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dont clown me ik he's annoying but just imagine raelyns house as that one ^ 🙄

billie "zoe" i sent her a look. "we're not gonna get in trouble, just come with me!"

"ditching is bad!" she whispered shouted.

"bro" i rolled my eyes. "we're not gonna get caught if we just hurry up! get your ass over here!"

zoe was standing right by the exit. i was already outside waiting for her and making sure there was no security but she's being a pussy!

"i changed my mind" zoe mumbled while crossing her arms. "i don't wanna di-"

"hey!" a voice cut her off. "what are you doing out of class?"

i grabbed zoe's hand and tried to pull her along with me so we won't get in trouble, but this bitch ran the other way.

jesus christ

i ran to my car by myself and got in. i think the security guard went after her. i pulled out my spot and drove to an exit to see if zoe went out that way.

i didn't see her so i'm gonna assume she probably got caught.

idiot

me: where tf r u

zoe: in the fucking office this is all your fault

me: don't blame this on me????i literally grabbed you but ur dumbass ran the other way

zoe: 😒😒

me: cry about it wtf am i supposed to do nowwe were supposed to ditch TOGETHERUS TWO

zoe: idk go with drew or azalea

me: drew is just like u and no

zoe: you're never with azalea anymore why's that?

me: idk

zoe: did you two get in a fight again?

me: notxt me after school

zoe: somethings going on between u two

i left her on read and began driving again. i stopped by taco bell to get some food for myself and some for finneas.

i'm pretty sure he's home.

his weird ass barely leaves, but ever since he started dating claudia he's been out of the house. i was impressed she got him to stay with her for three days.

that's the longest he's ever been out!

i arrived home pretty quick and made my way inside. i set down the bag of food on the table and called out for finneas.

he walked into the kitchen and made a weird face when he saw me.

"what are you doing here?" finneas asked while he scratched his head. "aren't you supposed to be in school"

"i left" i shrugged while pulling out our food. "i got food though"

finneas and i both sat down and ate.

after we finished, we both went into his room and chilled until my parents got home. "so there's this girl" i made a sheepish face at him.

"what happened to azalea?" finneas raised a brow up. "did you finally break up with her?"

"it's not as easy as you think" i sighed. "fucking with her feels like jail"

"the fact that you just compared her to a jail says a lot" fin let out a laugh.

"yup" i sighed again. "i'm not happy in this relationship... she just uses me i feel trapped, but there's this girl"

"who this girl?" he raised a brow up.

"we met at a party" i grinned. "and ever since this party we've been talking"

"as friends right?"

"i meannn" i rubbed the back of my neck. "we kinda made out at the party... we were both drunk though so it didn't mean anything"

"did azalea find out?" finneas asked.

"no" i shook my head. "she never gonna find out"

"what's 'this girls' name?" he asked while looking at me.

"raelyn" i smiled. "don't you think that's a pretty name?"

"you said the same thing about azalea" finneas sent me a look. "look at you two now"

"well.... yeah i guess, but i do find her name really pretty" i shrugged. "raelyns nice"

"mhm" he narrowed his eyes at me while rubbing his beard. "how old is this raelyn?"

"i don't know" i shrugged again. "she's really pretty though"

"didn't ask" finneas said while looking at his phone. "okay leave, claudias coming over"

i sucked my teeth and got up to leave his room. i walked into mine and just laid in my bed for a few. i'm bored as fuck.

i ended up taking a small nap that lasted about two hours. i checked to see what time it was and it was around five.

i also saw that azalea texted me asking where i have been.

zay: where were you today

me: at home

zay: do you still want me to come over?

me: no

zay: why are you being such a bitch?i haven't done shit to you your so fucking deanrjc dramatic

me: bitch u can't even fucking spell shut the fuck up

i didn't feel like fighting with her so i just left her on delivered. bitch is so annoying and so fucking controlling. she just wants to come over and fuck!

like i really thought she was different.

all she does is use and take advantage of me now. i hate it but i can't stop it. no matter how much i try to leave, she just makes me feel like shit afterwards.

my phone dinged and i checked to see who it was.

oh

mckay: hi pirate do u wanna come over

me: already want me in your bed 😏

mckay: you wish 🙄do u smoke tho

me: not really but sometimes

mckay: smoke with me

me: ur not getting me high just cause you wanna do something...right?

mckay: wtf ????no i would never 😕

me: oh well ig i'll come over what's ur address again

mckay: dude 😐i literally sent it to u the other daydid u forget already ???

me: i'm just playingggggi'll be there in a few

i got my keys from my dresser and made my way outside. i saw that claudia was here so i said hey to her and left.

i got in my car and began driving to raelyns place.

i parked my car by the sidewalk and made my way to her front door. the pathway to it looks really cool honestly.

this bitch is RICH

when i rang the doorbell i heard barking and some yelling.

"hey pirate" raelyn smirked when she opened the door. "come in"

i stepped inside and looked around. "your house is nice" i told her. "like realllyyy nice"

a big dog came running up to me and jumped.

"zeus!" raelyn yelled and grabbed his collar. "get down!"

the dog ended up walking away after she yelled at him.

"who was it?" i heard an older voice. "was is maddy?"

a woman who looked to be in her late twenties or early thirty's appeared by the entry way.

"no, but since you're already here" raelyn smiled and pointed at me. "mom this is billie, billie this is erin, my mom"

"hi" i smiled shyly and waved.

"billie?" raelyns mom raised a brow up. "strange, but pretty cute. nice to meet you"

"nice to meet you too" i told her while shaking her hand.

"are you raelyns friend? best friend? project partner? girlfriend?" erin looked me up and down.

"mom stop" raelyn chuckled. "she's a friend"

"okay" erin smiled while fixing her robe. "i'm gonna go back to my office. i better see you often now, billie"

"yeah" i laughed.

raelyn let out a small giggle and grabbed my hand. we walked down a hallway all the way to the end and entered a room.

"your mom is hot" i blurted out.

"thanks" she laughed. "i know she is, people tell me all the time"

"your room is also nice" i nodded my head while looking around. "is that- you have a bathroom in your room?"

"yeah i do" she chuckled. "my sister has the better room though"

"what do you mean?" i made a face while i sat down on her bed.

raelyn walked over to two glass doors and opened them. "you see those doors like this one?" she pointed and i nodded. "that's my sisters room, she has like the junior master bedroom"

"well your room is still bigger than mine" i let out a small laugh. "holy shit, your house is huge. your mom also looks expensive"

"she does some business stuff" she told me while grabbing a box out of her drawer. "she's an independent business woman"

"good for her" i smiled.

"you don't have to smoke if you don't want too" raelyn said while taking out a already prepared blunt. "after that message you sent..."

"oh" i shook my head. "it's nothing"

"are you sure?" she raised a brow up while lighting up the blunt that was in between her lips, exhaling the smoke out afterwards. "sounds like something has happened"

"nothing happened" i grabbed the blunt from her lips and inhaled.

"just know i'm not fucked up like that" raelyn reassured me. "i'm sorry if anything happened to you"

"it's okay" i sighed and passed the blunt back to her.

we smoked until the blunt was non existent. i had my head resting on raelyns lap and then we ended up talking about parrots.

"so you're not concerned enough about why parrots can talk?" i looked up at her.

"they're not exactly talking" raelyn told me. "they're imitating the sound they hear"

"but people have full on conversations with them!" i sent her a look.

"okay well m-"

"nah shut up" i cut her off and laughed. "parrots can fucking talking and that's weird"

"whatever" raelyn giggled while smacking my stomach playfully.

we sat in a comfortable slice for a few until she spoke again.

"i feel like i've always known you, like we've been friends forever" rae told me. "and it's a strange, yet comforting thought"

"honestly" i sighed while looking up at her. "me too"

raelyn cupped my cheek and began rubbing it with her thumb while she just looked at me with a soft expression.

i felt weird because i never had someone touch me in such an intimate way. azalea doesn't do this, she just offers/forces me into sexual intimacy rather than be a safe haven to my heart.

i stared at raelyn as her thumb swiped over my bottom lip.

"i think you're very pretty by the way" i blurted out randomly as i continued to look up at her while her thumb rubbed my cheek again.

"thank you" raelyn smiled at me. "i think you're very pretty too"

"you do?" i made a face.

"yeah" she let out a small chuckle. "why are you so surprised?"

"because no one usually tells me that kinda stuff" i said quietly.

you'd be surprised and pretty fucking sad how my current relationship is. azalea never tells me shit like that even though i do but i stopped caused she's just a bitch in general.

"well i think you're very pretty" raelyn smiled.

"thank you" i blushed.

i sat up and looked at her hooded red eyes. she was staring right back at me with her lips parted slightly open.

we both just bursted out laughing.

"what's so funny?" she wheezed out while we both laid on our backs.

"i don't know" i laughed, turning my head to the side to look at her. "you just started laughing!"

"because you were!" raelyn looked at me too.

our laughter died down and we were just staring at each other now like we were before we started laughing.

my eyes flicked down to her lips and back to her eyes a few times.

raelyn placed her hand on my jaw.

"can i kiss you?" i whispered.

raelyn nodded her head and leaned in slowly. before our lips could touch, i got a text message which startled me a bit.

i mumbled a sorry and checked to see who it was.

ugh

"who's azalea?" raelyn asked me while i opened her message.

"a friend" i sighed.

"are you sure about that?" she raised her brow up and let out a small scoff. "by the looks of it, i think she's more than a friend"

"you're nosy" i rolled my eyes. "do you know that?"

"and you're a liar" she sent me a look and mocked me. "do you know that?"

i smacked her stomach and answered azalea. she was basically asking where i was and what i was doing, things like that.

"i'm sorry but she's annoying" raelyn let out a snort. "what is she to you? because no friend asks those kinda questions"

i set my phone down and sighed. "you promise you won't get mad?" i asked her.

"of course not" she giggled. "i legit don't care"

"she's sorta like... she's my girlfriend" i said quietly while looking at her.

"sorta? you have a girlfriend?" raelyn made a face. "is that why you told me to act like nothing ever happened after we made out at the party?"

"yeah" i nodded. "if i came off like a dick i'm sorry, i just dont want her to find out"

"why?" she raised a brow up.

"because" i sighed. "she's just- she's a bitch and i'm not happy in the relationship"

"then leave??" she made a 'duh' face. "you're just making yourself suffer even more by staying"

"it's not as easy as you think" i rubbed my face.

"why do you wanna break up with her?" rae asked me. "is she that bad?"

"yeah" i told her. "she's so manipulative and controlling. it took me a while to realize that. all she wants to do is fuck"

"oh" she frowned at me.

"like at first we were okay, but then i guess just because she's older she thinks she can do whatever she wants to me" i shook my head. "...she's one of the main reasons i was so surprised when you called me pretty"

"how old is she?" raelyn asked with a curious tone.

"she just turned eighteen" i answered her. "all she wanted to do on her birthday was fuck while i just wanted to take her out or some shit.... she just uses me"

"i'm sorry" raelyn grabbed my hand and squeezed it. "i cant imagine how you feel, but how old are you since you said you think she can do whatever"

"how old are you" i asked her.

"i asked you first" rae sent me a look.

"how old are you" i asked again.

"i'm seventeen" she told me. "now how old are you"

"sixteen" i breathed out and her jaw dropped.

"what?" raelyn laughed. "you're sixteen?"

"my birthdays in december!" i shouted and laughed. "shut up!"

"but you're sixteen??" she giggled. "you're a baby!"

"i'm literally gonna turn seventeen in three months" i sent her a look. "i am not a baby"

"i'm just messing with you" raelyn chuckled. "calm down"

"but yeah..." i sighed. "that's what she is"

"is this azalea girl the reason you were being weird the other day when we hung out?" she asked me quietly.

"yeah" i whispered.

"is it okay if i ask what she did?"

"i wasn't in the mood to do anything but i still did it either way just so she won't bitch about it" i told her quietly.

"i'm so sorry" raelyn sat up and held her arms out for me. "come here"

i scooted closer to her and wrapped my arms around her waist while my head rested against her stomach.

"this feels weird to me" i mumbled.

"why?" raelyn asked me.

"because you'd think my own girlfriend would do these kinda things but she doesn't" i sighed. "thank you though"

raelyn just held me tighter.

"this is why i don't do feelings" i shook my head. "i don't wanna date anyone because of shit like that"

"but you have a girlfriend" she let out a small chuckle.

"i know" i groaned. "i just wish i can leave her easily"

"i thought you were a dick at first, but now that you're explaining this to me i understand you" raelyn told me. "but what i don't understand is why you're literally doing shit behind her back"

"i never had the intention to cheat" i said honestly. "until that party, i was drunk and you were there and i just felt drawn to you for some reason"

"oh no i don't care" she giggled. "i still would've made out with you if i knew then. i don't give a shit"

"so you one of those girls" i chuckled while sitting up.

"i guess" raelyn shrugged while rolling her eyes playfully.

"azalea is... bad" i mumbled as i rested my head on her lap again. "she makes me feel like shit most of the time and basically manipulates me into having sex with her"

"we don't have to talk about this" raelyn told me while running her fingers though my hair.

that feels good

why can't azalea do things like raelyn?

what's sad is that i've known her for a couple days now and she's been more comforting than azalea has ever been.

but i can't fall for raelyn because i don't do feelings.

it's ironic of me for being in a relationship even though i said that, but i swear once i'm done with azalea (if we ever break up which i hope we do) i'm not dating anybody else.

she's caused me more harm than good and i just don't wanna go though that shit again.

"can i still kiss you though?" i asked while looking up at raelyn. "that text message stopped us"

"sure" she giggled.

i sat up and pulled her on top of me. raelyn rested her arms around my neck and leaned in to press her lips against mine.

we began making out, i placed my hands on her waist and rocked them back and forth slowly.

the both of us let out small moans as our lips mended together. i sucked on her tongue and continued kissing her

after a few more minutes of making out, raelyn pulled away so we can get some air and smiled at me.

it was that kind of smile that could instantly make you fall in love.

that kind of smile that would be cruel not to kiss.

fuck

i cant fall for her.