𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟟𝟠

-나는 그들의 것, 그들은 내 꺼야-

a week had passed...

an incredibly uneventful week of repetition. we woke up and ate, then we would stay the majority of the time at the house, the only time we would leave would be if seungcheol didn't want to make food. then we showered and went to sleep

it was the same thing over and over again. but i was expecting it and it's not like there would be much to do. the only reason we were in london was to hide out so that not many people would see us

but it was still boring as heck

it was may 1st and i was waiting for monday so that i could start going to school. seungcheol said that i would finish school here and then i could go to college if i want

but i'm not the most excited because i might not even finish college

i don't have that much time left

"love" i faintly heard seungcheol from the kitchen. i was upstairs in the bedroom i stole from him

"coming!" i shouted, exiting his room and walking down the steps

seungcheol and i had started teasing each other with different nicknames and sometimes when he didn't expect it, i would call him 'daddy' and he'd get flustered. it's a rare sight, so i enjoy seeing it. i don't really mind calling each other fun nicknames, but seungcheol has taken a liking to being called 'honey' and 'dear', and i love it when he calls me 'love'

it makes my heart flutter every time he says it

"let's eat breakfast" he smiled lightly when he felt my presence in the room

every night joshua would call him and i would listen. it gave my mind peace that i could listen to them when they spoke, it allowed me to know if they were okay or not

last night he said josh, the man that attacked soonyoung, killed himself. he said that he was compelled to bite his own tongue off someone tried to compel him

what a terrible way to go

so now they're looking at other ways to find gong-myung's base

and that's by finding seulgi. they knew she was working with josh so they're trying to find her. which means she works for gong-myung...

she was never someone i could trust...

i chuckled a little at the bitter thought

"what's for breakfast?" i sat down on the island table, looking at the plate in front of me

"whatever you want" he sat down next to me. "how does mingyu cook almost every day?" he muttered as he leaned onto my shoulder. i chuckled at his antics

"when you guys were away, did mingyu always cook for all of you?" i placed my arm on his shoulder

"i was with wonwoo most of the time and he doesn't cook" i heard him sigh heavily after he spoke, probably thinking of the past. "cheol, you've never told me what you guys did while you were away" (a/n i literally can't remember if they had this conversation or not... if they did, please tell me so that i can delete this part) "what did you guys do?"

"we killed people" he said without hesitation, "sorry to say it in such a blunt way, but we kill a lot of people"

my breath hitched at his words, almost freezing i place. but i continued because i still wanted to know, "why?"

"we had to get out the mafia. to protect you. we had already been thinking about it for a few years and we finally decided to do it" he got off my shoulder and instead leaned on his arm that was on the kitchen island. the childish behavior he was displaying before was now gone, he looked serious and almost cold again

"so we went all over the world, either compelling people to forget about us or killing them if we were unable to compel them. we went in groups. i was with wonwoo, he doesn't cook much at all, so i couldn't enjoy good food" he had one hand on my exposed shoulder. i was still wearing my small pajamas

"sorry you had to do that" the thought of them having to kill for me made me feel guilty, just like what the rest of them are doing now in l.a.

people are dying because of me...

the thought haunted my mind

"why are you apologizing? it's not your fault" he briefly chuckled at my reaction

but it is my fault

unnecessary death

"i wish there was a different way to deal with this too, areum. we don't enjoy killing" he added as he looked at his hand, no longer leaning on it

my expression seemed to fall as i looked down at the ground or at the empty plate by my side, anywhere but his eyes

"sweetheart" he moved his hands so that they were on both my cheeks, forcing me to look at him. "this isn't your fault" his expression was serious

"you have to understand that"

"it's how the world works. gong-myung is trying to get you and use you to control us and we aren't going to let that happen. this isn't your fault" he sighed

"it's our own fault for having you go through this. we were the ones that started working for the mafia. don't blame yourself" he ended his sentence with a sympathetic smile on his lips

his words soothed me, but there was still a pang of guilt deep in me. i still wish people weren't dying right now

"okay" my lips thinned out into a line as i slightly nodded my head.

🌷

"are you still afraid i'm going to attack you?" he asked me out of the blue

we had been watching a movie in the living room, but i could tell he wasn't even watching it because i felt his eyes on me. i tried my best to ignore it and failed miserably. he had an arm around me and i was leaning onto his chest, hearing his heartbeat

"what're you talking about?" a nervous chuckle left me, hoping he would drop the topic

"you know what i'm talking about" his chin tested at the top of my head. "you're scared" he said

a shaky breath left me as i sat up straight, looking at his eyes

"you can't blame me for being afraid" "i know" he nodded his head. "it's just... seeing the red eyes, it freaks me out. i'm scared you're going to lose control or something" i muttered the second part

"after i found out that you guys were... vampires" it took me a moment to admit what they were, even though it's been quite a few months since i found out what they were, i'm not used to it. before i had never believed in supernatural beings, i just thought they were stories they told kids so that they would eat their vegetables

"i realized what kind of danger i was in when it was that time. it explained why they were always so tense and why jun sometimes disappeared" "most of us have good control over our bloodlust. jun is the only one that we need to watch out for, but even then, he's gotten control after we took you in. none of us will hurt you" he ran his hand up and down my arm to try to comfort me

"i know that" i snapped back. "but it's still scary"

why did i just snap at him?

he held both my arms and pulled me back into his grasp, holding me tightly

"i don't blame you" he muttered, "i just want you to know that we would never hurt you" he played with my long hair, raking his fingers through it, trying to soothe me

🌷

-may 2nd-

another day goes by and everything is still the same

except...

a/n *sigh* the next chapter is going to take me a while to write because, unfortunately, it will probably involve smut, and i've never written smut... good luck to me on that. i'm not even sure if i am going to do it, but hey, there is a first time for everything. so, i'm going to try... see y'all next time! also, if you have any questions as them here

ALSO dino and dk this comeback bias wrecked the f*ck out of me. like bruh have you always been this FINE

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