Chapter Nine: He's Not Him

"Sometimes the strongest people are the ones who love beyond all faults, cry behind closed door, and fight battles that nobody knows about."

- Unknown

Because of you- Kelly Clarkson

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Wednesday afternoon I had got a call from James. He had landed and was at his house he had here in New York. After I picked Lottie and Dalton up from school I went over to James's. I knocked on the door and he opened it smiling

"There's my beautiful girlfriend. I missed waking up to your beautiful face every morning." James said hugging me then kissed me lovingly

"I missed you so much. I'm glad you're here finally" I said as he pulled me into the house "On Saturday how would you feel about spending the day with my siblings and I?"

"I'd like that." He kissed my cheek then my lips "I've missed you so fucking much."

"Oh is that so?" I asked smirking

He attached his lips to mine again "It.sure.is." He said in between kisses.

Things got heated quickly,my back was up against the wall while my body was pressed to his. His fingers were knotted in my hair. Soon I found my legs wrapped around his waist as he carried me to his bedroom.

"Moving a bit fast aren't we?" I joked as he sat me on his bed kissing down my neck.

"That's up to you to decide." he whispered in my ear sending chills all over my body and a strange craving for him "What do you think Caroline?"

I bit my lip blushing a bit then crashed my lips onto his placing a hand on the back of his neck pulling him closer to me. As the kiss got deeper and things got more heated, something came to mind like a flashback.

"It's not going to hurt trust me." Andrew said holding my arms above my head

Tears fell down my seventeen year old face "No please don't! Andrew I don't want this please don't" I sobbed

"Shut up Caroline! I'm sick of you already" he said covering my mouth with his hand

"Andrew stop!" I screamed while crying.

Coming back to reality I pushed James off me and ran out of the room to the bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror I shook my head.

"He's not Andrew, he won't hurt you Caroline." I told myself as James knocked on the door

"Care I'm sorry I didn't mean to cross some sort of boundary you have." he said his apology sounding so sincere, he knocked again "Love open up."

Unlocking the door I looked at my feet ashamed "You have nothing to apologize for." I said

Gently he grabbed my hand "Do you want to talk?" he asked

Looking up at him I shook my head "I'm not really ready to talk. But when I am I promise to tell you everything."

An hour later I had went home and seen Andrew was over yet again for dinner. Ignoring my father who asked where I was I walked out to the backyard. When I heard the door open awhile later I expected Lottie or Dalton but it was Andrew.

"What's up Care? Why do you look so upset?" Andrew asked sitting next to me

I stood up hastily and looked at him with disgust "Do not call me that."

"Alright fine." he held his hands up in defense "Now tell me what's got you upset. Is it that boyfriend of yours?"

"Do you want to know why I'm upset? Because of you! I can't even let him touch me because of what you did to me." I said harshly

Andrew stood up "Babe I never did anything to you."

"You're a fucking liar! All because of you I'm afraid to let another man actually touch me, a man I think I love. What you did Andrew I can't ever forget no matter how hard I try." I said letting venom drip from each word

He stepped close to me and pulled me toward him "You better keep your damn mouth shut do you hear me Caroline? I mean it's not like anyone would believe you anyways." the next thing I knew his lips where on mine and he pushed me against the house harshly

I tried so hard to push him off me but I couldn't he was to strong "Andrew get off me!" I screamed

The backdoor flew open and out ran Dalton who shoved Andrew off me "Leave Andrew now." He said staring coldly at him.

"Thanks for that Caroline better hope your boy toy doesn't find out." Andrew smirked before leaving

My legs felt weak and I slid down the house. Sitting in the ground I put my face in my hands as I cried hard.

"Shh Care it's alright. James will forgive you if he finds out. It's not like it's your fault anyways" Dalton said hugging me

I looked at my brother "Dalton can I tell you something. I know most sisters should never tell their brothers this but I will." I paused to wipe my tears "Today James was kissing me and I pushed him off me because I remembered when, Andrew." I started to say but couldn't finish it hurt to much

"Care, you have to tell James."

"I know, I know okay. I just don't know how." my voice cracking.

Dalton helped me up and took me into the house.

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