s e v e n

Anakin's point of view

I closed the door to Verena's apartment behind me and sighed, defeated.

I can't believe I actually kissed her so suddenly and thought she would be alright with it.

She's right; I'm a Jedi, she's a Senator. We can't be involved in relationships like these, it's too risky.

But what's some risk if the reward is worth it in the end?

No, I can't afford to think like that. I just became a Jedi master, I'm not going to throw that away for some girl I have a crush on.

I'll just get over her. Somehow.

I didn't even realize my feet had taken me to the landing docks while I had a mental battle with myself.

"Mr. Skywalker!" A voice called to me.

I turned my head, surveying the dock in an attempt to pinpoint where the voice was coming from.

My eyes finally landed on Arroe, the dock manager. I smiled at him and made my way to his location.

He was standing next to the ship Verena and I were taking, beaming at its excellence.

"It's a beauty? No?" He asked me, his voice thick with an accent originating from the outer rim.

"It's magnificent." I agreed.

Arroe just smiled and called to the men fueling the ship in a foreign language.

The men quickly finished their tasks and scampered off to another ship that was docking.

"Thank you so much Arroe, it means a lot." I extended my hand to show my gratitude.

He shook his head, still smiling and pulled me in for a hug.

"Anything for a Jedi master." He replied while releasing me from his hold.

His embrace was warm, but not nearly as comfortable as Verena's

No, I mustn't think like this.

I won't be able to just get over her, I'll just have to suppress my emotions for the duration of this trip.

Seems easy enough.

Just as I reminded myself of that fact, I saw her walking towards the ship, C8 dragging her bags behind her.

Of course she looked beautiful and of course she was scowling at me.

I turned my back to her and made my way into the interior of the ship, attempting to avoid awkward confrontation.

C8 was the first on the ship between them. She dumped Verena's bags and made her way over to me.

"I saw your little moment Skywalker, you better not break her heart or I'll break you." She threatened in as close to a whisper as a droid could get.

"Have a nice trip!" She quickly changed her tone of voice when she noticed Verena boarding the ship.

She made the motion that she was watching me when Verena wasn't looking and then wished her safe travels and left the ship.

I had taken the main pilots seat, seeing as I was the only one between us with flying experience and the ability to control such a ship.

Verena surprisingly took the seat to the right of mine, the co-pilots.

"You know how to fly this thing right?" She asked, a skeptical undertone lacing her question.

"Of course I do, I can fly anything." I replied, proud of my capabilities.

"And you're humble too." She muttered to herself.

"I wasn't trying to brag, sorry." My cheeks turned pink and I pretended to to fiddle with the controls to keep my red face away from her view.

"It's alright, I shouldn't have said anything." She apologized.

It's so awkward between us now. Why did I have to kiss her? Dammit.

"So we know nothing of this mysterious planet we're traveling to? Not even its name?" She asked, trying to break the awkward silence.

"Nothing, only that its existence was completely erased from the archives in the Jedi temple for an unknown reason."

"Why would someone do that though? It doesn't make any sense." She shook her head at her statement.

"Well Master Yoda believes that someone is trying to hide it's existence from the Jedi order, we just don't know why."

"That's why we're going there?" She asked.

"Exactly." I replied solemnly.

What if the planet was erased from the archives for good reason? What if there is something dangerous lurking there that needs to be concealed for everyone's safety?

It was too late to think of that now, the ship was already out of Courasants atmosphere.

As I was rigging the shuttle to prepare for hyperspeed Verena turned to face me.

Noticing her movement out of the corner of my eye, I turned in my chair to face her.

She looked at me for a moment and then spoke, "Why did you kiss me?"

I turned my head back to face the front of the ship, unable to look at her.

"I think it's pretty obvious why."

"Well I know why you did it, what I was asking was why did you shove all intuition and fear aside and take the risk just to kiss me?"

I thought for a moment, trying desperately to piece together my exact thoughts into as little words as possible.

"Because you're worth the risk."

I knew as soon as I said those words I was going down a path I couldn't come back from.

I promised myself I would suppress my feelings for Verena for as long as we were together.

But it's easier said than done to pretend I wouldn't do anything just to make her smile, even if we had known each other for such a short while.

"Anakin" she attempted to get my attention away from the screens I was pretending to use to avoid eye contact.

I didn't turn my head and continued with my mindless fiddling. She sighed aloud when she realized I wasn't going to look at her.

She began talking anyway.

"Anakin, we can't do this, we could never happen. Regardless of the mutual feelings we have for each other."

I quickly looked at her, my sudden movement startling her slightly.

"You have feelings for me?"

"It doesn't matter if I do Anakin, they could never blossom into something and thinking they could is just dangerous and irresponsible." Her voice became clipped at the end of her statement, sounding like she was chastising a child.

She looked to be on the verge of tears, but she kept her head held high.

She stood up from her chair and looked at me with sadness in her chocolate brown eyes.

"I need to rest, just wake me when we get there." Was all she said as she walked out of the cockpit and down the hall to her sleeping quarters.

Hearing her footsteps become more distant I put my head in my hands and rubbed my eyes.

She has feelings for me.

I smiled.

But she's right, like she always is.

The smile gradually left my face.

This could never work, we could never work.

But this conversation is in the past.

And it's best not to dwell on the past.

I brought my head up slowly to look out the front window into the vastness of space.

I glanced down at the controls in front of me and realized we never made the jump to hyperspeed.

I pushed the necessary buttons, pulled the lever, and watched the millions of stars whiz past in a blur of white lines.

Everything is so much simpler in space.

No responsibilities.

No worries.

No fear of falling for someone you can't have.

Hey y'all! Sorry for the late update, I'll try to be more frequent in the future, but I hope you enjoy! Please vote or comment so I know you're liking the story! I'm thinking of starting a new book, I don't know what it'll be called but I do have the plot figured out, so keep an eye out. As always love y'all(: