Chapter 12

I closed my eyes as i rested my head on my mom's chest and heard gunshots. I opened my eyes and turned to see Harry towered over Nick's lifeless body with a gun in his hand.

"What did you do?" I asked standing up to see Harry smirk. 

"What I needed to make sure we stay together."

"Harry! What did you do?!" I yelled and closed my eyes as I hugged my brother's dead body. 

When I opened them I was at the gala again. It was a bad dream. A horrible nightmare but I couldn't shake the awful feeling I was feeling as I stared up at Harry who gave me a concerned look. 

"Where'd you go? Are you okay?" He asked and I could hear my blood rushing through my veins and my head was pounding with the sound of my heartbeat. 

"I-" I couldn't even finish my sentence but could feel my heart stop as I tore away from him.

"Leslie what's wrong?" "Don't touch me." I stepped back and looked around for Nick. I wanted my big brother. "I need to go." I walked to the bar and ordered an entire bottle of vodka, chugging it completely and looked around. 

The lights were blinding as I looked for my brother. Harry was infront of me, talking but I couldn't hear a word he said it all sounded like murmurs. 

I looked at the door to see my brother's walking in wearing the suits and tie from my nightmare. I tore away from Harry and sprinted over to Nick, engulfing him in a hug. 

"Gracie? Are you okay?" He hugged me a little tighter before letting me go and examined me. I couldn't talk but engulfed him in a hug again. I wanted to cry, no matter how much I get angry at my brother I never once would wish that upon him. 

"Grace?" Josh asked and I shook my head, burying it into Nick's chest. "Do you want to leave? I can take you home." Nick said looking down at me, griping my face in his hands and pushed my hair out the way. His dark eyes looked into mine and I shook my head. 

"No. I don't want to leave you." "What's this about Gracie?" I shook my head and he sighed, picking me up and wrapped my legs around his waist and we walked to the table infront of Harry's. He sat me down and squatted infront of me. 

"I'm going to say hi to Manny alright?" "No. Please don't leave me. Nick please." I begged grabbing his hands and he looked at me confused. "What's going on with you baby? What's wrong?" He caressed my cheek and looked at me worriedly. 

"Please." My voice was cracking and I let a tear slip from my eye. "Don't leave me please." I begged grabbing the hand that was on my cheek. He looked at my eyes and nodded. 

"Josh." He cocked his head for him and my other brothers to greet Manny to leave us to talk. He waited then stood up straight. 

"Why don't you tell me what's really going on." "Nick please. I don't want to talk about it but I need you to not leave me tonight. Please." "I wouldn't leave you Leslie. I love you with my entire heart and soul but what's going on? I've never seen you this scared in your entire life." He said and I shook my head, looking into the distance to see Zayn and Louis staring at me from the bar. 

"I don't want to talk about it." "I need to know because my job is to keep you safe. Please." "Nick. Just trust me please." I said as Danny, Alex, Derek and Josh came back. 

"Are you okay baby?" Derek asked me, sitting next to me and pressed a kiss to my forehead. "I'm fine." "Nick has to go say hi to Manny alright? I'll be here with you the entire time." Danny said sitting on the table infront of me. I looked up at Nick through glassy eyes and nodded. He pressed a kiss to my forehead and walked away, leaving me with a clear view of a very confused and angry Harry behind him. 

"Why don't you tell us what's going on?" Alex said and they all nodded. 

"I was dancing with somebody and I don't know what happened. I zoned out and had a vision of someone killing Nick and I couldn't cope. I chugged an entire bottle of Vodka and couldn't concentrate and that fucked me up. My whole world fell apart just remembering it and I don't want anything to happen to him. I can't think. I don't want to do anything right now. I want to go home and just drink and I just-" I couldn't even finish the sentence without choking. 

"Nothing bad is going to happen to him. Or us. We can promise you that." Derek said hugging me and I shook my head. "D, that fucked me up. You have no fucking idea the ugly feeling I got seeing that." "It wasn't real." Alex assured and I shook my head. 

"It felt real. I've never felt that much pain in my entire life. Loosing Nick or any of you is like loosing myself. I don't want to be put through that ever." I shook my head, crossing my arms and looked at Nick who was staring at me as he walked back. 

Josh stood up and pushed him a little closer to Harry's table. He whispered what I saw his face fall when he heard what fucked me up. He pat Josh's shoulder and sighed. 

"Get her a joint from the car." I read his lips and he looked at me, my heart sunk. "Come here." He said and I bit my lip but obeyed. I stood a few feet infront of him and he pulled me over by my waist. 

"That. Wasn't real. I'm not going anywhere for a long time. Do you hear me? You're stuck with me and I don't want you to fucking think otherwise. Do you know what would happen if I lost you?" He turned me to the side so I could feel Harry's glare on my left side. Nick was holding my face harshly as he spoke, he was angry. 

"I would fucking kill myself because you're my everything. You're the absolute only person on this fucking planet who I would lay my life down for. If you die, I die. As long as your pretty little heart is beating I will be here protecting you till my last god damn breath. Do you hear me? You're my number one priority, I told my wife that the day I married her. She's aware of that and what you mean to this family. You're our princess and we will not fucking stop fighting until you are safe and sound. Do you hear me? I'm not going anywhere. I love you okay?" I nodded and he engulfed me into a hug. 

"Josh is bringing you something to calm you down some okay? I need you to do me a favor and smile for me okay? Have a good time tonight and you'll spend the night at my place with me so you don't stay up all night thinking about it. I'm here, I'm real. I'm really fucking pissed you let a stupid thing like that fuck you up but I'm real." He rolled his eyes and I smacked his chest. 

"You mean the absolute world to me Nicholas. I love you with my entire heart and my soul. I love all of you like that but seeing you there lying in your own pool of blood fucked me up. I don't wish that feeling upon my worst enemy. That feeling that I got was the worst feeling in the world and I haven't felt like that in my entire life. It fucked me up to think about loosing someone I love like that. I hate you sometimes and I want to hurt you but I don't ever wish death upon you. It's not stupid Nicholas. That right there was my private hell. It was worse than a nightmare and I'd rather get killed by a thousand cuts or have my organs taken out one by one than to ever loose you or any of you 4 assholes." I broke into sobs by the end and he let a few tears slip out as he hugged me.

I was seated next to Nick on the couch and I laid with my head on his shoulder as Josh handed me a wrapped joint of marijuana. I lit it with the lighter, setting my feet on the glass table and took a puff. I held it in and let my head rest on the back of the couch and blew it out. I felt more relaxed as I did a few more puffs and sat up straight. 

"You feel better?" Nick asked and I nodded, accepting the drink he offered me. "Thank you." "Anything for you." Josh winked and I smiled at him. I heard one of my favorite songs came on. Love on the brain. 

"Oh my god! My song." I said happily.

I gave Nick the joint and looked up to see Michael infront of me. 

"May I have this dance?" He asked with his usual cheeky grin, extending his hand. 

"If you hurt my little sister I'll kill you." Nick warned as I gave Michael my hand, letting him lead me to the dance floor. 

The song played from the beginning and Michael put his hand on the small of my back the other was cupping my hand. Mine was rested on his shoulder and we began doing the dancing to the music.

My heart was beating faster I looked into his his green eyes that bore into mine. We danced to the song, looking into eachothers eyes the entire time and heard cheers as people applauded us. The song finished and we were both out of breath as we walked to the table to see my brothers smirking. 

"You dance amazing together." My sister Lucy applauded with my sister Mari who decided to show up. 

"I'd hope so, I spent 8 years of my life with this woman." Michael smiled at me, pressing a kiss to my cheek and I blushed. 

"Can you not hit on my sister infront of me?" Josh asked disgustedly and took a sip of his drink. 

"It's not his fault. I myself have a crush on her." I heard a voice say and a kiss pressed to my cheek. It was my sister-in-law Marcia who was married to Nick. 

"Baby." Nick warned and she giggled hugging me. 

"She's hot." My other in-law, Teresa, who was married to Derek smirked and pressed a kiss to my face. Danny was married to Alyssa and Alex to Maria. They were all happily married and all their wives showed up late as ever. 

"Hey sweetness." Martin came over and pressed a kiss to my cheek and went to sit with Maricela. Lucy was dating a man named Victor who was sweet. 

"Are you guys getting back together any time soon?" Derek asked with a smirk and I rolled my eyes. 

"No." "Yes." Michael said and I smacked his chest. "No." "Why not?" Nick pestered me and I rolled my eyes. 

"Get married!" Martin said and I laughed. 

"He told me about your little bet, you're a bitch." I said to my sister who bursted into fits of laughter. "What bet?" Nick asked, pressing a kiss to his wife's head. 

"She bet Martin 10 grand over when I would be married so the two assholes are trying to get me to marry Michael." I said with a smirk and watched Nick blow up on them.