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-나는 그들의 것, 그들은 내 꺼야-

-april 3rd-

these past few months i've become isolated and almost depressed. staying in bed all day and only going to eat when they forced me to

i can't speak to them yet. i don't want to yet

-wonwoo's pov-

areum isn't in a very good place. she's always in her room in her bed doing nothing. she won't socialize and she'll only eat food when we force her to. for her own good

but she can't continue like this

I don't know what happened or why she's like this right now, but i need to find out why

i need to help her

the other guys also noticed and they seemed to be just as worried as me but they don't want to push her too much. luckily i don't really give a shit. she needs help and they are cowards for waiting this long

i'll do it myself

🌷

i knocked on her door and heard nothing

i knocked again and again nothing. so i just walked in

"areum" i spoke softly at first, i looked around her room, she was in her bed facing away from me and her room looked like a mess. there were clothes all over her desk and the windows were closed and there were blankets on the floor

"areum" i said again, she didn't even flinch

-areum's pov-

he waltzed in and looked around and looked at me. trying to get my attention but i just ignored him

"areum" he said again, sitting down on the bed, he was behind me so i couldn't see him

"i know you're awake, you breathe much softer when you're asleep" he said, his tone more serious this time

i turned around slightly, "it's not time to eat, why are you here?" i mumbled, "what's wrong with you?"

"nothings wrong with me, i just want to be alone" i said, he moved to be closer to me, "tell me the truth, what's wrong with you? why are you acting like this?" he said with an intimidating aura, urging me to tell him

i hesitated for a moment, choosing my words carefully, "didn't joshua or soonyoung tell you?"

"tell me what?" he narrowed his eyes, "go ask them. i don't want to talk" i shifted in my position, pulling the sheets to my shoulders, covering myself more

"i don't want to hear it from them. i want to hear it from you" he stated

"no" i mumbled looking at my hands in front of me, he shifted on the bed and started hovering over me

"just tell me, let me help you!" he almost yelled, his eyes were red

"please wonu" i said in a small voice, but he didn't move

instead he moved me so that i was laying flat and he was on top of me, his thighs on either side of my body, but he was still hovering over me

"tell me! i want to help you! would you rather i compel you?" he shouted in my face

my eyes going wide when he said that, "you wouldn't do that"

"you have no idea what i would do areum, so don't test me" he stated, his voice going dark

"why won't you tell me?"

i stayed there looking up at him in silence

i was a bit scared of him, he looks genuinely angry. like he could rip anyone's head off at any moment

hesitating i spoke, "i got into an argument with soonyoung, i asked him what it's like to be a vampire and t-then i asked i-if i would ever turn, and he said i would never turn. i got angry at him because of it, i-it's not because i a-actually want to turn, but i d-don't want to die and it's my life... i want to make my own choices!" i stuttered, "but then i told joshua and he said the same thing! i-i have no re-real choice in w-what happens in my life!" i screamed the last part, tears forming in my eyes

"it's my fucking life" i said underneath my breath

"you won't turn, because once you turn there is no going back"

"but it's my life! not yours. i don't want to die"

"do you really want to turn! do you really want to become a monster like me! i've killed countless people, areum! thousands. do you know what that does to a person, being a vampire changes you! your emotions become heightened, everything about you becomes heightened! your ambitions, your fears, your hate! he screamed in my face, he grabbed my hands once i started fighting his hold. he grabbed them and put them at either side of my face, holding them tight

"i don't care!" i screamed back

his dark eyes turned into pure anger, his eyes furrowing

he let go of one of my hands and brought it to his face biting it, blood oozing out, dripping from his arm, down to his elbow and falling down on my shirt

he put his bitten hand on my mouth, forcing me to drink it

i didn't understand what was really happening m, put i protested nonetheless. trying to get his hand off my face

to stop drinking his blood, but he was too strong, his hand wouldn't budge

his face had pure rage, his eyes dark and his own blood dripping from his chin

his hand was suffocating me, i couldn't breath

"wonu, let go!" my voice muffled by his arm. i was panicking

he seemed to realize, his eyes going soft for a moment, and he finally let go

i let out a heavy breath, finally being able to breathe

but the anger in his eyes was still there, he put his hands around my neck

not choking me, "i snap your neck and you become a vampire! is that what you want?!" he screamed the softness in his eyes gone

"tell me to do it areum! say it!"

i couldn't move. i was frozen in place, unable to say anything. i was in too much shock to do anything

he's bluffing, right?

he wouldn't do this, right? is this how you turn into a vampire?

he took me silence as a no and finally let go

he let out a heavy sigh, slouching in his place. "do you finally understand why?" he said looking into my eyes

"if you really want to turn, we'll talk about it after you turn 19" he got off me as he said that

i was still panting, his blood on my lips and chin, "that's how you turn?" i mumbled, he heard me and nodded

"that's horrible" i said underneath my breath

he turned to look at my and saw my scared and shocked expression, i looked traumatized

"sorry" he simply said not wanting to look in my eyes, feeling too guilty to even try

"being what we are, changes you. i wasn't always this cold, i used to be kinder. before i was a vampire i had no idea how dark the world was. i was innocent to the sins of this world. i'm telling you this because you really need to think about this" he paused for a moment, "a long time ago, mingyu was with someone. she was a kind, beautiful, smart woman. so on their wedding night they decided she would turn. but after she turned she became an unrecognizable person. she went crazy. she killed so many people." he said in a low voice

mingyu was married? i thought

but what concerned me more is what they have all lived through

he said that he was innocent to the world, that he was like a different person. we're they all different people before?

"what happened to her?" i breathed out, softly

"we... killed her. we had no other choice but to" he was hesitant and spoke slowly. almost like the memories of her death were flashing in his mind

i let out a small gasp when he said that

he finally looked me in the eyes. his eyes were soft and full of concern

he moved over to me, putting his hand on my cheek, "promise me that you will think before you choose to do this" he said, softly, his breath tickling my face

i nodded looking at his eyes

he rested his forehead on mine and we both closed our eyes. taking in each other's presence

"i'm sorry" he whispered again, "it's okay, you were just angry. but dude you have to suffocate me?" i chuckled saying the second part and so did he

he had a small smile on his face from my small joke

he looked at me and then at my bloody lips, he pulled me closer and kissed my lips softly

"sorry i'm not the type of person to show much emotion. it's hard for me to say what i feel"

"it's not like it's that easy for me either, don't apologize" i whispered

we stayed there for a moment, looking into each others eyes

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