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Chapter fifty five: Big sister

Evan was getting me the help I needed with therapy and his own sessions we had together which involved talking, food and most of the time passionately making love. He was my anchor and being with him felt like it was enough for me. My mind was becoming clearer as the days went by and my belly was growing in size, I was now twelve weeks along.

Today we were going for the twelve week check up where we would see the baby on the screen and as you could imagine Evan was so excited he could burst; he didn't get to experience any of this with Ember.

The receptionist called my name and we held hands tenderly towards the ultrasound room, my mind was racing as fear once again took over me in a heavy, dark cloud. Evan could sense this as his hands squeezed mine tightly.

"So we are estimating twelve weeks pregnant are we?" The sonographer stated with a light smile. I responded with a smile in return and a delicate look upwards to Evan who was nibbling down on his lower lip.

"Yes.. twelve weeks" I said as I laid down on the bed, lifted up my top and lowered my jeans. "What number baby is this?"

A lump formed in my throat as I remembered my angel baby but I brushed past the emotional response and replied to her sweetly. "Number three, I had a miscarriage before this"

The lady looked at me sombrely "I am very sorry for your loss Maeve. Let's see how this baby is growing shall we?"

I returned my hand to Evan's outstretched one and took in a few heavy breaths. "Okay this may feel tender at first as I'll need to press down quite harshly and the jelly will feel cold"

"That's fine" I reassured "I got through it once" I laughed dryly which made her giggle back.

Mine and Evan's eyes were glued to the screen as the Doppler moved across my belly, so far I couldn't see a baby and this terrified me. My eyes brewing with tears "Is everything okay?"

The lady looked at me briefly and returned her attention to the screen "I'm just trying to find little one"

The minutes passed thickly as my heart hampered against my chest, Evan also was beginning to worry as sweat cascaded down his forehead. She then turned the screen away from us and bit down on her lip.

"I'm just going to grab a doctor" she said with a nervous expression that made me instantly clasp my face with my hands. This couldn't be happening again, please.

Evan stroked my hair and kissed my cheek "try not to think the worst. Stay positive"

I shook my head "t-they wouldn't need a doctor if it was fine Evan" I sobbed into my hands despairingly, the world was shattering around me again.

In came the doctor who smiled at both of us "ahh good evening to you both. Let's find your baby" he instructed as he sat down in replacement of the sonographer.

Again the Doppler was placed on my belly and more harshly this time as he moved it across. Within a few seconds he raised his eyebrows with a smile pulling at the corners of his lips. "Why look at what we have here. You're having twins"

Gasping I turned to Evan who was smiling the widest I had ever seen, his eyes were watering and it finally felt like we could breath again. "T-twins?" I mumbled to myself in surprise.

"Yes the reason why Lisa couldn't find your babies is because of the positioning of your womb. She is still in training and we apologise for any upset this has caused for you"

The lady now we knew as Lisa gave me some tissues which I happily took and dabbed my eyes "I'm ever so sorry-

I shook my head to stop her "it's honestly fine"

Turning the screen back towards us we saw our two babies, they were fraternal twins and were bouncing away on the screen. I was happy they weren't in the same sac otherwise they would be kicking one another silly.

"They are very healthy. Congratulations to both of you" the doctor beamed as he played their heartbeats to us. The sound was music to my ears and Evan at this point was a sobbing mess, his eyes were glassy and fixated on our babies which melted my heart. He was an impeccable father to Ember so I could only imagine he would be the best father to these two as-well.

Evan kissed me all over my cheeks which made me giggle "I didn't think I could love you more than what I did but right now I am so incredibly happy and in love with you" Evan stated with a gulping of heavy saliva.

I looked upon his appreciatively "I love you more than you could even believe you soppy idiot"

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Ember rushed over to us as the babysitter left "hey my sweet girl!" I chirped with my arms wide. I picked her up and swung her about.

"Mommy I missed you and daddy so much. What did you do today?" She asked with a tilted head.

Smiling towards her me and Evan sat her down "so.. how would you feel about a baby brother or sister?" Evan asked her in which Ember grinned with her eyes widening in shock.

"Are you.. having a baby?" She asked perplexed.

Evan squeezed her cheeks "we are having.. two babies!"

Ember began to jump up and down chaotically  with her hair hitting us in the face. "I'm so happy!" She exclaimed which made the day even better, knowing Ember wanted to be a sister just completed it for me.

"We have a photo. Did you want to see?" I asked as I kissed her forehead.

She nodded and sat on Evan's lap, his arms laid around her belly whilst he rested his chin on her shoulder. Gingerly I grabbed the scan photos and put them in-front of her with tears cascading down my cheeks.

"Here is your brothers, sisters or brother and sister" I giggled as I pointed towards the two babies. Ember began to sob into her hands which made Evan hold her closer "you don't need to cry sweetheart"

I tilted her chin "what's wrong?"

Ember shook her head as I wiped her cheeks "I have a family mommy"