thirty {nsfw}

It wasn't like you two hadn't had sex before.

Fuck, your relationship was built around sex. How you got close, grew feelings.

But it never got boring, or old, in fact, each time his hands ran across the smooth skin of your thighs and his oddly soft lips trailed the skin of your neck..

Your whole body burned with desire, and honestly it always had.

The detestment you felt for this man throughout the years of training you did were merely your hatred for not being able to have him.

But if it was desire or detestment.. was no longer a question.

Levis lips moved up, placing a small kiss on your shoulder as he gently squeezed the hips on your flesh.

"What are you thinking about so hard?" He mumbled against your skin, moving to prop himself up above you and stare down.

A small hum left your lips, your eyes trailing over his features with a soft smile planted to your lips.

"It was never detestment" you said, your words coming out like a soft whisper.

Levi let his hand slid up your side as he stared down at you. "What wasnt?" He spoke, leaning back down to leave open mouth kisses along your jaw.

Your eyes closed, letting your hands move up to slide along his shoulders.

A breath left your lips as his hands slid further, gripping places that made your head spin.

He dipped down, rolling off you and let out a small breath.

"Do we have any tea left?"

Your eyes opened, letting them follow him as he grabbed pants and slipped them on. "Yeah, top shelf."

In the later days of your relationship, you found yourself constantly thinking back to the days of how you and levi even got close.

It felt blurry, like unanswered questions. Or, you just had to much time out your hands now that you werent a scout.

It wasnt too bad, boring sure, but it felt good to ease levis mind.

It had taken months for him to soften, to even except that he had fully grown attached to you, that he liked you.

He used to push you away with every word, every glance, his anger like a barrier between you both. You had only liked him more for it— you thought you hated how his indifference cut through you.

But somewhere along the way, the lines blurred. What had been hatred, or what you thought was hatred was no longer just hatred.

It had been desire. Desire, he refused to admit. Desire you couldn't outrun.

It was honestly so confusing even now when you looked back at the first month you were in training.

The words you said to your friends around the table in the mess hall. "God i fucking hate that man"

Did you detest him then? Or did you hate that you couldnt have him.

Saying it was enemies to lovers wasnt even possible because were you two really even enemies? Or were you both just too stupid to realise it wasnt hatred.

You were quicker to realise, to admit it. Or maybe just outright insane for saying you wanted him to his face.

"Do you ever miss it?" you asked suddenly, your voice quiet but filled with meaning.

The two of you now in the kitchen, levi making you both tea and you leaned against the counter opposite him.

Levi didn't turn around immediately, but his hand faltered for just a second, stirring the tea a little too vigorously.

Finally, he glanced over his shoulder at you, his dark eyes unreadable. "Miss what?"

"The fight," you said, leaning back in your chair, watching him closely. "The anger. The tension."

For a long moment, there was nothing but the sound of the tea being stirred. He didn't speak, just let the question linger between you both.

"You think you miss it?" he asked, his voice lower now, more thoughtful. He set the spoon down and walked over to where you sat, leaning against the back of your chair, his face inches from yours. His presence was warm, too close, but there was a comfort in it now, a feeling of rightness where there had once been sharp edges.

You met his gaze, a slight smile tugging at your lips. "No. I think I miss the feeling of not knowing."

Levi raised an eyebrow, amusement flickering in his expression. "Not knowing?"

"Not knowing how badly I wanted you." The words were softer now, more sure of themselves than they had ever been in the past. The weight of years spent tangled in animosity had lifted, and you could finally admit what you had been too stupid to know.

The detestment that you had had for Levi, never really was what it was. Detestment, hatred... for wanting him, not him himself.

He paused, his lips pressing together as if he were considering the honesty between you. The silence stretched, but there was no tension in it, no need for anything more than what was shared in that small moment.

You had both come to terms with it, even if the journey there had been messy.

Levi's hand brushed over your shoulder, his touch gentle but insistent. "I know."

You tilted your head back to look at him, your smile softening. "You always did, didn't you?"

He nodded slowly, eyes scanning your face as if he were memorizing it all over again. "I hated you," he admitted quietly, the words leaving him almost reluctantly, as though it still carried some weight. "But I hated that I wanted you more."

The confession hung between you both, raw and unpolished, but true. It was everything you had both denied for so long.

You let out a breath, your hand reaching up to trace the line of his jaw. "So, what do we do with that now?"

Levi exhaled, his gaze softening as his hand slid into your hair, pushing it gently behind your ear. "Mmh.. raw anger always makes the best sex," he said simply, his voice low, almost like a whisper . "Why push away our detestment for each other, when it's the sole reason we're here."

The air shifted, and the room seemed to shrink around the two of you, the world outside forgotten. For a moment, there was no need for anything more than this—

Your fingers traced the edge of his sleeve, the fabric soft under your touch, as if feeling the reality of the moment. "I fucking hated not having you" you whispered, the words a quiet declaration of the peace you had found in him.

Levi didn't reply right away, but his hand slid down your neck, finding the pulse beneath your skin. He leaned closer, his lips brushing against your forehead as he spoke, low and raspy "me too, baby.."

For a long time, there had been only confusion between the two of you. Desire masked as hatred. Hatred twisted into longing. But now, with the simplicity of his touch, the gentleness in his voice, it felt as though you had finally come to understand one another in a way words could never fully capture.

You were no longer fighting. No longer trying to get. What had been a battlefield had now become home, you had won, both of you.

Levi stepped back slightly, his fingers lingering on your skin as he offered you a small, almost imperceptible smile. "Tea's ready," he said, his tone soft but carrying a warmth.

You nodded, the same smile tugging at your lips as you moved to join him. As you moved to the other counter, Levi's hand brushed yours once more, and this time, there was no distance—no barrier between you both. There was only the quiet acceptance that this, right here, was what you both had been waiting for all along.

It had never been detestment. Not truly. It had always been desire. And now, there was no need to hide it any longer, not that you ever had. This was more of a move forward for Levi.

Levi handed you the steaming mug, his eyes flicking over to you with that familiar look—one that used to make your heart race in frustration. It wasn't the same now, though. The irritation was long gone, replaced by something lighter, something warmer.

You took the mug from him, your fingers brushing against his for just a moment before you took a sip. The tea was still hot, but the warmth of it had nothing on the warmth you felt when he stood so close, when the space between you didn't feel suffocating but safe.

He turned toward the living room, leaning against the doorframe as if waiting for something—waiting for you to speak, perhaps.

"You know," you began, your voice light, "I still can't believe you used to push my face into the dirt like that."

Levi raised an eyebrow, a faint smirk tugging at his lips. "You were being rude."

You snorted, setting your mug down on the table as you leaned back in your chair. "Rude? I was just... enthusiastic. You could've let me express myself."

Levi chuckled lowly, shaking his head as he crossed his arms. "You had a way of expressing yourself that made my blood pressure rise. I had to do something."

"Right, something like shoving my face into the ground during every training session," you said with a dramatic sigh, recalling the countless times he'd knocked you down, only to push your face into the dirt and bark orders at you to get up.

Levi's eyes narrowed playfully. "I wasn't the only one responsible for that," he reminded you, his voice dripping with amusement. "You were just as stubborn as I was."

You shot him a mock glare, leaning forward on your elbows. "I wasn't the one who thought humiliating you in front of everyone would help you learn your place."

His smirk grew, the edges of his lips twitching as if holding back something else. "Humiliating you, huh? Was that what you thought I was doing?" His gaze softened, the playful edge replaced with something more teasing. "I was just teaching you discipline."

"Oh, teaching me discipline, was that it?" you raised an eyebrow, a playful grin spreading across your face. "Because I seem to recall a lot of those lessons had more to do with you not being able to resist getting too close."

Levi rolled his eyes, but there was a softness in his expression now, one that hadn't been there during those long, tense days when he kept you at arm's length. "You were impossible," he muttered, the faintest hint of affection hidden in his words.

You leaned back again, tilting your head and staring at him with a mixture of amusement and fondness. "If you hadn't been so... aggressive, maybe I wouldn't have wanted to get under your skin so badly."

A slight chuckle escaped him, the tension in his posture easing as the years of complicated feelings between you both seemed to melt away in the warmth of the present. "So it's my fault you were constantly trying to annoy me?"

"Yes," you said without hesitation, your grin widening. "Absolutely. It was the only way I knew to get you to notice me. You made it impossible to do anything else."

He looked at you, as if considering your words, his gaze unreadable for a moment. Then, the corner of his mouth twitched again, the smile reaching his eyes.

"Well," he said slowly, his tone dipping lower, almost serious. "It worked, didn't it?"

You blinked at him, your heart suddenly skipping a beat. "What?"

"You wanted me to notice you. And I did. Over and over again," Levi said, his voice softer now, the teasing gone, leaving only something more sincere behind it. His gaze never left yours as he took a step closer, his movements slow and deliberate. "I hated it, but... I couldn't stop wanting you."

The air between you both thickened for a moment, your breath catching slightly as the weight of his words settled around you. You'd always known it, deep down—the way his actions had never been about true hatred, but about something far more complicated.

You leaned back in your chair, your fingers tapping against the edge of your mug. "You really thought pushing me around would keep me away?"

Levi's eyes flashed with something akin to amusement, but there was an edge of something more—something darker, more intimate. "No. Thats the reason I had to make that stupid deal."

You snorted, sitting up straighter. "Yeah, that backfired real bad for you.. ended up giving in anyway even after your whole plan to make me lose."

Levi raised an eyebrow, walking over to where you sat and leaning against the edge of the table, just close enough for his breath to warm your skin. "You were always so damn stubborn," he murmured, a faint smile tugging at his lips. "You never made it easy."

"Of course not." You smirked, meeting his gaze. "What fun would it have been if it were easy? I wanted you because you were put easy.. to begin with anyway."

The smile Levi gave you in return was almost... indulgent. "I should've gave in and saved myself all the trouble. I'm now banned from that bar," he murmured, his voice barely above a mumble.

You tilted your head, your fingers trailing lightly over the edge of your mug. "You got banned from a bar?"

Levi let out a small hum and took a sip of his tea. "Yeah.. not my proudest moments, but hey, everything worked out in the end"

You smiled, nodding and let your cup come to reach your lips as you stared up at him.

Your relationship, purely based around desire and detestment for each other, had evolved into something you couldn't live without now, you truly loved this man, and not just when he was dicking you down.

Levi's hand moved to brush a stray lock of hair behind your ear, his fingers lingering for a moment longer than necessary. "You were always good at getting under my skin."

"And you were always good at pretending it didn't affect you," you teased, your voice lighter now, the playful banter falling easily between you.

Levi's smirk was almost smug now, a glint of amusement in his eyes. "I wasn't pretending," he said, his voice lowering, almost daring. "But I should have been. Maybe it would have saved us both a lot of time."

The moment between you stretched just enough for you to let out a small, soft laugh. "Time is overrated."

You didn't wait for his reply before you leaned forward, your lips brushing against his in a gentle, almost teasing kiss. The tension between you both had long since vanished, replaced by something much more comforting, much more real.

When you pulled away, Levi's eyes softened, his lips still curved in a small, knowing smile. "You always did make everything complicated."

You nodded, the smile still lingering on your face as you looked up at him. "But you wouldn't have it any other way, would you?"

Levi's answer was simple, his voice barely a whisper. "No. I wouldn't."

"Complicated was the reason I gave into you" he said, slowly pulling your cup from your grasp and set them both down.

A small grin took over your face knowing where this was going as you watched Levi's hand lean on the counter either side of you and lean in.

You hummed softly, leaning in. "Show me how much you detest me.. captain" you say teasingly, a small laugh leaving your lips as Levi's smirk widened and he leaned in, pressing his lips against yours teasingly soft.

He let out a small hum in sync and moved his hands to your hips, your arms going around his neck, his lips still teasing yours.

You could feel the heat emanating from his body, the tension and desire between you slowly building as he deepened the kiss.

His tongue slid into your mouth, tangling with yours as his hands roamed over your sides and to the small of your back, housing you up so you were sat on the counter top.

He let out a small groan, spreading your thighs to put himself inbetween them. His lips left yours, letting them trail down your neck, his teeth nipping at your skin.

Your arms tightened around him as you let out a low, needy moan, Levi's hands tightening on your thighs as you did.

You could feel both of you slowly losing yourselves to the desire.

The tension grew as levi hoised you up, his lips sucking and kissing at the exposed skin on your neck as he carried you back to the bathroom.

He dropped you to the bed, groaning softly as i followed you down.

he pinned you against the bed, straddling your body with his own as he captured your lips in a heated kiss.

His hands roamed over your body, trailing up and down your sides, slipping under your shirt as he pulled you closer against him.

You could feel the heat radiating off his body as he leaned over you, his breath hot and ragged against your neck.

He continued to kiss and nip at the sensitive skin of your neck and collarbone, his hands slowly travelling lower, trailing down your stomach and under the waistband of your pants.

You arched up into him, your hands fisting in his hair as you felt his lips press against your collarbone, his teeth nipping gently at the exposed skin there.

A soft gasp escaped your lips, your body suddenly burning with want and need as he slowly but surely made his way down your body.

His lips trailed down to your chest, pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses across your skin as he unbuttoned your shirt and shoved it open.

His hands roamed over your body, exploring every inch of you as he kissed and nipped across your chest.

You let out another gasp, your body trembling with desire at the feel of his touch and his lips on your skin.

The heat between you was growing quickly, the need for each other becoming almost unbearable as he continued to explore your body with his mouth and hands.

Levi finally pulled away from your chest, his lips trailing back up to your neck as he took in the sight of you lying beneath him.

His eyes raking over your body, his breaths ragged and heavy as he leant down to press a kiss to your swollen lips.

His tongue swept over your bottom lip as he deepened the kiss, his hands roaming lower again as he suddenly grabbed hold of your hips and pulled you closer against him.

You could feel the hard, growing bulge in his pants pressing against you as he moved against you.

His hips rocked against yours, a low growl rumbling in his chest as he nipped at your neck again.

His hands left your hips, moving back up to pull your shirt completely off your body, discarding it somewhere on the floor.

He groaned softly against your lips, his hands trailing back up to your waist as he pulled away from your mouth, his eyes raking over you again.

He looked wrecked, the usual composed expression on his face gone as he looked down at you with a hungry, lustful gaze.

"You drive me crazy," he murmured against your skin, his voice low and gravelly. His lips returned to your neck, kissing and nipping at your skin as his hands began to undo your pants.

You arched up into him again, letting out another low gasp as he continued to kiss and tease your neck.

His hands finally undoing your pants and pulling them off, leaving you in just your underwear.

He slowly slid his hands up your thighs, his touches light and gentle as he trailed his way up your body.

Suddenly, he moved down again, his mouth coming to rest just above the waistband of your underwear.

His breath was hot and ragged against your skin, his eyes flickering up to yours as he looked up at you. "You're so beautiful," he murmured, his fingers gently tugging at the edge of your underwear.

You felt your face flush at his words, your body trembling with need and desire as his fingers continued to toy with the edge of your underwear.

You couldn’t help but arch up into him again, wanting more of his touch and his kisses.

Levi's hands moved again, slowly pulling your underwear off and tossing it to the side.

His lips found your skin again, kissing and nipping their way down your body as he took in the sight of you lying beneath him completely naked.

He let out a low groan, his eyes roving over your body as he took in every inch of you. His hands roamed over your skin again, the touches hot and almost possessive as he started to kiss and nip his way back up your body.

His tongue traced a trail down your stomach, his hands gently caressing your thighs as he spread them further apart.

You could feel his breath on your skin, the heat between you almost unbearable as he moved lower.

He slowly started to work his way back up your body again, his hands coming to rest on the buttons of his shirt.

He pulled away from you for a moment, his eyes flickering over yours as he started to undo the buttons, slowly revealing the toned muscles of his chest and abdomen as he slipped the shirt off.

His hands went to his pants next, undoing them and pushing them down along with his boxers, leaving him fully naked in front of you.

You could see the way his body moved, the muscles in his arms and stomach flexing as he shifted slightly, the sight of him so undressed driving you crazy with desire.

He moved back on top of you, his body pressing against yours as he brought his lips back to your neck, his hands trailing over your body as he kissed and nipped at your skin.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, your hands fisting in his hair as you tugged him closer against you. Your body was pressed tightly against his, the feel of his skin against yours sending shivers down your spine as you returned his kisses with equal fervour.

He groaned softly against your lips, his hands gripping your hips as he moved against you again, his body rubbing against yours in a way that made you whimper with need.

You could feel how hard he was, the contact between you driving you wild with desire.

His lips left your mouth, trailing down your neck again as he kissed and nipped at your skin. His hands continued to roam your body, one trailing down to your thigh and pulling it up around his waist, holding you in place as he pressed against you.

It didnt take long for him to slowly push his way inside, not taking the time. You both were too impatient at this point.

Low moans left both of you in usion as your arms tightened around his neck and his grip on your thighs became more tense.

"Fuck" he breathed out, tilting his head back as he moved his hips.

"God, you feel so good," he panted against your skin as he moved above you, the heat between the two of you almost too much to bear.

Every movement of his body against yours sent waves of pleasure coursing through you, driving you closer and closer to the point your body was begging for.

You let out a low gasp as he moved, your body arching up against his as he continued to move, his pace quickening as the heat between you continued to build.

It was almost too much to take, the mixture of pleasure and need making your head spin.

"You're mine," he groaned, his voice low and gravelly as he spoke. "All mine to do with as I please."

He rocked his hips against you, his hands moving to your wrists, pinning them above your head as he leaned down to bite at your neck.

You moaned breathily, your head nodding slightly in agreement with his words, unable to get any actual response out.

"That's right," he murmured against your skin, his lips trailing back up to your ear. "You're all mine. No one else's but mine."

He continued to move against you, his body pressing you into the mattress, his grip on your wrists firm and unyielding.

Levi wasn't one to be possessive, really. He was more logical.. but fuck was it hot hearing him sound it.

You choked back a sob as your back arched instinctively in sync with his movements.

His mouth moved from your ear to your neck again, his teeth and tongue working at your skin as he continued to move above you. His hands moved over your body, his fingers digging into your skin, leaving marks as he held you in place.

"Say it," he growled against your skin. "Say you're mine."

"I'm yours," you breathed out, your voice coming out in a whisper, your body trembling with pleasure as he continued to move above you.

"All yours," you repeated, your arms wrapping around his neck again, your nails digging into his shoulders as you pulled him closer against you.

His body trembled with pleasure, his breath coming in ragged gasps as he continued to move above you.

"That's right," he groaned, his voice low and ragged. "You're mine, and no one else's."

He buried his face into your neck as he continued to move against you, his lips moving to your shoulder, biting down on the skin there as he continued to move above you.

Your body was trembling beneath him, your fingers digging into his back as you held onto him tightly, the pleasure coursing through you building and building until you were right on the edge.

"Levi, I'm…" you gasped out, your breaths coming in short, sharp gasps as you tried to speak.

"I know," he breathed against your skin, his movements becoming more and more frantic as he moved above you. "I know, baby. Just let go." He groaned out, his thrusts becoming a little more rapid.

He nipped at your neck again, his hands gripping your hips tightly as he continued to move above you. It was all becoming too much, the pleasure overwhelming as your body trembled beneath him.

"Levi," you gasped out again, your body arching up against his as you teetered right on the edge.

"Let go for me," he urged, his voice ragged and breathless as he held you in place. "I want to feel you fall apart."

Your body shivered as you heard his words, the sensation of him holding you in place and his body moving against you was too much. You could feel yourself start to fall over the edge, the pleasure becoming too much to handle.

"Oh, god," you gasped out, your body arching up against his again as you finally let yourself go, wave after wave of pleasure crashing over you.

Your body trembled violently as you finally let yourself go, your nails digging into his skin as you rode out the waves of pleasure.

He continued to move above you, his own movements becoming more erratic as he felt you come undone beneath him.

"That's it," he breathed against your skin. "That it. Fuck"

"That's my girl," he murmured breathlessly against your skin, his body shuddering and trembling as he continued to move against you, the pleasure overwhelming for him as well.

He finally stilled, collapsing down onto the bed beside you, his body trembling with the aftershocks of pleasure. He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close against him as he held you tight against his chest.

"That was…" he trailed off, his voice still ragged and breathless. "God, that was incredible."

He buried his face into your hair, breathing in the scent of you as he held you close against him. "You never fail to make sex hot with those pretty noises.."

You couldn't help but laugh weakly at his comment, your body still trembling slightly as you tried to catch your breath.

You snuggled closer against him, pressing your face into his chest as you fought to regain your composure.

"I hope you have at least one more round in you," he muttered, his lips finding their way to the top of your head as he pressed a kiss to your hair. "I don't think I'm quite done with you yet."

You shivered at his words, your body still sensitive from your climax. "I think I might need a few minutes to recover," you murmured against his chest, your voice breathless and slightly hoarse.

The night continued on, your old ways of sexual desire fully taking over like you two were back at headquarters.

Everything was perfect. Just how it was meant to be.

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- teur <3

End of book.