Chapter 20

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No one speaks. No one dares to move. Him enveloping her with his hug, her with her blank mind. The wind is blowing against them, and giving them enough air, but the both of them are running out of breath. It's so quiet that you can only hear the wind and their loud and fast heartbeats.

"Do you know how good it feels that I was meters away from you before but now there's no more space between us, not even a millimeter?" Ten suddenly spoke, breaking the silence.

"What are you doing?" She whispered, finally had something to say.

Ten pulled off the hug and faced Star but they're faces are still close. He smiled at her and wiped her wet cheeks, "Why are you crying?"

"Why is Taeyong's phone with you?"

"Are you okay?"

Star got pissed off and pushed Ten away but she was weak and their still close.

"Why do you have Taeyong's phone with you?" She shouted at him.

"This isn't his. This is mine!" He raised his phone towards Star.

"You're bluffing again!"

"Look." He ended the call and browsed his phone. There are Thai characters in his phone and pictures of him in his gallery. "Is this enough?"

"B-But..." she shook her head, "I can't understand."

"I know." He nodded while smiling. He stepped back to give space for her, "Can we sit? You know, we practiced a lot today." Then he sat on the floor, doing Indian sit. Star just kneeled and sat on her feet. They're facing each other. Ten is brightly smiling while Star is completely frowning.

"What now?" Star said.

"I left my phone in the dance studio and I think Taeyong just answered the call." Then he shrugged.

"How about earlier? I replied to the message but Taeyong is the one checking his phone."

"He's holding my phone. He always borrow it. And I'm sorry I did not reply."

Star don't know what to feel. Earlier, she cried and wished that her conclusions were right. Now that her wish came true, she can't believe it.

"How could you?" Tears are starting to form in her eyes.

"Yah. Yah. I'm explaining myself clearly. Don't cry."

Star punched his chest with her fist but that was weak, "Why can't you just tell me that you're Ten? Why do you have to hide your identity?"

"Because... I'm shy?" He answered but that sounded like a question.

"After hugging me twice you're still shy? Jerk!" She punched him again on his chest, "After making me feel crazy, after making me cry several times, after fluttering me inside, after making me confused and all, you're still shy? Wow! How do you define the word shy?" She continuously hit him on his chest while tears stream down her face.

Ten caught her fist and looked directly to her eyes, "I made you feel crazy, cry for several times, fluttering you inside, confused... why did I exist? How could I do that to you?"

Star's forehead knotted.

"What are you up to? What shall I do? Should I say sorry?" He asked.

'Is he serious with what he's saying? I can't understand him.' She thought while gathering her thoughts.

A moment of silence before Star spoke. She first heaved a sigh before starting, "You see, I've been thinking about you lately. You're making me crazy. Why does it have to be always you before I sleep? You're the reason of my actions these days. I'm avoiding you, because of you. I'm keeping myself busy because of you. I'm becoming weirder because of you. I'm crying because of you. I'm feeling uncomfortable when you're around. I don't want to see you because I feel unwell. There are times that you make me feel fluttered but there are also times that you make me feel sad. I'm always questioning my thoughts. I'm confused with what I actually feel. Earlier, I'm disappointed to know that Taeyong was the one I'm chatting to. But now that you explained, I don't know what to feel. Like heck, I always thought that it was you because it feels like you! Now tell me, what am I up to? What do you think is this, huh?"

Ten looked surprised hearing those words from her. He can't believe she said those. He's just plain staring at her, waiting if she still has something to say like "it was just a joke." then she'll laugh but she's just seriously waiting for his response.

She hit his chest with her free hand, "Yah! Can you please say anything?"

Star feels like melting and disappearing because he's not saying anything. She thought she confessed in the wrong way. He's just staring at her.

"I don't know... what to do." He said with a low voice, still in shock

She bit her lips and looked at the sky then back to him, "Just... take full responsibility. Or you will die right here."

He finally managed to smile. He rested his chin in his right hand with his elbow pinning down to his hips. He stared at Star with his eyes screaming that she looks beautiful even with wet cheeks and messy hair.

"I think I may die now." He said.

"What are you saying?"

"It's like a dream. You, asking me to take full responsibility of your feelings. I may die now. Right here." He nodded while smiling, but not even removing his gaze to her.

"Yah! What are you up to now?"

"I'm simply saying that I'm very happy to know that you like me too."

"You said... what?"

"I'm happy to know that you like me too." He casually said while smiling beautifully.

"I like you... too. You mean..."

"Yep. I also think I shall take responsibility of you. So... I'm taking full responsibility of all the things that happened to you because of me. I'm taking full responsibility of all the emotions you feel because of me." He looked directly to her eyes, "But can I be the one to ask you this?"

Star is still confused but she managed to speak, "W-Which one?"

"Can I be your boyfriend, who' will take responsibility of you?"

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