Chapter- Twenty Four

You carefully wrapped the scarf on your wound marks watching reflection from the mirror. The pain lessened in a day but you think the marks are getting dark with time instead of fading away. You tried to give a little home treatment for it and maybe it worked. You thought wearing scarf will cause more pain but it's not.

Yesterday after you locked yourself up in the room, had a lot of things to do too. But first you had a refreshing shower and then was laying down in the bed. You felt so tired that you slept till the afternoon.

Joshua maybe came for giving food you thought. But you were in a deep sleep that you couldn't hear.

He must be upset that you didn't eat.

You were drying your hair with towel and by that moment someone knocked at your door.

It was Joshua, must came for calling you in eating. You told him that you were not hungry by that time and added that you would join them in lunch.

You didn't know what was Joshua thinking but he took some time and exhaled.

'Okay then, I'm sending some.'

Joshua went back downstairs and was arranging your food to send you upstairs but before that Mingyu asked him

'Y/n didn't want to come?'

'No, she said she will have lunch. She is not hungry that she told.'

Joshua answered while pouring orange  juice for you.

'Hyung! Then no need to send her anything. She won't eat.'

Mingyu told then.Joshua stopped doing his job and looked at him to let him continue

'Why? What's wrong?'

'No I mean..

'She will have fight everyday with you and will skip meals. Is this the rule of your love things?'

Mingyu didn't tell anything and continued eating his bread blankly. It seems like Joshua understood something and he is a little bit angry too. He is so gentle always but sometimes when his beat changes like this, it happens just because he is angry- everybody knows this.

Jeonghan can't process what was happening. With Astonished eyes he told Mingyu

'What Mingyu? You guys had fight again? Can't you see she is a baby? How can you fight her? She is here without her family for quite a long time. Can't you be supportive to her?'

Mingyu didn't say anything and silently was eating. All the members felt bad when heard Joshua was talking like that to Gyu. But now it's getting so awkward in the dinning.

'I don't think Mingyu hyung is the one who started fighting, right? Haha don't attack Mingyu hyung everyone.'

Seungkwan told up as he wanted to make the environment normal here.

'Y/n did nothing wrong.'

Mingyu said while moving the spoons making the environment heavy again.

'Then you did? How Mingyu?'

Scoups asked him as it's really a bad thing he thinks.

'Let him eat, hyung.'

Wonwoo was hesitating while eating for this type of talks. He said it as it's getting obvious and Mingyu felt bad and wasn't eating just moving the spoons.

Everyone stopped talking about this as they understood it was getting obvious.

Mingyu knew you wouldn't come for eat for sure. He tried to hide a long breathe.

Wonwoo was looking at Mingyu for the whole time. His hair is so messy and face is puffy seems like he hadn't got enough sleep. Mingyu is looking much more beautiful than before.

You were watching them from upstairs. Mingyu was looking down and he was not eating anything. He choked the water while drinking too. Jun, Dokyeom tried to stop it by patting his shoulder.

'Are you okay?'

Woozi asked while taking the butter to his side. He added

'Y/n will feel sad if she find out that you can't eat because of the fight.'

Mingyu stayed still without saying anything.

'Yea yea Mingyu eat up. Things will be okay.'

Jeonghan told him assuring.

You didn't wait in the balcony. Woozi is so damn right every time. Why are you feeling bad for even a little thing that hesitating Mingyu? Didn't he the one who hurts you?

'We have a lot of practices these days. You guys can't lose energy by not taking meals. And make sure y/n won't skip meals. She gets tired so easily even without practice.'

Scoups said to all.

No one said anything in response only nodded. Dokyeom Dino Vernon were quiet from the beginning. They just feel sorry if anytime anyone's fighting with each other in the dorm.

'Where's y/n? What is she doing?'

Hoshi was late joining them. There were everyone but not only you so his first sentence was like that. He sat dragging a chair.

'She is in her room. I'll take her food there. She won't come.'

Eisa tried to shorten as he knows Hoshi is going crazy these days. He really seemed pissed off and he made everyone realized that by taking a pot with loud sound.

It was awkward from the beginning but this made the environment more awkward. Everyone looked at Eisa's pissed off face but Eisa didn't give a care about others look and was eating quietly.

'Is anything wrong here? Everything is silent.'

Hoshi told up while staring eating.

'Everything's okay.'

Joshua answered coldly. He felt so tensed for your health and mental stress. He thought surely there's something very wrong happening with you. You are cheerful and sweet girl, Joshua can't see you cry like this. Not only Joshua, it's for all. All of them care about you a lot.

'Can I join?'

You told with your soft voice and obviously in a broken Korean. That Dino tried to fix your sentence with real Korean as the thing you were telling was heard wrong to them. But thanks to them that they are familiar with your Korean.

'Aaa y/n where were you? We all are waiting for you.'

'I was bathing.'

You answered quietly while taking a seat beside Vernon and Dokyeom.

'Sorry for making you wait.'

'Yea yea princess that's fine. Good thing you wake up and thought to show up.'

Scoups talked and it seems like no more awkward after you came. It's so rare when you come downstairs for eating together. Most of the time you eat up while watching TV in the living room by your own in a fully different time than others.

Your face was kinda red and puffy. Things going rougher to you. Water was dripping from your hair and you were looking so fresh. A sweet fragrance was emitting from your hair and body.

'You shouldn't have made Shua hyung upset. He really was angry you know?'

Dino asked you pointing his chopstick to you and Shua. Joshua tried to make Dino stop as everything is easy now. But you said

'I'm sorry jisoo. I was not that hungry when told you. But after sometime I felt so hungry and..

You were talking slowly in a low voice with your broken korean.

'You feel hungry!'

Seungkwan told sarcastically.

Everyone was laughing talking and having fun in the dinning table. But Mingyu didn't join them unlike everytime. The whole yesterday you didn't meet this guy and tried to ignore him or ignore the room that he was in. You didn't have that courage to meet him face to face. Yesterday Mingyu called you after evening but you didn't even pick up the call. Just remembering the memory of that night you start to tremble. At the same time you feel bad that you're ignoring him willingly.

Your eating slowed down when looked at Mingyu and found he was straight looking at you.

You sipped the orange juice ignoring his look on you. He looks a mixture of sad and.. and what you can't explain. He easily could come to your room if he really wanted to meet you. So why to show up like this?

Mingyu brushed his hair in frustration and leaned on the chair with his back.

'Hyung I'm full. Can I leave now? I mean I've something very important to ..

Mingyu asked his members as it's not generous to leave dinning with full of people.

Scoups told him that he can go and Mingyu left without even looking at you for a second. It feels like he is ignoring you now. You were looking at him the full time when he was going and he really didn't even notice you.

You started eating but a bit aggressively after that. You felt kinda angry why he avoided you. Here you should be the one who will avoid him and now he is trying to play hard. Wow!

'Is anything wrong y/n?'

You ended the juice and looked at Woozi who asked you that.

'Why? Everything is okay.'

By saying you were mixing the noodles with a lot of mayonnaise and it seemed aggressive too. Everyone there understood that you already became angry. Good thing they are familiar with your sudden anger issues that come for no reason. They felt fun seeing you like this. You answered Mingyu like a bit screaming, louder than your usual voice.

Woozi looked at others with eye smile and again asked you

'Well, you did have fight with Mingyu. And he didn't even see you. He just left, what an audacity! Isn't that bad?'

You were looking at your food with wrinkles in your eyebrow and told him

'I don't care.'

A wave of Titter waved through the members face but they stopped as soon as you looked at them with death glare and told

'What's wrong with you guys?'

'Nothing wrong y/n. You eat.'

Joshua told you assuring as he doesn't want to make you more angry and smiled.

Now you were aggressive eating.

Hoshi asked in between this mocking you

'So you have fight too. That's bad to hear.'

Woozi was telling about the fight in fun purpose but in Hoshi's tone there was something serious to hear that some members had to look at him.

'What got you? Can't you just eat Hoshi?'

Woozi seemed pissed to Hoshi though he told him mocking. Hoshi doesn't have sense of using appropriate words that he thinks.

Dino said finally with a sweet smile

'Y/n- aa, it's okay to have fight. It will okay soon. And don't act angry just because Mingyu hyung didn't notice you or talked to you.'

You thought maybe Dino was having so fun at this that he is smiling like this.

'Who told you I'm angry? And who gave you the reason?'

You felt defended and asked Dino with somewhat loud voice that made it cuter.

You placed your eyes over all the members here and thought yeah not only Dino, they all are having fun.

'Don't fight guys.'

Seungkwan told knowing you and Dino might have a fight now. It's not that uncommon here.

But Dino continued with a fake shy voice

'But I noticed.'

He paused for a little and smiled looking down in his shy acting. You didn't answer anything and let him continue.

'But don't worry y/n, hyung was looking at you for the whole time when he was here. So..

Before he finished you felt so shy and felt your ears are burning. Your face maybe turned to tomato you guess. You told Dino 'stop' and again started eating quietly.

Now everyone started laughing hysterically like what funny thing just happened. These guys are so crazy that you thought. You were looking down with tomato face eating.

'Y/n becomes red guys. Don't tell her anything. Our shy princess forgets her angry issues suddenly.'

Scoups told mocking you and waited for your fire type reply but now at this moment you felt so embarrassed for what Dino just said. You knew from the beginning that Mingyu was looking at you or placing his eyes frequently at you when he was here. But but Dino shouldn't have said it.

And obviously you didn't feel so angry just because he ignored you in the last moment. It happened because you know everything that happened to you yesterday and yet he ignored you. This thought made you feel like that.

You were walking upstairs to your room after breakfast and thinking all the stuffs of Mingyu and your complicated relationship of these days. How days change so fast like stars and there's no way to make it back like before. Like that sweet and angelic.

You were climbing the stairs so slowly like an old man thinking that you are mistaking. You know above all, Mingyu and your relationship is angelic in all time. This ship that you have is so angelic and sweet you feel. But you just don't understand why these things are happening. Why Mingyu has to be in relationship with Tzuyu. You exhaled a deep breathe when suddenly remembered that. Mingyu and Tzuyu are dating, by any way you just can't imagine this. You know nothing makes you more sad like this. Just remembering the fact you feel a wind starts blowing to you and it was full of pain. An unbearable pain that you can't process. You feel blank suddenly and looked at the person in front of you.

You were walking with your own thoughts and those are so deep that you flinched to see Wonwoo standing in front of you. It felt like a six foot pillar standing so close to you. You became so close because you were thinking.

'See your steps y/n. You'll get hurt.'

Wonwoo was maybe going somewhere. His red pimples can be seen. You noticed that and felt so cute. Yeah Wonwoo looks so cute and cool. Wonwoo said those to you as you were walking in dreams.

'Sorry!'

'Haha you are saying sorry for what?'

Wonwoo was looking at his phone for the whole time and now he put his phone down and looked at you with a smiley face.

You also felt a thing that his smile is so sweet. The way he looked at you and smiled softly you enlarged your eyes and quickly looked down.

'I- I don't know.'

Wonwoo also realized that maybe his little smile made things awkward here. So he just passed by you saying

'Don't skip meals y/n. See you later.'

You exhaled a breath of relax after he went away and reached your room finally.

You found this sad face tensed Mingyu was sitting in your small bed. You startled like you saw ghost but slowed down and acted normal afterwards. You slowly entered your room yet you were feeling frightened. Though mingyu messed with you more you messed with him, you had a feeling that Mingyu was so angry at that moment.

You walked to your bed and sat beside him. Mingyu rarely comes to your room. He is sitting folding his knees. And was wearing a half pant with a tshirt. You were thinking what could Mingyu do as you ignored him for a full day and didn't pick up his calls.

When Mingyu came to your room, the first thing he noticed that in the floor where the bed is placed, there were a big amount of used cigarettes remnants. He took one in his hand to really see the thing. He couldn't believe it was yours. He knows you smoke but he never interrupted you in this. No he literally never interrupts you in anything that you like to do. But that doesn't mean you will smoke like this. His eyes placed to the bedside table where there was a cute beautiful ashtray with full of ashes. Beside that ashtaray there were some long intact cigarettes arranged in a little vase. Four unwashed cups of tea were there too.

Mingyu felt bad thinking you surely smoked this much because of that night issue. He knows you too well. He doesn't know what should he do right now but he felt so puzzled up. He knew you couldn't take things normally as his girlfriend but it's gonna ruin your mental health more- he thought this and felt more stressed.

'All over everything, I just wanted to make you love yourself. I had never restricted you in the things that you love to do. But why it's happening like this?'

Thinking about this Mingyu wrapped his face with his palms.

'I missed you y/n.'

Mingyu told not looking at you. You felt so so bad just to hear a short words of him that you had a feeling of crying. No you can't be this soft to this man. You tried to hold it up.

'I thought how much angry you are, end of the day you would come to me to calm myself.'

Mingyu was talking more slowly while looking down. It felt so bad to you.

'But you didn't.'

He looked at you this time like this

Mingyu didn't seem in good state.  He came close to you and removed your scarf from your neck, revealing those purplish red Marks of him. He came closer and touched there lightly, not wanting to hurt you. But you couldn't control yourself and hold his hand with your small ones for refraining his touching

'Don't touch here please. It hurts.'

You tried to tell it as soft as possible thinking he may think something else.

'It still hurts?'

He asked you thinking you maybe bearing so pain yourself and didn't tell him anything. He told worried.

'No- no it's fine when .. when I'm not touching or holding it.'

You replied. You were still holding his big hand in your lap.

'You tried any ointment? Why didn't you pick up my calls? I was trying to give you an ointment but you were not in phone. After that I came to your room and thought your were sleeping when you didn't respond to my knock at your door. It will be good if you used that I think.'

'No it's fine. It's healing itself.'

Mingyu didn't answer anything but only was looking at you. He slowly placed his hand toward your face and grabbed it softly. He was looking at you even more softly that you started feeling awkward and shy. He was watching you attentively and came closer to you.

You talked up

'Don't worry Mingyu. It- it will be okay soon.'

Mingyu's manly fragrance was felt strongly because of his closeness. He caressed your hair softly while telling

'I'm so sorry Fairyssi. I don't know what got me that night. I- I feel so ashamed. But- but believe me, I love you.'

'I-I know you do.'

You tried to ignore his glare on you so were looking at something else and not him. You gulped and tried to talk nice but he told

'I missed you so much. For a whole day you didn't show me up. Why y/n? Am I too bad?'

'No.. no

'I know I shouldn't do the things I have done to you. But

'Please Mingyu. It's fine just. It's not that big deal.'

You told exhaling a small breath and removed your hands from his. Why that night memory is so strongly settled to your memory, that you can remember everything like it's happening now?The way Mingyu was holding your hands and was aggressive biting you. He put all his force in that, that you think. Your Mingyu tried to rape you!

In a while you started crying loudly and with abnormal breathing beats. You can only remember how much you frightened in that night. You were watching your future there. You let Mingyu decide your state. You wanted to cry screaming. You wanted to tell the sky is 'the man I love is doing this to me'

Mingyu hugged you and adored you with his hands.

'Don't cry y/n. It will be okay. I'll be a good boyfriend.'

You started crying more loudly and more intensely hearing that from Mingyu. You were mixing up in the tight hug of Mingyu.

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