Chapter- Seventy Five

You looked down to see the members from stairs.

Your mom and dad finally managed their time to come. They were looking so proud. Your dad was wiping his tears again and again and you saw Jun also joined him crying. You smiled looking at them.

Jun smiled back when met your eyes.

You scanned your eyes at everyone. The members were looking like it's their marriage. Why to look gorgeous than you?

You told Joshua to officiate the wedding.

He looked like he was very ready doing that.

Jeonghan avoided your eyes and went to the corner to control his tears. He never thought he would see you like a bride, the little maknae of them.

Scoups was busy talking in phone. He maybe was handling something important. Well it's not that easy to keep your marriage secret.

Woozi did a fighting sign to you. He looked relieved.

You saw Hoshi was sitting in a sofa looking at you. He smiled lightly when saw you.

Wonwoo felt your hold got tighter when saw Hoshi. He sighed looking at you.

Lastly you saw Mingyu. Though he saw you earlier he kept looking at you until you went down. Everyone was clapping. Maybe mingyu forgot to clap, tzuyu told him and then he also joined smiling brightly.

Somehow, somehow you couldn't return his smile. Even you didn't force yourself to.

Since you guys didn't want to do formalities so nothing like the Isle thing happened. You and Wonwoo just was sitting on sofa and with both of your family, Mingyu's family and members of seventeen around, you both were going to put a signature on the deed of marriage. You were sitting with your mom, she always put her hand on yours so you wouldn't get so nervous.

But you felt some tsunami happening inside of you, you searched for mingyu around but didn't found him. Where did he go?

'It's gonna be okay.'

Suddenly Mingyu talked from behind realising you were searching for him.

He smiled with his cannie. It felt like the younger version of him, when you first met him, at the airport. Him and wonwoo went to get you from airport when you first came. He was so talkative the whole time that you got to know about a lot of Korean culture after just landing. You were very amazed at his friendly natural behave. The smile reminded you that smile, that he gave after seeing you first. It looked like he knew you for a long time.

You looked down. The paper was being ready for your sign. You felt your heart was going to explode. You didn't want to ruin the moment by crying. Also there's a chance that wonwoo will think you are forcefully marrying him.

You wanted to keep mingyu forever, but he himself didn't want it. You had nothing in your hand. Though the love was pure but you felt there was nothing to regret about. Mingyu is happy with someone else, and he chose the happiness even you were there.

You looked at wonwoo before signing.

He gave you a assuring look while you were holding the pen.

'Take your time. It's ok.'

While others were saying to do it fast, wonwoo told you to take time. He knew it was very hard for you. Why does he smile so comfortably? It was so assuring that you felt like what you were going to do was so right. All your confusion erased seeing him.

He closed his eyes that it's gonna be fine what you were doing. He held your hand softly.

You finally could sign it. Everyone was screaming like what happened! Then the members came to you and congratulate both of you, you got really shy. You couldn't believe it that you were actually a married woman now.

But your heart ached so bad. Sitting there to see performance team's and maknae line's performance for this wedding, you couldn't concentrate on that. You looked at mingyu with side eyes and saw he was talking with tzuyu and they both were smiling after that. What were they talking about? Why it was not in your fate that you couldn't get mingyu?

But you little did you know who you actually got. The love that you Don't expect to come, that happens without knowing it's existence, the one with eternal comfort.

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You and wonwoo were going to the new home, Wonwoo's. In the car you tried your best not to cry. Before getting into the car, members were telling to text them after getting there. But when the car started it's engine, mingyu told wonwoo to take care of you.

'Hyung she is very sensitive. I know you will but take care of her. She won't tell you easily what she needs. And give her a lot of time. She feels depressed when she is alone.'

'Don't worry. Take care of you too. Don't get stressed mingyu. I'll take good care of her. If I need anything I'll call you right then. And visit me soon there mingyua.'

You looked at Wonwoo and felt he got sad leaving the dorm, and his bestfriend mingyu.

'I will hyung. Tryna visit here often. I'll miss you hyung.'

You felt you did wrong telling wonwoo to live with you. Now he had to leave his childhood friends, a lot of memories.

'Yeah I'll come very often.'

Wonwoo looked sad. It felt like he was gonna cry but no. He controlled himself and put his hand on Mingyu's shoulder

'Don't worry. We will meet every single day in studio and almost everywhere.'

'Give me a call after getting there.'

'OK.'

Then he came to your window and gave you a beautiful smile

'Take care fairyssi! Hyung knows making coffee and tea that you like. I envy you thinking he will make you those and not me.'

'V-visit there soon. He will make you too.'

'I will.'

The car left. You felt empty inside. It felt like you needed to cry. But you wouldn't. You didn't want to cry on this day.

'My veil!'

You noticed it got attached with Wonwoo's watch.

'I'm doing it.'

Since it the veil was long, it happened.

'Is it gonna be ripped?'

'No. Here it is.'

He removed the veil from watch. He noticed you didn't put the bouquet on anywhere, you still were holding it in your lap.

The whole ride was silent. He was looking outside. He didn't know leaving the dorm would hurt like this. So he almost forgot you were there. Now he looked at you and watched you attentively. You realized his stare and looked at him. His sharp gaze. You looked away.

'Is anything wrong?'

'You are looking very beautiful.'

You looked at him and somehow got shy.

'T-thanks.'

'I-if you Don't mind I want to say something.'

You told looking down.

'Yeah sure!'

'I feel so scared w-when you look at my e-eyes.'

'Really? You do?'

He chuckled.

'Y-yeah. Somehow I can't s-stand it.'

'Well I know.'

'You know?'

You asked him while looking at him. Aish he was already Looking at you with his sharp eyes. You thought you got red at his gaze. You looked away quickly.

'Yeah. Why won't I? You never maintain eye contact with me. I can understand.'

You got more red hearing that. He knows everything?

'Do I need to look elsewhere talking to you?'

He asked.

'I-I didn't say that.'

'Even if you say that, I would still do that. You are so pretty, I can't stand also.'

Was he flirting or what! You held the bouquet tighter looking down. He just doesn't look, he gazes, that's enough to make heart beat faster.

'And now you are my wife. I can see you right?'

Wonwoo asked. You thought he was saying those to make it awkward. But you looked at him and saw he was smiling. His smile is prettier than anyone else.

'I never told that you could not wonu.'

You told at his tease. You thought you did wrong telling him about his stare.

'Are you annoyed?'

Wonwoo asked. You were not annoyed but told nothing.

'I'm sorry okay?'

'Why are you sorry?'

You asked.

'I Don't want to irritate you.'

He told putting his hand over your hair, that was covered with veil. Patting it lightly he removed his hand. It gave a different vibe. Getting pat at head is not common for you. It felt nice.

'I'm not irritated wonu.'

You told putting your hand on his thigh.  You felt bad that he misunderstood the situation.

'It heard nice.. when you told I'm your wife.'

Wonwoo looked at you but said nothing. You guys reached home.

Wonwoo helped you getting down with your long big gown. He wondered how you were handling it.

In the stairs it got more troublesome. But wonwoo helped you by holding the lower portion.

Since you were gonna live there you saw Wonwoo managed security and guards in the gates and around. He also said about an older lady who will take care of the things, who will come from tomorrow.

You didn't see wonwoo around after coming here. Putting the veil down you starter combing your hair. You should have dyed it black or your natural golden from white. It was looking different with white gown.

Entering the bedroom wonwoo somewhat felt horrific after seeing you combing that long white hair is front of the mirror, with that bridal gown. He almost forgot you were here. He went for shower and it felt so refreshing.

Coming near the bed he laid down on the bed on his back. With his eyes closed he exhaled a deep breath. That heard the relieved state after shower. With corner of eyes you saw him. He changed clothes and now he wasn't looking like husband. He was looking younger with the tshirt and trouser. You felt embarrassed for thinking those.

He got up suddenly.

'So y/n? Did you like this room?'

'Yeah.'

You told. Why was he asking that?

'Then you sleep here. I'll use the room beside living room.'

'W-why?'

You asked.

'No problem y/n. That room is well enough for me.'

'B-but why aren't you staying here? Isn't it both for us?'

You asked. You were very nervous about this part and thought to leave it on fate. So when wonwoo told about leaving separate, it felt relieved one way, but also you didn't expect something like that. Does he think you married him for your sake? Obviously it is but you can't lower him down by doing this.

'Yeah but you maybe Don't know how I sleep.'

'I know. You sleep like babies. You don't use much space.'

You told.

'Yeah. Still, you wouldn't like it if I accidentally put my heavy leg on you.'

'What?'

You laughed.

'It's okay. You can, I won't mind.'

'No. I think you would mind. I better go there-'

'W-wonu!'

'What?'

You stopped him from going. He looked at you.

'Please stay here.'

He didn't understand your request. He knew you were not comfortable with it. But what happened?

'Why?'

'I-I can't sleep alone at night.'

You told getting upset.

'Why? Are you afraid of ghosts?'

He asked.

'W-wonu. It's since the night I was attempted to rape. I can't sleep well at night till then.'

Wonwoo's face changed looking at you. He remembered the most horrific scene he ever saw. You were trying to move away from hoshi with your life..

'So you know my manager, she used to sleep beside my bed. In my apartment too, she helped me. I get so many nightmares!'

You told calmly. Wonwoo didn't know about this part. His heart started aching.

'I will feel calm if you stay with me. Moreover you are my husband, why would you sleep somewhere else?'

You told.

'I see. I don't have any other choice but you can't say anything if I pushed you down from bed.'

'Why would you?'

You tried to smile.

'I'm trying to take my necklace off for pretty long. C-can you give me a hand?'

You asked putting the earrings off.

Wonwoo thought for a while and told

'Yeah why not?'

'It looks pretty complicated.'

He told. He was trying for sometime and you were deeply thinking something. So when he talked you flinched hearing him from close. You almost forgot he was right behind you.

'You okay?'

You nodded.

After taking the necklace off you took sometime looking at that. Wonwoo didn't realize it was the same necklace that mingyu gave you. How could he not notice? And did he just take that down by his hand?? He thought you must were thinking him toxic.

'Wait y/n! Isn't it the necklace that mingyu got you?'

You nodded.

'I Don't think I need it anymore.'

'Why?'

Wonwoo told sitting in front of you, on the floor with his knees.

'I-I Don't want this. That's it?'

'Really? What's wrong?'

'I don't want my past life to bother my new one. I want to be happy I told.'

You told the last sentence looking at wonwoo.

'Who told your past life will bother you? Isn't that life is also part of yours? Can you deny it?'

'Wonu I just don't want to remember that. I want to forget as much as I can.'

You heard so frustrated.

This time wonwoo put his hand on yours and rubbed those with his thumb.

'It's okay to remember y/n. Isn't it so beautiful that we meet some amazing person in our life? But maybe for some consequences many a times we can't stay together. We have to move on like you are doing. But aren't they too precious to forget? You should embrace the memories instead of forgetting. Wasn't mingyu the source of your happiness? Still he is.'

You couldn't look at wonwoo. You were already red as he was holding your wrist. It felt strange! Different from the way mingyu used to do. Mingyu used to intermingle your little fingers with his big ones. But here wonwoo is holding your wrist like you were going to run away or something.

'I will never tell you to forget any part of your life as a partner. You should keep wear that one.'

'No. I won't.'

You told. It somewhat triggered Wonwoo's pride since mingyu is his bestfriend. He knows the value.

'So how about the tattoo behind your Ear?'

He asked. You almost forgot about that. The tattoo indicates the first letter of Mingyu's name. It's a big fancy 'M'.

Wonwoo moved your hair from back of the ear to reveal the tattoo. You flinched as the move totally felt like mingyu. You looked at him and saw it was wonwoo. How come mingyu will be here?

'Look y/n you can't do anything about these things. And you should not too..'

He noticed you were avoiding his stare. He thought you got upset for his force.

'I won't say anything what you will do. If you feel like not to wear it, then it's up to you. I'm not forcing you.'

..'Wait!'

You told wonu from moving to the bed again.

'Then you will ware me it now.'

'Yeah sure!'

You could easily do it yourself. But still was seeking for his help?

'Can I tell myself that my husband Jeon Wonwoo gave me this necklace?'

You asked after he was done.

'What? I Don't understand.'

'I mean the necklace got renewed by you. I'll tell my grandchildren that you got me this.'

Wonwoo laughed out.

'You are serious? OK you can tell a little lie to them I guess.'

'No! I told you renewed it.'

'OK Ok! I'm getting credit instead of him.'

..

'And-and you told what will I do to my tatto. If you notice carefully, written word can be Wonwoo's first letter too.'

'Isn't that M?'

'You need to see it from left. It's 'W'.'

You told.

Wonwoo laughed out loud this time. He couldn't stop laughing for sometime. What's wrong? Was your logic that funny? You kept looking at him with your doe eyes.

'I'm serious wonu!'

'It's ok you don't need to change the meaning. I just tell you, these things won't disappoint me.'

You didn't say anything in reply but got sad.

'Should I make you tea? Or coffee? You were telling you are having a headache.'

Wonwoo asked. He told you in the car if you were okay, you replied that it's just a headache, while in your mind you were dealing with a lot of things.

'Thanks.. I want to come with you.'

'Umm.. can you not? I mean it will be hard when you will use the stair to come up.'

You were looking at him without telling anything. You were looking so innocent that he wanted you to do whatever you want. But you will have to just suffer with that gown that's it.

'You sit here. I'll go and come.'

Wonwoo told staring at your soul. He didn't want to give you any look. But that's how siren eyes work.

You look away.

After a while he came back with a cup of tea. Passing it, he laid down to the bed again.

'Thank you so much.'

This is very rare that wonwoo working.

'Y/n?'

'Hm?'

'Did you feel bad that I laughed about the tattoo? I felt fun. That's it.'

'I'm hurt because you are saying that's not 'W', wonu's initial.'

Wonwoo wanted to laugh again at your words. But he controlled.

'Really? Did I say that? But that's clearly 'W'!'

Wonwoo got up and came to you moving the hair from your neck, holding that tattoo containing part. Your eyes enlarged at his action. You could feel his perfume strongly than before. You felt so different.

'I know it should be read from the left. I know it's 'W', my initial.'

Wonwoo told and looked at you. Now he realized how close he was.

He stared at you intensely. From this close you look more beautiful, somehow he wanted to see you that close forever. Or he just wanted to keep you this close eveeytime.

'Right, y/n?'

His voice calmed down while looking at you.

You couldn't take any of these, he was still holding your neck.

You nodded. You felt very nervous. But didn't have the courage to move him away. Instead your hands were clumped together in your lap. You were looking down, letting wonwoo see you thoroughly.

'Why my name?'

He wanted to hear that again from you. You looked at him to see he was intensely looking at you. Why that question now?

'I-It's y-you.. because you are my h-husband.'

You held your clothes strongly. Why his staying close wasn't feeling uncomfortable? Yes you are very nervous but somehow not uncomfortable.

'Nice to hear.'

He was talking in the deepest possible way a human can ever. He said while exchanging eye sight from your lips to eyes to lips.

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'Right?'