49

I woke up to the throbbing pain in my head. I got up and saw Jimin beside me....

Fuck... what have I fucking done?!

I got up and groaned to the sudden rush of blood. I looked at the time and saw that it was 12pm. Fuck!

I grabbed my boxers, pants, shirt, and jacket and put them back on. I opened the hotel door and shut it. I left Jimin in there.

I ran to the nearest bus stop and checked how long I had to wait for the next bus for school... turns out that would be at 5pm.

I started to walk and run to the school. Regret and guilt filled me entirely. What the fuck was I thinking! Jin is going to find out about this and I'm done for!

What happened that night!

What the fuck happened?!

I opened the schooled door and panted. My legs felt like giving up. It was perfect timing because it was lunch time.

I ran to the spot where Jin and I normally hang at but he wasn't there again!

I decided to go up to V and ask him where he was.

"Where is he?!"

"Who?"

"Jin!"

"Dude! Did you drink again? You smell like alcohol! A teacher might catch you!"

"Fucking tell me where Jin is!" I shouted.

"I don't know! Last time I saw him was yesterday when he decided to talk to Jungkook after school." V said.

"What?!"

Jungkook?! But he was the one who texted me to meet up at the bar?! Why the hell was he with Jin?!

Where is Jungkook's hide out?! Where is it?! Right! It's the-

.....

"The sky is do beautiful, isn't it?" Jungkook hummed.

"It's very clear and the breeze is really nice." Jin said as he chewed on his food.

"You look worried."

"Well yeah, Yoongi hasn't texted me back and he isn't here."

Jungkook admired Jin's features and how his skin reflects with the daylight sun. Jungkook has fallen for him. He truly has but has Jin fallen for him?

Jungkook and Jin continued to look out at the railing. Admiring the trees and birds. They can see neighborhoods and cars from above.

.....

Yoongi quietly opened the roof top door. He stopped when he heard Jin's voice.

"Thanks for keeping me company today since Yoongi is not here."

Yoongi felt his heart sunk... not because of jealously... but also because of how much he fucked up...

"No problem, you can come here anytime Suga isn't here." Jungkook said.

It was silent again, the sound of the wind blew across leaves. Yoongi listened carefully to what they were saying... he suddenly froze when he heard Jungkook speak again.

"You know Jin, you're beautiful."

Yoongi opened the door to the point where he can see the 2 people's back. They stared off at the sky, holding on to the railing. Yoongi say how Jin's outfit was different and how close Jungkook was getting to Jin.

"Quiet huh?" Jungkook said.

Yoongi felt himself loosing it when he saw Jungkook put his arm around Jin's waist. Jin immediately grabbed Jungkook's hand and pushed it off.

"Stop that. We talked about this already." Jin sternly said.

Yoongi was surprised by Jin's action. It made Yoongi feel like an idiot and a liar inside out.

"I'm sorry.... I just can't keep my hands off of you when you look so gorgeous with that outfit." Jungkook said.

"Mmmm." Jin pouted meanly.

"What? It's true. Doesn't Suga call you beautiful and good looking?!" Jungkook exclaimed.

"Of course, he was the first person besides my mother to tell me that." Jin said.

"Wow, people must be blind then." Jungkook scoffed.

"What do you mean?" Jin asked.

"I'm saying that people must not see how much you shine more than others Jin. You are unique to me." Jungkook said.

"Stop! If you had seen what I looked like in the past, you would've ran away from me!" Jin cried.

"Why would I had care what you looked like in the past. You're a beautiful person inside and out. You're honest and loyal. Suga is so lucky to have such wonderful person like you... sometimes I wish I could go back in time and meet you first before Suga hyung." Jungkook calmly said.

"Sometimes I wish I can go back in time too..." Jin said.

Yoongi felt tears crawl down his face. The school bell suddenly rang and Yoongi closed the door fast and quietly and ran down the stairs fast. He leaned against a locker that wasn't so far away from their class together.

after a minute or two, he saw Jin walking with Jungkook. He knew the clothing he was wearing wasn't Jin's at all.

Jin's face suddenly brightened up when he saw Yoongi. Yoongi looked away from Jin. Jin walked up to him quickly and stood in front of him.

"Hey, where we're you?" Jin smiled.

Yoongi could barely look Jin in his eyes. The memories with Jimin stained his mind and took him away from Jin. Looking into Jin's eyes were tough and scary.

.....

"I was... I was... asleep." I said.

"For that long?" Jungkook exclaimed.

"Why didn't you text me back last night or today? And why do you smell like liquor?!" Jin questioned.

"Because... Jungkook texted me to go to the bar with him to talk but he ended up not being there." I sternly said.

Jin turned and looked at Jungkook.

"Well you see, I was going to go but then I saw Jin in the rain and decided to pick him up and take him to my place." Jungkook said.

"What? That makes no sense? Then what was the whole dinner about the other night then?" Jin asked.

"Dinner?" I questioned.

"Yeah, Jungkook tricked me into having dinner with him. It was very funny because I ran away." Jin said.

What? Then what was the point of texting me to go to the bar and meeting Jimin there? Did Jungkook just forget?

"It was just a dinner to get to know more about you dummy. Besides, where was Suga at this whole time?" Jungkook sternly said.

"Yeah, why didn't you leave the bar?" Jin asked.

"Because... I got drunk and started to drink by myself..." Yoongi said.

"Oh really?" Jungkook mocked.

"Stop trying to make him the bad guy, you told him to go to the bar!" Jin growled.

I looked away from Jin. Jin put his hand on my cheek. I felt his warmth touch me but the feeling of guilt touch me more.

I grabbed his hand and removed it from my cheek and looked away from him. Jin's expression went blank and confused.

"Let's get to class. The bell is going to ring in 2 minutes." Jin said.

Jin and I walked into class. We sat together and he got out his text books and notes. I didn't bother to look at him, I stared at the window on the left. Jin sat on my right.

I kept my mouth shut. I kept my hand to myself. I had no permission to touch Jin... I didn't deserve him at all.

It went on like this for each class. I would put my hand that was next to Jin's in my pocket and not even take one look at him.

After school. That's when he started to talk to me.

"Are you okay? Did something happen last night that I didn't know about?" Jin asked.

"It's nothing." I said. Not even looking at Jin.

"Yoongi, I can tell something happened last night, you drink everytime you think about your family."

"Jin, I just drank and got drunk." I said

"But why?" Jin asked.

"Look, I'm just not in a mood Jin." I said.

Jin grabbed my hand and interwined it with mine. I froze and stared at Jin. He looked at me with concern.

"Atleast interwine your hand with mine..." Jin said.

I shook my head and pulled my hand out of Jin's grip.

"No, I can't."

"Why not?!" Jin cried.

"Jin, I just can't even look at you right now." I said, looking away from him.

"What are you saying?!" Jin exclaimed.

"I'm saying I don't deserve you!"

Jin stared at me with shock eyes.

"Yoongi that's not true."

"You're wrong Jin." I said.

"What happened yesterday, after you went to the bar?! Just tell me!" Jin said.

"If I tell you, you'll hate me forever and we wouldn't be together." I said.

"Yoongi, stop, no I won't."

"Yes you would Jin, look, I have to leave."

"No! You're not leaving without me!" Jin cried out. He tugged on my hand. I can see the tears about to burst from his eyes.

"I'm sorry Jin. But... I'm letting you go..."

I swatted out of Jin's grip and walked out of the building without looking back.

.....

I stared at Yoongi's back as he left me. He didn't even look back. I had nothing to say...

What did he do...

What happened...

Yesterday he loved me and held me in his arms. But today he just rejected me....

He said he didn't deserve me... but how is that true? How am I suppose to say that he's wrong if I didn't know what happened...

"Jin?"

I noticed the familiar voice and wiped my tears quickly away. I can hear his foot steps. He put his hand on my shoulder.

"You want a ride in my car? Since I know Suga isn't here! We can get icecream on the way! Or something else if you want!"

I turned around and plastered a smile on my face.

"Yeah. Yeah... I'll like that."

J hope looked at me in a shock and confused way.

"Hey? Did something happen? What's with the puffy eyes, you looked like you just cried..." J hope said.

"I...I..."

I looked down and sighed. I felt the tears coming back. My breath started to get shaky.

J hope grabbed my arms and pulled me close to him.

"Hey, hey, it's okay, tell me what happened... was it something with Jungkook?"

I shook my head and wiped my tears away. I catched my breath and spoke.

"N-No, it wasn't Jungkook..."

"Then what happened?" J hope asked.

I took a deep breath in and continued to cry.

"I-Its Yoongi..."

"What about him? Is he okay?" J hope asked.

"He broke up with me." I choked in the painful truth that clogged my heart. J hope's eyes widened in realization.

"He did?!" He said. I nodded.

"Come here..."

He sighed and pulled me in closer, wrapping his arms around me. I nuzzled my face into his shoulder and wrapped my arms around him slowly, adjusting myself.

"It's okay Jin, I'm sure he'll come back. Bug if he starts acting like a jerk to you like last time. Then I'll beat the shit out of him." J hope said.

I cried into his shoulder in the hallway. Later on, he gave me a ride to my house and dropped me off.

To be honest... I had no motivation to get out of bed...

Of even to eat...

My mind was filled with thoughts as my heart was empty.

.....

Calling V....

V- What's up B.

JH- a lot...

V- like?

JH- Suga broke up with Jin...

V- Are you for real?!

JH- Yeah...

V- WOOOOO! YEAHHHH! YOU CAN FINALLY ASK HIM TO THE DANCE!!! YAAAAAAAHHHH- why aren't you cheering?

JH- Because, Jin isn't happy...

V- oh... makes sense...

JH- look... I don't know what to do... like what if Jin starts getting depressed and starts hurting himself over Suga?

V- that sounds like something Suga would do. Besides, Jin doesn't know about suicide.... I hope... he's pretty innocent.

JH- innocent doesn't stop suicidal thoughts now, does it?

V- alright, alright, you're right. You might want to keep a look out on both of them. Go visit Suga and see if he isn't trying to kill himself.

JH- what?! Why? He broke up with Jin because he told Jin he didn't deserve Jin, which makes no fucking sense. But he's right, he doesn't, but he's blessed that he has him.

V- true true, maybe Suga is going through family problems with his mother again. Besides, I heard his mother is in Korea right now.

JH- maybe...*sigh* I'll go check on him. That little loser better not be smoking again.

V- J hope not.

JH- stop with the weak puns. Peace V.

V- Bye B

I hung up the phone and  started my car up and drove to Suga's house. It took about 10 minutes to get there. I parked my car not too close to his house.

I got out and before I was going to knock on his door, I heard yelling...

But it wasn't Yoongi yelling...

It didn't sound like his father or even mother...

I crotched down and peeked through the window...

And there they were...

It was Yoongi and Jimin...

Damn it! Tell me Suga isn't going to let go of Jin for this hoe!

I saw a window that was open and near by. I looked through the window and there was no one... but I can hear their voices...

"Look, I'm sure Jin will not think anything happened! I'll shut my mouth!" -Jimin's voice

"No! It doesn't matter if he finds out! What matters is that I did it with you and he's going to freak out!" -Suga's voice.

"Yoongi, just act like nothing happened last night betwee-"

"This is why I asked you to fucking leave me alone! Now look what happened! We both got drunk and fucking had sex!" Yoongi spat.

I ducked down when I saw them coming near here.

"Don't try to blame this on me! You felt pleasure as well as me!" Jimin spat.

I heard glass shatter in the house. I flinched and peeked through the window and saw Jimin holding a glass cup in his hand.

I have to get out of here. I fucking need to.

"Get back together with him! He's never going to find out okay!"

Another glass shattered again.

"Fine! I'll fucking do it! Now get out!"

When I heard those words. I got up and ran back to my car before Jimin got out and saw me. I started the car and drove out of the neighborhood...

I parked at a 7 11 and sighed. Thinking about everything that occured...

Yoongi... he had sex with Jimin... and he broke up with Jin...

Now he wants him back...

As if...

I drove back to my house. I took a shower and did my red hair in waves. I put on and tuxedo and made sure I smelled good.

I told my maid to take my car to a car wash to get it cleaned and washed. By the time I was ready to go she came back.

I drove down to the rich side of the city and bought flowers and balloons. I bought chocolate and a pink teddy bear.

I went to the mall and searched for the jewelry store.

I looked for a pink diamond ring and found a beautiful big one with white diamonds that circled around the pink diamond...

I got back into my car and drove to Jin's house. I parked...

That's when anxiety started to hit me...

I grabbed my phone and called V.

V- AYYYE! WHAT'S UP BBBB!

JH- V...... I'm going to do it...

V- do what?

JH- I'm... I'm going to ask Jin to the dance...

V-SHUT UP! I TOLD YOU TO GIVE HIM TIME!

JH- So then Suga can come and get him back! I found out what happened!

V- What happened?

JH- Yoongi and Jimin got drunk and had sex.

V- WHAT?! JIMIN! NO! FUCK!

JH- yeah...

V- FUCKING SUGA IS GOING TO PAY!!!

JH- Hey, calm down, doesn't your coworkers look at you weird for yelling on the phone?

V- dumbass! My dad owns the place! That's why I'm rich!

JH- okay, but... I'm scared...

V- to ask Jin to the dance?!

JH- yeah...

V- buddy, you got this... I'm sure you do.. are you sure you want to do this? Jin is going through a break up...

JH- V.... how long have you wanted Jimin for....

V- Since 6th grade... I always thought he was cute and short...

JH- exactly.

V- what?

JH- I'm saying that waiting for someone you love makes you impatient! I always seen Suga with Jin and I sometimes wish I was Suga!   But shit can't be like that! I wanted Jin for a while now! And now I'm given another chance and I can't lose it to Suga asking for Jin to come back to him after what he did! I just can't!

V- wow Hyung.... you're right...

JH- yeah...

V- WELL ASK HIM ALREADY! YOU SAID YOU DON'T WANT TO MISS THE CHANCE TO DO IT! SO GET HIM! GET YOUR LOVER! HOLD HIM! KISS HIM! LICK HIM! FUC-

JH- YAH! V! I'M NOT DOING THE LAST TWO!

V-oh... my bad... But you know what I mean.... I know you J hope.

JH- sure you do....

V- well bye! GOODLUCK B! I WISH YOU THE BEST!

JH- Ugh!

I hung up the phone on him. I know he must be pissed off. I grab the flower, balloons, chocolate, teddybeat, and ring. I put them in a cute basket I bought. I tied the balloons on the basket and put the teddy bear, chocolate and ring in there. I carried the flowers and basket to the door step.

I put the basket down on the porch and rung the bell.

Who cares if my parents find out I'm gay....

What if they do though...

What if Jin says no...

I'm screwed...

Fuck anxiety is hitting again...

I need and cigarette.

I suddenly heard thee door open. And there he was. He opened there door wide open. His eyes were still puffy... he was dressed in all black like how he was in school.

"What's all of this?" He asked.

I felt my cheeks burning up. I took a deep breath in and tried to relax my beating heart.

"It's for you." I said.

Jin looked at me in shock. He closed the door behind him and came out barefoot on his porch. I handed him the flowers and the basket.

"Um, I know you're confused... well I am too! But I just wanted to ask you if..."

"Yeah?" Jin questioned with a smirk.

"If you wanted to-to go out with me!"

WHY WOULD I ASK THAT?! WHY WOULD I SAY THAT! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! WHAT AM IS GOING TO DO! I FUCKED UP! I WANTED TO ASK HIM TO THE DANCE! J HOPE YOU DUMB BITCH!

Jin flushed red and looked at me with big eyes.

"I MEAN! LIKE! TO THE DANCE! NOT LIKE BE MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE I DON'T WANT THAT! I-I MEAN I DO! BUT LIKE I WANTED TO ASK YOU TO THE DANCE! YOU CAN SAY NO IF YOU WANT TO! I WOULD UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU JUST WENT THROUGH A BREAK UP TODAY! BUT IT'S OKAY! I JUST WANTED TO ASK IF YOU-"

"J hope."

He pressed his finger against my lips. I lost myself completely in his dark mysterious brown eyes. Oh the way they shine.

"Y-Yeah?" I choked.

"I would love to go to the dance with you!"He smiled and took his finger off of my lip.

"Really?!"

"Yeah? It's my first time I got asked to the dance so like! It might be fun?" Jin giggled.

"Oh definitely! I'll make sure you'll have fun!"

His first time?!

"Am I your first dance?"

"Oh, no, you are my first for asking me to the prom or dance." Jin said.

" I see..."

"But I'll love to go! I don't have anything to do next Friday so like! I'm up for it!"

"Alright good! So I'll pick you up at 5?"

"5 it is!"

We both laughed and I walked down the porch.

"Well I got to go! See you at school?" I said

"Yeah! Yeah! Most definitely!" He giggled.

I got into my car and waved good bye and took off.

I did it!

It's actually happening!

My dream is coming true!

I can finally hold Jin's hand!

......

I grabbed the basket that was tied with balloons. I brought it in and closed the door the behind me. I admired the love put into it.

I grabbed the pink teddy bear and smiled.

That's when I saw a black box that had a pink bowtie.

I grabbed it carefully and opened it.

And there it was...

It shined so bright and D reflected in my eyes. The pink diamond and the white was well put together with the gold. How much won could he had spent on this?!

I gently grabbed the ring and put it on.  It glistened ever so brightly. The huge pink diamond grazed my heart.

Why am I feeling this way now?

Why am I feeling this way for both?

Suga so warm hearted and loving with me but he broke my heart today.

But J hope grabbed my broken heart and repaired it again with his lovely words...

.....

I heard a knock on my door and I turned to open it without thinking or checking.

"J hop-......"

I stopped on my words and stared bitterly at him....

I've been waiting for this moment and finally I got it! :)

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