*𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕗𝕠𝕦𝕣

-나는 그들의 것, 그들은 내 꺼야-

"guys?" i mumbled, drawing their attention from each other, "what are you doing here so early areum?" 

joshua looked at me with a shocked expression and then back at the clock in his hand, "s-school ended early," i stuttered, trying my best not to show that i was lying, "what's going on?" i stepped closer to them.

"give us the room jungkook," seungcheol ordered him with his usual cold expression, but there was something in his eyes, something like sadness.

jungkook bowed and left through the front door without hesitating.

he may be close to them but when seungcheol orders something, he does it without hesitating. almost as if he was afraid of seungcheol.

"what's going on guys? you're starting to scare me," i chuckled nervously, but they kept their tense and shocked expressions on their face without faltering.

"areum, come sit down," seungkwan said to me as he pointed to the couch for me.

"okay," i mumbled as i sat down in front of them, some of them decided to sit down beside me as well.

"some of us... are going to go away for a while," he said as he looked at me with sad eyes.

but i still didn't understand what he meant, what's the problem? 

they always go away for something and then come back a week or two later, a month max. 

so what's the big deal?

they've been doing this since i can remember, and they always come back soon after. i've tried to ask them but every time i ask, they brush it off and change the topic. so i stopped asking.

"okay, you guys are always leaving and coming back. what's the problem?" i said with a nervous chuckle, unsure of what their next words are going to be.

"no areum, this time it's going to be different. this time we're going away for a long time," seungcheol said to me with an emotionless expression, but his eyes gave him away again. they were filled with sadness.

"for how long?" i muttered, still not fully understanding, "it could be months to years," jun said as he took my hand in his.

my eyes silently began to tear up, my vision going slightly blurry from the tears, "but y-you'll come back, right?" i muttered through my stutters.

"yeah, but it might be a long time before we see you again," mingyu said quietly.

a silence fell among us, a terrifying silence that seemed to swallow me whole. i didn't want to believe what they were saying. 

years?!

"can you please tell me why?" i mumbled and sniffled, a few tears escaping from my eyes and falling down my cheek, i quickly wiped it away though.

"no, i'm sorry," joshua said to me.

"why not!?" i raised my voice a bit and stood up.

"areum, calm down," jihoon said, shocked at my sudden outburst at them".

no, why should i?! you guys have been doing this for years and i've never gotten an explanation! so, please tell me now. i want to know why you k-keep leaving!" i yelled at them, pouring out my frustration and anger at them.

the years of being in the dark about why they left made me frustrated and it ignited rage in me. all i want is an explanation and they've never given me that.

tears feel down my face, flowing freely from my eyes. myungho came up to me and engulfed me in a hug in an attempt to calm me down. it didn't work much but i still hugged him back. 

"please try to understand, we can't say why," he whispered in my ear as he kissed the top of my head.

i cried into his chest, my tears wetting his shirt.

the crying didn't stop for ten minutes as i almost collapsed onto the floor if he hadn't been holding me tightly.

he sat down on the couch with me in his arms.

"please don't leave me," i whispered in his chest.

"i'm sorry," he whispered back.

-myungho's pov-

"vernon, mingyu, wonwoo, myungho, jeonghan and i are the ones leaving," seungcheol said to her.

he may not show it in his face, but he was sad about this too. his eyes always gave him away, they always held how he was feeling, no matter the situation his eyes were truly the door to his soul, always giving away his emotions.

i looked down at areum, seeing her sad teary eyes. vernon came up to her and sat down in front of us, his hands going to her cheek, "i'm sorry we have to go, i really wish we didn't have to," he said to her with a sad smile on his lips.

"if i hadn't come when i did, would you guys have left without telling me?" she mumbled through a few hiccups from all the crying she did.

i hate to see you cry...

the harsh truth is yes, we would have left without telling you. to protect us from seeing you cry. we're cowards areum. i'm sorry we were planning on doing that to you. 

god! we don't even have the balls to say goodbye to you. you're surrounded by a bunch of cowards, areum. you deserve better than us.

i'm going to miss you so much...

i can't imagine being away from you for so long. you're human, time passes for you too quickly; the next time i see you, you might already be a woman...

"yeah. we thought it would be better for you to not see us before we left," he explained to her, "at least t-tell me why. please, that's all i want," she pleaded.

"we can't, i'm sorry."

-areum's pov-

that's all he said, 'we can't, i'm sorry.'

that's all i get. years of having to deal with them leaving and coming back and i still get nothing.

no explanation...

it was frustrating, never getting my questions answered. it angers me, but it must be for a good reason, right?

they have a reason, right?

🌷

i was angry at them, but i don't want to spend the little amount of time i have left with them like this, i don't want to fight, i don't want to say goodbye like this.

"are you guys leaving soon?" "in a few hours, we still have a little while together," jeonghan said to me.

so, they are leaving soon...

i didn't want to fight, so i just laid there on myungho's arms, trying to savor what little time i had left with them.

for the rest of the time together, i stayed by his side. the others held a few conversations, but i didn't really listen to them.

i almost felt numb from all the crying, i felt like i couldn't feel anything except sadness. it enveloped me.

how am i going to spend years without them? how am i going to keep going? i feel like it's the end of the world for me.

we only stayed together for three more hours. three measly hours.

i watched them talk to each other, i watched the sad expressions on their faces. how jeonghan looked heartbroken and so did myungho. how the usually talkative mingyu grew silent, and seungcheol's sad eyes landed on me occasionally.

but wonwoo kept the same cold and emotionless expression on his face. he didn't look around in disgust, he just looked emotionless for some reason, almost numb like me.

"we have to get going now," seungcheol said as he looked at his wristwatch, "w-what? already?" i suddenly said after being silent for hours.

"yes, sorry areum," he stood up and looked down at me and then at myungho, who was still holding me, "we have to go," he said.

reluctantly, myungho stood while still carrying me bridal style. the others that were leaving also stood up, a few of them already out the door.

"please, don't go," i muttered, "i really wish i could stay, areum. but i promise i will come back one day," myungho said to me as he put me down and extended his pinky at me.

"remember what you always say; there is a special place in hell for people who don't keep pinky promises," he said to me, his statement made me chuckle lightly.

i took his pinky in mine and i shook on it. "just come back soon please," i muttered as i hugged him tightly.

🌷

i watched as they walked out the door, one by one, leaving for who knows how long.

and when the last one left through the door and closed it shut, i ran to my room.

i didn't want to look at the others. they'll look at me with a pitiful look and i don't want that, i don't want to look at those pitiful eyes.

i closed the door shut behind me and locked it, i heard as soonyoung tried to make me open the door. but i refused and ignored him.

he kept banging for me to open but i didn't.

🌷

-one year later-

exactly one year has passed since they left on that dreadful day.

i woke up hoping to see them. jun said it would be months to years. it's been a year and they still haven't returned, but hopefully today they will.

so, despite my small doubts i got up this morning and took a shower, wishing to see them again.

one year has felt like an eternity for me, a single day doesn't pass by that i don't think about them, a day where i hope i see them when i walk downstairs, a day where i can eat mingyu's delicious food and i get to see wonwoo's cold expression as he looked at mingyu cook, a day where i see myungho again.

i walked downstairs, closing my eyes before i walk into the kitchen.

but only seeing jun eating breakfast alone when i open my eyes again.

my wishes going down the drain.

but i tried my best to stay hopeful and to ignore negative thoughts that pass through my mind.

"good morning gorgeous," jun said to me in cantonese. "good morning," i said back to him in the same tongue.

i've been trying to learn cantonese from him but it's still a bit hard sometimes to understand.

i looked around the kitchen expecting to see joshua making breakfast or seungkwan and soonyoung bickering. but they weren't there.

"where are the other guys?" i mumbled. 

"they're out, they won't be back until tomorrow. so, we get to spend the entire day together," he smiled at me, "that's nice, we haven't had a day together in a while," i smiled as i sat across from him

i looked at what he was eating and was rather surprised at what i saw. he was eating tteokbokki but what surprised me was that he was drinking wine.

"jun, why are you drinking wine so early in the morning?" i chuckled a little, "i like my wine, what can i say?" he shrugged and drank the rest of it in one go.

jun's always been a peculiar person to me, he has this awkwardness about him that makes him feel real. it felt comforting to know i wasn't the only awkward one in social situations.

"okay?" i chuckled, "can we go out today? i need to get some clothes, all of mine don't fit the best anymore," i pouted a little, trying to convince him to go out.

they usually don't take me out anywhere, not that i complain much because i have no real interest in going somewhere, but when i do ask, i sometimes have to jump through a few hoops.

"hm, maybe you should go out with one of the other guys, they're better at that kind of stuff than me," he said as he took a bite of his breakfast, "who cares, let's just go somewhere, please just take me to the mall," i sat down next to him and held him.

"fine, let me just finish my breakfast and you have to each yours," he said to me with his mouth full.

i ran to the kitchen counter where the rest of the tteokbokki was and ate it in a hurry, almost choking in the process. then running upstairs to change.

what she was wearing:

what he was wearing:

once i was done, i quickly walked downstairs and saw jun on his phone waiting at the front door, "you ready?" he asked as he looked up at me, "yeah, you look nice" i smiled to him, complimenting the way he looks. 

just as handsome as always, i sighed a little.

"thanks, you too," he returned the smile back at me.

we walked out of the house and got into his car.

🌷

on our way to the mall, we sang songs at the top of our lungs and made fun of each other with the weird expressions we make.

jun's relationship with me has always been fun. we loved to tease each other and make little fun dances together. we liked to tease the others as well and prank them.

he comforts me and makes me laugh without even trying. having him around, almost compensated for the others leaving. not completely but it eased the pain of them leaving.

i love him for his awkwardness and how he makes me feel better, but i still miss the guys.

would they be coming back today? the thought haunted my mind.

"areum, get out of your thoughts and get out of the car," he said to me when he saw that i was spaced out in my own world, "y-yeah, sorry i didn't realize," i said flustered.

we entered through the huge doors of the mall and i was overwhelmed by the smell of pretzels and expensive perfume.

"where do you need to go first?" he looked down at me.

curse you, human titan, why do you have to be so tall!

"let's just go in this one and see if i like anything, after that let's just look at any others that catch my attention," i said as i grabbed his hand and walked to the store right next to us.

we went from store to store, casually talking and debating on what i should get and occasionally joking about one of the store items because of its bizarre appearance.

"jun, i have to go in there," i said as i pointed at a certain store.

🌷

-jun's pov-

she pointed at a store across from us. she pointed at the store i least wanted to go to.

it was the underwear and lingerie store. my face flushed a red color and i looked away for a moment, "d-do we have to?," i stuttered, i just had to be a pervert.

"yes," she said to me with innocent eyes, i let out a small huff.

she's lucky i love her so much, i pouted and nodded my head softly.

but before she started walking, she looked at me with a concerned expression, she saw how red i had gotten and looked at me weird, "are you okay?" she asked me, "i'm fine, let's just get this over with," i muttered as we walked in.

she roamed around the store for a bit before she started picking out what she wanted.

i tried my best not to have my usual perverted thoughts because she was here, don't want to get a boner from lewd thoughts that often ran through my mind when i was in situations like these.

i looked away whenever i felt that my thoughts were getting out of hand. i could hear the women here giggling because of my red face.

"areum, are you almost done?" i mumbled to her, she looked at me and then at the bags i was holding, "almost, just give me a sec," she muttered as she looked back at what she was holding.

she picked out a few things and we finally walked to the cash register, she asked for my credit card and i gave it to her without hesitation.

areum, it was probably the worst decision bringing me here. why would you bring a perverted vampire to a damn lingerie store?

"jun, are you hungry?" she looked back up at me, "if you're asking me that means you're hungry, aren't you?" i chuckled at her, "yeah," she gave me a shy smile.

-areum's pov-

we walked together to the food court, hand in hand. it was funny to see him walk with about six bags on one of his hands and i only had one small one. i felt rather bad for letting him take all the bags, but he kept insisting that he was fine, how does one carry so many bags in one hand?

we ordered our food and tried out best to find an empty table, but when we did, we quickly sat down and started eating.

we had already been here for a few hours and i was starving at this point, i was basically inhaling my food, i almost choked when i saw the look on jun's eyes as he watched me eat like my life depended on it.

but from the corner of my eye, i saw something that made my heart drop.

i saw a group of girls from my school and eunjung was one of them. they were laughing at something or someone, it almost felt like they were laughing at me, but that's just my mind playing games, right?

my hope that they weren't really laughing at me was diminished when they started to walk to our table.

"hey areum, how are you?" she gave me and jun a fake smile.

"h-hey," i muttered and looked away, hoping that this was all a dream or some type of sick joke.

"why do you look so shy dear, why don't you introduce me to your friend here?" she said with a cunning tone to her voice.

i looked at jun for a moment, he seemed to notice her attitude and looked at her with a scowl, "j-jun, meet e-eunjung," i felt my body tense up, and my palms got sweaty and i started shaking, scared of what she would do.

"so, you're the bitch that hits areum?" he returned the same fake smile she gave him.

when he said that i didn't know how to react... how does he know that she hits me? when did he find out? my eyes widened in surprise, eunjung had the same look in her eyes, surprise, and shock.

jun suddenly shot up from the table, grabbed everything, and grabbed me by the arm in almost one movement.

he dragged me out of the mall and stopped when we got to the car, "h-how do you know a-about eunjung?" i stuttered, he threw the bags in the trunk of the car and swept his hands through his hair out of frustration.

"she's the girl that's been hitting you, isn't she? don't think i didn't know when you came home with bruises all over your arms!" he screamed.

the people that were walking near us looked at us because of his outburst.

i felt a few tears form in my eyes, "h-how-" 

"you would be careful about how you moved and if anyone got the slightest bit close to your arms you would become tense. one time i saw you in your room and you had bruises all over you," he said to me, pure rage and anger in his eyes, "jungkook told me, he said you didn't want us to know and that he would take care of it," he said.

"get in the fucking car, we're going home," he ordered.

all i wanted in that moment was to cry and i wanted all of this to be a dream. i entered the passenger seat as i bit my lip trying my best not to let the tears in my eyes fall.

"please, please don't tell the others," i mumbled, fighting the urge to cry.

he started driving away without answering my question, i could see that his knuckles were turning white from his tight grip on the steering wheel, "why?" he said after two minutes of driving.

"w-what?" i muttered as a tear slipped from my eye, "why didn't you want us to know?" he asked, anger evident in his voice.

"b-because you guys would have done something about it," i stuttered out in a whisper as i looked out the window, a few more tears falling from my eyes.

i felt ashamed, my worst nightmare becoming true. of course, i wanted her to stop teasing and harassing me. but at the same time, i didn't want to get them involved because they would go to my school and everyone would make a big deal about it. all the attention would go to me and i don't want that, i would have preferred them not to know about this. i can't even look at him right now.

"areum, of course, we would have done something about it. we love you and we don't want to see you suffer," he said to me, his voice was much softer than before.

there was a moment of silence before i felt him stop the car at the side of the road, "areum, please look at me," his tone was gentle when he spoke.

i hesitantly looked back at him, his eyes were soft, and he had a concerned expression on his face.

when i looked in his eyes a cascade of tears fell from my eyes, "please don't m-make a big deal of this," i begged him as i tried my best to wipe away all the tears that were falling and failing.

he looked like he wasn't sure what to do, so he did what he's always seen the others do when i cry. he pulled me into a hug.

"it's okay," he whispered in my ears as he gently patted my head, "everything is going to work out, don't worry," he whispered again.

we stayed there for a few minutes before i calmed down and finally spoke.

"they aren't coming today, are they?" i said into his chest, my tears wetting his shirt, "no, i'm sorry. i know you miss them," he said as he pulled away and looked at my teary eyes.

"i want them to come back," i whispered.

"me too," he gave me a sad smile.

i looked at him for a few seconds before i spoke again, "what are you going to do now?" i whispered, "don't worry about that, i'll make her stop bothering you. one way or another," he turned back to the wheel and started driving home.

🌷

"areum, do you want me to stay tonight?"

we arrived home and we started putting the clothes away and when we finished, he asked me this.

after the guys left, i couldn't spend a night alone. i felt like the others would leave and i got into the habit of asking one of them to sleep with me, it calmed me to know that i wasn't alone.

"no, it's okay. i think i'll be alright tonight," i said to him.

he got out of my room and into his, i went to my private bathroom and took a calming bath, but i couldn't stop the tears from falling down my face. 

feeling guilt and shame. but also, relief that the nightmare in school might end, that i would be able to talk about it with someone other than kook. 

nevertheless, I was also devastated that they have not returned yet, and that hurt more.

i got out of the shower and changed into some pajamas even though it was the middle of the day.

what she was wearing:

i went downstairs and saw jun watching tv on the couch, "want to see this movie? it looks interesting," he said looking at me, he was now wearing grey sweats and had a blanket over him.

i'm so glad i have you.

i sniffed away the snot that was starting to drip from my nose and wiped away my teary eyes.

"sure," i mumbled making my way towards him, snuggling on top of him, and watched the tv together, i was still sniffling but he didn't seem to notice it.

before i knew it i fell asleep to the sound of the tv and his gentle breathing.

i felt peaceful...

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