at you* What’s wrong? You not excited?

Y/N- Can’t you tell mom?

Michelle- Oh come on, it’s your wedding…! Be excited, you and Khalil are perfect for each other..

Y/N- *under your breath* If only you knew…

Michelle- Come on, try this on… *hands it to you*

Y/N- Fine. *takes it* *goes in changing room*

I got dressed into it and looked in the huge mirror at myself. It was pretty but I hated it. I didn’t wanna get married. I didn’t wanna marry Khalil and no one knew this except Diggy and I couldn’t even see him right now… my heart was broken. This wasn’t how I saw my life going…

I looked at the bruises on my arm. They were horrible reminders of what Khalil had been doing for two weeks. I collapsed to the floor in my dress and cried on the floor, wishing I could escape everything…

*a few hours later*

Y/N- *crying on the bed*

*doorbell rings*

Y/N- *stops crying* *cleans face quickly* *goes downstairs* *opens door*

Diggy- We gotta go…

Y/N- You can’t be here… Diggy, you have to leave, he’ll be back soon…

Diggy- No, you’re coming with me. Grab some stuff, we don’t have time. I’m getting you out of here.