part 9

we arrived at home and I took all my stuff up stairs while vic and tone took the dogs to the toilet Tammy was excited to meet the dogs and had already bought them treats and dog beds "they are little darlings" she squealed "I have to go for work for 4days but ill be home before you start at school girls. Tony make sure  they don't burn the house down or have any parties while I'm away" Tammy liked tony she loved having him stay with us "will do tamtam" he smiled and we all said goodbye as she left "PARTY TIME" Mike yelled so Tammy would hear him "I heard that Mike" she yelled from her car window and she pulled away.

"vic we gotta go mum will flip if we aren't home before dinner"

"you guys wanna ride home?" jaime asked them and they nodded and they left with vic giving the dogs one last pat "Emmy wanna come for a ride bring pierce too" she looked at me and smiled "ill see you guys later.

when they had left me and tony where left standing there silentl. I felt a hand brush my face "you look like you lost weight again Danny did you eat at all when you were away?" tony asked seriously "I did tone" he hugged me "good girl" I had eaten but I didn't tell him I purged it back up. he also didn't know I had cut while I was over or that I had to go to the hospital for 2days for collapsing in the shopping mall "did you miss me" I asked sweetly and he squeezed me "every second of every day baby" tony moomoo and I went up to my room and turned on star wars smudge fell asleep in my lap and tony fell to sleep with me in his arms

tony pov

she was home finally I hadn't slept much when she left it felt different waking up alone every day I felt like half of me was missing. it made me realise how much she actually means to me and I realised that I was so completely head over heels in love with that girl and i realised that I needed her as much as she needs me. I looked down at her rosy pink cheeks at her cuddled into my chest with her arms around smudge. I traced her wrists and I felt something. new cuts she had cut while she was away. why was she not happy to come back had I drove her away was it all me. I slightly pulled her bracelets off revealing deep hideous cuts across her wrist, it brought tears to my eyes to see that i didn't want her to do that to her self she was to good to feel this way I saw what was made out to be writing it read "this is my paper my razor is my pencil. together I can make a masterpiece" I kissed every cut individually checking her other wrist for any new cuts to my relief there weren't any

Danny stirred in my arms and her eyes fluttered open I closed my eyes pretending to be asleep she looked down at her wrist tears washing down her cheeks. she picked up my hand and traced my tattoos "I love you tony I wish I could tell you that and show you this and tell you it wasn't all my fault, but I can't I don't want to hurt you my turtle, know one will ever know me like you do but theses just somethings that deserve to be left unsaid" she wiped her eyes and pulled out a piece of paper from her pocket more tears now flowing down her face I slowly pretended to wake up she tried to wipe away her tears "hey hey what's wrong darling" I pulled her into my lap wrapping my arms around her waist "nothing I just woke up from a nightmare babe its okay go back to sleep" she kissed my cheek softly "no baby I'm going to stay up with you and make sure you're okay" she broke down into tears "I saw my ex while I was home and we argued and" she buried her head into her hands "what happened?" I tightened my arms around her "he hit me and I ended up in the hospital, he said he was gonna get me and I'm sacred tone what if he finds me" I kissed her head "dont be scared darling he wont hurt you as long as im here right beside you" her crying turned to sobs and she rest onto my arms and i felt her relax she slowly nodded off to sleep "i love you" i whispered into her soft hair.