𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟝𝟚

-나는 그들의 것, 그들은 내 꺼야-

-areum's pov-

"we're finally here!" i cheered as i stepped out of the car, the other two didn't seem as excited but i was ecstatic

we were there at 6:21 pm, nine minutes earlier than the agreed time so seulgi wasn't there yet

i waited patiently, sitting in a bench that was in front of an impressive fountain. the fountain itself gave a sense of peace and tranquility if you just sit and listen to the water splashing

chan and jeonghan were on either side of me, chan on his phone and jeonghan laying his head on my shoulder

he still hasn't spoken to me about what he wanted to say. he said he wanted to speak to me alone and he has yet to say anything about it

i looked at the clock on my phone anxiously, i kept shaking my leg out of nervousness, it was 6:35. my heart started to almost beat out of me chest, scared that she wouldn't come, but it's only been five minutes, so i tried my best to calm down, seeing as though it's only five minutes

i took in a few deep breathes, jeonghan seemed to notice and spoke, "your heart is beating like crazy and you're sweating a lot, calm down" he warned as he hugged my waist, "i know, i'm trying" i responded

we stayed there until 6:43, that's when i saw seulgi's figure walking towards and there was a person walking along side her. it was a tall man, he had light hazel eyes and dirty blonde hair, along with sharp features and sharp dark eyes. he was one of the volleyball players that she was always with

"seulgi!" i cheered, standing up abruptly, almost jerking off jeonghan and running towards her with open arms to hug her tight

her was tense for a moment but soon after hugged me back, "sorry i'm a little late, i got a little distracted on the way here" she apologized as we pulled away from each other

i looked over her shoulder and saw the volleyballplayer, he was looking around and he seemed to be avoiding eye contact with me, "nice to meet you, i'm areum" i edged a hand to him

he looked at it suspiciously before taking it and intro dicing himself, "hey, i'm josh" his name surprising me a little

"really, my friend's name is joshua as well" jeonghan spoke behind me, startling me for a moment, "must be a coincidence, he gave jeonghan a fake smile. they seemed to glare at each other for a minute or two, creating an awkward aura for the rest of us there. chan was also their, when i turned around i saw that be too was glaring at josh (a/n that name is totally not gonna make it confusing🙂)

"why don't we head inside, the movie is going to start soon" seulgi interrupted their staring competition

"yeah, sure" chan said as he continued to glare at josh, but he remained still, tension rising

i cleared my throat, trying to get their attention, "so, are we going?" i asked, trying to ignore the tension that you can cut with a knife

seeing that they weren't moving, i grabbed jeonghan and chan's hands and started dragging them inside the movie theatre, i turned momentarily to see that seulgi and the guy behind her were following us

🌷

after dragging them enough and getting our tickets and entering the right movie theatre, the movie started

throughout the entire movie i was sat next to jeonghan on one side and seulgi on my other side, josh was next to seulgi and chan was next to jeonghan. i kept eating popcorn the entire time and when i ran out i would ask jeonghan or chan to get me more; they would complain but they always did it

i'll probably get sick from all the popcorn i'm eating... i chuckled internally, well aware of what will happen if i continue eating

🌷

the movie finally came to an end, it turned out to be a pretty good movie, it was fun to watch and it had quite a few interesting plot twists

as we walked out the movie theatre, i turned over to see seulgi whispering something to josh, "seulgi, are you doing something after?" i asked hopeful that she won't be doing anything

"oh, sorry we have to do something, i came to watch the movie with you to at least spend sometimes with you on your birthday, but i do have to do something today" she apologized with an apologetic smile

"oh okay, i guess you can go, thank you for at least spending some time with me" i thanked her and she started walking away. i slowly turned around, a little disappointed. but before i could fully turn around, from the corner of my eye i saw her looking at us with a face of disgust. almost like she hated us

"what was that?" i whispered to myself, i fully turned to look at the guys and they were still glaring at josh like they would kill him

"did you see that?" i could see chan whispering to jeonghan, and he nodded

are the guys getting in my head about her not being my friend or was she really glaring at us with hatred? it was them getting in my head, right? she doesn't hate me, right? i nervously chuckled internally. trying my best to convince myself but it wasn't really working, but i decided to remain ignorant to what i already knew

"l-let's go guys, why don't we go to the park down the street?" i whispered, as i twitched, trying to contain a few tears

they looked at me confused, noticing my state, but they decided to not dig into it, not wanting to make me feel worse

we all wordlessly walked to the car and went to the park. without speaking a word

she can't possibly hate me, right? what did i do? did i do something wrong? or has she not liked me from the very beginning; but, that makes no sense, why would she approach me then? why would she treat me so nicely in the beginning if she hated me? i'm probably just overthinking, right?

she wouldn't do that

i exited the car, still without saying a word. the park was calm and pretty; it was peaceful, almost serene in my eyes

i started walking deep into the park so that i could drown out the sound of people and cars, so that i would get some clarity. but i could hear them walking behind me, following me idly

i had underestimated the size of this park, i had thought that it was smaller from the view outside but now that we're inside, it's absolutely massive. it looks more like a hiking trail more than anything

there were many people dressed for hiking, i looked down at my attire momentarily to see i wasn't wearing anything remotely suited for hiking

eventually, after climbing a bit and getting on higher ground, i came to a clearing where there was an amazing view

(a/ pretend it's sunset)

i was panting by the time i reached where i was, i tried my best to breathe a little lighter so the people around me wouldn't know i was gasping for my life. i walked a great distance without realizing, my thoughts were still a mess, but i felt a little better now; like i had cleared it the tiniest bit

i sat down near the edge and took in a deep breath, taking in the aroma of the flowers near by. it was april, meaning it was early spring, flowers were already in bloom, creating a soft fragrance. it calmed my erratic thoughts that were going thousands of miles an hour

i need to clear my head...

-jeonghan's pov-

she seems... sad. we walked behind her the entire time. we watched as she came to stop in a clearing where it looked on the people that were leaving the park. this place brings back great memories for me

i still remember the time joshua went on his own and went to la without us, he came back like an excited child. he told us we had to go there at least once in our eternal lives

i was the first one to go with him. the others decided to stay behind in italy, they didn't want to go anywhere else because at the time they were all very happy living there. it was the 1890s and a few of them were in relationships, they didn't want to leave because of that

"i'll talk to her" i said to chan so that he would give us some space, i watched as he walked a few meters back. i slowly walked towards her, she turned towards me momentarily and she turned back to look at the view

i sat down and spoke, "this place is beautiful, isn't it?" i smiled softly, she responded with a weak "yeah" in response, "i remember when i first came to this park, it was more than a hundred years ago. joshua begged us to go" i chuckled momentarily to look at her reaction

she just had a small sigh as she looked down at her fidgety hands

"you saw it, right?" i mumbled to her, referring to the look seulgi gave us, "for a split second you saw it, didn't you?"

"y-yeah" her voice broke as she spoke, she was holding back tears. i moved to sit closer to her so that i could hold her

"may i?" i asked before doing anything, she nodded and hugged me close, i pulled her so that she was sitting on me and i was holding her close, to comfort her

"are you going to be okay?" i whispered to her, my chin resting atop her head. the moment i asked her that she started sobbing her eyes out. i break a little every time she cries, like my heart is chipped away a little every time

"don't cry please, don't make my heart hurt again" i whispered to her, "it broke my heart to see you cry when we left. don't make me see you cry again" i spoke with a few small tears in my eyes

she looked up at me with her red, teary eyes. she put her hand up to my cheeks, "don't c-cry because of me" her voice cracking as she spoke, she wiped away a tear that fell from my eyes

she always makes my heart flutter... i smiled weakly at her, "i'm sorry, i-it's just i d-don't want to believe she's really like that" she stuttered through tears and a few coughs

"please stop crying, it's okay. you shouldn't spend your birthday crying because of her, so please stop crying" i tried my best to comfort her

i ran my hand through her hair. she continued crying on my chest, her tears wetting my shirt, but i didn't mind it. as long as she's with me i'll comfort her, until my very last breath. i just want her to be happy no matter what

"areum" i called her, she looked at me once again, "i'm s-sorry i can't stop. i'm just angry" she said, "i j-just... i just wish this wouldn't be happening" she cried

"s-sometimes i wish i was normal. t-that i had a normal l-life, and i hate that i-i think that. because i'm g-genuinely happy w-with you g-guys. i hate that i think that way" she confessed through tears and choking on her own breath, but i wasn't mad

i understood how she felt because i've felt like that before. whenever i go through a bad period where i hate being this monster that i am, i wish i was human. i wish that my life had ended that day in 1350

but then i remember that i can't do that to the guys or to her. they would be heartbroken if that ever happens

"it's okay to think like that. i have. plenty of more times" i admitted a little tearfully. "you don't have to feel guilty for having those thoughts" i spoke, "but please... please don't leave me. don't do anything rash and try to do something stupid, like leaving us or trying to die, because i won't be able to... i won't be able to go on. so please... please stop crying. i love you... i don't want to see you crying and hurt" i said through my tears and whispering the last part, resting my head on hers

we cried in each others arms for a while

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