PART WAYS

Before you read this chapter... Let me inform you all that this is two parts combined in one. I didn't have much time to break it down and upload separately. And I am sorry for that🥺.

I hope you all understand. And enjoy this chapter reading!!

Also, one more love story begins in this chapter... Make sure to love them too🤭

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"It's okay… you don't have to love me, y/n. I understand…" he gets cut off by your voice.

"You… Did you visit me?" You questioned, your nails digging in your thigh meat as you closed your eyes while leaning over the wall behind you.

Jungkook couldn't help but feel losing himself more. It's not like he expected you to accept his love… but the way you changed the subject, made him feel more terrible about himself. 

I am sorry…

I'm so sorry… Because of me, you'd gone through so much; 

I don't blame you because I deserve your hate…

He pulls the phone away before letting his controlled sob leave his edges. Gathering himself within a second, he takes a deep breath before answering.

"Yes. I was there for my friend's wedding which I eventually didn't attend. I came to know you are sick… and I couldn't hold myself. How are you doing now?" He explains in one breath and his free hand makes its way to cover his mouth. He didn't want to trouble you more. 

You've already seen much…

 "Thank you, Jungkook. I am…" you couldn't answer his question. You didn't have any words in your mouth. You were losing everything. And especially that ounce of strength you had. 

You are in love with him!

There's no other way around… you are in love with him!

But you knew your boundaries… loving him and actually being in love with him.

Just like he changed… and as said by him that he loves you, you changed too.

He improved as a better man while you changed for the worse…

You weren't the same. Your body wasn't the same. Your heart wasn't the same. Nothing was. 

Even if you love him… the constant fear of being touched won't leave you and what would you even answer Jungkook? What would you say when he'll ask about your fear, anxiety of getting touched?  What would you say when he'll try to hold you, hug you? 

That you weren't the same y/n. That you were touched… you were held without your permission. 

That you can't give him the old y/n he loves! He won't even like seeing you… would he? Your skin which was as bare as the new canvas was now splashed with your own blood, painted by yourself. Your cologne which he used to like is dumped in the sweats and the worst perfume you bought. That man made you hate your cologne… that man made you loathe the only thing which Jungkook loved the most about you.

"I'm sorry, y/n…" he mutters, breaking the long brief of silence which took over the call. You shook your head, shaking the thoughts away from your skull. 

"For?" You ask. You need to know what he was sorry about. You didn't actually want him to apologize at this moment where all you needed was comfort and his soft voice but hearing his apology you couldn't help but ask.

For what? For the contract thing? For allowing Sarang in our house without even asking or at least informing me? For always putting me last? For playing with my feelings? For understanding that you love me? For…

You didn't forget. But surely you were over it. You understand that he made mistakes and a human does. You were also naive. You made some mistakes too. And to add the cherry on the mess, you both were building your relationship gradually. So you both were at fault, and you understand that. But still, the hurt didn't leave. You were hurt only for the contract thing and the incident which shattered your every piece of soul. 

The incident when you visited his dad to give him some files which he needed. His dad said that Jungkook wasn't in the office and he needed them urgently but to your surprise, he was there. Jungkook was in his office. He was working not on a laptop… but Eunji. You encountered her filthy moans again. And just when you thought Jungkook wouldn't be in there… you heard him too. 

"For not informing you about that contract thing. Y/n, I was planning to eliminate it. And Also for Sarang's stay. For being insensitive towards you, for dismissing our relationship. Sht… I have so much to apologize for, don't I?" He chuckles bitterly, trying to get himself to hear your heavenly laugh. But he didn't get any. You weren't that y/n who used to smile even at his slightest tease. 

Everything changed, Jungkook…. Except my love for you.

The thing which struck in your brain was he didn't mention Eunji even for once. It wasn't like you hated him for what has happened in the past. But as said, a woman can forgive her spouse for everything except getting cheated on. 

Meanwhile, Jungkook understood the silence. 

"Baby… I never cheated on you. I accept I am the worst human and I have done every bad thing to you but never cheated on you, love. I didn't cheat on you and I never will. No matter what happens. I didn't… eye on any woman after being married to you. There was no one except you… I swear.  I understand the encounter of me and Eunji in an unknown state before our marriage left an impression on you but trust me, trust me that was the last thing. I never got back to her… I swear," he pours his heart muttering everything he knows, he has. 

He wondered why didn't you trust him?

You trusted him… but how could you ignore those noises in your head which reminded you of that incident. 

You heard his moans… you heard him and how could you ignore them?

"I… I heard you, Jungkook. When I visited your company… your dad said that you were in the factory, fixing some issues but… but I heard your… your moans…" you halt, not knowing what to say further. How can you even talk about your lover's voice moaning someone else's name?

What? After marriage?

No…

"Love… listen to me. Please… I swear, I don't know what you are talking about. I swear I didn't. Please," his voice breaks as you nod over the call.

I won't doubt this time… promise, 

"I trust you, Jungkook. I am sorry for doubting you. I should've cleared it out instead of jumping…" he cuts you off.

"Do you not hate me?" He asks, his tone desperate.

Hate? Kook… I've loved you!

"Why would I hate you?" You question back, wiping your dry tears while he bathes in guilt again.

What have I done to deserve your kindness? 

What?

"Y/n, shouldn't you hate after how much I've hurt you? How much pain I've brought you? How did my actions bring consequences to you? How my mistake made that…" he halts, not being able to even speak of that horrible nightmare of yours.

"Jungkook, past is gone. Nothing can change it. You did mistakes and I did too. I agree, it was painful to see you putting others first but now when I look back… I understand. They were people who you've loved for years and we were just getting started, we were building our relationship. I guess… I was just too desperate for being your only one," you gulped the lump, chuckling bitterly. 

While he shakes his head in disagreement. You weren't asking more, you were asking what belonged to you and what Jungkook couldn't give you.

He regrets everything now… but at the same time, he wishes if he can get any chance to make it up…

But would he?

Because you would hate him after knowing he is the reason behind the Bushong incident…

"Is he keeping you happy?" He asks, stabbing his own heart. He needed to know if you are happy or not. He doesn't want you to himself if you are happy without him.

Happy?

You weren't happy even once in these four years.

"I don't know. It's going well I guess," You lie, begging yourself to not be so harsh on yourself while tears tumble down your eyes once again. 

Oh, sweetheart…

Good. At least you are moving on…

I hope he doesn't dishearten you.

You deserve the world, love!

"Good to… good to hear that," he stutters, his voice broke so many times in a single call while all you wished for him to not hear your whimpers. 

I am sorry…

I am so sorry, Jungkook…

I can't give myself to you, I can't!

I can't put your life at risk too!! Telling you that I am forced to stay here would bring danger to you too…

Forgive me, baby…

I'll give my everything to just see you happy and safe; even if that means dying!

You know… you know he would have stood with his heart on his sleeves for you against a mafia with a weaponed army… and that's what you don't want.

He was helpless… 

And so were you…

"Jungkook… I am ending the call now. But before that, please do not blame yourself for what happened. I never hated you and I never will. I loved you, kook. And we can never hate someone who we have loved. We all make mistakes. Don't beat yourself for your whole life. Loosen yourself, Jungkook. You have a great future ahead. Work hard and bring your company to the top just how you wished. Enjoy your life, party with Jimin.  Please don't be so harsh on yourself for what you've done in the past. It was meant to happen and you've learned from it. That's important rather than punishing yourself…" he cuts you off.

"How do you know I am punishing myself?" He questions, sniffing and wiping his runny nose over his shirt.

I…

I know…

I know how you behave...

I know how you hurt yourself…

"I am sorry, I just thought," you apologise while a faint chuckle leaves his mouth.

"That's what I hate, love. You know me too well while I fail at that. But now… I hope only love and joy will spread in your life from now on. I hope… Hope he keeps you happy from now on. You deserve everything, my love," he muttered, his heart stinging in pain but at the same time relieved with satisfaction that at least he got a chance to confess his love to you.

No, he wouldn't have let you go this easily… he wouldn't have!!

But keeping you near without your approval would be more worse!

It's okay if you rejected him…

He was happy with just letting you know that he loves you more than anyone…

And he would lie if he said that he doesn't believe in destiny…

He believes that somewhere… maybe somewhere you are written in his fate...

He preached your name… he bowed to you… his pride was you… he worshipped you… and there was no turning back.

"Goodbye… Jungkook," he repeats the same.

"Happy birthday in advance, love. I hope every day you are loved and are happy. I don't know if I will get a chance to wish you or not hence I wished you earlier…" he sighs in frustration.

Can't he talk to you everyday?

He won't ask for more… promise.

How to tell you that he wouldn't be able to live! He needs you… and if not you, at least your voice to keep him going…

God! How tangled up he is in your love maze...

"Thank you. It would go best now that you've… thank you," you cut yourself from giving him hopes. You both share longing silence, a silence pouring all the love you two had before you end the call.

Forgive me… what I am going to give myself this birthday.

The day ends as soon as you spend it again by the bed. It was dawn time, the sun hiding now behind those large mountains. 

Can I call him again?

Why am I so addicted to you?

Why did fate bring us here?

Why couldn't I keep myself from calling you?

It would've been better to die without giving you hope…

I am sorry.

A knock on the door brings you out of your thoughts as you wipe your face and snuggle up in the duvets more. Closing your eyes, you act well. Taehyung waits for a few more seconds before twisting open the door. 

As he steps inside, he meets with faint darkness taking over the room after sunset. His eyes graze over your sleeping form in the duvet as he sighs and walks up to you. Today was hectic and to say he just needed to sit by your side and relax wouldn't be wrong. 

Was it too much to ask for your warmth? For your care and gentle touch?

He sits beside your bed, kneeling to the floor. His face confronts the large windows as he watches the blue sky turning greyish to black while his back rests on the bed. 

"I hope you are sleeping well," he mutters, staring outside. 

He liked the silence. After all the long, loud sounds of guns, screams, pleads of people… he liked this silence. It was comforting. 

You peek open your one eye and catch a glimpse of the man before shutting it back again. 

Oh, he is still here… gladly, he faced outside. 

"Y/n. Your name is itself a melody. No wonder why I couldn't get over you in all these years. You are like a drug, sweetheart. And I am sorry, I can't let you go," he grunts, lowly. A soft chuckles leaving his edges while your hands over the sheets tightened in fear. 

He scares you…

No worries, y/n. 

Just two more days.

Two days more to his arrival and your death! 

Jimin sips the smoothie while Jungkook stares at his best friend quietly. 

"You visited her and never for once did you see her act differently?" He questions Jimin. While guilt and shame fills his veins. He knew Jungkokk wasn't blaming him, he was just asking but somewhere he couldn't help but drench in shame. Shame of not recognising the hurt behind those eyes. 

Before he says something, loud thumps of the doorbell catches their attention. And that doesn't stop with one, it keeps ongoing making the best friend duo groan in annoyance. 

"Who the fck is that?" They both mumble as Jimin gets up to attend to the person. 

Jimin didn't have many people to visit him except his friends and a few office employees. And none of them ever dared to irritate him except Jungkook who was beside him right now. 

As he flings open the door, he looks up at the person and before he could even catch a good glimpse of the tall man he lands on the floor. 

Oh… not to mention, he lands on the floor with that muscular man.

"Argh!" He groans beneath him. Namjoon's anger towards Jimin for bringing y/n Seoul back without informing them goes in a drain as he loses himself in his beauty.

Fck! He has never seen someone so beautiful like him!

So beautiful… so fragile yet so dominant…

His doe eyes adore the milky skin of Jimin as they travel from his sealed small eyeballs to his rosy, plump pinkish lips. His prominent jaw erodes millions of butterflies in his stomach. Jimin wiggles under his hold and his knee rise to kick the balls of the muscular man.

"Ouch!! Don't be so hard on me, little," Namjoon's painful groan echoes Jimin's ears. While his voice does wonders on him. He opens his eyes only to find himself below a heavenly man. 

He was a sin… and God was about to sin!

Namjoon wasn't much of the Korean beauty standard… to say he fcking belonged to heaven's beauty standards won't be wrong. His deep oceanic eyes were everything he would like to dive in. His vast forehead would hide all his worries as he would kiss the flesh gently. His tongue running over his inner cheek in pain made him think about how warm it would feel on his lips.  

What the hell? 

No way in the fcking world that's happening!

Jimin realises sooner than expected as he pushes the man off him. Namjoon sits beside him, almost towering over his little form. Jimin wasn't tiny but beside this talk bulky man he looked small. And to say Namjoon liked it… won't be wrong.

"Where is Y/n?" Rose's howl echoes down the living room, bringing everyone out of their little world. 

"Who are you?" Jungkook questions back. Rose glares at him with all her will to kill him if did anything wrong to you.

"Where is Y/n, Jimin?" Rose's death glare follows Jimin as he gets up instantly.

"She's… she's with Kim Taehyung," his low voice scares two people who came in search of you. 

"What? WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? SHE CANT!!" She yells at top of her lungs, making the three men almost cover their ear drums.

"She is… she says it's getting better. We don't know…" Jimin's talk gets cut off by Namjoon.

"And you mf believed her? Like in what world are you her friend, man?" He questions, his lovely feelings fading away and filling his heart with anger.

"She… she can never go with him. She is scared of everyone," Rose's claim makes everyone squint their eyes in suspicion.

What does she mean by that?

"What are you talking about?" Jungkook asks, taking steps near to her form. 

"She is scared of everyone. She… she is even scared of me!! My touch! She can't go with him. She doesn't even know him! How can she go willingly with him?" She moves backs and forth with her head aching due to your worry. 

Scared? Of touch? 

Sht!!!! Scared of touch!!!

"I am going!"