Chapter 39

A/N: Thank you for all the kind words:) I am okay guys it's just I made a wrong decision in the past that I regret so much, and the worst part is it keeps haunting me every once in awhile which bother the fuck out of me sigh

Jade's POV

My gaze had been locked at the sea the whole time since I arrived at the beach, I don't know why but it always calms me. Maybe it's because it reminds me of her beautiful ocean blue eyes, only darker as it was night time now. I smiled when I reminisced that time she took me to that beach to celebrate our one month anniversary. How my heart soared to the sky when we shared the sweetest kiss at the sunset. How I burst out into happy tears when she gave me the cutest and the most heartfelt speech on how much she loves me. How my eyes nearly popped out when she showed me the most beautiful necklace I have ever seen. How flustered and annoyed I was when she teased me at the sea. How she gave me electricity throughout every fiber of my body when she kissed me under the water.

I looked down only to see I was playing with the necklace that had never left my neck since she put it on me. I studied the heart-shaped charm, knowing that it might look like a heart, but in fact it would only be completed and full when it merges with her's. I flipped to the back and trailed my fingers on the small carved word "Jerrie", my lips curved up remembering once our charms go together it would become...

Then it hits me. How could I ever be sceptical of her love? She has done so many things to show how much she loves me. She whispers sweet words to my ears and kisses me everyday to make sure I know how much I meant to her. She calms me and reassures me when I am insecure and having doubts. She stays with me and comforts me when I am at my down. And she told me she wants to marry me one day and spend the rest of her life with me. The necklace might symbolize her never-ending love to me, but it's her action that proves to me she wants us to be forever.

Yes. I still remember the news and the picture. Yes. it still hurts so bad when I recall it. Yes. My heart would be smashed into million pieces if she tells me it's true. Yes. The thought of losing her is still and always be my biggest fear. However, I knew I could never deny and wipe off what we have and everything she does for me, especially not after her staying by my side the whole time when I lost my aunt. I believe she loves me and I still do.

Then I gasped when a heavy wave of guilt hits me. Why didn't I call her the moment I saw the news? I should have let her tell me what really happened before letting it messed with my head. Why didn't I? Because I am a coward and the fear and the heartbreak that moment I saw the picture took out all my normal sense, I lost my ability to think logically and properly. It just like what happened after the incident at Hardrock cafe...I let my insecurity and timidness dominated my thinking and action. So.Stupid.

So I ran again. But this time, I ran back to my love. I ran back to my home. I don't care if my feet are going to break, I have to see her. I am not running from my problem anymore.

I didn't know how long I had been running for but I took a pause when I sensed a car driving slowly besides me. I turned my head and saw a familiar car, the window scrolled down revealing my two best friends.

"Finally we find you! Get in the car Jade!"

"Listen Jade. We were there too and I swear to god Perrie didn't cheat on you!"

It didn't take any more persuasion as I immediately got in the back of the car.

Perrie's POV

My fingers pressed on the last key as the song finished. I didn't think I could finish writing a song within such a short period of time, especially when I hadn't played piano for a long time, but I guessed when you have millions words in your head that you wanna say to someone, it was not hard to do so. I just hope she gave me the chance to sing it to her and everything would be fine again.

I was about to get up when I heard the sound of door opening, my eyes locked at the door and my heart was pumping so fast, I hope Jesy and Leigh found her. I was so eager to find out who was behind the door but it was like suddenly there was a time dilation and everything turned into slow motion. After what feels like forever, Leigh walked in first, followed by Jesy, I bit my lip so hard praying there would be a third person walking in. Please be Jade. Please come back to me my princess. My heart jumped when I caught a glimpse of beautiful brown hair and I knew it's her, she came back.

She turned around once she closed the door and my heart broke when I saw her bloodshot eyes, knowing I am the reason behind it. Her gaze finally met mine and I could see her face dropped, my heart dropped at the same time knowing she was upset to see me. But who could blame her? I hurt her even I didn't intend to. My eyes widened when I saw her running to me, I shut my eyes expecting a hard slap on my face but she surprised me by engulfing me into a tight hug.

"I am sorry I ran away Perrie. I should have asked you first" She sounded like she was about to cry, which brought me out of my shocking state and I immediately hugged her back

"No Jade no I am sorry for what happened. I swear I didn't cheat on you Jade I would never do that please trust me. I love you and only you" I couldn't help but started sobbing and I felt her grip tightened to steady my shaky body

"I trust you baby I love you too" She cooed and rubbed my back. Her words calm me down momentarily as I knew I didn't lose her, I didn't lose the love of my life. I pulled away slightly when my body stopped shaking anymore.

"They told you?"

"They told me you didn't cheat but left out all the details because they want me to hear from you" I gave Jesy and Leigh a grateful smile. They have helped me so much, what would I do without these two?

"I will tell you the whole thing and I promise you I will only tell you the truth" I pushed back a strand of her loose hair and looked straightly into her eyes.

"I know you will" She smiled

"So when we were at the club, Luke came to me and started to talk to me, I didn't know he was going to be there if I knew I won't-"

"I know baby don't worry" She kissed my cheek. I smiled and continued

"He started talking and I didn't want to be mean so we started chatting. We were having a friendly conversation until he started complimenting me and he was like never stop which made me kinda uncomfortable, but I didn't want to be rude so I smiled and said thank you, then out of nowhere he kissed me" I felt Jade's body went stiff so I immediately continued

"But I swear I didn't kiss back and I pushed him away immediately"

"Yes Jade we were next to them when it happened and Perrie is telling the truth." Leigh assured her and Jesy gave her a nod

"Then she dragged us two out of the club and called a taxi immediately because she wanna go home and be the first to tell you what happened, before you found out from other sources and thought she was cheating" Jesy said

"Gosh I am really sorry baby. I am so sorry I would ever think about you being unfaithful" Jade cupped my face and looked at me with teary eyes.

"Don't be baba. The news and picture would have messed with my head too. If I were you, I would have done something worse. I would have killed him for kissing my girl"

"To be honest, she would probably do that." Jesy added. I smiled when I heard Jade giggled, I have missed that, and the last thing I want was her blaming herself

"I am sorry too. I should have never left. I should have stayed with you" I mumbled

"No Pez. Remember I was the one telling you to go? It's all me I should have trusted you at the beginning I am really sorry" Tears started running down her face and it broke my heart

"No Jadey no please don't blame yourself" I wiped the tears off her beautiful face and held her close

"Girls it's none of your fault so stop taking the blame" Jesy came and hugged us

"Yeah. Now Jade you know the truth and come back that's all matters right?" Leigh joined the group hug

"Nothing else matters!" Jesy exclaimed and we all started singing the song and laughed when we pulled away

"Um I wonder who is the genius that wrote such a great song" I feigned and chuckled when she proudly pointed at herself. But then I remembered something.

"Oh baba I forget to mention one thing though" She looked at me expectantly

"When I pushed him away, I might have yelled something I shouldn't have said..." I scratched my neck nervously. She frowned at me but turned her head to Jesy when hearing her laugh

"This idiot yelled 'What the fuck man I am taken!' Thank god she didn't scream your name out loud otherwise Simon would have killed us" Jesy chortled

"Oh that's why the news said you are taken, I thought...Fuck that stupid news!"

"I can't believe Jade just swore" Leigh Anne gasped

"You look so cute when you do that" I kissed her cheek

"Baby I am trying to be cool!" She protested and we laughed

"Sorry Jade but cool is never the word for you" Jesy smirked

"Meanie!" She pouted and Lesy burst out into laughter. I cooed and pecked her lips, but she didn't let me go when I tried to pull away, she cupped my face and deepened the kiss instead, so I kissed back passionately.

"Ugh what the hell! Don't kiss in front of me! You two are so gross!" Jesy scolded but I couldn't care less to be honest, I missed Jade's lips so much

"Gosh I am starving! Girls we are going to get some food!" Leigh yelled. She always knows when the best time to leave us alone and takes the annoying Jessica away. Thank you Lee-Lee. I didn't want to end the kiss so I raised my hand to let her know I heard that. Seconds later I heard the door closing so I guessed they left.

"You are the only one I ever want to kiss and my lips are only reserved for you" I mumbled against her lips. She hummed and nibbled at my bottom lip, I parted my mouth letting her tongue slips in, and she lets me do the same. We kept tasting each other's lips until we had to pull away for air, our foreheads touching and a huge grin appeared on our face.

"Baby I was gonna ask earlier. What are you doing at the piano? You rarely touch it" She giggled

"They told me to stay at home in case you came back, but I don't wanna just sit here and do nothing, so I..I wrote a song"

"You wrote a song with the piano? Can I hear it? It has been forever to see you play it" She brought out her best puppy dog eyes and looked at me hopefully

"You don't have to ask baba. I was going to sing the song to you when you come back" I pecked her lips and sat down in front of the piano. I took a breath and glanced at Jade, who was now leaning at the wall beaming at me. I returned a smile then looked down, and let my fingers moved freely along the keys

https://youtu.be/JMbJLvhPm4E

If you could be meAnd see what I seeJust take a breath and you'll know what I meanI'll always be yoursI'll always be yours

You're like the sound playing to meAnd I wanna follow in sweet harmonyI'll always be yoursI'll always be yours

You set light to the darknessGive life to the heartlessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yoursYou're a home to the homelessGive hope to the hopelessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yours

That very first day you were aloneYou were diamond surrounded by stonesI'll always be yoursI'll always be yours

When nothing remains and faces will changeThe view from my heart will still stay the sameI'll always be yoursI'll always be yours

You set light to the darknessGive life to the heartlessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yoursYou're a home to the homelessGive hope to the hopelessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yours

OhAnd I, I, I, 'll always be yours

You've given me all that I needBut most of all, you've inspired meI'll always be yoursI'll always be yours

You set light to the darknessGive life to the heartlessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yoursYou're a home to the homelessGive hope to the hopelessAnd I, I, I, I'll always be yours

OhAnd I, I, I, 'll always be yoursOhAnd I, I, I, 'll always be yoursOhAnd I, I, I, 'll always be yours

I opened my eyes and saw Jade was now in tears, so I immediately got up and held her tightly in my arms, rubbing her back gently.

"Jadey please don't cry. I have already made you cried so many times in one night" I pulled away to look at her, my thumb wiping off the tears that had fell down on her face.

"I-I just feel so stupid I would ever think you won't love me anymore. I am so so sorry Pez I am just so scared of losing you" She sniffled

"I am scared too. I am scared that you would never come back and don't want to see me anymore. I know the fear Jade I do, so please stop apologizing because you did nothing wrong" I showered her face with kisses until she let out a giggle

"But I-"

"No but Jadey" I stopped her with a serious tone

"At least let me do something to make it up to you Pez. You don't blame me for running away and now you wrote me this beautiful song...I feel so bad" She murmured

"But you-"

"No but baby" She cut me off and imitated me, making me laughed. She is so stubborn just like me so I knew I have to come up with something for her to do to make her feel better.

"Okay. Let me think..." I tapped my finger under the chin trying to think of anything, then a thought came up so I whispered it into her ear.

"Really? That's it?" She gasped. I nodded to assure her

"Give me a second baby" She pecked my lips and sprinted upstairs. She came back minute later and I grinned when I saw her. I pulled her close to me and couldn't stop staring at her.

"I still don't get why you love it so much" She sighed and shook her head

"I told you babe. You look so hot in your glasses" I winked at her

"You know what? If you want I can do more than just wearing the glasses for you" She whispered seductively into my ear and ran her hand up and down on my arm, I couldn't help but shivered at her gesture

"Oh yes please I-"

"We are back!" Leigh and Jesy walked in with McDonald in their hands

"Thank god you two are not doing anything sexual!" Jesy exclaimed

"We are about to. Always walk in the worst time" I whined quietly. Jade giggled clearly hearing my words

"Later baby. Now go eat I know you are hungry" I nodded frantically. She laughed and kissed my cheek, leading me to the dining table

"It has been forever since we have McDonald!" I yelled excitedly and took a huge bite on the Big Mac

"I know right! We have been working our asses off for weeks, I reckon we all deserve a cheat meal!" Leigh proclaimed

"Totally!" Jade nodded

"Gosh it tastes like heaven" Jesy moaned at the taste when stuffing some fries into her mouths

We finished the food in no time and I looked at my two best friends who were sitting across me and Jade.

"Thank you so much Jesy and Leigh. Thank you for bringing Jade to me and help me clarify the whole thing, and the food...everything" I felt a tiny hand slipped into mine so I turned to Jade and gave her a smile.

"That's what best friends do right? We help each other" Jesy winked

"Yeah and I promise to keep Jerrie intact and I did it" Leigh shrieked

"WE did it" Jesy corrected her

"Whatever! Now girls let's have a movie marathon tonight!" Leigh shouted excitedly

Me and Jade exchanged a knowingly glance and cheered. Even though I am looking forward to spend a long and fun night with Jade, and it would be so hard to keep my hands off her when she was wearing those sexy glasses, we hadn't had a girl night in a long time because of our hectic work schedule and I definitely miss it, and it would be totally ungrateful and selfish if we refused spending time with them after they helped us get back together.

"Baby let's go pick a Disney movie before Jesy put in some horror movie!" Jade got up and dragged me to our film collection. I chuckled at her eagerness.

"NOT DISNEY AGAIN JERRIE!" Jesy yelled at the back

"Not your call Jessica this is our house!" Jade sassed back. I always find it super hot when she was being such a diva but now with that glasses...Gosh it was such a shame I couldn't make her squirming underneath me and begging for more the entire night.

"Okay but NO SNOGGING AND GROPING OR ANY SEXUAL ACTIVITIES IN FRONT OF ME"

"Not your call Jessica this is our house!" I countered using the exact same words, making Jesy groaned in annoyance. Jade laughed and led me to the couch once she put in "Tangled", and quickly snuggled up to me.

"I love you Pez" She whispered and laid her head on my shoulder

"Jadey I love you too, always" I kissed her head. Her small hand reached up to my chest and got inside my shirt, pulling out my necklace. She lifted her head off my shoulder and merged my charm with her's

"I'll always be yours too" She whispered and kissed my lips.

I smiled at her when she pulled away, then looked at Leigh and Jesy who were cuddling on the opposite couch. What did I do to deserve all three of them? I would probably never get the answer but there is one thing I am certain. I would cherish them for all my life.

A/N: I could never separate Jerrie for longer than a chapter lol