K28 "I Hate That I Love Her"

LISA'S POV

What happened after our hangout?

Aside from having a hangover.

We got scolded by our managers and the CEOs Mr. Lee, Mr. Kwon, Mr. Yang and Mr. Kim (JYP).

Yes, all of them.

But what can we do? What has been done is done. And there is no turning back.

And if ever I have a chance to undo it.

I will not undo it.

I would be probably doing the same mistake and I'm sure the girls will do the same.

Well, what we have done isn't a mistake after all.

I just don't effin understand why are they so mad at us.

We just had fun.

Yes, we had really so much fun that night.

We became our own selves.

Feels like we just had our freedom in our own world.

World that doesn't includes cameras.

World that don't requires acting.

No pretending.

We showed who we are comfortably around each other.

Before we started our mini party.

We have agreed to turn our phones off.

No gadgets.

Any kind of gadget are not allowed during our night.

I thought we are going to spend a boring night because of that, but unexpected things happened.

We enjoyed it more than what we expected.

No one disturbed us.

We don't have to worry that people will judge us. Because being on your own world means you don't have to follow societies' demand of what you should be and what you should do.

We are free.

We are WE.

Everything is real. I felt that.

And one of the best part is, we've learn so many things about each other.

The dramas, feelings and opinions, crazy experiences, amazing memories and so on.

Actually at first, I was very careful.

I just watched them having their own free world.

My mind was too afraid.

Except Yoon-gi oppa who knows my dramas. I have never been open to anyone.

And with the girls I felt like I can open up to them.

So not an hour past I loosen up.

That's when I realized how fun it is to be who you really are.

No filter to cover the unwanted part of you.

Jennie unnie was very clingy to me which I enjoyed ofcourse ;)

So I gave up ignoring her, it's too hard.

It's just that, I really felt uncomfortable whenever I see her and Kai being close together.

We all know they have a past.

But, as if you have the right to act jealous Lisa. I said to myself.

We played spin the bottle throughout the night.

That's when crazy things happened.

Who ever the bottle pointed will have to do both TRUTH AND DARE.

You know how that game works already.

For truth, they will ask you a question that they want to know.

And for dare, it will mainly based on them, not on what was written below the bottle.

So it was random. Depends on the level of curiosity and evilness they have in mind.

All in all. We enjoyed a crazy night knowing each other better.

One moment we're serious whenever we talk about truth and then later on we do crazy stuff that goes with the dare.

Crazy things that we surely enjoy.

"Hey Lisa are you even listening to me?" O crap I forgot Yoon-gi oppa is still here.

He's not yet done scolding me.

I sigh "Oppa I don't understand why are you guys so mad at us? We just had fun. Aren't we allowed to do that once in our lifetime?"

"You girls should understand how worried we are when you do things like that" I understand that they are worried.

But is that all the reason?

"Oppa what we have done won't affect us and infact we informed all of you that we're not going anywhere, we stayed here the whole night." I defended

Before we turned our phones off we all agreed to send a message to our manager or handlers informing them about our thing.

We all hesitate to do that at first because they might come and probably stop us.

But in the end, not to make it complicated with them.

We still informed them, they are stricter than parents. Though I have never experienced having a parents who care for me.

Only Yoon-gi oppa did care for me.

But glad they didn't come that night.

"And we turned off all the gadgets we have, just to make sure nothing will be out on public" I added.

Hays Image. Why do we always have to protect you. You are just putting limit on us.

"That's exactly the problem, why do you have to turn everything off" he said, and that sounds very different to me.

I look at him suspiciously "Oppa why don't you just go straight to the point" I coldly stated and his reaction just made it more suspicious.

"Wh---what do you mean by that?" Aish oppa. I thought you already known me fully.

"That you're all mad as hell because you didn't have a chance to get everything on camera" I stated with the same cold voice

"I -------- don't get you" oppa avoided his gaze.

I silently laugh then shake my head."Uhmm nevermind. I'm sorry if I or we made all of you worried" I just said to end this.

I stand then reached for my small purse. "Where are you going?" He asked.

"I think I need to refresh my mind. I've been overthinking this past days oppa. Is it okay?"

He looked at me. And I saw his worried eyes. Yeah he's still the oppa that cares for me "Just be careful" I just nodded then kissed his cheek and went my way out.

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"Hello? Unnie are you busy?" I called Jennie unnie while I'm on the way.

"Not really. Why, you missed me?" I smiled hearing her voice.

Yes she isn't mad now whenever I call her unnie.

"Yeah kinda, can I fetch you?" I asked her.

"Yes of course, are you okay. Is there something wrong?" She asked all of a sudden.

"Yes I'm fine. Why did you asked?"

"Uhmm your voice sound sad------- ah nevermind. Are you on your way now?" Does my voice sounds like that? Well, good guess unnie.

"Ahmm yeah" I just said.

This isn't my way of refreshing my mind.

She's actually part of the puzzle inside my head that makes me overthink.

But I don't know.

I just missed her eventhough it's only just one day past that I haven't see her.

I want to have time with her alone.

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Minutes past I arrived here in Lee's company.Sang-eun unnie asked her to stay here after our hangout.

I entered into the parking lot.

I waited for a while before I decided to call her.

Just few rings and she answered.

"Hey Lisa are you there already? I'm on my way down." She said in a hurry.

I was about to answer but she ended the call. Aish unnie. I shake my head.

Then minutes passed, I saw her walking towards me.

O gosh. This freakin' heart beat again.

Everything turns into slowmo. Cliché but I really felt it.

Everything is slow, her moves, the way she run her fingers to her hair, her smile. But this freakin' heartbeat is getting faster.

Gosh stop doing this to me Jennie.

"Hey Lisa!" She snapped at me and laughed. "Quit starring at me. So what are we up to? Where are we going?" She asked full of excitement.

"Oh yeah uhmmm I'll kidnap you"

She just laughed at me.

"Aren't you scared?" that was a stupid question I know.

"No. So where are you taking me my kidnapper?" Then she wink.

"Anywhere as long as I can own you, my unnie" then I gave her the flower that I bought on the way.

I don't usually do this kind of thing.

I never did this to anyone.

Only to her.

She accepted the bouquet.

She looked at me with her gummy smile and with that smile I melted again.

"Thank you, didn't know your sweet sometimes huh?" She teased.

And yeah, hate to admit it but I got shy.

So I avoided my gaze on her trying to hide my face.

I opened the door on the passenger seat letting her in.

And I went to the driver's seat and drove away.

I brought her to a private restaurant first before going to one of my favorite place aside from her heart. Okay I know that's corny.

Province.

We had a 4 hours ride going here.

There are few people passing by but people here aren't really familiar with celebrities or idols. So we can freely roam around.

And people here do not really care on who you are, they will treat you the same way they treat anyone else.

And I have experienced that. People here are so kind and welcoming. It probably one of the reason why I love this place.

So I brought the person I love to the place I love.

This actually looks like a wide garden.

It's full of trees, green leaves, colorful flowers, sound of birds and nature, refreshing air, a calm surrounding.

Everything is natural.

This is where I usually go when I felt like I needed a time for my self.

For me, this is one of the best place I have ever visited in whole Kreptoon.

Though, I have only visited few places here in Kreptoon.

"Woah this place is so beautiful!" Jennie unnie shouted with her arms spread feeling the air.

Just looking at her smiling makes me happy.

No, not just happy.

It's killing me, killing me with an overflowing emotions.

Aishhhh! I hate feeling this.

I hate that I love her.

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