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"Well, it was nice seeing you guys again," I spoke as I stood up. 

Yoongi and Hoseok followed my lead. 

Hoseok walked up to me and pulled me into a hug. I returned it and after a few heartbeats, we released each other. 

I opened my arms as I looked at Yoongi, asking with my body if he wanted a hug. His shoulders lowered in a sigh and he came closer, coming into my embrace. I hugged him tightly and a moment later, he pushed me away. 

"Remember to call us if you need anything," Hoseok said as I headed towards the door. 

I nodded and waved to them. 

"I love you!" Hoseok shouted, cupping his hands around his mouth. 

I turned around and made a heart shape with my hands. Hoseok and I laughed and Yoongi smiled brightly. 

I exited the bubble tea shop and hopped into my car. I decided I would go home and check on Seokjin before going anywhere else. 

I made it home and jogged up the stairs, opening the door and stepping inside the house. Seokjin wasn't anywhere in the kitchen or the living room. I went to my room only to find that he wasn't there either. I checked the bathroom. No Seokjin. 

I came into the kitchen again and noticed that there was a paper on the counter. I picked it up and looked at the verbiage written on it. 

Jimin-ah, I took a quick shower before leaving. Don't worry, I put the towel in the dirty clothes hamper. Thank you for letting me stay the night. You're the best. I love you!  

- Seokjin

I threw the note in the trash, my chest feeling heavy. I sighed. Since Seokjin wasn't here, I decided to go back out. So I got back in my car and drove back into town. 

I wasn't sure exactly what I'd do. Perhaps I'd grab some groceries and a few things at the mall. First, I wanted to go to Wendy's. I hadn't eaten anything all day. 

I pulled up in the drive thru and ordered a number one with a large Coco-Cola. I paid the lady at the window and drove off, eating the fries as I went. 

I drove to the mall and parked in the parking lot, finishing my fries and eating my burger. When I finished those and half of my Coke, I left the car and made my way into the mall, my Coke in hand. 

I wandered around the large building aimlessly, ignoring the girls that stared at me as I walked by. One girl and her friend even came up to me at one point. 

"Can I have your Snapchat?" she asked. 

"No, sorry. I don't give my Snapchat or my number to strangers," I said and continued walking. 

Nothing in the mall interested me so I left and drove to a grocery store. I grabbed a cart and got the things I knew I needed and also some things that I just wanted. 

When I was finished, I paid at the register and left. I loaded the groceries into my car before heading home. 

I carried all the groceries inside my house before taking off my shoes and my sunglasses. I hung the keys up on the hook and started putting the groceries away. As I was putting the bags of chips away, I realized I had grabbed a bag of Dill Pickle chips. I didn't realize I had grabbed it at the store. Seokjin and I always ate these chips when we were hanging out. They were his favorite.

I shook my head and threw the bag into the cabinet, trying not to think about the older man. However, that task was very hard to accomplish.

Once I finished putting all the groceries where they belonged, I stood at the counter and looked into the living room, wondering what I should do. I could hang out with Taehyung and Jungkook and we could have a guy fun night.

Or I could find Seokjin and spend the night with him again.

Once again, I shook my head to get the thought out of my mind. I wanted to go one day without thinking about him for I knew we were never going to happen. Sadly, I can't seem to get him out of my head.

I remembered that there is an indoor pool not too far from my place. The place has a very aesthetic feel to it with LED lights of different colors, mostly pink, purple, and blue and in the pool area was a large pool with a couple hot tubs on either side. The other half of the building was a bar but there was no direct access to both. You had to go outside to get from one to the other. They were open twenty four seven and to get to the pool, you had to have a card. I had a card.

I decided that tonight, I'd go to the pool and relax, take my mind off of some things. Maybe grab a bottle from the bar before going to the pool. After all, drinking and smoking were allowed in the pool area.

Granted, I don't like to drink but once in a rare while, when I'm in desperate need of relaxation, I drink a beer or two but never near enough to get me drunk. I was never a fan of intoxication.

So, I plopped down on the couch and turned on the television, waiting for the day to switch to night.

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aesthetic set 04 (I'm using a desktop, not a laptop and it's not letting me move things to the center. rip me. Also, water/pool aesthetics are my shiiiiiiiiittttt)