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I sat in class all alone. Yoongi didn't show up. It teared me apart that he wasn't here...

It was like my life was black and white again...

No colors.

I continued to do the work but I wanted Yoongi to be here. I missed him and I hope he's okay.

Soon enough lunch came and it was depressing and quiet... I sat at the hall Yoongi and I usually hang at... I ate my lunch quietly and put my ear buds in. I read a book quietly. It was boring...

My book was then snatched feom hands. I looked up and saw Jungkook in his regular black leather jacket and white tee with black ripped jeans and black timberlands. His wavy black hair that he curled some days. I took out my ear buds and he smiled at me.

"Reading is for nerds." He rudely said.

"What's that suppose to mean?" I asked bitterly.

"It means you're a nerd for reading such things! Don't you like have anything better to do than just sit here alone?" He asked.

I never knew Jungkook was rude like this.

"Obviously Yoongi isn't here. So no. I don't have nothing to do." I stated.

Jungkook sighed. He slammed himself against the lockers and skidding down and sat down next to me. Where Yoongi would usually sit.

"Don't you know how to flirt? Or atleast tease a person?" Jungkook asked.

"Huh? I don't flirt... and what do you mean by teasing?" I asked.

"Like... let me see your hand."

I put my hand out and he grabbed it.

"You see your hand. Teasing is like this. You tease someone like this."

He put my hand on his chest and came closer to my ears and whispered.

You're pretty hot babe. I like what you have...

I felt my cheeks turn red. He backed away from my ear and smiled at me. I clutched my ear and looked away from him.

"That's teasing pretty boy." Jungkook said.

Pretty boy? What is he doing? He knows I'm dating Yoongi so why is he acting like this!

"I um... I um..." of course I can't say anything!

"What? Did you like it?" He seductively said.

"W-What?!" I yelped.

He grabbed my hands and gripped them tightly.

"Then let's go and do some of these things alone!"

"No! St-"

Jungkook dragged me forcefully to a place I didn't know where he was going to. I told him to stop but it didn't work. I said I had homework to do bit that still didn't work.

He took me up a flight of stairs, I've never seen this part of the school. He opened a thick door and I soon saw that we were on the roof of the school.

I feel the sudden urge to run away.

"You like it? I come up on the roof every morning." He led me to the ledge and I saw some kids in groups of friends eating lunch together outside. Some taking pictures and some laughing.

"Do you see them?" He asked.

"Those people down there?" I asked.

"Yes." He answered.

"What about them?" I asked.

"I use to have that before you changed  everything..."

My eyes widened. Jungkook looked down at the people with envious eyes. Those envious eyes soon were staring at me. I can feel how much hate and jealously he had. It felt like he could cut me with his look.

What does he mean I changed everything?

What did I even do to him?

I never even talked to him this entire time until now.

"But its okay. Just as long as you and Yoongi's lips are together you're happy. Which reminds me."

Jungkook took a few steps closer to me, I took some steps back. This situation was making me feel beyond uncomfortable. He darted his eyes and look down on me with unnatural look. I couldn't tell if he was mad, sad, envious, or even calm now.

"How many guys have you kissed behind Suga hyung's back? Huh?"

What the hell is he talking about? Me cheating on Suga? As if! Why would he think I cheated on him?! Is he talking about RM?! Or maybe that kiss with Hoseok? But I didn't see any of them in a romantic way, they were the ones who kissed me.

"None?! I never kissed someone behind Yoongi's back!" I spat.

"Then explain the situation with RM." Oh geez, he's bringing up him. With his puny face and lying persona.

"RM kissed me and I tried to pull away but he just forcefully kissed me. I never liked him like that. Besides, Jimin set that plan up so Yoongi can drop me." I sternly said.

Jungkook tilted his head to the side.

"Well, I'm sure you'll just won't kiss a guy this time. I'm sure of it that you will fall for someone." He said.

"I fell for Yoongi already." I said.

"Not Yoongi stupid. I'm talking about me."

What? What the hell is going on? One second he's nice, next second he's accusing me of cheating on Yoongi accusing if he cared so much for him?! Then he wants to have a chance with me while I'm with Yoongi?! This dude, he's all over the place!

"Aren't you going to talk. The silence is enough to kill me right now." Jungkook said.

"Look, I gotta go... sorry but like I need to finish my lunch downstairs..." the best excuse ever Jin, wow.

I sped walked quickly to the door, before I opened it I heard Jungkook say something.

"You know. You're not going to be so happy when you see Yoongi." He shouted. I froze and slowly turned my head.

"Seems like you're the who's unhappy." I said.

.......

Where is he?! His food is still a bit Uneaten and his backpack is here but where did he go? Did he go to the restroom? Maybe he's coming back after going to a class room to get work?! No... what if he's with Hoseok! But I'm sure J hope would've let him take his stuff!

I walked back in forth in circles talking to myself and thinking to myself a whole lot. It's been almost 15 minutes and he's still not back!

"It's okay Yoongi, we got this, I'm sure Jin just got some work out of a class room. He's not the social type to be honest. But wow how much I screwed up last night... what if he's doing this to me for a reason? And my head still hurts a bit but still!"

I sighed out roughly.

"No Jin isn't the type to get revenge! Fuck! If only I could remember what the hell happened last night! Why the hell did I message Jin to go out with me?! Why did I mention that?! Why did I fucking drink like a moron!"

I slammed my fist against the locker and breathed in harshly.

"Yoongi?"

His voice...

I quickly turned my direction to him. He stood there perfectly... his hair glistened to the sunlight, his skin looked warm and his casual dull blue sweater paired with black dress pants was an endless addiction.

I felt my headache suddenly disappear... I was too focus on Jin.

I ran up to him and hugged him tightly in my arms. I took in his scent dearly and felt like I was going to shed a tear. Why?

I knew he could smell the alcohol. I knew he could. I would've took a shower but then what's the use, I always put Jin first. I felt like crying but I lost the thought when I heard someone crying first.

"Y-You got drunk last night, didn't you?!"

I lifted my face from the hug to see Jin's face. I nodded with regretful eyes. His eyes streamed down with tears.

"Then you left me in the rain at 9pm." He sternly said.

"Jin, I didn't mean to."

"Then why did you text me to go on a date with you, Yoongi?!" He choked on his words.

"I... I don't remember..." I said.

Jin was about to open his mouth but I interrupted.

"Look, I must've been really fucked up and I might've meant for you to come pick me up at the bar! I'm sorry for leaving you in the cold rain! You know I wouldn't do that!"

"Then why did you? Why did you drink?" He asked.

"Because..." I didn't remember much. I remember I was with someone but I don't remember their face.... all that I remember is... Jimin... just hearing that name.

Did I go to the bar with Jimin? Is that why J hope said its up to me to explain myself.... fuck, what did I do last night?!

"It was because I was... remembering my past with my mother...." I said.

Jin's face calmed down. He breathed in deeply.

"Oh... Yoongi, it's okay, you have me." Jin clutched my face.

Why do I feel this sense of guilt...

Why do I feel like I did something bad.

"Come on, let's escape school so you clean yourself up!" He giggled through the tears.

I nodded.

.......

Jin came into my house. I of course locked the door and he set his stuff down. The walk to my house wasn't long. Without Jin looking, I gripped his waist from behind and pressed myself against him. I too k in his smell deeply.

"Yoongi, go take a shower first." He timidly whined.

"Come with me." I said.

"W-What?"

"Jin, we took showers together like 20 times already." I kissed his neck softly.

"I-I know, but Y-Yoongi you know that I-"

I suddenly heard footsteps upstairs. No. He can't be home...

I let go of Jin quickly and stopped kissing him. Jin looked at me confused.

"Yoongi, what's wrong?" Jin asked.

"Why are you home so early?"

I turned around to look up at the stair railing where he stood there, he must've not seen me kissing Jin. Good.

"Early dismissals for Seniors." I said.

My Father looked at Jin who stood there quietly and timidly.

"He looks like a freshmen." He pointed at Jin.

"He moved up 2 years to Senior year because he's that smart." I sternly said, hoping it will signal him to back off of Jin.

"Hm, just like your mother, huh?" He said.

Jin looked at me with big eyes. He kept quiet and so did I.

"What is he here for?" My Father asked.

"Tutoring." I said. Jin looked down and I could tell he knew what was going on.

"Tutoring? Why do you need tutoring? You're smart, you're just lazy." He said.

I wanted to pick a fight so badly, but I knew it was no use because I knew he would be gone by tomorrow.

I grabbed Jin's bag and his hand. I walked upstairs to my room without making a glance to my Father. I dragged Jin and myself into my room. I shut the door loudly making Jin flinch and locked my door.

I turned around to Jin who was concern and curious.

"Your father... does he know that-" 

"Im bi? No."

Jin looked at me with puppy eyes. I sighed briefly and ran my fingers through my white greasy hair.

"I see." Jin said.

"It doesn't matter if he knows. Besides, he only comes here for one day every 3 or 5 months. Nothing to worry about." I said.

I walked into my bathroom and tried to just step away from Jin but Jin followed me. He hugged me from behind. We both looked at the reflection in the mirror.

"I understand, my Dad doesn't come around, my mother said it's because he ran off with another women. But I wish I could believe it was the real reason." Jin said.

I turned to face Jin. I looked him deeply into his eyes. I felt myself get lost.

"Who cares about family who was never there. Let's make our own family Jin."

Jin's face turned red as his lips, he looked away from my eyes and shook his head.

"What are you saying?" He giggled.

"I'm saying I want to marry you soon when we get older." I said.

Jin looked up at me with his chocolate eyes. He pouted his lips.

"We're not even ready to have a family or get married." Jin said.

"I'm ready." I said.

"Oh yeah, really?" He sarcastically asked.

"Yeah, I'm just waiting on you." I said.

"You know they dont allow gay marriages in Korea." Jin said.

"Then we'll move to America." I said.

"You can barely speak english!" He giggled.

"We'll find out some how." I said.

I leaned in and kissed his plump soft lips passionately. I gripped his hips and went under his sweater, feeling his warm back as I massage it smoothly.

I picked him up by his legs and he wrapped his arms around my neck ad I kissed his neck on his favorite spot, causing him to moan out softly. He's so sensitive and I love it!

I put him back on his feet and unbuckled his belt while I kissed his neck. He gripped my shoulders as he whimpered to every kiss and bite I did.

I slid his pants down and rubbed the skin of hid thigh. His smooth shaved legs were as soft as feather. I took off his boxers but stopped when he grabbed my hand.

"W-Wait, Y-Yoongichi." He breathlessly said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"What if your father hears us?" He said.

"He won't."

I tried to kiss his lips but he turned away. I lifted my head and he looked me into my eyes... why, why do I keep feeling guilt... what did I do last night?

"Let's not do this... I don't want you to get in trouble." He softly said. I blinked my eyes and sighed. I backed away from him and and tried to wipe the guilty look on my face.

Jin clutched his hands together nervously, he looked down and kept his glance down. I grabbed his wrist and got closer to him. He looked me into my eyes as I laid a kiss on his knuckles.

I put his knuckles down and headed into the shower alone. I shut the door behind me and sighed.

.....

I pulled my pants up and buckled it back up. I sighed, if only his Father wasn't here we could've done those kinds of things. But what's the use when i can't even take it. I'm too sensitive for that stuff.

I laid on Yoongi's bed that smelt like men's cologne. I got into the covers and closed my eyes as I waited for Yoongi to come out of the bathroom. I soon felt my eyes getting heavy from the long wait and everything went black. Well until I heard the bathroom door open.

I stayed in that position. I couldn't see Yoongi at all because my back was facing the bathroom and Yoongi's closet and drawers. So I just laid there silently with my eyes close.

I soon felt him sit on the bed right beside me.

"Jin." He called out.

I continued to act like I was sleeping.

"Jin." He rubbed my shoulder but I laid there asleep.

He sighed. A few seconds past and I can feel him just stay still... I was curious as to what he was thinking and doing.

I soon felt him lay on the bed. He hugged me from behind and gripped my waist... I can feel his hard clothed member rub against my bottom. I felt my cheeks turn red and I bit my bottom lip, trying to not let out a noise or not trying to move.

He purposely started rubbing himself against me. I felt my toes begin to bend and my hands became a fist. I let out a soft moan and I noticed it. I shut my eyes tightly, trying to resist the temptations. He stopped and looked over at me when he heard me.

He gripped my waist tightly and he actually began to rub and thrust against me roughly, causing me to actually grabbed his wrist and turn my head with wide eyes and a harsh breathing.

"Y-Yoongi!" I shouted.

"What?" He whispered.

"I thought I told you to stop!" I sternly said.

"Babe, how can I, you're Kim Seokjin." He said.

"What's that suppose to mean?" I asked.

"It means you're a special person." He said.

I sighed and turned back to my side. Yoongi hugged me from behind and I can still feel his hard member. He didn't rub against me at all this time.

I decided to turn and face him. I shut my eyes, trying to avoid contact with him.

"Jin, I love you. You know." He said.

"Mhm." I said.

"Do you love me back?" He asked.

I opened my eyes and looked up at him.

"Of course I love you." I said.

"Prove it." He said.

What is he planning? What is he trying to do?

I sighed. I kissed his lips and smirked.

"There."

"Not enough." He said.

"What's not enough?" I asked.

"You need to kiss me somewhere else." He said. He looked down, gesturing what he meant.

I looked down and I knew what he meant. I sighed.

"Why can't you jack off yourself?" I asked.

"Ya know Jin, it's not like I have wet fantasies of you almost every night or like I have a thing for you because you're my boyfriend." He sarcastically said.

I looked away and blushed. I sighed. And looked him back into his eyes.

"Get on your back." I said.

"Oooh, now you're being dominant. Okay babe." Yoongi smirked.

I stood up and unbuckled my pants causing Yoongi to look at me confusingly. I went to take off Yoongi's boxers revealing his hard big member. I took off my whole pants and boxers with it.

I got on top of Yoongi and tried to place his member inside of me but he suddenly grabbed my arm, causing me to actually yell out and fall all the way down on his member.

"Oh fuck! Jin! Are you okay!" He asked.

I whimpered out and felt tears staring to form in my eyes I breathed in harald from the throbbing pain.

"Fuck! I didn't know you were going to do that! We needed lube! I just want you to suck me off!" He whispered but it was more like shouting.

I tried to move up but it burned so much it caused me to cry out.

I suddenly heard a knock on Yoongi's door.

"Is everything alright in there Yoongi?" It was his father! Was I that loud!

"Y-Yeah! Jin just stubbed his toe! T-Thats all!" He lied.

"Okay, I ordered some dinner for us so come down here in like 30 minutes. It'll be prepared."

The footsteps got farther away. I tilted my head down and felt sweat drip down on my face  hitting Yoongi's shirt. I felt like screaming.

"Get up Jin, we need lube." He said.

"I-I C-Cant... I-It hurts..."I cried. Yoongi's eyes widened.

"You need to adjust yourself then." He said.

"W-What?"

"Just wait a few minutes, you'll become more loose."

About almost 5 minutes past and I still was in pain... Yoongi was needy, I can tell how impatient he was becoming.

"I'm going to start, okay?" He said.

He grabbed my hips and began to thrust into me. I began to moan out in pain.

"Y-Yoongi! S-Slowly!" I whined.

Yoongi sighed. He became slower in his pace. He made me bounce on him, as I moan and whimpered, I covered my mouth so his Father wouldn't hear me. Tears fell down as he trusted into me.

"Fuck Jin, you're so tight."

I soon began to feel pleasure from him doing this. I soon started to bounce on my own. He smirked at me and began to quicken his pace, making me moan more.

He soon wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his chest. I laid my head on his shoulder. He started to thrust harder and faster into me causing me to wrecklessly moan out like crazy. I moaned into his shoulder, trying to muffle my loudness but it felt too good.

I can feel him getting deeper into me.

I soon moaned loudly when he trusted into this one spot. It was the prostate... he stopped thrusting into me and breathed in harshly, I was panting too and drooling all over myself.

"Are you ready for this?" He asked.

"Just fuck me Yoongi." I said without thinking.

He abused my prostate and trusted into me several times, 10xs faster and harder. I cried out into his shoulder, I felt my legs shaking and also my body and hands as well. Yoongi lifted my head up and pulled me into a deep kiss. Hiding my moans and making me moan into his mouth.

Yoongi pulled out before he came. He sat me up and I opened my mouth as the warm liquid hit my mouth. I stuck out my tongue and let the semen sit in my mouth.  I soon swallowed it and panted from how hard and rough Yoongi did me.

Yoongi pulled me into and long kiss. Oh how much I wish this moment could last. How good it felt to have him inside of me. I could never fall for another human.

Never.