四

They all made me like this.They all did this to me.They made me feel this..thing that I haven't felt in many years.First it was Shinobu when I first met her at my village since she was reported to know what happened to the people in my village.Then I had met the Kamaboko squad that includes Tanjir,Inosuke,Zenitsu,and Tanjiro younger sister Nezuko I met all of them at the place I was resting up for the night.Ever since I became a pillar everyone has been clingy around me and started to make me feel this..emotion.

Is this what they call..thankful?pleased? I don't know anything about these emotions that I'm feeling but now,there all coming back to me from when I was little.I don't know what to feel anymore about these things going on inside my head.Everything doesn't even make sense anymore.I'll just get rid of myself one day...one day I will.

I didn't feel..normal today for some reason I always had a bad vibe whenever I was by myself and for some reason I wasn't able to figure it out.I tried and tried but look where it got me...nowhere.

I wasn't going to be able to do this for long now was I.No I wasn't going to be so then I might as well get out of this misery hell hole and leave.

I get up and slide the shoji door open revealing the view of my village and guess what.The mist was gone the fog had vanished.I finally saw my village again but the sun was bright,the grasses were swaying along the wind,the flowers that I used to pick up were also dancing along with the others.

The moment I stepped outside it didn't vanish it stayed and..it was welcoming me,but not with hatred and despair..but with care and love.

I didn't know what to feel..what was I supposed to feel.

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Today was the same old day me killing demons..and humans like always.I didn't visit anyone today I just stayed home and stayed alone as always.I'm sure that the others are busy doing something now right?

Either way I don't have the urge to visit anyone,I just wanted to stay home and let silence take control.That is until there was a knock outside my door,I didn't want to know who it was.I wanted to be alone.

They knocked once then again which irritated me me cause of the knock.Then it was quiet making me turn to look at the door.I just got up and sighed while walking towards the door,and slid it open revealing no one and nothing.

I just closed it returning back to my seat until they knocked again and this time I slid the door fast showing someone.It was Tomioka Giyu,and out of all people he was the one who knocked on the door."[Y/N]..?" he spoke making me sigh.

"Yes..it's me.."

I just let him in and closed the door,while he just looked around my place until something caught his eye making him walk towards it and stare at it for awhile.It was a family picture...well my family to be exact."Is this your family in the photo..?" he asked while I stayed quiet and just nodded.

As I took my seat he sat in front of me while I poured tea in his cup and mine.I just stayed quiet while drinking my tea and he did the same."Tomioka..why are you here?" I asked making him look at me and setting the cup down.

"We haven't seen you in days already..we were worried that something happened to you.."he spoke while I just blinked at him."Well you can see that I'm fine.." I replied while sipping my tea and setting it back down.

"[Y/N].."

"Hmm?"

"Why is your village quiet?"

This made me look at him with confusion 'What is it with these people wanting to know' I thought and just sighed "How should I know."

"Don't you live here..?"

"I do but ever since my family died I left to become a demon slayer and by the time I came back everyone was gone.."I told him and it was true but the only thing that I left out was me murdering everyone except my family.

"...." 

He stayed quiet and just looked at me while I stared back at him."Tomi-" but I was cut off as I was about to speak "Call me by my first name..please.." and I just nodded."Giyu..why did you come here then..?"He just looked at me and sighed.

"To be honest..I was worried about you.." when he said that it made me feel something in my chest and I didn't know what it was but..it kinda felt nice.This made me smile a little and I just gave him a head pat making him blush a little.

Giyu wasn't the type of person to be socializing with anyone that much and I respected him since he has own deed.

As he stayed for awhile he was about to leave until it rained making him not want to go home anymore.Since it kept raining non-stop I insisted that he should stay for the night since the rain won't be stopping any time soon.I just showed him his room that he could stay in and when he went in I went into my room just looking outside the window staring at the dark cloudy sky while rain just poured down.

I didn't know what this feeling was..why do I feel uneasy around him now..?I just didn't know what was going on..is this what they a crush..?no..love?..no..It's when someone likes someone right?

I just stayed quiet while seeing the rain continue and I just walked out of my room and went to the living room  looking at all of the photos of me and my family in it.One had caught my eye though,it was a picture of me and Hiro and Hinata.

I just stared at the photo until my name was called out by Giyu making me turn around to face him but when I did his eyes widened and he ran to me grabbing both of my shoulders.

"[Y/N]!! what happened!!"

"Wh-what do you mean?"

"[Y/N] your crying!!"

'I am..?'

I just touched my face and felt wet stained tears on my face then I just cried even more but then I hugged him making him confused,but he hugged me back.

'God..I feel so weak being like this..' I thought.

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After that day had passed she was on a mission and it was already 2 days since she left.Everyone hasn't been that active lately,then been sulking a bit more ever since [Y/N] left for her mission.

"Ara~Ara~ Mitsuri-san,what are you making?"

"Shinobu-san! I'm just making some mochis! would you like on?"

"Ara!of course!"

As the both of them were eating some mochis they didn't even realized that [Y/N] was behind the two of them the whole time.

"Konnichiwa.." [Y/N] spoke and Shinobu and Mitsuri were startled by this but as soon as Mitsuri had heard her she jumped on her giving her a tight hug while [Y/N] just hugged her back.

"[Y/N]-chan! where were you! I really missed you!!"

"My apologies I was on a mission that was far.."

Then [Y/N] sensed jealousy emotions from Shinobu so she gave her a head pat which made the insect pillar blush and look at her.

The three of them just walked towards the other pillars that were waiting for the girls since they were going to a festival,but they didn't expect [Y/N] to come since she was on a mission.

The moment they arrived in front of the other pillars they boys just stared at [Y/N] with wide eyes.

"[Y/N]!! it is flamboyantly amazing to have you here with us!!"Uzui shouted while I just nodded.I was in between Obanai and Sanemi as we all walked towards the place we were going to be eating at.

When we arrived I sat between Obanai and Sanemi still and as always we ordered our meals and ate,while I didn't eat since I wasn't that hungry to be honest.As they all ate Sanemi had noticed that I wasn't touching my food and he just picked it up with his chopsticks and held the Jiaozi up to my face while I stared at him then the food.

"Oi! I'm not going to hold it for long so..hurry up and eat it!"

Then [Y/N] just ate it and picked up something with her hand and handed it to Sanemi making him blush a little,and it was an ohagi he was about to pick it up until she pulled it away and shook her head.

"....Your going to feed me?" he asked while she just nodded and he sighed and opened his mouth while she fed him.

Shinobu had an irk mark on her forehead while everyone else stared at the two of them.Sanemi just ate the ohagi and continued eating his food like nothing happened,then [Y/N] was busy wiping the crumbs off Muichiro face while he stared at her blushing and she didn't even notice it.

As [Y/N] ate her food she saw that Rengoku was staring at her and she looked at him while settling her chopsticks down."Yes..?" she asked and then he looked down at her plate that was full of sweet potatoes and then she pushed the plate towards him.

Rengoku was actually surprised at her actions "[Y/N] aren't you going to eat it?" he asked while she just shook her head saying 'No' and he then ate them while [Y/N] just smiled at this.

Obanai didn't even eat anything and [Y/N] could tell that he was actually hungry..well very hungry and he just stared down at his food until he looked up and saw [Y/N] with some udon in her chopsticks feeding him.

"...wha-"

"There's no need to be shy about your scar on your mouth you know..I really won't judge you.."

"..."

He slowly pulled down his mask not showing his whole mouth but just a little and ate the food while [Y/N] just looked at him.Then after he ate it he just covered his whole mouth again while everyone was eating [Y/N] was just listening to what each person was saying and then later on she felt an arm wrapped around her shoulder and it was the same person she met when she was with Muichiro that day.

It was the same boy who said his name was "Suzuki Haruhi" and you hated him already.He just smiled at you while the rest of the pillars were glaring daggers at him and he ignored them but faced you while smiling still.

"Hey! it's you again!"

He said while you just stayed quiet and wished that it was only you and him so that you could kill him right away but sadly you were in a public place and that would create problems."You know..you never told me your name,what is your name?" he asked while you just continued to stay quiet and didn't even bother to face him.

"Ara~Ara~ excuse me sir but [Y/N]-san doesn't like you touching her.."

"Oh! is your name [Y/N]? what a pretty name for a pretty person like you!"

As he kept speaking not leaving you and the pillars alone Sanemi already grew tired of him and just snapped "Oi!! Shithead! Can't you see that she's uncomfortable around you!?"

"Oh well then..let's leave [Y/N]!!" the boy Haruhi said and got up while holding your hand but then you also got up making the pillars widen their eyes since they couldn't believe that you were actually going to leave them for him.

Instead of going with him you just held his hand tight making his hand hurt "Ah..hehe..[Y/N] that actually kinda hurts.." and then you just grabbed the back of his hair and slammed his head into the table breaking it as his face was slammed.

"Honestly I just wish that..you would be dead by now.." [Y/N] spoke as the boy stayed quiet and blood came out and she just stared at him like that while the rest of the pillars were shocked by her actions.

"Let's go.." she spoke and walked out of the place with the pillars following after her."[Y/N]-chan!! wait up!!" Mitsuri called out to her making [Y/N] stop in her place and turn around to face them.

"[Y/N]-san..your lucky that he's alive.."

"Baka..you didn't have to try and kill him you know.."

"[Y/N] that was way too far"

As they all spoke you just said something that made them widen their eyes and then Mitsuri just immediately hugged you while tears were flowing down her face,and the sentence you said was "He was going to grope me again.."

[Yes,you were groped by him I just didn't feel like adding it cause...yeah..sorry]

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━I apologize if this chapter was really short it's because I have a lot of school works and so again I apologize.

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└➤[Y/N] didn't know what to feel when she was crying.

└➤There's a chance that if [Y/N] likes someone then it would be Tomioka Giyu.

└➤Sanemi actually wanted [Y/N] to feed him more.

└➤Obanai felt insecure about eating in front [Y/N] but since she helped him he doesn't feel insecure anymore.

└➤[Y/N] actually wanted to kill Suzuki Haruhi in front of anyone.