The suicide

Chuuyas POV:

The last day off school till Christmas break, everyone was excited. But not me. I desided to skip going back home for Christmas I desided to skip it and work on next terms exams. Ever since that night with dazai we became even more close. He's not my boyfriend or anything. Fuck buddy's? I don't know anymore.

My mind was feeling heavy maybe it's the cold weather. After all I don't deal with it very well. As I was fineshing up some paperwork I heard a knock on my door.

"Ohhh Chibi~" That annoying voice sing song.

"What now?" I said.

"Well since Christmas is in 3 days I thought it be a good idea to go out tomorrow to see the lights" He said.

"Eh? Why?" I asked.

"For fun. Come on we both have nothing planned for this Christmas so we might as well spend it together" He said.

"So you aren't going to your family?" I asked.

"I don't have one" He said.

"I mean Oda and Ango?" I said looking at him confused.

"Oh right- well I mean they offered to have me over for Christmas but Ango is not always free so I thought id give them some alone time" He said with a smile.

"I'm guessing you don't have any other family members" I said.

"Nope, all died" He said.

"Oh, that makes sense why you were adopted" I said.

"Yep. Weren't you aslo adopted?" He asked.

"Oh yeah, I jumped from home to home when I was younger then at 15 my mother adopted me" I said.

"Must have been tough around that time" He said.

"Yeah well I don't like to keep holding on to the past, id rather move on ans live my future" I said and i started sorting my things.

"That's the difference between us. I'm hoping suicide will let me escape this prison" He said while he stretched out his arms.

Suicide huh?

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Oda's POV:

Id arrive home and I see dazai in my living room reading a book, he turned to look at me.

"Odasaku, your finally home" He said.

"Dazai, what are doing here now" I said shutting the door and taking my shoes off.

"I'm just here to ask something, let the members know I won't be coming in. I'll be preparing my plan. The countdown will start soon" He said placing his book on the coffee table.

That's right his plan. He's great mastery off a plan. To be brutally honest I have no idea what he is planning. All I know he's been stalking Chuuya and working his way up to something. Yet I can't help to feel maybe dazais has changed.

"Listen about your plan. Why don't you drop it" I said.

He went silent, he didn't say a word. I walked over to the arm chair that waa across from him and I sat down and continued talking.

"Dazai. You know I'm starting to think you've changed ever since you met chuuya. He's brought out a different side off you. And I like this side. You haven't committed suicide alot and I think its-"

"Do you know my plan?" He said interrupting me.

"Well. No"

"Then you have no idea what I am planning and why I spent years and years making it come true" He said.

"I know that. But since I don't know your plan-"

"All you have to know is that it will be the fire. The play off the world" He said again cutting me off my sentence.

He stood up and grabbed his coat and opened the door.

"As your boss I order you to follow my demands. Is that clear Odasaku" He said.

"Yes." I responded.

He did say anything else but just left. I let out a sigh and I started to wonder. What is he planning?

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Christmas was just tomorrow and everyone was going nuts, I spent the entire day just inside and reading with a coffee. It was quite relaxing. I didn't bother going outside knowing every where will be busy like crazy. As I was relaxing on the couch with Saki I heard someone knock on the door. I got up and went to go answer it and it was Dazai.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Get dressed were going out" He said.

I looked at him confused then I remembered what he said yesterday. I sighed and let him in my apartment.

"Wait here I'll be right back" I said.

I headed over to my bedroom and I put on some warm clothes for outside. It was dark and cold so I better put some warm clothes on so I don't catch a cold. After that I went back out and I saw the brunette with Saki on the couch. He was reading the book I was reading and Saki was all snuggled up with him. He didn't notice me so I took my phone and took a picture off them, it was so cute.

"I ready" I said.

"Took you long enough, your so slow no wonder your a slug" He said.

"You know I can just kick you out and not go with you" I said narrowing my eyes at him.

"Ok chibi" He said with a giggle.

He picked up saki and placed her back on the couch. We left the apartment and headed off to see the lights.

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We arrived in center off the city and it was beautiful, the snow with the sparklie lights it was all so beautiful. We walked for a while side by side admiring the beauty around us.

"CHUUYA LOOK" Dazais yelled out.

He grabbed ny hand and we both started running off somewhere.

"GEEZ SLOW DOWN" I said.

We stopped running and we were Infront off a massive tree covert in decorations. It was very pretty I had to admit. Dazai then started dragging me to everything that seemed pretty. He was like a kid in Christmas he had such a bright smile. I couldn't help but find it adorable.

As we walked for a while our hands connected together, we both saw a mini Kafe and desided to get out off the cold for a while. We went in and ordered some coffee's and cakes and we talked, bickered, laughed. It was so fun.

"Oh by the way chibi. Mrs Tobashi will be at my apartment for Christmas dinner. If you want you can join us?" He said.

"Seriously? But why?" I asked.

"Well I mean Tobashi likes to host a dinner because she likes cooking so I mean why not" He said.

"Mhm alright I'll come over tomorrow" I said

He smiled at me and we both went back to enjoying our cakes.

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Christmas day and I was at Dazais apartment with Tobashi. We talked. Ate dinner and a surprised came around when Tobashi gave me and dazai a present.

"I know it's not much lads but I hope you enjoy them" She said with a smile.

We both unwrapped our gifts and I got a box off wine collectives and dazai got a crab plushie.

"A crab plushie? Seriously?" He said with a frown.

"Well since you act like a child I thought this will suit you perfectly" Tobashi said with a giggle.

I laughed at Dazais expression on his face and he soon laughed as well. We both gave Tobashi a gift and she loved it. Dazais the slid me a gift as well and I did to. I gave him a sketch book since I knew he needed a new one. But what he gave me was odd. It was a small box. I unwrapped it and I opened the small box and it was a black ring.

"Dazai? What is this?" I asked.

"A ring dummy" He said.

"YOU THINK I CANT SEE THAT JACKASS" I yelled.

"Its a ring for you, it's a ring off power and I thought you should have it" He said with a smile.

"I- I don't know what to say" I said with a stutter.

"Then don't and just appropriate it" He said with a chuckle.

After that we all talked ans had some fun till it was time to go home and rest. Tobashi left first and then I did. Dazai walked with me to my apartment.

"Its across the hall dumbass I don't need you assisting me home" I said as I opened my door.

"Yeah well I did anyways" He said.

"Thanks for tonight it was fun" I said.

"Yeah it was"

Before anything I felt a pear off slips touch mine. He kissed me for just a second and then looked at me and smiled.

"I love how your face gets all red." He said with a giggle.

"I swear to fuck-" I said clenching my writs together.

He giggled at my reaction "Well goodnight Chuuya" He said.

"Yeah goodnight" I said.

I was now in my apartment and in my bed looking at the ring on my finger. Maybe me and dazai can be more then just friends. Yet it's complicated because we work together. But yet why do I feel like I'm actually falling for this guy. He's a complete idiot and lazy and just so perfect. If I could I would take my chance to be with him. But who knows. I started to feel my eyes get heavy and before I knew it i was asleep.

The next day i woke up like I had a hangover. Witch was odd I didn't drink much yesterday. I got up from my bed and checked the time on my phone till I saw something odd.

"huh? HOW IS IT DECEMBER 31TH?" I yelled.

Did I seriously slept for a whole week? How is that possible? I got up from my bed and ran straight to dazais apartment. I knocked on his apartment and there was no answer. I went back in my apartment and started calling him but again. No answer. I then turned on my tv to see if it was true and my phone was just broken. As I turned on the TV the news was on.

"We received news about the port mafia boss. On December 26th the port mafia boss announced a threat to the society off Yokohama and even the world"

Huh? What?

"Even after the threat nothing happened till 7 days later we got a emergency nuclear bomb alert this morning. To everyone please stay calm as it probably was a false alarm"

Nuclear bomb alert? I checked my phone and saw I had missed the alert because I was asleep. Was I that deep asleep? I started to call dazai again and nothing till I got a message from a random number. When I opened it and loud explosion happened. I looked outside my window and saw fire. Then I read the text.

unknown: Nakahara Chuuya. Come to the port mafia building right now. Be careful it can get a little bombmy

I was so confused till another bomb exploded. I got dressed and desided to go there. If Shuji wants to see me then fine. As I got dressed I opened the door and saw Akutagawa and a white haired boy.

"Akutagawa?" I said.

"Come with us. We've been ask to escort you to the mafia building for safety reasons" The white haired boy said.

I nodded and I followed them till we reached a car. I got in and the driver started to drive off. As we were driving I heard more bombs go off and the ground started to shake. I started to get worried for my mother, Tobashi, my cat, Dazai! What is going on.

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We finally arrived at the port mafia building and I headed in. The white haired boy told me to go up the elevator till I reached the roof. I nodded and headed off. If I do anything thats against orders they could kill me and I don't want that. As I headed up to the roof off the building i started getting a funny feeling and I felt afraid? What did the mafia boss want with me. During this time?Before I could think any further the elevator stooped. And as the doors opened i walked out, climbed some stairs and reached the door. I opened it and there was rain poring down. I walked out and I was now outside in the rain and I saw someone standing in the middle. He was wearing a long coat and it was blowing in the wind.

"So now you want show your self to me? When your blowing up Yokohama" I said when I started walking closer.

It windy and rainy so I couldn't quite see the figure in front off me till he spoke.

"Apologizes I always have to make a dramatic show" He said as he started to turn around to face me "Right, Chuuya?"

At that moment. Everything stopped like time it self stopped. I was standing in the rain looking at the port mafia boss. The actual Port mafia boss. Osamu Dazai.

"No- NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE" I yelled out.

"Enjoying my show. This is everything I worked for, for the past 10 years." He said looking at me with a grin.

"Bombing Yokohama? YOU SPENT 10 YEARS PLANING THAT? FUCKING HELL YOUR PATHETIC" I yelled out.

"No Chuuya" He said.

"Don't fucking 'no' me asshole. Explain your self?" I said anger already taken over my body.

"I mean you. This moment. This chapter off our lives. I have been working for — for 10 years" He said.

I stood there shocked. Nothing he was saying made sense.

"Cut the fucking mind trickery." I said walking closer to him.

"When I met Shirase. And when he told me about you. I did research on you chuuya. And you amazed me. And ever since then I came up with a plan. A plan that will make me finally leave this world off misery and pain" Dazai said with a grin on his face, he sounded happy.

"What the hell are you talking about? Shirase? 10 years ago? Research. Your not seriously saying you've been stalking me for 10 years?" I said.

"No." He replied.

"Then what was this all for? Why? Why and How. What?" I couldn't speak properly everything felt so confusing.

"For you to save everything" He said.

"WHAT?" I yelled.

"You can stop this Chuuya. You can finally end the port mafia and let me be free from this cruel world" He said.

"OH YEAH? DO I LOOK LIKE BATMAN TOO YOU?" I yelled out.

He then lifted up his arm and started to point to something. I looked over and there was Oda standing there holding a remote. I walked over to him and took it.

"Alright bastard. What the hell am I supposed to do with this?" I asked.

"If you press that button, that will alert the military and they will stop the attacks." He said.

"And why are you handing this to me?" I asked.

"Because, it has to be you that saves this." he said and he started to walk.

I started to follow him "Your not making any sense you fucking manic!?"

"In time you will understand" He said as he stopped walking.

He then turned back around to face me and he smiled.

"I had to say chuuya. You life made interesting for me. Everyday we spent together it felt like a world off happiness that I have never felt in my life" He said.

"Yeah well-"

"And I thank you chuuya" He said cutting me off my sentence.

I walked up to him closer and I saw him more clearly now. He has a bandage over his eye, he was dressed in a block suite with a long coat. And thoses eyes were showing true emotions. I pressed the button on the remote and the were sirens now. Dazais smiled and then started to laugh. I was about to say something when he pulled me in for a hug. I was shocked that I dropped then remote and hugged him back. He then moved to connect our lips together in a sweet but slightly rough kiss. He kissed me like there was no one around us. He disconnected the kiss and whispered in my ear.

"I love you Chuuya Nakahara"

Before i could respond he pushed me away and that's when I saw he jumped. Dazai fell backwards off the building. Everything went quite. I ran to the edge off the building and I was pulled back by Oda and the other two Akutagawa and that white haired boy.

It had been a month and the news about Dazai Osamus death went viral. The famous port mafia boss, died from suicide. The military stopped the nuclear bomb and Yokohama was slowly repairing. Turns out Oda and Ango are in the mafia and so Ango made sure my family and my cat were safe. I gotten a new apartment since my old one got destroyed. I locked my self up for a month trying to figure out what the fuck happened till one day.

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I was in my apartment doing research till I heard a door knock. I got up and when I answered it. It was Oda.

"Hey mind if I come in" He asked.

i nodded and allowed him in my apartment.

"How are you feeling?" He asked.

"Fine. You?" I said.

"Could be better. I won't stay long I just came here to give you this" He said and handed me a letter.

"What's this?" I asked.

"We found it in your apartment and then we realized it was from-"

Before he could finesh his sentence I threw the letter in the table.

"I don't care what that bastard has to say. He's dead and it won't even matter" I said.

Oda sighed and he turned around to leave till he stopped.

"You don't have ro read it. But I can tell you this that whatever you felt towards dazai. He also felt the same for you" Oda said and he left without saying another word.

I went to sit on the couch and I thought about what oda said, so I got up grabbed the stupid letter sat down on the chair at the table and opened it and started to read.

Dear Chuuya

              If you are reading this, then I'm dead. And you must have a ton off questions to ones I can't answer for you because I am dead. But I will try to answer some questions. I've wanted a way out off the mafia for years, but never could. Ogai Mori was the one to bring me in after my whole family had died when I was 14 and when I saw you and saw the skills you had I knew I had a chance. I killed Mori when I was 19 and became the port mafia boss. When I met Shirase and saw the stuff he did I knew you shouldn't be dragged into it because you had a future. I was the one to leak the dark sheeps bad doings, and I was the one to clear your crimes. All the crimes you've committed have been cleared and everything you did with Tachihara. But also this could also be your chance. I wanted you take over as boss off the port mafia but I realized no one should. I knew if I stopped the chaos that I caused I would have been seen as a enemy to countless off other organisations and I couldn't risk it. So you saving the city did alot for me. Now all the orgazations will only think I committed suicide out off lost with you. I had fun for 10 years you gave me a reason to keep living this life. Dont think I didn't feel something for you because I did, everything we shared with each other will be something I'll cherish for. And another thing. Carlos is dead so he won't bother you that was a little side mission I had oops. That ring that I gave you belongs to the port mafia so in a way you have some control over it. Show that ring anywhere and people will do anything for you. Only the executives. I know you will never forgive me but I hope you will someday.

I love you  from Osamu Dazai.

After reading the letter I broke down with tears.

"Damnit Osamu, I love you too"