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〖✰ 〗Y/N entered the room after pieck staring around the place. it was medium in size with a huge window on the right with the blinds closed. there was a cleared desk with a chair behind it and on the desk was a table lamp. there was a closet on the left and in the middle was a small double bed.

"one second i'm gonna go get a t-shirt from porco's room," pieck's short frame turned to look at Y/N as she nodded slightly walking further into the room.

"okay," Y/N smiled slightly.

pieck walked out closing the door as Y/N unzipped her jeans pulling them off. she folded them neatly placing them on the chair behind the desk before she sat down on the bed crawling towards the bed stand and getting under the covers. she laid her head against the pillow her head sinking in as she took out her phone deciding to scroll through TikTok until she felt tired.

pieck came after about fifteen minutes and Y/N was already preparing herself to sleep. she left her phone by the drawer next to the bed turning to her left as she closed her eyes. she heard the door close with pieck sighing lightly. only the sound of shuffling could be heard as pieck pulled down her dress folding it before she put on the t-shirt that porco gave her.

she tied her tangled hair up before switching off the lights getting under to covers with Y/N feeling the bed sink more as pieck laid on her back. it was kind of awkward because none of them really had anything to say only the sound of dull breaths and sighs could be heard from the both of them.

Y/N finally closed her eyes forcing herself to fall asleep but her mind kept lingering on to the events that happened a few hours ago. she didn't know what to do at this point. she felt like sleeping her problems away was not helping because her mind always unconsciously trailed onto topics that were bothering her and she wouldn't stop thinking about them until it was sorted.

she also couldn't stop thinking about eren and she hated herself so much for it. she hated him so much yet he was always at the front of her mind every single time.

Y/N sighed loudly squeezing her eyes tightly shut as she dug her palms onto her eyes. she tucked her arm under her head still keeping her eyes closed forcing herself to sleep. after a few moments, she turned around to face pieck. it was basically morning so the daylight creeping through the blinds allowed Y/N to witness pieck's small figurine as her back was turned away from her, her shoulders twitching a little each time she inhaled.

Y/N turned around laying on her back staring up at the shadowy dark ceiling breathing in and out quietly. she might as well go home if her body wasn't allowing her to sleep.

"Y/N are you asleep?" pieck's delicate, soft voice murmured.

"no," Y/N whispered softly feeling pieck shuffling on the bed as she laid on her back placing her hands on her stomach sighing loudly.

they stayed silent for a moment before pieck spoke up breaking the silence. "why were you crying earlier on?" pieck spoke softly before tucking in her dry lips.

"since you can't sleep, you might as well talk about the thing that's keeping you awake," pieck spoke again. "but you don't have to, i'm not forcing you to speak about it." pieck concluded.

Y/N turned around facing pieck being able to view her side profile. her thick long lashes fluttered as she squinted her eyes.

"have you ever—like loved someone but it hurt?" Y/N asked not sure if she made sense or not. it was hard to get her words out properly.

"i don't know what you mean..." pieck trailed off.

"like you like someone, but it hurts because it's one-sided and it's slowly killing you inside," Y/N explained still looking at pieck as she played with the ends of her white pillowcase.

pieck turned on her side to look at Y/N playing with her nails. "Yeah, but i feel like everyone has experienced that," pieck shrugged looking at Y/N.

"is that what you're going through at the moment?" pieck asked slipping her hand under her pillow.

"yeah," Y/N softly replied tucking in her lower lip.

"what's his name?" pieck asked.

"eren,"

"is he cute?" pieck asked as Y/N smiled averting her eyes.

"really cute..." Y/N trailed off lowering her voice as she stared at pieck.

"what is he like personality-wise?" pieck asked her eyebrows knitting together while she adjusted the t-shirt she was wearing.

Y/N's expression frowned slightly as she nibbled on her bottom lip averting her hues away from the girl that was facing her looking at the wall.

"eren always thinks he's right, he doesn't consider other people's feelings, he has such an antisocial personality which is very concerning. i think eren is so narcissistic and he craves esteem, he will do everything in his power to get what he wants and by that i mean by gaslighting, manipulating and humiliating. and i feel like he only does that just to prove that whatever he wants he will get it," Y/N listed. there was so much more she could say but she would be here the whole damn day.

"so why do you like him if you can only list the bad things about him?" pieck pulled the bedsheets over her shoulders licking her lips.

"i don't know pieck, i feel so stupid i'm never this naive i promise." Y/N sighed loudly turning around to face the ceiling.

"Y/N you're not stupid for liking someone. i know there's a sufficient reason for you liking him, even if words can't explain it. sometimes your heart is better at explaining emotions." pieck rubbed her shoulders.

"eren sounds like a terrible person or maybe he's just misunderstood and doesn't know how to express emotions without hurting himself and other people," pieck shrugged trying to sound as unbiased as possible.

"he broke my heart, but i'm okay," Y/N muttered turning on her side to look at pieck again.

"but you're not though," pieck spoke bluntly.

"i know i'm not but what can i do? i'm tired of crying myself to sleep about shit i can't control," Y/N's bottom lip quivered as pieck stroked her shoulder playing with Y/N's hair.

"Y/N what happened today? what did eren do to you?"

Y/N let out an airy sigh as she got up from the bed leaning her back on the headboard. she started giggling as she covered her mouth nothing was funny in particular but she'd rather have something to laugh about even if it was funny at all than to cry. "i'm gonna try to tell you the whole story without crying," Y/N spoke earnestly as her chest rose with pieck nodded briefly moving closer to Y/N and laying her head into her plush thighs playing with the end of the bedsheets.

"sounds to me that eren likes you or he's just trying to point the wrong," pieck spoke truthfully as Y/N played with the silky strands of her baby hairs. Y/N explained the whole situation to her not missing out on a single detail. thank god she didn't lose control of her emotions and broke down again.

"if eren genuinely liked me, he wouldn't embarrass me in front of everyone like that, he has made me cry so many times," Y/N told her.

"and if eren didn't like you, wouldn't he let you and jean be? even if your feelings weren't genuine there's no way he would interfere it's obvious that he doesn't want you to be with him" pieck told Y/N truthfully.

"but why is he doing this, if you like me why can't we be together and be happy why is eren making things so difficult?" Y/N grumbled.

"i think that he's not ready to be with you but at the same time, he doesn't want to let you go, from how you acted with jean, that just shows eren that you don't know what you want. i feel like eren wants a secure relationship because you only have one chance to find true love and that's it, i don't think he is capable enough to love someone the second time so it's like a thing where he's locking his emotions and would rather fuck any girl he sees with no emotions attached than to have his heart broken because a girl was being indecisive and not true to her emotions,"

"but i do like him and i told him that what more should i prove," Y/N slapped her forehead whining out of irritation.

"but you also went to jean knowing that you didn't like him that just proves eren's point." pieck shrugged.

"are you on eren's side or mine pieck?" Y/N narrowed her eyes at her.

"i'm on your team Y/N but i'm just trying to get you to see eren's point of view," pieck laughed.

"ok," Y/N shuffled down onto the bed resting her head against the pillow and staring up at the ceiling. pieck reached for her phone by the best stand her dark brown eyes squinting due to the light which illuminated from her phone.

"it's 8 am," pieck spoke softly before she laid back down on the bed as Y/N nodded yawning loudly feeling a sense of fatigue creeping in.

"thank's for reassuring me pieck," Y/N spoke quietly her eyes fluttering shut earning a light hum from pieck who was laying down next to her.

〖✰ 〗Do you guys feel like I'm making this book a bit too long?