Chapter Twenty Eight: Decisions

Jenna's POV

"Zayn...?" I called out when I opened my eyes.

A divine, bright light blinded me and I quickly covered my eyes with my hand. After I adjusted to the light  I slowly uncovered them and I took a good look around.

Flowers.

Trees.

A pond.

A pond?! Where am I?! I don't remember going in a garden. 

The last thing I remember was the doctor telling me that 'you have to be prepared for everything...'

"Jen?" A familiar voice called and I snapped my head to the side.

"Zayn! It's you!" I smiled and I rushed to him, hugging him tight.

"Oh I missed you so much, baby!" I said to his neck, but I couldn't feel his hands around me. Something was different!

"You didn't miss me?! Why aren't you hugging me back?" I pouted. His eyes blank. No expression at all. 

Zayn stayed silent. A creepy smile spread across his face.

"Oh love..." He said and he delicately brushed his fingers to my cheekbone.

"You don't understand?!"

"Understand what?!"

"This is all a dream." He said with the same smile.

"A dream?!" I breathed out, not wanting to believe him.

"Let me get this straight. After you passed out you've been put in a hospital bed. Eleanor is by your side until you wake up."

"And why I can see you?" I asked.

"This is something like a 'waiting room' to the paradise."

A paradise?! Wait that means...

"So that means you're dead?!"

"Not really." He chuckled. "But neither I'm alive." 

"Zayn I don't understand!" I shook my head.

I could hear a faint voice, something like "Wake up..."

"It's time!" Zayn turned his attention back to me.

"What time?! Where are you going?!" I called after him.

"Am I going to see you again?!"

"ZAYYYYYYN!" I kept shouting.

"ZAYYYYN!"

"Sweetie, wake up! Everything is okay, love!" I woke up at the sound of Eleanor's voice. Sweat drops rolling down my temple and cheeks.

"Eleanor?!" My eyes went wide. I was lying in a hospital bed and El was by my side. Like Zayn said.

"I don't understand!" I mumbled to my self.

"It was a dream, honey." Eleanor soothed me.

"Where is Zayn?! I need to see him" I said to her. 

"Baby, they won't let you see him!" Eleanor tried to stop me, but I wouldn't listen.

"You don't understand! I really need to see him!" I said and I exited the room walking down the hallway, heading to the reception.

"Hello. I know that it's impossible, but I really need to see my boyfriend." I said to the nurse behind the reception desk.

"Mr. Malik's doctor won't let any visitors to his room untill his condtion is stable." She said in a polite tone.

"Just for a couple of minutes! I'm begging you!" I said as I wiped the new formed tears in the corner of my eyes.

"Let me contact with doctor and I'll inform you soon." She said as she called the doctor.

I slowly made my way to the hospital seats where everyone was.

"Are you ok now, Jenna?!" Harry asked and took a sip of his orange juice.

"Yeah, I'm fine now. Thank you Harry." I forced a smile.

"Jenna?" I heard Louis' voice from behind.

"Louis?" I stood up as he walked towards me.

"Look, Jenna I'm sorry! I didn't mean to be a jerk. I just lost it when I found out that my best friend was dealing with something so big and I didn't have a clue." He said. His eyes full of regret and guilties.

"I understand, Lou! I'm sorry too!" I said and I reached out my hands for a hug.

"We came as soon as we found it! How is he?!" Jasmine and Tulisa popped out of nowhere.

"We don't know yet!" Niall informed them and hugged Jasmine.

"Jenna?! Where is Zayn?! Where's my boy?" Tricia rushed towards me, followed close behind by a worried Yaser.

"Tricia! Yaser!" I said and I rushed to hug them.

"Where is he, Jenna? Is he ok?!" Yaser hugged me back tight.

"He's still in danger! We don't know!" I said as I felt the tears building up in my eyes again.

"Ms. Summers?!" A nurse called out for me and I pulled away from the hug, snapping my head to her direction.

"Yes?"

"Doctor said you can see him, but only for 5 minutes." She informed me.

"Tricia, do you want to go? I can wait..." I said to her. After all she's his mother.

"No. You can go I'm sure you're the person he would like to see right now." She rubbed my back and gave me a weak smile.

I smiled back and I walked along with the nurce to his room.

"Please wear these and when your time is up I'll come to take you." She said as she handed me  a mask just to prevent him from any bacteria.

As soon as I walked in Zayn's room, something broke inside me. His naked body was covered with a white blanket and machines were connecting him with life.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

The heart monitor was beating slowly. His hazel eyes were firmly closed and his long eyelashes were resting delicately on his closed eyelids. 

After I gained the strength I needed to walk up to him, I slowly sat next to him on the bed.

Zayn...

Zayn, my love. I know you can't hear me, but I have some things I want to tell you.

I love you, Zayn. I still love you and if you die you'll take my half life with you.

My heart will stop beating and life will be pointless without you by my side.

If I could have one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday at the sound of your breath on my neck

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

the feeling of your heart beating with mine.

Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

I left.

I know, but I felt betrayed. I couldn't stand the idea of someone else other than me, touching you. Kissing you. Making love to you.

I want you for me.

It might sounds selfish but that's the truth.

You promised me! I promised you!

We said that we're going to be together till the end!

You can't break your promise now!

You can't leave me!

You have to stay, Zaynie.

You have to fight.

For me.

For you.

Fo us.

I love you Zayn!

Please don't leave me...

I love you....

I rested my head to his warm hand, letting the hot tears slip to his tanned skin. If only I could, I would give my life to bring him back. I would give my last breath to see his eyes looking into mines once again. I would give my soul to hear his deep, angelic voice calling my name again...

"Jen?"

His voice is still ringing to my ears. Like a sweet lullaby.

"Jen?" I heard again.

Wait...this isn't a dream!

It's Zayn!

I looked up from his hands only to be greeted by a pair of hazel eyes staring back at me.

"Zayn?! Oh my God! You woke up!" I smiled widely.

"Doctor! Doctor!" I yelled at the top of my lungs.

The doctor and the nurses rushed inside in no time.

"Please, stay outside for a while and we'll call you back!" A nurse told me and closed the door.

"Guys!" I ran up to them.

"Zayn..." I said shaking from excitement.

"....Zayn! Zayn woke up!" I squealed and everyone jumped from their seats hugging each other.

"He woke up!" I hugged Zayn's parents tight.

"He's going to be fine!" Eleanor squealed as she hugged Louis back.

"I told you he was strong!" Liam gave me a bone crashing hug.

Our cheerings were cut off by the doctor who cleared his throat to get our attention.

"Doctor! Tell us, please is he going to be ok?!" Yaser asked.

"Yes! The blood loss was major, but you got him right in time! He's perfectly fine now!" He smiled genuinely at us.

"Can we see him now?" Tricia asked still smilling.

"Yes you can. But only one in time! Don't make him tired." He smiled once again and walked away. 

"You go, Tricia!" I smiled at her and she walked in Zayn's room.

Finally, everything is going to be fine again.

Well most of them....

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Zayn's POV

"How is my boy, today?!" My mom walked in my hospital room.

It was already the third day I was in the hospital and the doctors said that today I was able to go home.

"Mom!" I smiled at the sight of her.

She smiled back and kissed my cheek, making me feel better by the second.

"Guess who's going home today!" She said and caressed my cheek.

"Yeah mom! I know!" I rolled my eyes as I chuckled to her motherly soft side that came out these days.

"Good morning!" Jenna came in with a bouquet of flowers in her hands.

"Jen!" My face lit up in excitement when I saw my angel walking in.

"Good morning, Zaynie!" She smiled and kissed me softly.

Oh how much I missed those lips...

"I'll leave you two alone and I'm going to find the doctor for the discharge note." Mom smiled and exited the room.

"I missed you!" I said to Jenna holding her hands.

"I missed you too!" She smiled at me.

"Jen, I want to apologize for everything. I know it's hard for you to forgive me but I'm asking for one more chance..."

"Zayn...." She trailed off.

"I don't know if I can trust you again..." She turned her gaze away not meeting my eyes. 

"You can't leave now, Jen!"

"I'm never going to leave you! Got that?! I just don't know if I can trust you again. I need some time to think..." She said finally looking at me.

"I'll give you as much time as you want, baby. I just want you to know that I love you! With all my heart...." I whispered as I brought her face inches to mine.

"Oops! Sorry to disturb you, lovebirds but I have great news!" Doctor came inside.

Jenna pulled away and lightly blushed as I scratched the back of my head.

"You can go home today, Zayn but there's something we have to discuss about." He said as his face turned serious.

"What's that doctor?"

"Zayn, self-harm is listed as a symptom of depression ,like yours, and just because we disgussed things with your psychologist, Dr. Moris, we came into a conclusion that only a psychological treatment isn't effective for you so we think that you may need to start a treatment program."

"Something like a rehab?" I asked.

"Not exactly. It's a place where you'll live in your own recidence and a special psychologist is going to help you deal with self-harming. He's going to help you retrain your mind, body, spirit and your emotions."

"How long does this program takes?" I asked once again.

"This place is located in California and how long you're going to stay here, it all depends from you." He informed me.

"I can't leave the boys! I can't leave my career!"

"But you neither can't leave your self too, Zayn! I want you to think about it and make a decision soon."

Oh boy....

A/N: Hello! This was chapter twenty eight and yeah, Zayn is alive!!!! I'm sooooo happy :) I just hope you enjoyed this chappie too. Anyways, one last thing I just want you to know is that the chapters are going to be less that I thought so it's only going to be ONE more chapter AND the epilogue. Sorry! Btw I'm so proud of this book and I want one more time to say a massive thank to all of you who supported me throught out and for all the lovely feedback I got to my chapters.

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