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Arabella's POV

I wake up when I hear talking.

I look over at Ethan who is asleep but is talking.

He furrows his eyebrows and turns his head the opposite way on the pillow then flipping it right back, doing it a few times.

He mumbles random things and then started freaking out.

"Ethan" I said trying to wake him.

"Ethan wake up" I said sitting up and shaking him a little.

"Ethan.. come on wake up its okay." I said and he sprung up, sitting up quickly and looking around while I look at him with wide eyes.

"Are you okay?" I asked him and look at him as his chest was heaving up and down quickly.

He stays quiet and rubs his hands onto his face and through his hair.

He looks at me and then scooted himself closer to me and hugs me.

"Ethan you are sweating a lot" I said.

He was in his shirt and it was very sweaty.

He backed up a little and pulled it over his head and threw it onto the ground before hugging me again.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked him and he shook his head no against my shoulder before burying his face into my neck.

I don't even know what to do right now.

"Can we lay back down?" He asked me, his voice heavy and raspy and I nodded.

he let go of me and we laid down again because we had been sitting up.

I am just laying on my back and Ethan is on his side and he pulls the blanket up past his shoulders.

I feel him come closer to me and I turn towards him, onto my side and let him cuddle up with me.

He put his face into the crook of my neck again and I feel something warm and wet hitting my neck.

I pull back and look at Ethan to see him crying.

"Hey whats wrong?" I asked him wiping his tears but more came.

"I really hurt you didn't I?" He asked me 

"Ethan that was the past." I said and he stayed quiet.

I have never seen Ethan cry before. Not even when we were younger. Everytime he got hurt or something he would walk away from me or something or just hold it in.

"What did you dream about?" I asked him and his eyes flickered up to meet mine.

"It was like. what happened. We were younger and the only difference was. I was like you. you were angry with me and didn't talk to me for like a month and then you didn't come to say goodbye but you wrote me a letter. And it said how much you hated me and wished you never met me. And I don't even know why I am crying this is stupid" He said getting embarrassed and mad at himself he spaced himself from me and turned around.

I honestly don't know what to say.

I looked at the back of Ethan's head for a minute before sitting up and moving to right behind him.

I wrap my arms around his back and pressed my forehead against his back and closing my eyes.

"Its okay Ethan" I said.

I feel his chest slowly slow down and his breathing is back to normal.

I feel one of his hands on my arm and he rubs my arm slowly for a minute before turning back around.

I look up at him and then pull myself up on the bed more so my face is closer to his and kiss his cheek.

He smiled a little but I could tell he was still upset.

I check the time and see its 5:50

"HEY" I said loudly while smiling.

"What?" He asked 

"Come on"I said getting out of bed.

I am wearing a pair of shorts and a big teeshirt.

"Where are we going?" He asked me and I opened my window.

"Up"I said and climbed out of my window.

I pulled myself up to the roof and Ethan sticks his head out the window and looked up and I peeked my head over the side, seeing him.

"Come on" I said and he climbed up.

"Why are we on your roof?" He asked me and I sat down looking up.

Its still dark but the sun is starting to peek through.

"Because I wanted to watch the sunset" I said and he looked over at me smiling.

"Your so cute" He said and I smiled 

"Thank You" I said.

he sat next to me and we talked for a while and finally the sun was halfway out.

"Do you do this often?" He asked me and I nodded.

"When I wake up early enough." I said and he nodded.

"Bella" He said grabbing my hand and I looked at him.

"I am really sorry" He said 

"Guess what" I said smiling and his eyes flickered up to mine.

"What?" He asked 

"Its okay" I said and he smiled a little.

He looked at me for a minute and then gently grabbed my face and kissed me.