Chapter 34

Diamond POV

The following morning

I lay in bed just thinking, Why Diamond? Why can't you just see that everyone's not like him. Everyone wont hurt you, everyone wont break your heart. I hated when I got myself worked up about this subject, because then my mind would drift off back to him.

*Flashback*

October '09

"What you mean you're leaving!?" I screamed at him as my vision blurred with the tears that were stinging my eyes.

I watched him as he continued to throw his clothing into one of the two suitcases that were on the bed. He ignored me and went into the closet pulling out some jeans.

"Stop ignoring me!" I yelled getting in his face and grabbing the pair of jeans out his hand that he was folding. He sighed loudly and took my hands pulling me into his lap.

"Listen... Diamond you know I love you right?" I nodded because he's told me so many times that it was practically programmed into my brain.

"Well do you love me?" he asked looking into my eyes

"You know I do, why would you ask that?"

"Okay since you love me then you will let me follow my dreams and not hold me back"

I quickly got off his lap and went to the corner of the bedroom, I cant believe he just said that to me.If anything, I was the one who helped him fulfill his dreams. I was the one who made him those beats for his mixtapes, I was the one who drove him to all those little performances he had,I was the one who stayed up all night crying with him when he didnt get a call back for a show, I was the fucking one who funded him studio time down here in Toronto. Right now the tears were running down insanely.

"Baby.. please stop crying" he said his voice cracking on the last word. His eyes glistened and I could tell he was on the verge of cyring too.

"I just have to go out to L.A for a few months and do this rapping shit and I swear I'll send for you"

I looked at him like he was dumb "Send for me? I can pay for my own flight to LA. Why cant you take me with you?" I asked wiping my tears.

I knew I sounded desperate as fuck right now but I didnt care, I've been with this man for three years and I'd be damned if I let him try to play me.

"I cant! aight? I'm trying to make it big, fuck I look like coming into the game with a girlfriend? I need to make it big first then I can bring you in, but until then.... we cant be together" he said the last part looking away from me.

I dont know what came over me but I started throwing everything. Everything that was in grabbing distance of me, I picked it up and threw it at him. I got him a few times and right when I was about to pick up the glass frame he ran over to me and pushed me into the wall.

He slickly took the the frame out of my hand and put it down

"Get away from me!! I fucking hate out!" I spat out coldy. I knew I didnt mean it, but I wanted him to hurt, feel the pain in his heart that I was feeling right now.

He planted a hard kiss on my lips before pulling away and going to get his suitcases. I watched as he walked to the door, he turned around "I will always have love for you Diamond... I just can't do this" he said and walked out the room.

I was contemplating on whether or not I should chase after him, but that would be no use. He already made up his mind and now I was a fragment of his past. That was the last time I spoke to Aubrey Drake Graham, he'll send for me right? I waited for him for so long, then one day while I was watching him on TV it hit me, he doesnt care about you.... he doesnt love you. So I packed up all my shit and moved out to L.A. not to be close to him, but to focus on me becoming a producer. But it's so hard to forget about him, ESPECIALLY when you guys are both in the same business, you always here his name, a beat to his song, something to bring back the memories.

End of Flashback

I got up out of bed and walked into the bathroom to do my daily routine. I decided on a summer dress and put my hair to the side:

I grabbed the keys to my white ferrari enzo, my phone and left to go start my day at the studio.

Chris POV

I just got to the studio, Drake called me down to sing on his new single, I dont see why he needed me though, the nigga sang and rapped. But who am I to complain? Im getting that paper so I'll chill and sing the little chorus.

"So the song is about an old time lover of mine and how the fame separated us" he said writing something down. I nodded my head and he played the beat for me, shit was dope. I t wasnt too fast but it wasnt too slow. It had that Kayne "Slow Jamz" vibe to it and I was feeling it. I tapped my foot as I thought about the lyrics for the chorus. I got up to go get a notepad when I saw her walk past looking beautiful as ever.

"Yo, Imma be right back" I said to him walking out the door not even waiting for his answer. She was about to go into a room before I called out to her

"Diamond!"

She turned around gave me a little smile. I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug just taking in her scent. It was going to take alot to gain her trust and I wasnt going to give up.

"What your bighead doing here?" I asked playing with the chain that hung around her neck. I brought my eyes down to her chest and the low cut dress that she was wearing. It made her breasts look perfect

"Helloooo" she said snapping me from my thouhts.

"Oh.. my bad" I laughed taking my eyes from her chest. "I said I was going to fuck around in the studio, make some beats". I shook my head.

"So when you gonna make me a beat?" She smiled at me before answering

"When you pay me nigga, this aint a free for all" she said putting her hand on her hip. I smiled at her causing her to blush a little, right when I was about to lean in to kiss her this nigga had to interrupt.

"Yo Chris... oh. my bad" he said laughing. I turned around to see what he wanted and he look like he'd seen a ghost.

I looked back at Diamond and she had the same expression on her face too. What the fuck I thought.

"D-Diamond?" he asked tilting his head to the side. Diamond quickly ran into a room and slammed the door.

Drake POV

I ran after her and burst into the room to find her standing there looking like she's seen a ghost.

"Diamond..." I said stepping towards her. So many thoughts were running through my mind right now and I didnt even know what to say first.

She just looked at my with hurt and disgust taking over her eyes, I guess I deserved that.

"Diamond ... talk to me" I said walking up to her but she quickly went around me and I grabbed her wrist.

"Get the fuck off me Aubrey!" she yelled causing me to flinch a little. She never called me by my first name. I kept a hold of her wrist while she squirmed to break free.

"Please... talk to me" I said looking into her eyes trying to read her.

She broke away from my grip and stared at me with hate in her eyes "Talk to you? Are you fucking serious? There's nothing to talk about! I fucking hate you!"

I sighed "Okay I deserve that, but you dont know how truly sorry I am" I said pleading to her.

Diamond POV

I laughed darkly in his face after he said that.

"You should be sorry! You had me looking like a fucking idiot while you was out here in Hollywood becoming Mr. big shot. what happened to I'll send for you?!" I yelled mocking his voice.

He sighed again and that pissed me off "Stop fucking sighing, I should be the one sighing" I shook my head at him.

He was about to say something before I beat him to it "Do you know the pain I went through? Waiting for your call day after day after fucking day?! I texted you, I called only to find out that you changed your number. And who had to tell me? YOUR FUCKING MOTHER!" He tried to step forward to me but I lifted my hand, I was on a roll and he was not going to interrupt me.

"I guess the jokes on me huh? Just answer this one question for me. Did you even love me? I mean ever? Or was I just there to support you until you became Drizzy fucking Drake"

"You know I loved, scrath that. You know I love you Diamond. Yeah what I did was foul as fuck. I made the fame get to me and I'm sorry, you dont know how badly I wanted to pick up the phone and just call you and hear your voice an-"

"So why didnt you?"

"I.. I couldnt".

I shook my head at him "You know what. I dont even know why I'm even in here arguing with you, you mean shit to me and I dont give a fuck anymore. I used to, but I realized that just how you didnt give a fuck about me... I dont give a fuck about you" I walked to the door opening it,

"Diamond" was the last thing I heard him say before closing the door behind me.

It felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I smiled... relieved. I found Chris sitting in one of the hallway chairs. I smiled at how cute he was making a face at the phone. He looked up and walked over to me, "You okay? I mean you dont have to talk about it if you dont want to"

I smiled, that's all i felt like doing now. Smiling.

"Yeah, and it's fine. It's not important.... um do you want to go get something to eat?" I asked rubing his stomach. He laughed and took my hand in his.

"Oh shit, hollup" he said dropping my hand and running over to Drake who was now coming out of the room.

Chris said something to him and he nodded his head looking over to me. I rolled my eyes and busied myself with my phone.

"Okay leggo" Chris said taking my hand in his. It felt secure there and caring. I looked back at Drake and saw him staring at me with a hurtful expression on his face, I guess Karma really is a bitch.

I turned my face back around and looked up at Chris who was smiling a little

"fuck yo crayola yellow ass cheesing about" I asked still looking at him. He looked down and me and kissed my nose

"Nothing" he said with the same smile on his face, I pinched his arm and ran out the studio with him chasing me.

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